*~*Kamalei’s POV*~*

I was so surprised to see Zack when I woke up. I did literally think I had died. Then to find out everyone was here was even more crazy. I had been relaxing most of the day with Zacky while everyone was at the beach. I didn’t want to see everyone just yet so I kept Zacky from telling them I woke up. Everyone was so happy to see me and I was ecstatic to see all of them, I just wish it was under better circumstances. I was going stir crazy in this hospital bed and I had only been awake for the day.

Zacky, Matt, and the doctor came back into the room.

“Ms. Sanders, my name is Dr. Young and I have been your physician while you have been here. I would like to go over some things with you. Some things are rather personal so it is up to you if you would like your family and friends present.” He said as he looked at everyone in the room.

There was like 7 of them and they all had a worried look on their faces. It made me uneasy like I was missing something.

“Hunny, do you want us to let you talk to the doctor alone?” Val reached over and asked.

“No it’s alright. You guys can stay.” I replied.

“I’m just gonna go out. Sorry, I… I gotta go to the bathroom.” Johnny said.

“Me too.” Brian chimed in making it more uncomfortable.

I looked at Zacky and Matt and their facial expressions told me something was going to happen. I looked at Kelly and she had tears in her eyes.

“What’s going on?” I asked, scared of the response I would receive.

“Ms. Sanders, as you can see you have a fractured leg and it seems your hand has multiple fractures and has had them for quite some time. We have casted it to see if we can get it to heal properly. You were heavily drugged when you were brought in as well as heavily beaten. I am happy to see that most of the swelling to your body has gone down. And you don’t seem to have any cognitive issues. However, you do have 6 fractured ribs. You had extensive damage to the back of your head and there is a large gash on your forehead.” Dr. Young said.

“Alright, Zacky told me that stuff. So when do I get to go home?” I asked.

“That’s not all.” Dr. Young paused, “There was some internal injuries, and this is where it gets rather personal.”

I was getting scared by the tone of his voice, “Ok. Continue.”

Kelly reached out and held my hand and I instantly knew, they all knew what the doctor was going to say.

“So Ms. Sanders, you were heavily drugged on your arrival and unfortunately your heart stopped once while in the ER. I am not sure that you were aware of this but you were 2 months pregnant.” He told me.

I sat there stunned.

Pregnant?! Pregnant with Micah’s baby?! Oh my God. Wait. Did he say ‘were’?

I snapped out of it, “What do you mean were?”

“Unfortunately Ms. Sanders, we discovered that you were also violently raped repeatedly before being brought in. The violent rape, the drugs and alcohol, along with the extensive injuries you endured you suffered a miscarriage. I am very sorry.” The doctor told me.

I looked over at Kelly as the tears just began flooding my eyes. I was in shock. I was pregnant. Now I’m not. I had no idea.

The doctor kept talking but I didn’t hear any of it. I saw him leave as Kelly pulled me in her arms and rocked be back and forth as I cried. I couldn’t stop crying.

“I lost my baby. I had a baby. I lost my baby. I had a baby Kelly!” I screamed as she held me tight.

The pain in my body was nothing compared to the pain in my heart for my unborn child.

“WHY!? WHY ME GOD?!?!” I screamed looking up.

Matt came onto the other side of the bed, sitting and pulling me to him as Kelly went out of the room crying.

“Shhh…my baby it’s alright. It’s alright. You’re going to be alright. I know it hurts. I’m so sorry my baby.” He said as I cried into his shirt.

I had balled up my fist in his shirt and cried out, “WHY MATT?! WHY DID HE DO THIS TO ME?!”

“I don’t know Lei. I don’t know my sweet baby Lei. We’re gonna make him pay for this. We’re gonna get him baby.” Matt said to me.

Jimmy wrapped his arms around us both and rocked us back and forth cooing.

“My little Lei, we love you. We’ll get him. I’m so sorry little Lei-Lei…” He said as I turned my body and cried into his chest.

His long arms held me tightly as he stroked my hair gently. I just couldn’t stop crying. It all hurt too much.

Val came and hugged me, “Lei, I’m so sorry sweetie. I wish we could do something more to make it better.”

“Can everyone please just go?” I mumbled between my sobs.

Jimmy let go and got up from the bed, following Matt and Val out. I looked over to Zacky and he had big tears in his eyes as he lowered them and started to follow Jimmy.

“Wait Zee.” I called out to him.

He turned around looking back to me, “Please just hold me.” I asked him.

He nodded his head and came back to the side of the bed. Matt shot a look back at me and Zacky but I didn’t care. I needed Zacky. He always could make me feel better by just holding me in his tattooed arms. He didn’t ask questions, he didn’t pry, he didn’t even talk but he was there. That’s all I needed. Someone to just be there.

“Is that alright?” he asked settling into the bed with me.

