Ruby’s P.O.V.
I had my bags packed ready to go and move into Jimmy’s home with him. I wasn’t ready for this and I wasn’t ready to be with him for a month. I looked at my trailer, seeing everything picked up and ready for me to leave and I did so, loading up my car and drove off to his house. I was happy that Abby was alright now and I was happy that Jimmy had gotten punished for what he had down but then again, I just wish that Abby was allowed to see her uncle.
I had came to Papa’s house and visited Abby for a while, her saying how much she loved me, how she cuddled to me. It was just, shocking how much of a person I was to her. A mother figure to her and it made me feel good about things.
“I love you mommy,” She said cuddled up to me on the couch. She was coloring a picture for her uncle that I was going to give him.
“I love you too princess,” I smiled at her. I ran my fingers through her hair and held her close. She finished the beautiful picture of her and her uncle and me. She smiled at me and showed me, her uncle having crazy hair and this big smile on his face, his hand holding mine and I looked really sad.
“Why am I sad baby?” I asked her gently. I looked at the little girl in the middle of the picture and saw she was happy too. Why in the world was I sad?
“Because you lost Lisa and you lost my real mommy and you miss her,” she told me, “And you don’t like daddy Shimmy,” She explained to me. I frowned. I did lose Lisa only because her father was a total jerk and used me and then lied to me. And yes, I didn’t like Jimmy for the simple fact that he drank his life away almost. He face up this precious little girl and he was lucky that she wasn’t in the adoption agency with people that she didn’t know and that she was safe with family again.
“I need to get going baby girl,” I said gently and kissed the top of her head.
“Ok mommy, I love you,” She smiled brightly at me and hugged me tightly as she handed me the picture saying ‘daddy Jimmy’ on it, of course I had helped her write it. I folded it and put it into my pocket and went to Papa Gates and thanked him for watching Abby, he laughed and said thank you for watching Jimmy.
I left to Jimmy’s home, telling him that I was coming. He didn’t sound happy at all and it was making me kind of worried. I came to his driveway, seeing his car parked into the driveway, him sitting on his steps smoking a cigarette. I turned off the ignition, taking a deep breath and looked at him, him not looking to happy at all.
Jimmy’s P.O.V.
I didn’t want her here, I didn’t want anyone here with me. I was dead, gone. My brother was gone, my sister was gone, Ruby probably hated my guts, Zacky hates me I know that. Then there was Abby, I lost her because of my stupidity. I want her back, I didn’t want her with Papa. Yes she was safe but dang it, I was supposed to take care of her. If Ruby wasn’t here, I would probably do something stupid again.
She came out of her car, her wearing a smaller then normal black shirt that hugged her nicely showing her belly a little. Her short cropped hair, her red bangs hanging in her face. She looked so dang beautiful but I knew that she could never like someone like me, she was with her boss which I have to admit it was pretty weird.
“Hey,” She said with a fake smile. I always seen that smile from girls. They would always seem like they were happy to see me when I knew in fact they weren’t at all. She was just doing this for someone, she didn’t want to help me she didn’t want anything to do with me.
“Hi,” I muttered. She came over to the porch and set her bag down and came and sat down beside me and I took a drag of my cigarette. Having her sit by me made me feel calm though, her presence calmed down my racing heart which I was thankful for but for some reason, I couldn’t help but feel angry towards her.
“Why are you here?” I whispered towards her. She looked over to me, moving her red bangs from her face and gave me a light smile, me seeing her beautiful brown eyes that made me melt inside. She was so beautiful, so caring…but why was she here? Did she feel bad for me or what?
“To be honest, Papa asked me to come and watch you. That and your on third party and I am the only one that’s semi mad at you,” She said and looked down to her feet and took a big breath, “The reason being-”
“Abby,” I butted in, “I know you made that plan and simple yesterday,” I told her. I was sick of being blamed for everything, I was even blamed for Brian’s death and it was starting to get to me. My brother’s were becoming more and more distant. I hated that they were blaming me and I hated the fact that they were shoving me away from them. Zacky was totally mad at me with me beating the crap out of him and then ‘killing’ Brian. Needless to say, Zacky and I weren’t friends.
“I feel so lost Ruby,” I whispered, flicking the butt out of my fingers and sighed, “And scared,” I told her. Which I really was, I was scared of losing everyone and everything I had ever worked for and dreamed about.
I felt her hand on mine, me looking up to her seeing this soft smile on her face that made my heart race. I wanted to be with her so bad, I want her to love me like how I did, or at least I think I love her. I wasn’t sure about it but I just wanted her to care about me.
“It’s alright Jimmy, I’m here for you alright?” She said cocking her head to the side just a bit which I have to admit was the most cutest thing she could do. I smiled and hugged her tightly, feeling her arms around me made me feel safe. I just hope she was right, that she was there for me because I was lost without her.