Syn's Deep in My Blood

She stopped playing and dropped her guitar to get closer to me. I moved my neck towards her slowly, hurting all the way, and tried to form a smile with my dry lips.

“Oh my god!!!”

I opened my mouth to try to say something but nothing came out.

“Don’t! Don’t try to speak!! I’m gonna call someone, please, don’t move!”
She was about to leave my side but I held her wrist with a strength I had no idea I could use.

“Don’t… I don’t need them. I need you.” I whispered slowly and saw tears on her eyes as she put her ear closer to my lips to hear me. I breathed her scent and my heart went crazy.

“My goodness, I can’t believe you are here, you are back, you…” her voice trailed and she closed her eyes to shed her tears as she kissed my hand. “I missed you like crazy, you know that, right?”

“I missed you too.” I tried to use my voice this time but the pain in between my legs was overwhelming. Now I knew what was bothering me. “Emily… god, can you do something for me?”

“Of course, anything. Just say it.”

“Can you… pull that fucking thing out of my dick, please?” I couldn’t hold my painful moan. “It’s killing me.”

“Ohh… your catheter. I’m gonna call a nurse, she’ll know what to do. I’ll be righ…”

“No, no, she won’t take it out. Please, you saw how it works, you know how to take it off.”

“Oh god, okay, I can... try.” She walked around the room for a while, looking a little lost, then I heard her taking a deep breath and moving my blanket away.

I felt the breeze in my legs, then her slight touch. When I was out and people touched me, it didn’t feel as half intense as what it was now. I closed my eyes to rest for a few seconds but so afraid I would go back to sleep.

I heard her warming up her hands and then she pulled away the gown from my waist.

“Are you ready?” she asked me quietly and I nodded. I closed my eyes again and her hands finally landed in my foreskin.

When she pulled the tube out in a quick move, it felt like the worst orgasm I had in my life. I growled as loud as I could but that wasn’t really so loud.

“Ohhhh… god… Thank you babe… Much better now…” I sighed in relief as she ran to take the stuff to the bathroom and wash her hands and walked back.

“How are you feeling? Do you want something?” she held my hand tightly and I blinked a few times to see if my view could get any better. Turns out it worked, I had a nice clear sight of the only person I wanted to see in front of me now. And I could see she was only wearing a silk white gown.

What the hell, Rev, that’s the only thing you’re seeing?
My senses were damn heightened somehow.

“I’m very hungry for pizza and burgers but I know I can only have those when I get out of here.”

“Well… right now is 2 am but I’ll see what I can do about that tomorrow.” She smirked in that beautiful way and kept watching me, maybe still a little flabbergasted. I couldn’t help but notice the shape and the size of her nipples hardening in her gown and her cleavage popping out in my sight along with the cross chain I gave to her when we first met. How much I missed touching her, feeling her skin with my lips, with my tongue.

Fuck, what’s wrong with me, I woke up and the first thing I feel is...

“Were you listening… to the song?”

“Yeah… I loved the way you sang it.” She smiled shyly and her cheeks turned red. “Don’t even say your voice sucks again. I know you’ll be lying.” I smiled weakly and felt my mouth so dry. “Can you hand me some water, please?

“Yeah, sure.” She walked towards the mini fridge and I had to make the biggest effort to turn my neck to follow her with my eyes. She bent down and showed the best sight of her perfect butt for a man that couldn’t see in months. Sight of paradise.

I looked down my body and… well, it was too late. I was too horny to hide it now.

When she came back her eyes fell exactly where I didn’t want her to look, of course. And I could tell she was holding a laugh as I felt my cheeks burning.

“Happy to see me?” she brought me the water and placed the straw in my lips, her smile never leaving now.

“Oh… yeah… that. It’s just… It’s weird, it’s like my brain is… all pumped up with energy. My whole body is, even though when I try to move my arms or legs, it hurts.” I drank the water and felt a little tired of speaking so much.

“Good, that’s good! This is your body waking up, I guess.” When she said that, she quickly pointed her eyes down my waist, obviously talking about my hard-on. And the fact that she knew what I was feeling now made me grow harder. “Do you want something to eat? That IV is keeping your nutrients flowing but I can go steal something in the doctor’s kitchen, if you want.”

“No… no, Ems. I want something else…” I licked my lips and my stomach fluttered in anxiety at what I was about to ask her.

I needed her. Bad. And if she was singing to me our song that sweetly, she wanted me too. I knew it.

I made a sign with my hand to make her come closer. Then I tried my best to raise my arm and let my hand wander over the back of her neck; she was wearing a sexy pony tail. And when our eyes locked in, I pulled her for a slow kiss and she didn’t hesitate. Her tongue felt so warm and soft, it was like I was experiencing everything for the first time again. Everything was new and… exciting. But really exhausting.

“I want you. I missed you so much. I need you now, Emily. Please.” I knew I sounded desperate, but that’s how I really was, I hoped she could understand what I wanted. I couldn’t take a second longer without having her taste again, as if I couldn’t survive if I didn’t satisfy that overwhelming hunger.

“Jimmy… you’ve just woken up, your heart is probably not strong enough right now. And neither your body. We… we shouldn’t.”

