Syn's Deep in My Blood - Comments, page 4

@MeRi
hmmm a lot of questions for next chap huh?? hahaha u need to wait for next chapter but I can tell u...if u think you will be there, stick to your opinion hahaha ;)
and yeah, I always have the whole story plot planned before beginning for real, or I won't get to finish it. Its a safety measure =p hahaha

By the way.. u noticed how important you are right now right?? You can change things in the story. The dream was supposed to give you hints about that... did you catch them?? Let me know =p

thanks for reading and for the nice words mei <3

Oh jeez! Two years! That is amazing you know? But man…. It seems like a complete life ago, right? :-)
I remember starting to read this one. I was reading every fucking story on this site and came across this one. You know I first cursed the length of the chapters? I wanted to read, read, read and those long chapters were taking me too long! ;-) But I completely changed my opinion about that… I LOVE the long chapters and I need more of them… Right now! :p ;-)

Good, now we got that out of the way… back to the chapter…

Jimmy saw Mei again in his dream! Everything in this chapter made my heart clench of fear for Jimmy, fear of his life, but that dream…. I know what the tattoo on her back means… I know that if she doesn’t have one… certain things might not happen….But then again… Maybe it’s just Jimmy’s brain adjusting the picture now he knows she doesn’t have a tattoo… Man… I like my first theory so much better!
Please please Jimmy… believe your own dream… you are ready to move on, she is your second chance… You drowning yourself in drugs isn’t helping thought :(

Mei! Time for you to show up… he needs you!

It is time for the women to get up in this story. What Mei needs to do is clear for all of us, right? Well, Jess made a pretty good contribution too and I hope Jimmy will still be able to help her, to assist her with the tattoo. Advise her, be her friend, be open for what Jess has to offer him.. Please give him that chance. Jess and Zack are too cute together, by the way! :D

And then that other woman… Emily… That conversation was everything. It was hard… I think for both of them, but they need to move on. I think they need to move on to heal. We will be so far off again if also Emily will fall of the sober wagon :(

But that end… oh god that end… oh that end… How can you forget Jimmy? Please don’t let him OD, please don’t… That fucking date!

Better hand me another chapter soon… And you know I won’t accept you leaving the Matt and Kim chronicles out this time :P

<3

Hey, an update:)
Wow, you started this story two years ago?! That's a loooonnnnggg time! And you planned this chapter in the beginning of the story, that's really great. I really appreciate that you came so far with this story. And again, two years??!! Oh god....unbelievable:)
As usual, loved reading this chapter as well. The dream that Jimmy saw, I'm a little confused who the person is. Is it Emily? Or is it Mei?
I just hope Jimmy goes to the airport next morning. He needs to get clean and start everything from the beginning. And he should see that all his friends are supporting him so much.
It's almost easy, Jimmy. Best of luck!!

Emily...now she got disappointed to see Jimmy like that, didn't she?? I actually feel that Emily is a real person, and the amount of pain she's enduring is just too much I think. I'm soooooo proud of her:)

OHHH YEAY!
A surprise update!
At least for meeee! Love it to wake up to a chapter, but u know that already, right?!

Sooooo I dont even have to mention how perfectly fitting the song is?!
Because u always fit that in to its best! So dont even ask about it :P
Hahaha!

And I am still amazed, how u write parts for chapters years ago.. and now can fit them in so good... I mean... my stories kinda get out of hand, I could never write at the start a chapter from the end, no knowing if it would really fit in there... :D
So damn... I'm impressed u holding on to everything and making it soooo good fitting!

And now to the real part of the chapter... I mean... wow... Jess and Zack, they are soooo cute together, and I understand her wanting to do something, and maybe it could really help both Jimmy and Jess if they talk together... maybe it would be a good way...
But yeah.. Jimmy is not reachable for them at the moment!
And Jess should trust Zack with all her feelings and make the move, if she really wants it, he just wants to support her.. sooo freaking cute, those two!!

