"Uh hi," I said awkwardly. He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed.
 
"Where the fuck have you been," he asked.
 
"In my own home, doing my own thing," I said.
 
"Bri's been worried about you," he told me.
 
"Papa Gates I'm sorry, but I have nothing to do with your son anymore," I said trying to walk away. Aaron and Sarah both stopped me.
 
"Lex now's the time," Sarah said. Aaron nodded. I turned around and looked at Papa Gates.
 
"Lexi I know what happened between you two and it sucks. I always dreamed of you two marrying each other," he told me.
 
"He doesn't love me. I love him. I've always have ever since the eighth grade but obviously he loves Michelle more," I said with fresh tears running down my face. I looked at everyone and ran out. I didn’t stop until I was home.
 
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"Great show Gates," Zack told me.
 
"Thanks bro you too," I told him while giving him a one arm hug. I sat down on the couch and opened a beer. My phone started to ring. God I hope it's not Michelle. I take it out of my pocket and looked at it. It was my dad.
 
"Hello," I said.
 
"Hey son how was your show," he asked.
 
"It was great. I'm stressed out though," I said.
 
"Well I don't mean to add more to it but I saw Lexi earlier," he said. My eyes widened.
 
"What where," I asked.
 
"At Aaron's Bar. Her, Sarah and Aaron were talking," he told me.
 
"Well did you talk to her," I asked.
 
"Yes but not long she ran out," he told me.
 
"Well what did she say," I asked hoping for something positive.
 
"Son I'm sorry it's not my place to tell you. When you get back next week we'll find her so you can talk to her," he said. I was frustrated that he wouldn't tell me but I accepted the fact. We talked for a while, said our goodbyes and I went to straight to bed. I wasn’t up for much partying after that.
 
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"Lex why did you run out like that," Sarah asked me while barging through my bedroom door. My face was puffy and red from crying. I felt terrible for leaving Bri's dad like that but I'm just not ready to deal with this. I looked up at Sarah.
 
"Oh honey I'm sorry," she said walking up to me and giving me a hug.
 
"It's okay I'm just not ready to deal with this yet Sarah. I'm just now becoming myself again. I don't need him in my life anymore," I said monotone.
 
"Lex stop lying to yourself please just accept the fact that you can't live without him," she said. "I know it may seem like you're getting better Lex but you're not," she told me. My heart crushed upon hearing those words. She was completely right. I couldn't live without Brian Elwin Haner Jr. in my life, and I'm going to do everything I can to get him back.
 
-A Week Later-
 
The next week was full of preparation. I met up with Papa Gates once to figure some things out. I was going to "secretly" show up at his house hoping Michelle's there.
 
Today's the day. I got up early and jumped in the shower. My whole body was nervous and shaky. I didn't know what to expect. Especially seeing HER! I got out of the shower and straightened my hair and threw on some black skinny jeans and my one and only A7X shirt. It was the one Brian gave me on my birthday years ago. I put on some eyeliner and I was out the door.
 
I pulled up to this brick house. My heart was pounding. I felt like I was on the verge of hyperventilating. I slowly opened the door and got out. I slowly walked up to the big door and knocked twice. The door opened and there stood Michelle. Her eyes widened.
 
"What the fuck are you doing here," she asked.
 
"Um I'm here to see Brian," I said hatefully.
 
"Michelle who's at the door," a man yelled. It didn't sound like Brian.
 
"Hang on," she yelled back, anger present in her voice.
 
"Sorry Brian went out with the guys," she snapped and slammed the door in my face. That stupid bitch! I knew exactly what was going on and exactly where the guys were.
 
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"Syn you ready to get fucked up," Zack said hitting my arm while laughing. I nodded. Everyone seemed to be trying hard to keep me busy so I don't think about Lexi. Nothing will make me stop thinking about her. I'm so glad to be home so I could possibly have a chance of finding her. We pulled into Aaron's Bar. My favorite. We walked in and Aaron came up to us and asked us how the tour went and everything. We sat down and started to talk.
 
"So Brian I saw Lex the other day," Aaron said giving us our drinks. All the guys looked at him.
 
"Really," I asked acting like I didn't already know.
 
"Yeah she's not the same anymore. You really should find her," he said. I nodded. What he didn't know though was that I was already working on that. I didn't want to think about her, so I just dropped the subject.
 
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I jumped in my car and drove to the bar hoping he would be there. I drove into the parking lot. I sat in the car for ten, fifteen minutes hesitating. Finally, I got out took a deep breath and walked in. Aaron was standing by the bar. When his eyes met mine, he darted towards me.
 
"Lex I don't think you want to be here right now," he told me.
 
"Where's Brian," I asked. His eyes widened and he pointed to a table of a group of guys. I saw all the guys I once knew. Brian, Jimmy, Zack, Matt and Johnny. I slowly walked up to them. Matt looked up and his eyes widened. I smiled at him gave him a small wave and tapped Brian on the shoulder. He turned his head and my eyes once again met his beautiful chocolate brown eyes. His eyes widened automatically.
 
"Lex," he said as if he was going to cry. I nodded. He stood up and gave me a huge hug. A few tears fell from my eyes. I missed him so much and I didn't even realize it.
 
All the guys were excited to see me. They all took turns giving me hugs and telling me how much they missed me.
 
"Brian I need to talk to you alone please," I begged. He nodded and stood up and we walked outside. I was hoping telling him the truth wouldn't affect anything.
 
"Brian I know I haven't seen or spoke to you in a very long time and I would really love to start hanging out again just like old times. I miss you, but first I have to tell you something," I told him in my shaky, nervous voice.
 
"What is it," he asked.
 
"Well, right before I came here I went to your house to apologize and to tell you how I felt but of course the bitch answered the door and told me you weren't there. But, while I was standing there asking her if you were there another man yelled at her. Brian I'm not trying to jump to a straight conclusion but she's cheating on you," I told him. He looked at me disgustingly.
 
"You will never be able to accept the fact, huh," he said walking away. He got in his car and drove away. He broke my heart once again and there I was yet again crying over him. The one thing I didn't want.
 
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I can't fucking believe she did this. I was so happy to see her but her telling me that Michelle's cheating on me is just unbelievable. I drove home and walked inside.
 
"Michelle," I yelled. No answer. I went and walked to our room to see if she was in there. "Miche..." I stopped at the sight I saw. Lex was right. There Michelle was fucking some guy in MY bed. "What the fuck is this," I yelled trying not to cry. Michelle jumped up.
 
"Brian I'm..." she tried to explain but I cut her off.
 
"Don't you even try to explain I don't care. Just get the fuck out and don't come back. Michelle we're done!" I yelled in tears. She tried to talk but I didn't let her. Her and the douche she was cheating on me with left. I buried my face in my pillow and cried. Not only did Michelle cheat on me but Lexi tried to tell me and I didn't believe her. I fucked that up again and I know this time she won't forgive me.