Lost ... For Love and Phone

The driver didn’t even have time to stop before Izzie flew out of the car and ran into the lobby of the hotel. She was frantically pushing the elevator button when one of the hotel employees approached her.
“Miss Izzie?” He asked politely. When Izzie nodded he handed her a keycard. “Mr. Haner asked us to give you this. He wanted me to tell you that you shouldn’t take no for an answer”
The bell of the elevator announced its arrival. Izzie quickly mumbled a thank you and rushed into the elevator. When the door closed, she kissed the keycard “Thank you, Brian”.

Her heart was pounding in her throat as she approached the door of Matt’s room. She was going to ask him to let her in, but she was pretty sure he wouldn’t. It made her extra grateful for the keycard that was in her hand. She had to make him listen. One way or another.

She looked up at the door. 1205. This was it. She took a deep breath before she knocked on the door. She impatiently knocked again, but she didn’t hear anything in the room. “Matt, open up, it’s me.” She hesitated “Izzie” It felt weird to mention her name, but her insecurity was taking over by now.

Even though her ear was plastered to the door, she didn’t hear a thing. “Come on, Matt, we need to talk. Please.” She leaned her forehead against the door. Praying he would open up himself. She really didn’t want to use the keycard.

First, she was half scared of what she would find. Second, she realized that if he didn’t open the door himself and chose to ignore her it would be so much harder to convince him. She really really hoped he wouldn’t be able to let her stand in the hallway. That he wanted to listen to what she had to say, or at least let her in to scream at her. It wouldn’t be pretty, but she was sure she deserved everything he would come up with.

Minutes passed, but no Matt. Her nerves got the better of her when she became fully aware of the fact that he really wasn’t going to let her in. “Matt, please” she begged.

“Shit” she let out when nothing happened “Come on Izzie, don’t be a baby now. Just open that door” she muttered to no one but herself. She scraped her throat to give it a little more volume, before sticking the keycard in, yelling “I’m coming in”

The door opened, revealing an empty room.

“What-“ Izzie looked around. “He’s not even here?”

“Oh I am, but I don’t want you to be” his voice made Izzie turn around in a flash. There he was, coming out of the bathroom. Izzie couldn’t help but gape at him. He was only wearing sweats, his feet and chest bare. There were still little drops of water on his neck and collarbone; he must have taken a shower not that long ago. She felt her pulse pick up in a very different manner than it had did earlier. Her breaths quickened and she had to pull herself out of the daydream that was about to start. Or better said, Matt did.
“You need to leave. I don’t want you here.” His voice was cold, his posture stiff, but his eyes betrayed him. There was so much going on in those hazel pools of his that Izzie was scared to define any of the emotions.

“We need to talk”
“You chose not to talk to me all week, you had me worried sick, you had your chance to talk. I’m done talking. I’m done looking at you, I’m done. We are done.”
He stared at her and Izzie shivered under his cold stare. The storm going on in his eyes had become an icestorm and Izzie wasn’t sure she was ready to face whatever was coming to her.
“Well. Move towards the door, open it, step outside and let the door close behind you. Just like you planned.”

She didn’t know if she would be able to convince him. He seemed very certain of his case. She looked down, not able to look at him anymore. She almost did as Matt asked, but then thought back to the men that send her here. Didn’t they warn her for this? Didn’t they tell her she needed to be ready to fight?

Matt noticed the change in her. She took a deep breath and straightened her back. He wasn’t sure he would be able to keep away from her. He wanted her to leave, he wanted to lick his wounds, move on with his life and forget all about how she broke his heart. He heard her knock the first time and he was this close to actually opening the door. He just didn’t want to. He had been heartbroken enough in the past; he didn’t need her to stomp on his heart too. So he moved into the bathroom, closed the door and turned the shower back on. It muffled the sound of her begging him to open the door, but not enough. He heard her clearly. And now she was here, in his room. He didn’t know who gave her his keycard, but he would make sure they would be without a job soon.

“I-I’m not leaving”

The scowl that went over Matt’s face didn’t go unnoticed by Izzie. Shit, he really didn’t want her here. The stubbornness she so often admired was going to make this all a lot harder. She breathed deeply again. She could hear her brother’s voice in her head Put your fucking big girl pants on, Izzie.

“I’m not leaving. Not until you listen to me.”

Matt just stood there, his arms folded across his chest. Holy shit, it only made the muscles in his arms pop more. Izzie couldn’t help but look.
“Could you put something on?” she let out annoyed.
“Why would I?”
“Because- Because- I can’t think with you standing there like that!” The annoyance was dripping from her voice and Matt loved that he still had that pull on her. He let the smirk that she loved that much pull over his face. He knew he was mean, but for now he didn’t care. If she wanted to break up with him, she’d better know what she was letting go. He couldn’t tell for sure, but he thought he heard a groan escape.

She started to pace up and down in a range of a few feet, wringing her hands, muttering to herself. When she finally looked up to him again, her eyes made him decide not to torture her any longer. He was still in love with her, even though she was about to break his already broken heart into even more pieces. He took a few steps to the bed and pulled on the shirt that he lay out there earlier.