And Em, well it was about damn time that Jimmy told Emily whats going on! And it was good, even though he must have shocked Em with his open words, it was the good thing! The right thing to finally try to find the closure to all of it !

But what I didnt like :P Was that Mei didnt show up... Or did she show up but didnt find Jimmy, yet?!
Because knowing Mei :P She would probably been there on time even before the party starts, because if she says she comes, she will be there, even before everything starts :'D

But well probably not fitting to the storyline.. still wished she would have made it...
Or that she will at least still show up...
Damn Jimmy needs her!
Come on, Leyla! Put her in there, let her be there.. help him, show up!!

Jimmy's dreams... ah man.. him talking to himself... its always sooo fucking good! His innter turmoil described perfectly!!

Loved the chapter! <3
Now hurry up for the next one!! Cant wait to see how this goes on!!!
Dont let us wait too long! :)

@Kimmie
@MeRi
@DaphneG

Thank you girls for your comments!! Almost no time to answer now with work and travel stuff so at least I promise I'll have an update soon ;)
4 or 5 more chapters and we're done here so... hang ooon!! =p

thanks for sticking here <3

Updateeeee??!!
Pretty please!

I kinda get Jimmy's point. He wants to be alone, so the others should let him be alone. But Jimmy should not do something wrong or stupid.

I guess he's right; he's starting to lose all his friends and relationships. And now he even screamed at Matt, which was a little unexpected for me.

Man, the last part was sooooo sweeeeet!
Jimmy and Mei....the kiss...it's so damn cute!! No Jimmy, you didn't screw up anything:)

Ahhh Kimmie... I really dont like you stealing my first comment place :P

But

I am ill and a little slow, so sue me :P

Le, after seeing u updated when I got up it made me immdiately feel a little better :)
Ahhh and it started like i thought it would, Emily didnt really want to leave, but knowing its the best way for now.. and I do agree with her, like I said in some of the last comments already!

Jimmy does need help but Em and Brian are the wrong people to help her. He needs distance from them, since he just realized what it really does to him!

And stubborn Jimmy! Wants to live his life how he wants it, but doesnt realize just how bad it actually is for him... he just sees his fun and drowning out his sorrow... not realizing how the drugs will make him fade away...

So Brian stayed... and the others came to help, but of course Jimmy felt cornered by all the people and by all the voices around him, by all the people wanting only his best, but he cant see that now!

And so they just pushed him away at least in his thoughts... and that made JImmy push them away in return, even though he doesnt want to, he knows he needs his friends, but its too much for him right now...

And now coming to the moooost important part :D
Jimmy meeting Mei... awwnn my heart swells ;)
That part was so cute... and I totally loved that Jimmy thought she was the only one he wanted to see... and her not judging him.. just listening.. and had to read the part again.. and maybe a few more times ;)
That unexpected kiss... ahhh... sooo good.. but way too short.. and him pulling away and making it a little awkward.. but still wanting her on the party... Pleasseee let her go, I need to know what more will happen between them... !!

What party will this party be like?! Who did he invite? And will the others show up to? And I know Mei wont be able to stay away, not after the kiss and how he asked her to be there... there is a connection, they both cant denyyyyy!!

Come on, jimmy!! Give it a chance! Go after her and make her come... to the party... god what u guys are thinking again :P Hahahaha :D

Okay... so when do we get the next chapter? Tomorrow, I'm still pretty ill and could use another chapter to get better, u know!?

Loved it, Le! <3
Damn sooooo good! Cant wait for moooorrreeee!! <3

Don't think I'm going to make a habit out of this, but I was awake very early and I want to push you to get your ass back to writing the next chapter again :P (yes, yes, I know, you just published this one, yada yada and yes yes, I know, you didn't even get a comment yet, but I'm working on that one as you can see... soooo :P)

Let’s go back to the current chapter.

