Syn's Deep in My Blood - Comments, page 3

I'm not leaving ur side, le :) U should know that by now ;)
And that's what I meant... this is part of us, part of u, part of me...
Its how it all began...
This writing world is part of all of us, with or without Avenged in it ! I totally agree with you!

Its a way to express ourselves and even to deal with certain things... Its part of us!

Cant believe two years its already.. really i mean it... this story was so much part of my life, always checking for updates and new chapters, live reviews even when they were less in the end, damn the time difference :P

I'm glad u published it le :) Its an amazing story even though the ending up to now is pretty sad, not all story get an happy end, huh?
Maybe u will turn the epilogue into some happy endings? Little hope is still left :P

Like I said I was honored to be part of ur story and u considering to put me in...
Its hard to let go, but it doesnt mean the writing must end... new motivation, new feelings and new ideas will surface and u will grab them...

And WE will grab them, if u want :)
I'm sorry, I told u... didnt want u to make u think this is a small thing..
I was always there, will be by ur side... I know how much this means to u, to us and I always encouraged, always stayed and I mean it ! <3

Not leaving!

Waiting anxiously for the Epilogue and the surprises up ur sleeves :P

@DaphneG
WOOOWW Daphneee!! I really reaaally dont have words to say! hahaha

You have no idea how your comment made my heart do. It was like it was popping out of me at any moment hahaha
Im glad to know more about you. That you are a Gates fan/sucker just like me hahahaha And that you write here too!! Gonna check it out ;)

This was supposed to be a Emily/Brian love story, but it turns out Jimmy got so much under my skin that... u see how Emily was with him till the end, never surrending to the love of her life. i'm very surprised how this turned out really hahaha u can only see the result once its all said and done in the end, and now I see hahaha. And damn, I soo sooo hated to have to break Bri's heart too many times in the process. But thats how life is sometimes, right??
But I hope I was able to show how they really belonged together in spite of everything that made them stay apart. And how JImmy was so close of finding his happiness but ended up not waiting long enough to find his answers =/

And when u said this could be a book and it would be a favorite just... just melted my heart. Hahaha never thought I would hear that and I feel sooo so flattered that you said that and really spent your time reading this even if it was too damn long <3 (and the picture, yeah, i have that for a while now and always remembered me of Emily and Jimmy so... I thought it fit here =p)

But hey the epilogue can still surprise uuu I hooope!!! Maybe there's still hope to fix our dear Brian's heart ;)
Im planning to finish a story I started for one of my friends here next year. It's Matt centered, maybe you could give it a try if you are interested ;) It's called A Scent From Heaven.

To wrap it up... Thank you thank you thank you sooo so much for being here hahaha You truly have a place in my heart! <3

@MeRi
yeaah mei... those two years ended... woow and it was thanks to u and Rye this came out and thanks to you and Kim this continued and was finally able to come to and end. I couldn't be more thankful for all of you who stick here till now.

And I get what u mean about our writing being so important for us. It's like... it's what bond us all together in the first place. It wasn't even just Avenged music. It was our way of expressing our love for them and our hearts and talent for the world that brought us together. That's why it means a lot to me this writing world. It helped us transform this fictional thing into reality and I just can't get tired of saying that over and over again haha.

And about the end. Sorry about that... I made you and kim and all the characters suffer. But good things came out of it. Jimmy left a part of him to the world, something he didn't have the chance to do in real life (not the we know of at least hahaha). Left a part of his heart on your heart especially and everyone else's. It's always difficult to overcome something like this but... there's still the epilogue to show you how it really turn out. Dont lose hope hahaha

And... well... I still have a few surprises about this story. But not saying a word about it xD hahaha

I really hope you do know now how much this means to me. Its not a small thing or 'just a story' or just a fictional world. Thats why I got very made about that thing. And I'm sorry, I cant help it...

Anyway, thank you so much for never missing a chapter here, and never leaving me, even when many others left <3
Love you and see you on january =p

It was beautiful. Before I write anything about this chapter, I wanna say something else. You know, before becoming a member on this site I used to read stories only. I couldn't post my own work or even comment on any story. I used to open this site everyday and read the updated stories only. I saw this story a lot of times, and once I even clicked it to read.

First, when I saw the number of chapters you have I was like 'Okay, I'll read it in my leisure time.' But that time didn't come until this July. When I started reading, I was thinking 'Why the hell are the chapters so damn long?' But today I'll say that, thank you for making the chapters so long and beautiful.

