Synyster's Pov

Shit, why was I being such a damn asshole, yelling at her, when ever she called me liar. Not wanting to believe me ,when I told the truth and that I do love her with all my heart. It's like I'm fucking bipolar. I know the ones you love the most are the ones that piss you off the most. But why was she sending me in such rages I just wanted to yell at her and call her a bitch. Shit how deep is my love for her. I got as dressed as fast as I could, glad she didn't take her suitcase, since it was still their. I opened my door and saw Johnny laying on the floor in pain, holding his crotch. Damn she must kicked him good, cracks me up how she can over power him and she two inches shorter then him. She couldn't of gotten far.




“Mary come out, I 'm not mad at you. Brian loves you. You have to believe me. We just really fucked up , what the two you should of have had, we should of never made that bet with him.” Zack was yelling down the hallway. I ran down to where I heard his voice and saw him knocking on room door. What was Mary doing in their.



Matt and Jimmy were scratching their heads trying to pick the lock. Got love these old hotels that still used keys for the door.



Then the door opened and Jimmy fell face down, in the door way, his ass sticking up, since he was on his knees trying to pick the lock. Matt helped him up and Jimmy let one hell of fart out making them gag and run far away from him, but Mary ran towards me. I just grabbed her and held her in my arms, hoping she was running to me, not from me.



“Sorry that what happens when all I eat is beans and vodka for breakfast” Jimmy said then burped really loud. Which stunk worse then his fart. As he walked back to his room , he keep farting and Mary put her head on my chest. So she wouldn't be gagging but I think she just wanted me to hold her.



“I'm sorry I was being an asshole again, it's just I love you so damn much and came clean on all of it, when you refused to believe me I just lost it. “ I said. Not wanting to let go of her, but she pulled away and I tried to make her stop.


She didn't say anything. Just looked at me like she was dead inside now and no longer cared or loved me anymore. It was making my heart hurt. The moment I let her go she headed to my room got mad I hadn't opened the door and just started to growl at me.


I watched her as she put her messenger bag, over her shoulder and when she hit the cast , she yelped in pain and, when I tried to help her she pushed me away. And grabbed her rolling purple suitcase and started to head out.



I stopped her. “Your not leaving I love you, I'm sorry I was being a real asshole to you this morning and pretty much this hole month. Don't leave me, if you do it will shatter my heart. Please baby don't go” I cried not caring if she saw me crying over her. She just glared at me and looked like she was about to kick me in the crotch to make me move out her way. But she didn't.



“Yeah , right, prove it. Knowing you,your drunk and it doesn't mean shit. ” She yelled at me, still trying to figure out how to get past me.





“You want proof, I do love you, I'll show you. Would a drunk guy dose this to prove he loves you ” I said as I dug out my pocket knife and the only spot on my left arm that I hadn't inked yet, I started to crave 'Mary' in my flesh. Holding back the screams of pain I was feeling.


“Brian what the hell are you doing are you crazy” She said to me as she took my pocket knife out my hand, went to the bathroom came back with a wet wash cloth and started to clean my upper left arm, were it was bleeding from where I craved Mary in it.




I watched as she dug around my suitcase for something, I saw a smile but when she saw that I was looking at her, she went back to her dead in side look she has towards me . So she must liked I craved her name into my flesh. She had one of my bandannas and wrapped around the arm and I had to tie since she had hard time trying to with only one arm working.




She just keep looking at me shocked at what I did, and didn't know what to say. I felt light head and had to lay down. The room was spinning and I didn't know why, I hadn't had any booze at all today, didn't even get drunk last night. Since I wanted to be sober all night in case she need me.



“Brian wake up” I heard Mary screaming, and felt her shaking me but I couldn't open my eyes and I felt darkness closing in.


“Brian please wake up! I'm sorry . I love you, I never stopped loving you. I don't know, I was just being bitch. Brian!” Mary screamed and then started to cry and I felt as if my soul was leaving my body.

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