Okay Emily, I get it, he needs you to leave, I might even agree with you for a bit, but how could you even let go… I don’t know… I still have this nagging feeling in the pit of my stomach, I can’t help it, I’m so scared of what might happen to Jimmy.

Emily left, Brian is in front of his house, but isn’t really there. What was he thinking that he could keep an eye on Jimmy by just standing in front of his house, that guy isn’t stupid! There was only one reason you were there… and that is the woman that just left. Goddamnit, you two are never going to learn, are you? And yes, I don’t need any pointing out that there is not really anything happing between them, something physical…. But oh my god, there is enough going on in their heads, even if it’s not consciously maybe… damn…

Jimmy isn’t listening to the others… Matt is there, but even the strong leader can’t get through to him…. (just like I expected… remember one of my earlier comments?)

Butttttt there were 2 things that brought some hope inside of me…

Susan…. Somehow he was kinda listening to her, she had a voice like that… There is this small small hope inside of me that she will get through to him somehow.

And then! MEI! FINALLY!

Yes! Jimmy! She is exactly what you need! Definitely!
Mei can be his friend… or well… seeing he felt the urge to kiss her in such a dark time should say something too. He likes her, maybe he will find a healthier friend/more than friend in Mei. Please let Mei break through to him.
That party of his can only go wrong and I think Mei knows… But… I guess she will go anyway.. for Jimmy… She has to.

Jimmy, Jimmy, pleaseeeee follow that feeling right when you touched her lips. That feeling, grab that one, that is the one you need… And I hope you realize, you hurt Mei there, that was uncalled for, even if she said it was okay!

First comment… how cool is that? :P

<3

@DaphneG
yeah you might think she gave up for no reasons, but her POV next will show you her thoughts about those moments. She understands a lot now ;)

But Jimmy...yeah... he doesn't seem to manage to get out of the hole he made for himself. He doesn't wanna quit. Will he understand whats best for him someday? =/

Stay tuned! Next chap will have a little twist ;)
thank uu for reading <3

@MeRi
hahaha you ask a lot of questiooonss missy even when you don't have a laptop keyboard close to you! hahahaha

I was hoping you could've got my cue about Mei in this chap =p
Beelieve when I say you'll show up when you're needed hahaha Kim just told her about Jim's situation. Let's see what use she'll make of that info =p

I just hope I can answer all your questions next chap ;)
Emily's pov will clean your thoughts a bit.

Im glad u liked this <3
thank uu!!

@Kimmie
woooooow wowowowwow hahahahahah im jumping around the house right now hahaha
I didnt hear a single thing from you today and I thought man, I didn't really get through to her with my little phone scene with Matt... but turns out she's heeeeree earlier!! hahahah I love to see hell freezing! I'll be in a freezing place in December so... I'm ready for it! ;) haha

you capture the essence of this chapter! Jimmy's changing inside and noticing that mess' faith is all in his hands, cause Emily would never leave his side if he didn't make her. But unfortunately he did that for the wrong reasons...
And well, yeah she left his house. But her POV will explain some of her thinking on next chap, you'll get what she meant with I'm not giving up and why she left ;)

Ooohh and... I see you keep calling Mei and mei but... did you notice MY cue there??? hahahaha Why do you think I ended up the scene with you calling Mei and telling about Jim? =p
Things will have a little change in next chap. I promise =p

And yeah, gonna try to write more quickly now. This was a veeeery heavy chapter for me, even more than when Emily went through her withdraw process. I couldn't even sleep after I went to bed 5 am after posting. I had my heart racing for no reason and only got to sleep at 8 am =/ Its just stupid but it feels real to me hahahah

Thank you so much for being heeeeere <3
Love yooou tooo!!

Ha! Are you surprised? You are surprised huh? A comment on the day that you published? Call the paper, hell just froze over :D

Damn, this chapter was so… Can I say intense again? Ah well… yes, Intense, because it was intense! There is no other way to put it really!