“No. Nothing is alright Zee. I lost my baby Zacky. I lost my baby…” I trailed off as a new set of sobs filled me.

He pulled my head to his chest and wrapped me in his arms. I kept crying and he kept holding me. I didn’t know what time it was but it felt like hours had gone by. My eyes hurt from crying and it was getting dark outside the windows.

“Why didn’t you tell me Zee?” I asked him after a long time.

He hesitated, “I didn’t know how to tell you Lei. How could I tell you the man who got you pregnant also caused you to lose your baby?”

“I don’t know Zacky. You should have told me. How could you keep this from me? I trusted you.” I said.

I felt betrayed that no one told me. I never thought Zacky would keep something from me. We trusted each other. We talked every day about everything. How could he keep a secret like this from me after all day of being with me?

“I’m sorry Lei. I just… I couldn’t. I never wanted to see you hurt again. I never meant to hurt you Lei. I don’t want you to not trust me. I just care about you too much…” he said.

I can’t blame him. Would I be able to tell someone such horrible news? What if it was Kelly in my shoes? Would I tell her? Probably not either.

“It’s ok my Zacky boy. I can’t blame you. I wouldn’t be able to tell someone either. It just hurts so much Zack.” I said quietly into his chest.

“I’m sorry Lei. Do you want me to move some?” He asked concerned.

“No Zee. The physical pain is nothing to me. My insides hurt. My heart hurts Zack. How do I go on? How do I live knowing that my baby died because of their own father?” I asked looking up into his bright green eyes.

He looked down at me before kissing the top of my head, “I don’t have the answers Lei. I know you will though. We’ll all be here to help you through this Kamalei. We love you too much to let this be the end for you.”

I nodded as I cried into his chest again. The tears wouldn’t stop flowing no matter how much I tried.

“Where’s my mom?” I asked him after another 10 minutes or so.

“I’m not sure. I can ask Matt?” He said pulling away from me.

“No. Don’t leave me.” I said grasping at his shirt pulling him back and laying my head against his chest.

“Alright, I won’t.” he said quietly as he gently pushed a strand of my hair from my face.

Matt came into the room, clearing his throat, looking at us disapprovingly.

“Baby girl, you’re mom just called me. She wants to know if you will see her. She’s worried about you, you know?” Matt said.

“Yeah. Tell her to come. She was right about Micah. I’m sure she would love to hear me say that.” I said knowing the satisfaction she would get out of it.

“I don’t think she cares about that Lei. She cares that you’re alright.” Matt said.

Zacky shifted at Matt’s glare. I could tell he was making him uncomfortable. I hugged Zacky tighter.

“What did the doctor say to you?” I asked Matt.

“He said that you can probably go home tomorrow. They just want to do a few more tests now that you’re awake to make sure you didn’t get any brain damage.” Matt said.

“Home. The last place I want to go…” I said.

“About that, I was talking to Val and we think it would be good for you to come live with us. We are going on tour soon and I would feel better if you were with us. Safe. I am not leaving you here where Micah can get to you. Kelly is moving in with Brian so she will be with you. I’m not taking no for an answer.” Matt said folding his large tattooed forearms.

“Alright. You don’t have to twist my arm about it. What am I gonna do for a job though? I only know you guys and dad in California.” I asked him.

“We can get you a job at the merch or something. You shouldn’t be worried about that for now though. You aren’t doing shit until you’re better.” He said.

“I have bills to pay Matt. I have to go back to work at the store.” I said thinking about my job.
“Lei. I’m a fucking rockstar. Your bills are paid. I took care of them yesterday. You are my baby sister whether you like it or not, I’m not going to leave you hanging. It’s my job to take care of you. Shit as far as I’m concerned you never have to work again. I know you well enough to know that won’t happen but I’ll find something for you to do. You and Kelly can do what Val does.” He replied.

“Babysit 5 grown men? I don’t think she wants that job babe.” Val said from the doorway.

I couldn’t help but laugh a little. It hurt a lot to laugh but it helped my heart a little at the moment.

“Don’t worry hunny, we will find you and Kelly something.” Val said reassuringly.

“Are you sure you want me to come live with you guys? I feel like a burden.” I asked.

“Yes we are sure we want you to live with us. We have a room for you and everything. You aren’t a burden either. If you are we’ll give you to Zack.” Val said giggling.

I looked at Zacky and his face turned red as he looked away trying to hide.

“Or Jimmy.” Matt added monotone.

“Alright I guess I’m in. I don’t know how my mom is going to take it.” I said.

“I’m sure she’ll be fine with it.” Matt replied.

“How do you know?” I asked him quizzically.

“I’m sure she wants you away from Micah just like we all do.” He said.

“Kamalei! My beautiful child. How are you feeling?” my mother said rushing into the room coming to my side.