So, back to the flashback I'm having at this moment while writing this comment. Ever since I became an A7X fan, I had special feelings for Brian because of two reasons: One, he is soooo damn good with his guitar . And two, our birthdays are on the same day, 7 July (unfortunately not the same year). So whenever I read a new story, first thing that comes to my mind is, 'Is this a Brian story?' In the beginning, I thought that it's a Brian story, but gradually I saw Jimmy's parts too.

Now about the chapter.
First, Jimmy left them. And then Emily. I think she did the right thing. It would have been difficult for her to live with Brian with Jimmy's memories. But what about my Brian? He was so shattered when he realized Emily left.

I feel so bad for Mei. She shut off herself from everybody. The pain must be a lot, really a lot. She loved Jimmy, everybody did. But her love was different, right? She couldn't even tell him about her feelings.

Kim is also not sure about her and Matt. Man, I feel really bad for her too:(

And then comes the baby:)
I wish Jimmy knew about Emily's pregnancy. He would have changed, I'm sure. And I'm so happy that it's Jimmy's baby. At least Emily will have something that will remind her about Jimmy. As for Brian, he's deep in her blood, right??

And then the picture. That reminds me soooooo much about Jimmy and Emily. It's really beautiful! Sometimes I think, what would have happened if this story was actually published as a book? It would definitely be my favorite, for sure:)

Absolutely loved being on this journey, loved reading each and every chapter of this story. I'll definitely miss reading this:)
Thanks a lot for writing this story. And I hope you'll continue writing here, right? Maybe not a masterpiece like this, but please do write stories over here. I really love your writings:)

Can't wait for the epilogue!

Oh my...
Wow, that chapter... I mean... Damn..
I kinda guessed one twist with Em would take some drastically manners. something about her leaving was hanging in the air...

How u described the anguish feeling the sadness guilt and helplessness from everyone was on perfect and really brought tears to my eyes.

And then the twist I didn't see coming with Em.being pregnant... Oh shit, I'm kinda angry with her not telling but on the same time understanding, she wanted thst Jimmy made the right decision for himself not for someone else... But maybe at this point he would have needed another push... But I do.understand and now Em feeling like she needs to go.away. Everything reminding her of the love she lost and the guilt she feels...when she still.leaves so much behind... Friends, family and the love of her life...

I still hope for Brian to get a hint and going after her, they need each other and a happy ending!

I can't believe two years of writing are over, me waiting patiently for an update, okay fine or not so patiently bugging u about it... But only because I love ur writing and u ideas, twists and writing in.general means so much to me.

I still remember u writing this silently until we could convince u of ur writing gift and finally post it for everyone to.enjoy and love.

This story comes from the heart. We can read it and feel.it with each chapter. I can't wait for ur lose ends to be tied and still hope u will continue.give us something to.read...

Great job, le <3
Its hard to let go, right? This has been a part of you for two years, and it never is easy to let go, but I can assure u, u made this a perfect ride for everyone on it!
I really loved it and u putting us in there was an amazing adventure as well, even though not everything went how we hoped... I know the deeper meaning in it :) Thank you!!!!

@MeRi
@DaphneG
@Kimmie
Woww!! Your coments keep getting better and better, I really really loved those!!! I dont even want to end this story now hahahah i will definitely miss this here ;'(

thank you so much for staying with me here <3

Yes, I’m aware that my comment was overdue, but I needed some time to process this.

Time to get over the fact that you really killed Jimmy (yes, I know the intentions, and I know you wrote beautifully, but as Mei already said… I don’t have to like the content)

Time to come clean with myself that I totally got why Emily was kicked out, but feeling so sorry for her, knowing she would need this to close things off, as far as that would be even possible. She was so out of it, and can you blame her? I understand she takes the blame, even though it was really Jimmy’s own doing. They were toxic for each other, but what can you do when love is… at least partially… blind.

Time to realize Mei really must be devasted, I can’t even imagine what you are going to do to make her feel better, because she has to right?

Time to not feel like a bitch because now Kim is with Mei… Val has her hands all over Matt again… Didn’t she get the memo? Matt didn’t talk to her probably, but hey, where does that put Kim?

And then most of all… time to be sad over the fact that Emily did fall of the wagon, goddamnit. I was so scared for that. So so sad for her using again, but so so mad she took Brian with her… Damn, damn, damn, pleaseeee let this be a onetime thing, I don’t think I can’t stand anything else :(



Ley, you are wrapping this up amazingly and I can’t even imagine you having this all in your head for all this time. You are such a great writer, I can’t even… As much as it hurts to see this story is going, I need to know how this will continue… Please don’t let us wait to long?

<3

He really left.....
I don't know what to write. I'm happy that Brian's there to hold Emily. But a piece of her died...with Jimmy.
And now Mei seems devastated.