Jimmy… man.. the way you let us look inside his head. Everything that about him is so sad, so self-destructing. He lost all faith in humanity and that is just…
The double thoughts in his head, at first going through all of it, just because of Emily, wanting to do it for her… The pain he was in, the thoughts in his head, the cravings and all because of the love for a woman that was never completely his… and him even knowing that…

And exactly that… biting him in the ass at the moment the Jim leaf is flipping over….

The way he knew just how to push her buttons… the way he didn’t only know it… the way he really pushed her buttons. Exactly how to push her away. And yes… she left. She said she wasn’t giving up on him… but did she not just do exactly that by leaving?

Man… man.. man…. I’m just praying she won’t run right in to Brian’s arms, that is all kinds of wrong.

Oh, am I the only one that sees trouble ahead? The guys planning on taking Jimmy away? Without telling Emily? Holy fuck, that is asking for all kinds of problems!

Can I say it once again? CUE MEI! Damnit, Jimmy needs her.. Fresh eyes, fresh words, fresh arms… He needs someone positive. He needs someone like her. Someone only for her. Damn… It’s so important. He will only get through this with someone like her. Seriously…. Emily is never his, and he knows it. The guys will never feel just like his friends anymore… he will always feel pressured by them, feeling the pressure to perform, to be there, ready to play… (even if that is only in his head)

So many many many ways to fuck this up… Please don’t do it to me, Ley…

In this world of darkness… there was the little light of the (oh I hope I am right about this) blooming… something… of Matt and Kim… They actually like each other right? Wanting to do this the right way? Man… That makes my heart rush…

Write! Write like the wind! Write!

Pleasssseeeeeeeeeee *On my knees*

Love you sweetie, love this! MOREEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

First of all ...
FINALLY :P

I really like the song, knew it before, but pretty damn fitting here, like all the songs you pick actually.. so nothing new there either...

Somehow the site is letting me not comment on laptop again, so I'll try go get as far as I can with my phone...

So I can totally understand Mei :P Of course... Kim fucking left her alone *pun intended* on the party, to have her fun with Shadows, thats not how u treat ur friends, young lady! Not at all! And... you could at least talkt to him.. so she was completely right! I would have made her answer that phone.. and solve it!
And they did!
Good Matt had a reason to call, so they could finally talk!
Now the talk between Matt and Val will get in the way, and excitingly so.. how will matty boy manage that one?!

And then Jim.. my poor Jim...he finally let her go... FINALLY! YESSS!!!
Hahahah.. u know how I mean that, right?!
Damn, I'm afraid that he will do something stupid before someone else arrives to look out for him, but I'm glad that they finally broke apart, for good...

This wouldnt have been working out, and we all knew it.. it was just a matter of time?!
And didnt I read in some comment Mei is showing up some more? Havent seen her? Maybe she could help some :P Dont u think ?! Hahaha :D

Okay okay, so.. Emily finally reached her limit, and I am curious on how she and Brian will react now?!
Will she go to him straight and how will Brian react when she does!?
Will Jimmy come to terms with his thoughts?!

Ahhhh as u can see I am asking questions over questions and know I'm not getting answers from u now :PBut I do so anyway!

So great chapter, with lots of happening!
The emotions from Jimmy.. damn.. so good, his thoughts, his cravings... !
Amazing, le!

MORE SOON!!!! :D <3

Woah, Emily gave up? I really thought she was a brave woman and did her best to help Jimmy recover. But I guess it was bound to happen, she had to leave him some time. I'm really worried about Jimmy. Now that Emily's gone, what if he starts taking drugs again? What if he does.....something stupid? Or even dangerous?

Live without a care? This sentence scared the crap out of me. He is gonna do something now, I believe.

Aw, Matt and Kim are really cute:)
I hope at least they have a happy ending.