“You have 5 minutes”
“Matt….”
“You wanted to talk. Talk.”
“I-“

Matt looked at her, that woman he had fallen so much in love with the past few months. He knew he wasn’t just in love with her anymore. He loved her. Truly loved her. That was why this was so hard on him. He didn’t have any attention for any women after Val. He wasn’t even interested in all the women that offered themselves to him. He just wanted to be with his boys, or make music with his friends. Nothing else mattered. Until he met her. Looking at her, being all nervous, made his anger cool down to a minimum. He wanted to hold her. Tell her he forgave her. Tell her he wanted it all with her. But apparently she didn’t with him.

“Why didn’t you talk to me this week?” He couldn’t help the question coming out of his mouth. He didn’t have the intention to give her anything. He wanted her to grovel.
“I thought it would be easier” Her voice was small, and when she finally looked up to him, he had to force himself to stay exactly where he was.
“Easier how?” He didn’t understand what she was saying. How could it have been easier on anything? He was worried. He missed her. How was that ‘easier’? Didn’t she miss him? Why was she here then?

For a long while there was only silence. Izzie could see the confusion on his handsome face. If she wanted this, she had to start talking.
“You are flying back home in a few days. I have to stay here.”
“So?”
“How are we going to make this work, Matt? I don’t see a way. That is why I thought it was best to end things. Say goodbye.”
He stared at her. Their eyes trying to find the story before it was spoken. “But you didn’t. Say goodbye. You said nothing. I was going crazy the past week.” His voice got louder to the end of the sentence. His anger coming back.

“I’m sorry.”
“For what?! For fooling me into thinking we had something special? For fooling me into giving you my heart? For making me fall in love with you? You damn right you need to be sorry! I can’t fucking believe I thought this was something real!” He was screaming now, pacing himself. With every step he started to look more and more like a caged animal. Izzie looked at him from under her lashes. He was so angry. But could she blame him?

“We did have something special. I gave you my heart too. And yes I also fell in love with you! This was real Matt. It was more real than anything I had before!”
“You are lying”
“I’m not. I wouldn’t lie to you. I never lied to you. I have been brutally honest from the beginning. Maybe that is why I decided on silence. I couldn’t bear to tell you the truth. See it hit your face. See the pain that I see now. It fucking breaks my heart to see you like this, but I don’t know what to do!!!” She rushed out the words, talking louder and louder too.

They met each other in the middle of the room, toe to toe, staring at another. “Last weekend was amazing. I couldn’t get over myself how lucky I was to be there with you. And then you asked me to spend your last week with you. Even though this was special and very real, it was ending. It made me realize you are going back to your life. And I’m going back to mine. No more flying around Europe, no more dates in beautiful European cities. No more you and me.”

“And you decided that all by yourself?” the venom was dripping from Matt’s voice.

“Yes! It was best for both of us!” she didn’t know what she was doing. She came here to convince him to take a chance. Give their relationship a chance, even though the distance, and now she was just telling him that it wouldn’t work? Even giving him all the arguments why. That wasn’t how her plan looked like.

“Matt, I-“
“It’s clear. You decided that this needed to end and apparently, you are the only one in this relationship. So congratulations, Izzie. You single handedly killed this relationship that involved two people the last time I checked.” He bend his head and stared at his feet. “Maybe it’s best if you leave now”

“No” her voice was barely audible.
“Why do you want to torture me more? Why won’t you leave?”
“No. This wasn’t what I came here for. I’m doing this all wrong” She looked down, before she looked up again. Not finding his eyes. Apparently it was hard to really look at each other.

“I love you, Matt.”

His eyes snapped up to hers, surprised by her words.

“Yes. I love you. I have gone from being in love with you to loving you a while ago now. I tried not to love you, because you fucking live on the other side of the world. But it didn’t help. It happened. I love you. I love you with all my heart.”
“Why Izzie, why-”
“Why did I hurt you? I don’t know. I didn’t want to. But I was a coward. I couldn’t think of a way to make this work and that is why I chose the easy road of ignoring it all together. At least. I thought it would be easier. But it wasn’t. I don’t know how to be without you anymore and that scares the shit out of me.”

“I love you too” Matt put his hands around her face. Happy he could finally touch her again. Happy she loved him. He bend down to kiss her. Softly. Carefully. This kiss was short and when they broke he was quick to pull her against his chest. She put her head against his chest, tears streaming down her face as she whispered “I don’t know how this is going to work”

Matt put his finger under her chin and kissed her again. With more want this time.
“Matt. We need to talk about this”
“We will. Later.” Another kiss.
“But-“

That was the last thing that Matt allowed Izzie to say for now. He pulled her to him and kissed her deeply. His tongue finding hers, their kiss quickly escalating. He tightened his arms around her and held her close. Afraid she might slip away again.

