Lost Without You (Jimmy Sullivan)
Chapter 16 |Just Compliments|
Ruby’s P.O.V.
The first night with Jimmy was actually a lot of fun. He was a lot of fun when he wasn’t serious and sad all the time. I get that he lost two people that was really close to him but I wanted to help him and help him get better. When we came into the house, we decided that I would make dinner while he got the movies from the living room. What really sucked about being with Jimmy was that Matt had came over and took away all of the knifes, the pills, liquor and other objects from his house. Jimmy wasn’t aloud to be without eye sight from me which was going to be annoying but still, this was going to help him.
We watched a lot of movies together, mainly horror and I sat there and drew most of the time but then it was getting dark and the movie was getting suspenseful and it was making me really into it and before I knew it I was hiding in Jimmy’s chest scared as heck.
“Aw it’s alright honey,” He chuckled and wrapped his arms around me letting me feel safe and secure with him. I snuggled to his chest and just stayed like this. My heart was flipping and my stomach filling with butterflies. His fingers were running through my hair, my body relaxing in his embrace.
When the movie finished, I was nearly asleep and so was he. So, he helped me upstairs and took me to the guest room were I was staying and I came and crashed onto the bed only to wake up with crying. I looked at the digital clock, seeing it read 2:35 a.m. I sat up and swung my legs over the bed hearing Jimmy crying.
I came over to his room seeing it open just a little bit and slowly opened the door and came inside. He was curled up in to a ball, gripping into his pillow while he cried, his legs coming out from behind him as he mumbled and started to move a lot more. His pillow fell off of his bed, his back on the mattress now as he stared up at the ceiling. I tipped toed inside, hearing him crying again.
“Jimmy,” I came over to his bed and came and hovered over him, straddling so he couldn’t move anymore. I smacked his cheek lightly as he thrashed his head saying no, no, “Jimmy honey get up,” I said lightly and smacked him lightly again, “Get up Jimmy,” I told him again this time a bit louder. His head went back and forth some more, more small cries and whimpers coming from him but finally, he was awake. He jolted, causing me to fall back as he sat up.
His chest was heaving as sweat came down his forehead, he looked white as the bed sheet and as scared as a rabbit. I came and sat up again and wrapped my arms around him and just held him tightly. I felt his arms wrap around mine lightly and he came and snuggled to my neck before he started to cry. I held him and rocked him, telling him it was going to be alright.
“I need you,” He whispered to me, his voice filled with hurt. I was going to be here for him, no matter what I was going to be here for him.
“I’m here Jimmy,” I whispered and rocked him. After a while, he calmed down and we laid down on the bed next to one another and he told me his dream that he had. It sounded like a nightmare but sadly, back then it was a nightmare. He dreamt of Brian passing again, the demons tormenting him about it. They kept showing him how it was all his fault, how it was no one else’s fault but his. He should of went out and grabbed Brian instead of letting him go. He told me it was like putting a gun to Brian’s head and pulling the trigger.
“Oh Jimmy,” I whispered and pulled him into my embrace. He cuddled to me, him nuzzling his face into mine, “Don’t say that alright? It was his choice,” I whispered to him.
“I wish he didn’t do it, Ruby. I miss him so much,” He whispered.
“I know Jimmy,” I whispered and held him close to me.
Moments had passed and we were laying in bed next to one another, me holding him as I covered us up. He didn’t want me to leave and I didn’t mind it at all, I understood.
“Thank you Ruby,” He whispered to me. He pulled away so that he could look up at me and I smiled.
“Your welcome,” I smiled at him. But then, our eyes locked with one another’s and I smiled, going lost in his beautiful blue eyes.
“Your beautiful,” He whispered to me, his fingers lightly touching my cheek as he told me. I felt myself blush lightly as he called me that and I swallowed. He couldn’t like me, he was confused, he was confused because he had lost his best friend. But, then again, it was just a compliment.
“So are you,” I said with a light chuckle. He looked at me and for the first time tonight I saw his eyes brightening and a bright smile spread on his face as I told him. Before I knew it, his lips lightly touched mine and he cuddled up to me and fell asleep while I stayed up for hours wondering why he had kissed me.