Oh damn, that whole Jimmy scene at the beginning of this chapter was so damn intense… I can understand how people go crazy like that, I mean, when you whole world is falling down and you get the worst remarks from the people you love… Or at least your head makes you believe… You know, there is this Dutch song and it has this beautiful sentence… It’s a shame it is just too hard to translate :( Because it fits perfectly. But it comes down to the fact that the voices in your head are always the loudest and that you don’t even need the voices outside of your head anymore…. Does that make even sense?

Holy shit, and then… then Emily comes to him… with Brian… And… damn! That was a disaster waiting to happen. And Brian.. Brian… he just comes with her, like a puppy… like some kind of man without a backbone… When she is around, he loses himself completely… Oh how I wish both these men could do without her.

With the better incentive I meant that Jimmy maybe needs someone that is completely for him, where he can be sure of, where he doesn’t have to question everything and then… maybe very very slowly he can start trusting again, start believing that there is something in life worth living for.

SO! I have a great idea… I mean, they can’t leave Jimmy alone right? They need a rotating system where everyone will switch in taking care of Jimmy right? Well… I guess we need all the hands we can get. So I’m offering Mei in this case… and myself of course, but I think Mei will make sense. He already likes her, she is relatively objective and maybe… just maybe… Jimmy will find that not everyone is like Emily… In a good way….

Of course I want to help too… but….

You couldn’t let Matt break my heart, huh? It had to be me breaking his? Damn Leyla, I pretend to have morals, but I’m pretty sure those would be quickly out of the door again with him around :’) Poor poor Matt, I’m giving him the same treatment Val did… Oh man! Are you going to send me on the walk of apologies instead of shame? :P

Now update soon woman, and don’t even think about leaving Matt and me out of the next chapter! I need to call him, I need to make it up to him… soon… You owe me a damn good smut scene :P

<3 love it Ley! Still fucking amazing! <3

@Kimmie
hahaha woow bigger and bigger coments, I love them ;)
Just two things I wanna point out: You said Jimmy needs a better incentive to get sober. It got me very surprised hahaha cause more incentive than Emily is trying to give is almost impossible =p She is the example of how winning the addiction monster inside of you, I don't see anyone better to show him it is possible. But he needs to want it, right? No one can do that for him. ;)
And second: who really broke who's heart in this next chap?? huh??? hahahaha you went away! =p Heavy conscious is my guess, what is yours?? =p And yeah u gonna have to apologize to Jess... but I bet she'll understand your big reason.

hahaha waiting for your next comeeent lalalaaa, you owe me another one again =p
thanks for readiingg <3
(oooh and u better tell me if I got too heavy on the first scene, when Jimmy is having the voices inside his head. I wanted that to be veeeery very intense. Did I succeed?? =p hahah)

@DaphneG
ohh goddd I scared uuu awww soo sorry it wasn't my intention. We are getting to an end but that's not it yet =p
Wow I just loved your comment so much! I'm so glad u wrote that big one especially for this story, cause u totally nailed it! You describe the situation as accurately and reasonable as possible. Emily is stuck in between those two. Brian can't help Jimmy. And Jimmy is believing more and more everyone is against him. Someone gotta give in now, or all this tension will explode, right? hahaha

Thank you so much again for reading and comenting! I love your to see you here! ;)
<3

@MeRi
damn this site was bad on sunday, I know...
haha you'll figure out about Mei on next chapter, doooont worry ;)
well now it's all a matter of choices. Jimmy's choices mainly. He's the only one who can get himself out of the hole. Emily can try to convice him, Brian too, but in the end, it's his choices that can change everything. And that's scary at this point, cause he's very messed up right now.

Thanks for reading and trying so much to write the reply, I appreciate that, love uu <3

Damn... I wrote like two times already... cant enter via laptop, so writing my comment on phone... which wont turn out as long as u know it... and want it probably, but for this one it must do!

Ahh man.. another great all involved chapter?!

What was going on with Kim? Why leaving Matt like that? Second thoughts? Val lurking somewhere?! :P
What happened?!