I know the comment is too small, but I really don't have words to say....

Oh hell!!
I just wrote a whole fucking comment.. and its all gone, even though I tried to copy it before… FUCK!

Let me try and get it back on track, but I don’t think its gonna be as good as the last one..

Starting off with your reply comment!
I’m honored indeed you giving ur story Mei this important role! And I know what u were doing with all of this, don’t get me wrong…
Doesn’t change I wished it to end differently… that it would have been handled differently by the help of friends and love… but I do get the meaning ;)
And you know I’m always there for you, with and without ur inner Jimmy <3

So and to the chapter…
I mean this written wise, was one of the damn best chapters that I have read from you, I think!
From title to the song selection, from beginning to end… perfection!
Even if the words that described the scenes were perfect, I didn’t like all that was described in it…

I mean.. the beginning I totally got that, all the emotions, everyone thinking its their fault, is it not always like this kind of… what if.. what did I miss, what could I have done…
I think it is.. at least with me…

I do understand both sides, Jimmy’s family and friends, blaming Emily, because, they see her as the greater evil… she was the one it started with going downhill in their eyes…and can you blame them?
They only see their dead son/friend/family member, when it was way too soon for him to go!
And they knew that she broke his heart… in some of the worst ways possible.
So they only see it like that and that wont change, especially not so freshly after he died.

And then Emily, she wants her goodbye, needs her goodbye… needs to see him a final time, tell him whats on her mind… giving back what belongs to him… but she cant, which is breaking her apart.
I do understand that, she loved him and needs to close the chapter as good as the can, even though for her that chapter, will never be really done…

And then the part that threw me off the most… Em getting high again… she just lost Jimmy, she was clean, sure this was throwing her off and breaking her partly, but then doing the exact same thing she had sworn off to… ah man…
And even worse… pulling Brian in it as well.. didn’t happen enough, even though they just said one time and just to be close to Jimmy and then forget about him…
I don’t know what to think… I didn’t at all like the direction that was going!

And I also don’t know what to think of them being together right after what happened, I mean we all know they belong together, and they should be together, but like that, right after… It feels weird… and it feels wrong, even though we know its right… and then being drugged, not right at all…
Or is it because they didn't know if they really could be together like this, after what happened if they wouldn't be high?!
How will they manage without him... the guilt still being present, even more that Jimmy is gone now?!
Makes sense? Yes? No?

I cant believe this story is really ending shortly… you are wrapping this up!
Damn… its part of us, cant believe u really end it and it will be gone… u know u need to think of something pretty quick to write… because I need ur writing here, Le !
Another great chapter, dear!

Loved and hated it probably at the same time! Hahaha… happened a few times lately, but u knew that, didn’t you?!

<3

@Kimmie
hahaha cmon I'm not that bad to put Emily and brian together again under those circumstances =p
how can you think that?? xD
And this question They are meant together, but how will that be now Jimmy is gone?
I love that you made it!! Cause the answer for that will set the tone for the end obviously ;)
Can they really be together after this??

Ohhh and the best part of your comment is that you finally stepped up for Emily =p hahaha
Can't say what will happen next but... I'm glad you went there with your thinking.

About mei... yeah you went right on the spot. How will she feel now? =/
She's strong but... this would definitely tear even the strongest person apart at the seams. And Matt huh?? Look at your responsibility now, young lady! =p Gotta hold those two on your shoulders, but it's good that you have two to nest them both ;)

About the happy thing... hahaha we talked about this already. It's our secret, remember? =p
shhhh =p

thank you so much for reading <3

@DaphneG
yeeey I'm so glad to hear you listen to the song!! Thank you so much for taking this time. It was very important for the impact of the scene that the song was there during it, because of the noises.
Well...yeah, I did it and I'm so sorry for it. I had to kill him to set myself free. Jimmy's a part of me, the worst part I think, the obsessive and self destructive person I sometimes am, and I had to kill him for the other parts of me to live again (emily, brian), even if there's a lot of pain involved in the process. Pain means growth. That's the next step for the rest of the still alive characters =p

thank you so much for reading and im sorry again.
<3

@MeRi
Oh meei... I'm so sorry for this. Remember I told you I was gonna break your heart, way back ago, I guess in the beginning of this year. I still remember that day like it was yesterday haha and that was what I was talking about. I always imagined you finding him and trying to save him. And the meaning behind all of this is that I would trust you to always be there for me, or even to save my life, and you would never give up on me. Cause, you know... Jimmy is just another part of me ;)
Thank you for always trying with me, you never let me down. And you would never let Jimmy down here. But he couldn't wait a little more, could he? It's not your fault, it's not his fault, it's... fate's fault and with that one we can't mess with...
What I will do with the 'Jimmy' inside of me? Well, right now he's very quiet and hidden, almost not even making himself show and you damn know that the reason lies on December 21th =p

