I slipped on some purple skinny jeans with a Metallica t-shirt on. I put my hair up in a messy bun and put a thin line of eyeliner on. I grabbed my keys and was out the door.

I pulled up to Aaron's house. It's been forever since I've been here. I got out and walked up to the door and knocked. Aaron opened it and smiled. "Lex I'm so glad you came. Come in," he said. I walked in and sat down on his couch. His house still looked exactly the same.

"You want a beer," he asked. I nodded. He walked into his kitchen opened up the refrigerator and got a beer and handed it to me. I cracked it open and took a small drink of the liquid. I set it down on the table.

"So why did you want to see me," I asked him.

"It's about Brian," he said. I sighed.

"I just saw him okay I don't need to deal with his shit anymore," I snapped.

"Whoa, don't get pissed off at me," he said.

"I'm not I'm just telling you that I don't want anything to do with him anymore," I said. He nodded.

"I know this but you need to listen to me," he said. I looked at him.

"Okay I'm listening," I said frustrated.

"He loves you Lex," he started to say. I rolled my eyes.

"No, I'm serious okay? He is doing everything he can do get you back," he said. I stood up.

"I'm not dealing with this shit Aaron I didn't want to leave from having it out with him to come here and talk about him some more," I said walking to the door.

"You know Lex when will you just accept the fact that you love him," Aaron said shaking his head. I swung the door open and stormed out. I ran to my car in tears.

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I got out of my car and made my way to the house. I tried to cry some more but I just can't. I don't think I have any tears left to cry. I know that sounds sissy coming from a guy but Lex really fucked me up. No I take that back Lex didn't fuck me up I fucked Lex up. Hearing her yell at me over what I have done to her made me start to think that I did take our relationship for granted. I should've just asked her out when I was going to at our eighth grade prom. Man she looked so beautiful that night. With her curls in her hair and her dress looked great except the fact she didn't have boobs to fill it out. I laughed. That was a great night not only did we have a great time together but that was the night of our first kiss. I can remember it so well.

"Lex," I said holding her close.

She looked up at me and smiled. "Yeah Bri," she said so sweetly.

"I had a great time tonight," I told her. She nodded.

"So did I," she said pulling away from me. I felt this connection that I've never before. It was strange. It was kind of scary. She was just about to turn around to go inside her house when I grabbed her arm.

"Lex wait," I said. She looked at me. I leaned in and pressed my lips upon hers. At first she was tense but then slowly relaxed. It was amazing. I pulled away and smiled.

"Goodnight Lex," I said.

"Goodnight," she told me smiling. Her face was so bright but my stomach was turning. I didn't know if that was the right decision. She opened her door and went inside. I turned around and ran back to my dad's car and got in. The whole ride home he wouldn't shut up about the kiss. I loved Lexi so much but it just wasn't going to go anywhere. I don't even know why I kissed her. She doesn't even love me. I began to freak out.

The next day I instantly ignored her. I felt terrible for doing so but I had no choice. I made the mistake of kissing her because now she might think I'm some dumb ass or something. Plus this is just middle school love it doesn't mean anything.

It does mean something. I thought to myself about that night. I regretted kissing her. I did only think it was only going to last that year. Plus, she started to get close to Jimmy. I never understood them. At one point they would act like they were dating but the next moment they were just normal. I always forget to ask them if anything happened between them. I remembered when I started dating Michelle she started to date Brandon. That was crazy seeing them together. They were together for only a few months but they had so many problems. Lex was a wreck. I tried to be there for her but Michelle was a total bitch and wouldn't let me. She would get pissed anytime I would want to go see Lexi. Maybe she could tell how much I actually loved her. I think that's why Lex hated her so much.

I sat there on my couch and just reminisced about all the old times with Lex and the guys. A knock came across my door. I got up and opened it. It was Aaron.

"What are you doing here," I asked him.

"Lex is fucked up," he said walking in.

"Why do you say that," I asked.

"She won't take you back bro she's done," he said.

"I already know this Aaron please don't remind me. I'm going to do everything I can to get her to forgive me but there is only so much I can do," I said.

"Brian you can't give up whatever you do. She needs to accept the fact that she loves you okay? Come to the bar tonight I know she'll be there because of Sarah. I'll set something up," he told me walking out. I wonder if this is going to work. I got up and started to get ready.