Where was Mei? :P

And Jimmy and Brian and Em... god this is more fucked up then ever!
And is it sad that I kinda understand Jimmy, everything finally settled in and came to his mind, and that he doesnt want Brian and Em around is understandable... still sure Brian wants to be there for him, even though he knows he fucked up!

Damnnn!! SO many different approaches for u now!
And I just hope u wont let the worst happening! Let him get some help, preferable not from Em :P Because that wont end good.. its just doomed!
They are not good for each other Jimmy noticed... so... cant someone else better help him?!
He needs his friends now! Hope they manage and u wont let it go down in hell...

Okay, hope this comment will finally stick!!

Great chapter le!
Loved it!!! :)

You know, when I started reading this chapter my mind was chanting , 'Christmas is over. Christmas is over.' I had that fear inside me that 'Jimmy's gonna leave now'.
And you scared me the most when Jimmy was taking the drugs. I thought that was the end.....

I just hope Emily succeeds in taking Jimmy to Hawaii. They should spend some time together and forget about the present situation for a few days.

I can understand how Brian must be feeling right now. I mean, his best friend is suffering. But he can't help Jimmy even if he wants to. I felt really bad how Jimmy screamed at Brian:(

What do I say about Emily? She's just trapped in between Brian and Jimmy. I know she loves Brian deep inside, but she doesn't wanna hurt Jimmy. It must be very difficult for her to live like this. Jimmy isn't showing any feelings towards her, and Brian's doing the same.

With each chapter, I can see twists coming up. Can't wait what kinda twist you're planning for the next chapter!

Oh, this is the longest comment I ever gave on a story!

Holy fuck, what should I say about this chapter? I’ve had to read it a few times to process everything that has happened (No, not only for certain pieces :P)
Shit, how am I going to write a comment that isn’t 10 pages long?

Well, let’s try!

Oh, Jimmy and Mei… Don’t you get it Jimmy? You are so blinded… Tunnel Vision is coming over you… You would be so much better with someone else. Your not being able to stay sober… well… maybe you have the wrong incentive for that. Oh sweet sweet Jimmy, you got some foreign friends there… you know that right? Don’t do anything stupid (besides cheating with Mei… I would totally support that :9)
I will get back to the Jim-man in a bit…

Zack and Jess… Ohhhh soooooo sweet!!! I love them together. Zack not knowing what to say, Jess saying the words… so damn perfect! Seriously, they are everything I always thought about them. Perfect together… They both came across some obstacles to meet each other half way and enjoy their life together… Let’s make a beautiful wedding for them Ley… Don’t let us drag them down in all the shit that is inevitably coming…

Because… damn! I know shit is coming… This whole love triangle thing is getting out of hand and I really think that we are going to reach a peak in that. Brian… my dear dear Brian. Sweetie, I know you love her, I know you feel she loves you too (which is absolutely true) but damn, my man, this was not your finest moment. You should talk to your friend, you really really really should have. I can’t imagine what will happen to Brian when Jimmy will do the unthinkable (still hoping it won’t happen) Oh my god… It’s so intense. The talk between Brian and Emily and then the Jimmy POV at the end :( That last Jimmy sentence just broke my heart…. So sad :( I have stones in my stomach for next chapter….

Well… Let’s go to the important part now :P
Matt! Kim! DAMNNNNNN I really would have wanted to have that scene much much much longer than it was now… but the important things were there! Yes! Finally… But oh boy… I mean…. The morning after is coming… The guys have missed Matt already and they will give him a hard time for missing that important moment en as for Kim… She is terribly sorry, Jess, for missing your important moment. Shopping on her? Chocolate? Largest wedding present? Begging on her knees?
Let’s hope Matt won’t break Kim’s heart on the morning after, because he has just used her to forget about Val :(

Okay, this is already too long and I haven’t even said half of it! :o Well… Let’s give me another chapter now and you will get more comments ;)

LOVE this Ley! Seriously! Following all the characters were amazing!! You did so well…. Let’s keep this up please? (read… more Matt and Kim scenes please :p)