The first night with Jimmy was actually a lot of fun. He was a lot of fun when he wasn’t serious and sad all the time. I get that he lost two people that was really close to him but I wanted to help him and help him get better. When we came into the house, we decided that I would make dinner while he got the movies from the living room. What really sucked about being with Jimmy was that Matt had came over and took away all of the knifes, the pills, liquor and other objects from his house. Jimmy wasn’t aloud to be without eye sight from me which was going to be annoying but still, this was going to help him.
We watched a lot of movies together, mainly horror and I sat there and drew most of the time but then it was getting dark and the movie was getting suspenseful and it was making me really into it and before I knew it I was hiding in Jimmy’s chest scared as heck.
“Aw it’s alright honey,” He chuckled and wrapped his arms around me letting me feel safe and secure with him. I snuggled to his chest and just stayed like this. My heart was flipping and my stomach filling with butterflies. His fingers were running through my hair, my body relaxing in his embrace.
When the movie finished, I was nearly asleep and so was he. So, he helped me upstairs and took me to the guest room were I was staying and I came and crashed onto the bed only to wake up with crying. I looked at the digital clock, seeing it read 2:35 a.m. I sat up and swung my legs over the bed hearing Jimmy crying.
I came over to his room seeing it open just a little bit and slowly opened the door and came inside. He was curled up in to a ball, gripping into his pillow while he cried, his legs coming out from behind him as he mumbled and started to move a lot more. His pillow fell off of his bed, his back on the mattress now as he stared up at the ceiling. I tipped toed inside, hearing him crying again.
“Jimmy,” I came over to his bed and came and hovered over him, straddling so he couldn’t move anymore. I smacked his cheek lightly as he thrashed his head saying no, no, “Jimmy honey get up,” I said lightly and smacked him lightly again, “Get up Jimmy,” I told him again this time a bit louder. His head went back and forth some more, more small cries and whimpers coming from him but finally, he was awake. He jolted, causing me to fall back as he sat up.
His chest was heaving as sweat came down his forehead, he looked white as the bed sheet and as scared as a rabbit. I came and sat up again and wrapped my arms around him and just held him tightly. I felt his arms wrap around mine lightly and he came and snuggled to my neck before he started to cry. I held him and rocked him, telling him it was going to be alright.
“I need you,” He whispered to me, his voice filled with hurt. I was going to be here for him, no matter what I was going to be here for him.
“I’m here Jimmy,” I whispered and rocked him. After a while, he calmed down and we laid down on the bed next to one another and he told me his dream that he had. It sounded like a nightmare but sadly, back then it was a nightmare. He dreamt of Brian passing again, the demons tormenting him about it. They kept showing him how it was all his fault, how it was no one else’s fault but his. He should of went out and grabbed Brian instead of letting him go. He told me it was like putting a gun to Brian’s head and pulling the trigger.
“Oh Jimmy,” I whispered and pulled him into my embrace. He cuddled to me, him nuzzling his face into mine, “Don’t say that alright? It was his choice,” I whispered to him.
“I wish he didn’t do it, Ruby. I miss him so much,” He whispered.
“I know Jimmy,” I whispered and held him close to me.
Moments had passed and we were laying in bed next to one another, me holding him as I covered us up. He didn’t want me to leave and I didn’t mind it at all, I understood.
“Thank you Ruby,” He whispered to me. He pulled away so that he could look up at me and I smiled.
“Your welcome,” I smiled at him. But then, our eyes locked with one another’s and I smiled, going lost in his beautiful blue eyes.
“Your beautiful,” He whispered to me, his fingers lightly touching my cheek as he told me. I felt myself blush lightly as he called me that and I swallowed. He couldn’t like me, he was confused, he was confused because he had lost his best friend. But, then again, it was just a compliment.
“So are you,” I said with a light chuckle. He looked at me and for the first time tonight I saw his eyes brightening and a bright smile spread on his face as I told him. Before I knew it, his lips lightly touched mine and he cuddled up to me and fell asleep while I stayed up for hours wondering why he had kissed me.
@RubySullivan0
No no no, not deleting please. It's not that bad, that it has to be deleted. Really not! Yeah you're right. F.ex. the marriage thing.. this just came out of the blue. One chapter before Jimmy was like mad at her and really disappointed and then bam everything's fine again and he proposes but the two weren't really together before. Just a bit strange. But I loved the beginning, it was amazing with Jimmy and Ruby how they just connected without knowing each other. Very cool :D
12/28/13