I woke up to the sun shining through my window and burning my eyes. I sat up in bed propping myself on my pillows and thinking about the past few days of staying by myself in my room with the door locked and not answering the text messages I received. Meg, I sure do miss her and I wish she could be here to spend time with me at our new home. Britt, if she was here I would be able to see her all the time but now I can't. Britt and Meg are up in heaven making the place full of laughter and seeing my dead parents. I want to see them all but I know it ain't possible until I come to them. A knock at the door pulled me from my thoughts. I got out of bed and unlocked the door to reveal Val smiling.

"Can I come in?" I nodded and stepped aside as she walked in. I shut the door behind her and she sat down on my bed.

"Please come over and sit down." I walked over to her and sat down beside her. I knew she had something to say but I didn't know what.

"I know you've lost 2 friends in just a short amount of time but you've been sitting up here in your room for days and I thought that maybe you would like to go out with me and the girls just to have a girl's day out." I sat there in silence thinking about her offer. I know Meg and Britt wouldn't want me sitting up here sulking and shit.

"That would be great. I need some fresh air anyways." I said smiling.

"Great! Now go hit the shower and meet me in the kitchen and we'll head out."

"Okay." I said and I walked with her to the door and shut it behind her. I grabbed me some clothes from my closet and walked into the bathroom locking the door behind me. I turned on the water and let my bath fill up as I made sure to have everything out of my pockets.

I took out the razor and couldn't fight the urge to use it. I stripped my clothes and sat down in the warm water and it relaxed me. It seemed like the stress just melted away. I looked at the razor in my hand and I set it on my pants. I laid there for a minute just soaking into the warm water before washing myself. I heard someone open my bedroom door and didn't bother to tell the person where I was. A knock came to my bathroom door.

"Ame?"

"Yes Brian?" I said happily.

"Oh I'm sorry I didn't know you were in the bathroom. When you are done I'd like to talk to you."

"Alright. I'll be out in a minute." I said and I rinsed my hair out before stepping out of the tub. I dried off and quickly changed. I slipped the razor into my pocket and grabbed my dirty clothes. I unlocked the door and seen Brian sitting on my bed. I smiled at him as I took my clothes to the hamper and setting them in there.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" I asked while brushing my hair.

"I just wanted to tell you that we are having a barbecue at my house when you and the girls get done doing whatever."

"Sounds fun." I said smiling.

"Yeah. How are you feeling? I mean you look happier?"

"I am Brian. I mean I knew Meg nor Britt would want me sitting up here feeling bad and shit so I'm not going to." I explained and he smiled. He came over to me and hugged me tightly and kissed my cheek. He walked the door and opened it.

"Oh by the way, the girls are downstairs in the kitchen."

"Tell them I'll be down in one minute." I said and he nodded before leaving the room shutting the door behind him. I leaned hands on the dresser hanging my head. I looked up and seen myself in the mirror. It took a whole lot not to punch the glass and break it but I didn't need any cuts that the guys or even the girls could see.

I finished brushing my hair and I grabbed my phone looking at the time. 1pm. I shut my phone and stuck it in my pocket before walking out of my room and shutting the door behind me. I walked down the stairs and instantly heard the guys yelling and cheering in the living room. I look in and they were watching the Angels beat the Rangers. I shook my head and made my way into the kitchen. I seen the girls and sat down at the bar.

"Hey girls."

"Hey Ame!" they said in unison.

"How you feeling?" Leanna asked smiling.

"I feel better. So where exactly are we going?"

"To the spa. We think you need some rejuvenation." Val said smiling.

"Sounds fun. Let's go." We walked out of the kitchen and Val told the guys bye and without looking away from the TV they all waved. I shook my head and we went out the front door and piled into Val's SUV. I looked up at the sky as we drove towards the spa.

