I've spent almost a week in my room with the door locked. I haven't felt like getting up and doing shit since that day at the graveyard. Everyone has been knocking on my door to check on me but I keep telling them to go away. I guess I'm not ready to come out yet. Zacy hasn't even been able to talk me into opening the door to clean my stitches. I know if he doesn't clean them they would get infected but I don't give a shit. Why can't I just lay here by myself and not be bothered by people?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~3 DAYS LATER~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I woke up with the sun shining in my face and my body aching and hurting like hell. I need to get up and out of bed but I just don't feel like it. I pulled myself out of bed and grabbed some fresh clothes. I went into the bathroom and did what I could to clean myself. I put my clothes on slowly and carefully and came out of the bathroom. I walked over to my door and unlocked it. I took a deep breath in before opening the door and walking downstairs. I could hear the guys in the kitchen talking away. I got to the bottom and walked into the kitchen.

"Rage!" Jimmy said coming over and hugging me. The rest of the guys came over to me and Matt helped me sit down at the bar.

"How you feeling?" Zacky asked me while rubbing my back.

"Sore. Guys...I just wanted to say I'm sorry for treating you badly for the past week. I know you were just trying to help." I hung my head. Brian lifted my chin and looked me dead in the eyes.

"It's alright Rage. We know you needed time." I smiled and he kissed my cheek. Zacky handed me some asprin and water and I took them.

"I need to clean those." He said and I nodded. I sat there as Zacky cleaned the stitches with alcohol and it didn't hurt as much as it did the first time.

"So what are you guys doing today?" I asked.

"We have to go to the studio. The girls are out doing stuff so we're taking you with us." Matt said smiling.

"Alright."

"You hungry?" Jimmy asked.

"Starving." I laughed. Brian fixed me some breakfast and because my arms were still in casts Brian had to feed me. I hated that so much. Soon we left for the studio. Matt parked the car and we all got out. With the help of Jimmy and Zacky, we walked into the studio and they sat me down on the comfy couch.

I sat there listening to Matt and the guys play and write new songs for another upcoming album. I had a song idea in my head but I didn't say anything because I didn't think it was ready to be sung to anyone yet. I sung it over and over in my head and it sounded pretty good to me. I just needed to find some kind of beat to go with it. After listening to the guys play, it was time to take a break. Matt and Brian went to get us something to eat.

"Jimmy?" I said.

"Yeah?"

"I was listening to you guys and I came up with a song I'd need you for." I said.

"Sweet. What do you want me to do?"

"Well I need you on the piano with some this sound." I sid and began humming the sound and he got up and went over to the piano and played it perfectly. I smiled and he knew that was the sound I wanted. Zacky and Johnny grabbed their guitars and started playing along with Jimmy and that gave me the intenative to sing.

Now I think I understand
How this world can overcome a man
Like a friend we saw it through
In the end I gave my life for you

Gave you all I had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head
While I may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side

Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn under my skin, let it burn
Let this life just set me free

Took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never feel afraid

Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn under my skin, let it burn

I hope it's worth it Here on the highway, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you

So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I hope you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight

I hope it's worth it
What's left behind me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you

So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight

I finished the song just as the guys came in. They looked at me and smiled before giving us the food. Brian again was feeding me and when we finished they sat there for a litle while.

"So what was that song you were singing?" Matt asked.

"Just one I thought up while you guys were playing."

"It was really cool. Would you mind if we put that on the album?" Brian asked. I smiled and nodded.

"I would be really honored if Jimmy and you Matt would sing my song." I smiled. JImmy hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead. The rest of the day was great just listening to them sing and play. I laid my head back and started getting really tired. I kept my eyes open until it was time to go home.

Today was Friday so that meant movie night. We made our way back over to the house and I sat down on the couch. Brian was on my left with Matt on my right. Jimmy and Johnny were in the floor in front of me and Zacky sat in the leather recliner next to Matt. They picked out some movie that I can't even remember the name of. I leaned my head over on Brian's shoulder and my eyes started getting heavy. I closed my eyes and let the power of sleep take me.

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