Matt moved his mouth to the side of her neck, kissing her there for the longest while, no rush at all to move further. He circled around the spot he knew drove Izzie crazy. Izzie put her hand to the side of Matt’s face to gently force him in the right direction. But Matt wasn’t planning on letting her decide though and just kept doing what he was doing. When he finally reached that special spot, just below Izzie’s ear, she let out a sigh first and then a moan. “You’re not playing fair” she let out on a breath, which made Matt smirk against her skin. If not playing fair made her stay with him, he would never follow the rules ever again.

Her clothes were quickly disappearing and not for the first time she was wondering how Matt managed to get her naked that fast and not take off anything himself.

Izzie pushed Matt away from her long enough to take off his shirt. She had been pulling it for a while cursing herself that she had asked him to put it on earlier. When she got rid of his shirt, she let her hands wonder over his muscled back. His skin was hot under her hands and she was happy to notice she was leaving goose bumps in the wake of her touch. They quickly moved to the bed and fell down on it, kissing, touching.

His mouth found the shell of her ear and he followed it with his tongue. He rolled her into him, tangling their legs. He kissed the corners of her eyes. Her temples. The edges of her smile. “You look amazing, Iz. I want you so bad.”

Izzie rolled onto her back, keeping her arms above her head and her eyes closed. Matt nuzzled the outside curves of her breasts, inhaling the unique scent of her skin. Matt took his time licking her breasts, not only her nipples, but ever curve, every swell. He sucked the upper swell of her breast just hard enough to leave a bruise. Unmistakably marking her as his. Then he finally went back to her nipples, giving them the attention Izzie had been begging for the past minutes. He ejoyed himself with her body, turning her into a squirmy, sighing mass.

His fingers trailed over her slit, finding her core hot and wet. He swirled his fingers into that sweet wetness. “Oh you are so ready for it” he murmered. He quickly removed his sweats and laid between her legs. His hands roamed up her arms, down the front of her body to her thighs. He scattered kisses to follow his hands down.

He loved the hitch in her breath when he let his tongue dip into her wet heat. He took a few good laps before he moved up to her lips again. Letting her taste herself on his lips. “Matt, please” Izzie begged.

Matt aligned his cock. His need to take her hard and quick almost got the best of him as he slid into her fully. But he paused to take a breath and just bathe in the feeling of them finally together again in the most intimate way possible. Matt’s eyes met Izzie’s as he made love to her. Savoring every little thing about her.

Izzie pulled Matt down to her and kissed him deeply. She let her nails glide over his scalp gently. Matt let a groan escape, his resolve to take it easy quickly disappearing. “Matt… Matt…” He loved she was begging him again. He couldn’t hold it anymore. All at once he upped his pace, pounding into her. He went all animal roaming her body. His big calloused hands gripping her wherever he could get his hands on.

They could both feel their highs so close they could almost touch it. When it finally hit Matt and he shot his cum with hot streams, Izzie was quick to follow. Her body arched as far as it could go to find contact with Matt’s body as her orgasm came over her like a storm. She hooked her arms underneath Matt’s arms, holding on to his back, pulling him as close to her as possible. Matt locked his lips to hers and lost himself in the taste of the kiss. It made him realize he would do anything to keep her.

After lying there for a couple of minutes, catching their breath, Matt removed himself from her. He got a wet cloth from the bathroom and cleaned both of them up. Then he laid next to her. They faced each other and laid there staring at each other. Matt couldn’t bare not touching her and softly put his hand on her face.

“I love you, Izzie.” He chuckled lightly “And no, that’s not the sex talking” Izzie smiled.
“I love you too, Matt. But I have no idea how this is going to work. I really don’t. I don’t want to be without you, but there is almost 6000 miles between where your life is and mine. Have you thought about that?”

Matt was silent for a minute before he started to speak “You know… I can pay plane tickets, you know Avenged has some time off, you know you can work from home, or let’s say California” His smile was contagious, but it didn’t unfold the knot in Izzie’s stomach. “Matt…”
“Yes it is crazy, but there are so many people working a long distance relationship, why wouldn’t we?”
“I don’t know Matt. We were going crazy when we were apart for a week. How will we manage to stay sane if those periods get longer?”
“Come with me then. You can find a job in Cali, you can come with us on tour, you can-“

Izzie stopped his sentence by kissing him. “You have to stop. I appreciate you trying to find ways, but this is just crazy. We’ve known each other for three months. You can’t talk about moving in together. You can’t tell me to leave my life and start a new one on the other side of the world. You can’t. That’s ridiculous.”

“Okay. I won’t say something like that again, but only if you promise me to give us a chance. Give the long distance a chance. We can make it work. I know we can. Please. Give us a chance.”
She wanted it so badly. She wanted to believe him. Believe that they could make it work. She put her hand on his cheek

“Yes. I will. Let’s see where this will take us.”

Notes

As promised! A new chapter. Are you all happy now?

I guess there is one more chapter coming up. Or maybe I will try to stretch it to two, because I kinda like the even number of 10 chapters.. Let's see ;-)
Haven't started it though, so it might take a little while longer.

Please leave some comments and let me know what you think <3