I was really looking forward to going to the spa and seeing what the girls said was true. The bright blue sky look beautiful and reminded me of how Britt loved to be outside on a beautiful day. The overwhelming power of sadness came over me but I shook it away. The girls were talking about something but I wasn't paying any attention. We finally arrived to the spa and piled out of the car. Val grabbed my hand as we walked into the building. The atmosphere was warm and the aroma was soothing. I really like it here and I hope this doesn't go by too fast. The receptionist at the desk showed us to where we'd be getting manicures and pedicures. I'm sorry but I don't see how anyone would love to touch nasty feet all day long. I don't care how much they pay I would never do it.

Anyways, the foot bath was amazing and the person who worked on my feet kept hitting a spot that made me laugh. Next was to get a massage! Oh my Lord in Heaven that felt so good. It was like all the stress from over the years just melted away in an instant. I wish this day would never end! Soon after the massage and going into a sauna, we headed to McDonald's to get a bite to eat. I looked around at all the people and no one stared. I ate my meal in peace and we walked out. Lacy was saying that it was only 4 so we could go to the mall. I sat in the very back while the girls were talking and laughing about something. I don't know what because I wasn't paying any attention. I looked out the window watching as the stores and cars flew by us. The sky was still a brilliant blue and the memories of Meg, Britt, and I came flying back.

The days where we went outside and helped around the neighborhood and got paid. All the birthdays we celebrated together. The car stopped and jolted me out of my thoughts. We got out of the car and I put on a happy face. Leanna and I went straight for Hot Topic and I bought me some more pants and chains and some more band t-shirts. Then we went to Spencer's to get something to prank Jimmy with and we did. Hopefully we will get to use it on him soon. All those times Jimmy pranked us and got us good will all be settle with sweet revenge. We walked around for a few minutes more and went into a few more shops until it was time to go home. I again got in the very back with my stuff and stared out the window. For some reasons the thoughts never came back about Meg and Britt. I tried to think about the good times we had but nothing came to mind. What was wrong with me?

We finally arrived home and I took my things to my room and put my pants in the dresser. I had the feeling of being watched and I turned around and no one was there. I shook my head and when I looked up at the mirror I saw Meg and Britt standing side by side. I quickly turned around and they were still there.

"Meg? Britt?" I whispered.

"Yes it is us Ame. We've been watching you for some time now. Making sure you're taking care of yourself." Britt said in a sweet voice.

"We know what you do. Ame, you harming yourself won't bring us back. I'm sorry we left you but it was our time. You have a great life here with people who care a lot about you. Don't give that up. Don't do like Britt and I did." Meg said.

"How did you know? What did you 2 do?"

"We gave up our chances of being adopted. We knew how much you wanted a family because yours was killed. We made a pact that when you get adopted we would start acting like we wanted to have a family. Then one day we get back together again." Meg said hanging her head.

"We know that you cut yourself with the razor that's in your pocket. We know where the cuts are and we know your every thought." Meg said putting her hands into her pockets. I stood there for a minute then reached into my pocket and pulled out the razor.

"How long have you been here watching me?"

"Well let me start from the beginning. When I died in the orphanage and you came to my funeral, I was there watching you. When Meg died in your tour bus I was there and she appeared beside me when you ran off the bus. We have been with in the tour bus and when you've finally come home and locked yourself in here for weeks. We decided to appear to you to tell you how long we've been here. We don't have much time left so we just wanted you to know how much we miss you and we love you very much. We will always be here and if you ever need us just say our names together." Meg explained. Her smile was still the same and I was still in shock. I laid the razor down on the dresser and looked at them both.

"Can you do me favor?"

"Sure anything." Britt said.

"If you can, bring my parents with you next time. Please."

"Of course. They will be happy to hear. You take care. We've got to go." Meg said.

"Don't forget you need us, Say our names together." Britt said and I watched as they faded away. I took a step towards them as the left completely. I looked around and a tear ran down my face. They came to see me. How did I not notice them? I sat down on the floor next to the dresser with my knees to my chest. A knock came to my door bringing me again out of my thoughts. I didn't get up. I didn't answer I just sat there.

"Ame? It's me Val." she said opening the door. She seen me on the floor scared as hell.

"Ame? What's wrong?"

"Close the door and lock it. I need to tell you something." I said and she closed and locked the door and sat down beside me on the floor.

Notes

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