This woman has some ideal timing…

“Sore and sad. Mama I lost my baby.” I cried out to her releasing some of my grasp on Zacky’s shirt.

“I know my baby. I’m so sorry. My heart hurts for you my baby.” My mom said hugging me tightly.

She rocked me back and forth as I cried softly against her chest.

“Mama. I have to tell you something else too.” I said to her as she pulled away and sat on the chair nearby. “I’m going to move in with Matt and Val in California. I’m going to go on tour with them when they go soon. Kelly is going to move too. Her and Brian are going to live together.”

She sighed heavily and I thought she would be upset with me, “I think that is best Kamalei. It will be safer for you the further you are from Maui and Micah. I will be sad to have you and Kelly go but you are both adults and I cannot stop you. I know that your brother Matt will keep you safe in the mainland. I trust these boys to take care of both of you girls. They love you and I know they wouldn’t let anything happen to either of you. Can you promise you will call me more than once a month?”

“Really mama? You’re not mad?” I asked surprised at her calm reaction.

“Yes my beloved child. I want what is best for you. I can’t sleep at night knowing that Micah is so close to you. California at least puts an ocean between you. Plus Matt and Zacky wouldn’t let him come close to you if he tried.” She said smiling at Zacky.

I looked over and saw Zacky’s fist clenched, his eyes taking on a darker green color, “He’ll never touch her again.” He gritted.

The only time I have seen his eyes turn that color was that night at the club with the random guy. His eyes turn very dark almost black when he’s mad.

I reached out and put my hand on his fist. He released his hand and took a few deep breaths. “It’s okay Zee.” I said softly.

“I’ll break his hands off if he even tried.” Matt said through clenched teeth.

“Now, now boys. Mama knows you will keep her precious baby safe. You don’t have to convince me. Kamalei you will call me right?” My mother asked me again.

“We’ll make sure she does. Once a week at least. It can take the place of her calling me once a week.” Matt replied.

“Oh, I’m so thankful she has you boys.” My mother said looking to Matt. “Come give Mama a hug.”

Matt walked over to her and threw his large tattooed arms around her. She broke away and came around the bed and gave Zacky a hug similar to Matt’s.

She didn’t think I heard her but she whispered, “I told you sweetie. I told you she would be alright. You take care of my daughter Zachary.”

He nodded as he pulled away and sat back down on the bed with me. She came back around and hugged me again.

“Kamalei, I don’t want you to be alone. Especially if you go back to the house. Micah is hiding somewhere but Maui is too small for him to hide forever. You call me tomorrow if they let you out. I love you.” She said to me before turning to go.

“I love you too Mama. I’ll call you tomorrow. I love you Mama.” I said tears welling in my eyes again.

Matt came on the other side of me, scooting onto the bed too. Both Matt and Zacky pulled me into a hug between them.

“We love you Lei. It’s going to be alright.” Matt said as he kissed the top of my head gently.

I kept crying and I started to feel tired. The drugs must have been working. Matt and Zacky released me from their hug and Matt helped me lean back in the bed again as he slipped off the bed.

“You get some rest baby girl. It’s been a long day for you. We’ll come back later alright?” Matt said.

“Are you all going to leave?” I asked fighting my eyelids to stay open.

“I’ll stay if you want me to.” Zacky replied.

“No. Zacky you aren’t staying. She needs to rest.” Matt said tensely.

His reaction took me over the edge and I started sobbing ridiculously. Matt’s face went from irritated to shocked in 2 seconds.

“Please Matt. I want someone to stay with me. I don’t want to be all alone. What if he comes here? What he comes for me? Please Matt…” he probably could barely understand me through my sobs.

Hanging his head in defeat Matt put his arms up, “Fine. We are going to dinner at 7. We’ll come by and pick you up. Be downstairs outside Baker. Don’t make me come up here and get you.”

“You got it M.” Zacky said reaching for the tv remote on the table.

“Thank you big brother. I love you.” I said quietly.

“You’re welcome. Get some rest. Don’t be up playing around. We have forever to do that. I love you and I’ll see you later.” Matt said kissing my cheek before walking out.

Zacky turned the tv back on and turned the volume down low before snuggling down next to me.

“This ok. I want you to be comfortable.” He asked as he wrapped his arm around me.

“Yeah. It’s fine.” I said as I closed my eyes and inhaled his shirt deeply taking in his scent.

“What am I going to call you now? You aren’t as clumsy as you claim. Should I call you my little liar girl?” He teased.

I giggled, “No. I’m just Lei.”

“How about my little Lei girl? I think I like that.” He said smirking down at me with his eyes that had turned back to their bright green color.

“Whatever you want my Zacky boy…” I said as I slowly let my eyes close…

Notes

Ch. 24 up and running! I hope you guys enjoy it and don't cry too much! This is a sad one I know. Please let me know what you guys think! Mahalo for your comments and votes! <3