I'm very sorry if I made you feel bad about this but... I really want you to see for that side and not for the real meaning. Hope you understood that ;)

thanks for reading and for still being here after all this time. Without you I would never go so far with this <3
Now 2 or 3 chaps to go =p
(and well... I might still surprise you with a few things =p)

Holy Fuck, I was so scared of it, but I really really really hoped you wouldn’t go there… But you did :( Oh man, how can I say something meaningful about this? It sucks, badly… no beautiful words for that…

But there is one bright point… You could have made it worse by putting Brian and Emily in a compromising situation, missing THE CALL, but you didn’t do that… so thank you for that :P Emily and Brian finally had a normal conversation again, he left Michelle (not so nice, but hey, didn’t expect anything less of you :P) and they had this moment… This comfortable nothing between them… They are meant together, but how will that be now Jimmy is gone?

They will probably feel guilty as hell and the worst thing… I’m scared for Emily. I’m scared she will fall of the sober wagon. Needing her drugs again… and that would be so so bad… Please… let Brian be enough for her. I never had much with Emily, but I don’t want this for her. I don’t want her to fall off because of this…

To close this off… Poor Mei… Poor, Poor Mei… How the hell is she going to get over this? Knowing she hesitated to go over there, knowing if she might have been a little early he would still be alive, knowing that she might have been able to save him… So so sad.

I hate this chapter for being this good, and I know you needed this, but I just wish you didn’t. Ley… please close this masterpiece on a happy note? Please?

<3 it!

@Leyla.lp
Wow, I heard the song. And I could relate it with Jimmy's situation here. It's so similar....it's catchy and I could picture the whole chapter through this song. Loved it:)
Btw, update soon;)

@MeRi
@DaphneG
Please tell me you heard the song!! Or I wont consider any of your opinions =p hahaha
Sorry for breaking your hearts, broke mine too ;'(

Noooooo...pleeaasseeee don't let it happen! Please!!
That date really scared me a lot. Please, Jimmy can't leave like that. Just....please:(

Okay, I'll calm down a bit. I believe that Jimmy will stay back(please!). And everything will be okay. Right?
RIGHT??!

Ohhhhhh noooo....

I dont even know what to say... It's what we all had the most fear of...knowing the date and knowing JImmy's condition...and now... you let it happen... :'(

I cant say what I expected, because what I expected and hoped for are totally different things and opinions!

Besides the obvious it was an amazing written chapter, of course! Like always! <3

But now I'm gonna let this comment rest for a minute or more of much deserved silence and peace...

@Kimmie
that genius comment... i dont even have words for it... hahahah
matt and kim chronicles will have a short pause for now... because... you know whyy!! hahaha xD
<3 <3

@MeRi
oh man..... go ahead and read it...and tell if it was what you expected...

U know I can't always reply to.everything that happened or my comments get longer than ur chapters!
But again my dear, happy story anniversary!
So proud rye and I could in the end convince u to Post and continue on this story, because we and many others Would have missed out on this masterpiece!

But indeed I noticed how important mei's role is! And the tattoo gone could mean something very important or be something to take us to safety...

Like I said I have a further idea how this could play out but im pretty certain u will surprise me and shock me... Hopefully not with the worst case cause that certain date is somet bad sign right there... But Maybe in fictional world it will all turn around?!

U know I can't wait for more and for what Jimmy and mei will do the rest of the night... Hopefully ;)

@DaphneG
hahahaha yeaaaah u can believe it. I started this on December 2013 but only posted here on April 2014 kinda. its a long ass time but its worth. Its the only long story I ever was able to finish in my life so... Im very proud of my one and only masterpiece hahaha the chance of doing it again is...very low hahaha
Oh, about the dream, let me enlighten you. He dreamed about Mei a few chapters ago and now he dreamed again abouut her. She's the brunette with an accent, Emily is the read head that made him crazy ;) hahaha

Thank you so much for seeing Emily as a real person here. She's really real for me, inside of me, sometimes she's who I wanted to be, sometimes she's who I am, but she's definitely part of me now, for good and I appreciate your kind words about her. She's human, she hasflaws, she made mistakes. shes just like the rest of us, im glad u considered that ;)
And yeah, she's definitely suffering now. And she has things to tell Jimmy, but she didn't... lets see how it goes next

Thank you so much for your words and for reading <3