“I’ve been away for so long. We’ve been apart and… I can’t take it anymore. I need to feel you again, I need to touch you. Please, no one will show up here, it’s just you and me. I’ll be fine, I am strong enough.” I was tired of talking again but I had to convince her someway.

“I don’t know… Jimmy, this is wrong. We’ll be risking your life.”

“It’s gonna be our secret.”

I saw her thinking and I knew she was giving in the moment she walked towards the door, opened and watched over the corridor before closing it again.

“Okay, no one is around. They won’t be coming here unless I call. So… are you sure about this?”

“Yes, it’s what I want the most.”

‘Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there’

I walked back, nervous as hell and thought about what to do next. Should I go with his wish like that? I don’t know, he seemed so weak, what if his heart fails for good? But then… how could I deny it?

I had to risk it. If anything would go wrong, I’d press that red button on top of his bed right away and the doctors would come promptly.

His eyes were still ajar, but staring intensely at me and my moves. I let my hands go slowly under my gown just to take my panties off and then laid as careful as I could beside him.
His nose fell in my neck and there he stayed for a long time, with his eyes closed as I caressed his hair. Then his mouth started to draw a few slight kisses there and licks with his tongue but I could tell how weak he was as his hands never moved towards my body. When I noticed that, I grabbed one of his hands and landed it in one of my breasts, helping his fingers move round and round, making his breath go faster and a his moans audible.

As we shared a long, sluggish as possible kiss, I raised my gown until my breasts were fully exposed and I saw him smiling in appreciation when he drank the sight for a while.

“It’s like I’m losing my virginity again…” I laughed at his whispered remark and couldn’t be happier to see him awake again. To feel his soft touch, to feel my heart racing while staring inside his deep blue oceans again.

‘If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again?’

As I enjoyed her full breasts for a long while, her hands moved the blanket and the gown away from me and traced my body lines and tattoos in my chest, especially the Fiction one. Yeah, man, it truly seemed like a fiction now. Who knew I would be having a wonderful foreplay in a hospital bed after waking up from a coma?

When her lips touched my chest and nipples, my mind shut off completely to just enjoy the sensations of being alive again. The texture of her nipples in my fingers and then her mouth walking all over me. My dick stirred and the cardiac monitor bip went faster, making Emily snap her head instantly to me and then to the monitor, worried as fuck.

“God, are you okay?”

“I couldn’t be better.” I tried to form a smirk and she sighed in my neck, lying still by my side for a few minutes until my monitor was slow again.

‘If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end’

When his breathing was even and I could hear his heart beat slowed down in his chest, I sat on the bed and spread my legs on top of him, taking every move so carefully as if he was a newborn. His hands slid down my waist, my belly and then tried to hold my hips. His eyes were shining magically staring at me.

“Hot damn, you’re beautiful.” He gasped and I chuckled, positioning myself to have him inside. First I made his tip feel how wet I was all around, taking some time with my clit too. His eyes rolled over and his monitor was racing again. Shit, if the alarm rings…

“It feels so good, babe. You feel incredibly…” his weak words disappeared to give place to a long moan when I let him slide inside of me with ease. His fingers pressed my skin a little harder as I went further and he groaned more. “…warm.”

I danced on top of him as languidly as my thighs muscles handled that exercise. I couldn’t really care much about my pleasure now, I had to take care of his. I held one of his hands on my breasts and accelerated the pace a little. His monitor was racing again, his blood pressure was getting higher and it got me fucking terrified. But his face was telling me otherwise, he was fully relaxed, his mouth was opening and moving along with my thrusts and circular dance, and that kept me from panicking.

“Ems… go on… I can take it… Ohhh….” When I went down further, his belly muscles were contorting in pleasure and I loved that sight. I felt his head hit a right spot in there and I couldn’t hold my moans either.

It was hard to concentrate on my orgasm with so many things to worry about but once I was synchronized with him, everything went perfect. I accelerated the pace a little more and he arched his back, gasping a little louder as his monitor went biping again. I slowed down and his fingers held my waist still. I wasn’t sure if he was in pain or in pleasure then, but when his warm liquid gushed on my insides, I knew he was okay.
I let my climax take over me as soon as I made sure he was fine, breathing and still alive.

‘I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you’

“How are you… feeling, Jim?” she breathed in and out as I felt her high leaving her body slowly. I was dealing with the same feeling and it was amazing.

“Wonderful…” I didn’t have much strength left now, I could only mutter and let my fingers trace her dragon tattoo on her thigh to see her skin all shivered.

She pulled away from me gingerly and lay down beside me again, keeping me so close in her arms. I think I never felt that alive before.

“Ahh… I missed you…” she let out almost soundlessly and pecked my cheek.
And I had to say it before the mood was gone or before I lose my chance.

‘I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you’

“I love you. I love you so much…”

My eyes snapped open on his chest and my heart was the one accelerating now. I had no idea what to answer. Or better, I shouldn’t dare to answer what he wanted to hear so I just stood quiet, waiting for him to close his eyes and fall asleep. We definitely had to talk later.

And me? Well… I could never close my eyes that night.

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