I opened my eyes to see the morning sun. I quickly opened my phone and no messages from anyone. I guess they haven't even noticed me gone yet. I sat up and looked at where I fell asleep. Jason....Jason I need you here. None of this shit would be happening to me again if you were here. I wouldn't be getting the blames from your grandparents and I wouldn't be miserable for losing people. I hate this life...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BRIAN'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I woke up to a massive hangover. The sun was shining into my eyes and I slowly got to my feet. I fell asleep half inside and half outside of the sliding glass door. I walked into the kitchen and found the asprin and popped 2 in my mouth swallowing them dry. I got a glass and filled it with water before chugging it down. I grabbed my phone from my pocket and checked the time. It was 12 noon. I sighed and set out pills and water for the guys whenever they got up. I sat there at the bar until I heard someone come down the stairs. I looked over my shoulder to see Matt. I pointed to the pills and water and he smiled grabbing the pain killers and chugging them down along with the water. Soon all the others were awake and I noticed Rage wasn't.

"Guys? Have you seen Rage?" I asked and they shook their heads no. I went up the stairs and looked in every room and couldn't find her. I went back downstairs and looked around the yard and she wasn't there either. I took out my phone and sent her a message.

~Did you go home?~

~No...I'm at the cemetary.~ Rage

~How long have you been there?~

~Ever since midnight last.~ Rage

~You need me to come and get you?~

~No...I'm not ready to come home yet and don't try to talk me into coming back or even coming after me. I'll come back when I'm good and ready.~ Rage

I was taken by her attitude.

~Drop the attitude Rage. I was just asking you a question.~

~Then stop asking stupid fucking questions. Now leave me alone.~ Rage

~You come back to Matt's or I'm coming to get you.~

She never answered. I slammed my fist into the counter as Val came into the room.

"What the fuck?"

"Val? Did you talk to Rage last night?" I asked and she nodded.

"Why? Is something wrong?"

"Hell yeah there's something wrong. She's giving me a bad ass attitude and I want to know why." I said getting mad. Matt put his hand on my shoulder to calm me down.

"Brian....I walked in on her in the bathroom and she was about to cut up her legs."

"What are you talking about?" I asked confused.

"She said she is cured but after Jason died she's been doing it again. I told her if she did it again that I would have no choice but to tell you and she got mad. I guess when we were getting drunk she slipped out on us." I looked down at the ground before gathering my shoes and putting them on while going out of the door. The guys followed right out along with me and we got into the SUV and drove to the cemetary. I parked and seen her sitting at the grave. She looked over at me and stood as we walked over to her.

"Why Rage?" I asked.

"What are you talking about?

"You damn well what I'm talking about." I almost yelled as I grabbed her arm.

"Let me go Brian."

"Why? Val already ratted you out." I said and she looked down at the ground before jerking her arm from my grip.

"I can do whatever I want! Who the fuck do you think you are?! You sure as hell ain't my mom or my fucking dad!" She walked off from us and Jimmy ran after her. She held onto him and I felt bad for yelling at her...How could I be so stupid.

Notes

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