The next week I didn't talk to anyone. Sarah, Aaron and Papa Gates all tried to call and come over but I ignored everyone. I forgot I gave Sarah a key. Finally after seven days of ignoring everyone Sarah came over and let herself in.
 
"Lex," I heard her call me from downstairs. I slowly got up and walked to the top of the staircase. "Oh my god Lex," she ran upstairs. "Why are you ignoring everyone Lex we didn't hurt you," she said almost in tears.
 
"I'm wrecked okay I needed time alone," I told her. She shook her head.
 
"Go see Aaron when you get a chance please," she said turning around to start walking back downstairs. "We miss the old you Lex," she said before walking out.
 
I fell to the ground in tears. She was right. Brian took my life and happiness away. I'm not going to let it happen anymore. A loud knock came across the door. I slowly made my way downstairs to the door and opened it. It was Zack.
 
"Zack what are you doing here," I asked him. He walked in.
 
"Lex you were right the bitch was cheating on him," he told me.
 
"I know I was fucking right Zack but Brian is too stubborn to believe me. I'm done trying Zack I spent two years crying over him. Never did he try to call to make sure I was okay or anything he just blocked me out of his life. I know I brought it onto myself but he still should've called or something. He obviously cares more about that slut than me and our friendship," I told him.
 
"Lex you got it all wrong. He did try to find you we all did. He stayed with Michelle because you left him Lex. You know he did love her as a person but he was in love with you. You never realized it," he explained. "He always came to me and Jimmy asking how to tell you. Michelle was pretty much just a cover up and he ended up staying with her because you left him no choice. He was going to cut it off but you left before he could," he told me. For some reason I couldn't believe him.
 
"Zack I'm sorry I just can't believe it. He should've told me the million times he had the chance too. Yes I know he gave me signs of him having feelings for me but I didn't want to fool myself. He should've just come straight out with it. But no, instead he wanted to keep breaking my heart over and over again. I'm done," I told him.
 
"Lex that is your choice but all I'm trying to tell you is that he ended it with Michelle and he's been in his house crying ever since it happened," Zack said walking towards the door. I rolled my eyes. "You can't hate him forever Lex," he said opening the door and walking out. He was right I can't hate him. Another knock came across the door. Who could be here now? I walked up to the door and opened it. It was Brian.
 
"Brian what are you doing here," I asked him in shock.
 
"Lex, we need to talk," he told me.
 
He looked terrible. His face was red and puffy and he looked so pale. I stepped aside signaling him that he could walk in. He slowly passed me. He turned around and looked at me straight in my eyes.
 
"Lex I'm sorry," he said. I rolled my eyes. That wasn't going to cut it. I was putting my guards up and I'm not going to put them down.
 
"No seriously Lex I fucked up. I put her before me and you. I have no idea what I was thinking. You and I have been so close for so long and once we hit junior high my feelings towards you grew stronger. I never told you because you never gave me a sign of you having feelings for me. That was why I got with Michelle even after she cheated on me. I didn't think it would affect you so much. I was stupid for doing it though because all she did for me was hurt me and make me lose the most important thing in my life... you," he explained. My heart filled with happiness hearing those words pass from his thin lips. Tears fell from my eyes.
 
"I…" he cut me off.
 
"I'm not finished yet. Lexi you are the only person that knows me for me. I can be myself around you. Me and you have been through a lot and I let it go when you left but that right there was the biggest mistake I've made in my whole entire life. Watching you walk away was the hardest thing and then not hearing from you the next day I knew you were serious. I didn't look for you because I wanted you to have your space. But all I'm trying to say is please put all this bullshit with Michelle in the past and cherish the moments we had. The moments of me and you playing in the sandbox when we were three to the time we went to our eighth grade prom together. I know it wasn't much but that night was amazing. My dad always told me when I was becoming a teenager that you were going to be the girl I was going to marry. I always told him that he was nuts because you and I were so close I never pictured it. But once we hit eighth grade all these feelings boiled up. I couldn't hide them. I went to my dad and he said just go after you but for some reason I couldn't. And now that we're twenty one years old I know he was right," he told me truthfully. I was shocked at the words. He looked at me waiting for me to say something.
 
"Brian thank you for finally coming to me and explaining everything. That's what I've wanted for years, but I just don't know if I'm ready to forgive you. You broke my heart not once but twice. I don't know if I even ever crossed your mind or anything Brian. I laid here every single fucking day wishing that you would barge in my door and just pick me up and tell me that this was all a mistake. It never happened, though. I fooled myself into thinking me and you could happen. You know I cherish the moments we had time and time again. But not one goddamn time did I realize how much you truly loved me. When you got with Michelle it broke my fucking heart. Seeing her taking you away from me killed me. When you first got together you still were the same Brain but as time passed you drifted away. But then when you caught her cheating on you the first time I was somewhat relieved because I could get you back. But the next thing I knew you were back with that bitch," I started to cry. "I had no other choice Brian. I didn't even come across your mind or anything. Seeing you together killed me because I've loved you since eighth grade. I vision us getting married as silly as that sounds, but that won't happen. Just because you had to be a dick and go for the slut. I could've treated you better Brian," I started to get really upset. "Not one fucking time did you come to me Brian not one goddamn time," I snapped at him.
 
"It's unbelievable that you could do that to me. All the years saying I was your best friend and that we would always be together, they were all fucking lies. What am I supposed to do now that you're here saying that it was all a mistake? I don't know if this is true or not," I snapped. I turned my back to him. "Not even once did you even care to call," I said. I put my face in my hands.
 
Brian's hand touched my shoulder. I fought looking at him. But the next thing I knew I was lost behind his eyes. He took his finger and put it underneath my chin making me lift my face. He pressed his thin warm lips upon mine. He gently pulled away.
 
"Can you please just give me a chance," he said. He placed his forehead against mine. Tears still were falling from my eyes. I didn't know if I should trust him or not.
 
"Brian, please leave," I asked him pointing towards the door. He looked at me and nodded. He opened the door and walked out. I shut the door before he could say anything more. I ran upstairs jumped in the shower and got ready to go see Aaron.