Living Life As Unconventional As Possible

Saige's POV

The next morning, I woke up in Matt’s with a killer headache and thought about what happened the night before. I opened my eyes and realized I was alone in Matt’s room and rolled on my back and before I know it I felt a wave of sickness and quickly ran to the bathroom that was connected to the bedroom. I barely made it to the toilet and mostly dry heaved since I did not eat much yesterday. After I few moments I stood up and rinse out my mouth and looked at myself in the mirror.

I looked like shit but last night was something I needed and Matt made me feel so good. I felt like I was back in my teenage years but this time around I would hopefully make some better decisions. I slowly walked back into the bedroom and started to put my clothes back on. “Matt” I called out and found him in the kitchen cleaning the mess up from last night.

“Hey, Saige. Did I wake you?”

“No, my stomach did.” I frowned and opened the fridge and grabbed a water and handed one to Matt as well. I took a long sip and thankfully I was feeling better than when I first woke up.

“Yeah, we definitely drank a lot last night.” He stopped what he was doing and wrapped his arms around my body and I leaned into him.

I felt a bit awkward since last night was the first time I had sex without being in some form of a relationship first but I was happy Matt was not acting weird about what happened. “I had a lot of fun though.” I looked up at his face and smiled and ran my hand along his arm. “I don’t want to make this weird or anything but I understand if you only wanted us to be a one-night thing.” I tried not to get emotional because Matt did not need to see that.

I then felt his hand lightly run against my cheek so I would make eye contact with and I slowly looked and felt a blush coming to my cheeks.

“Saige, I understand you have been through so much with Benji. The last thing I wanted to do was use you if anything I wanted to show you that I’m still interested in you after all these years. So, I hope last night I didn’t give you that impression.” I did not know what to say and felt myself still blushing from embarrassment. Matt was such a great guy and I wish I would have shown him more attention when we younger and supported him like does with me.

“Of course, you didn’t. You made me feel like I meant something to you which I have been looking for a while. But I think we should take things slow for now if that’s ok?” I ran my hand along his chest.

“That’s fine with me. I appreciate you being so honest with me.” He smiled and his dimples of his smile made my heart race. I then pulled him in for a soft kiss and ran my hands through his hair. I felt some ease about what the next while will be like with Matt and I’m happy things did not turn out as awkward as I thought they would be. After we pulled away from the kiss I gave him a smile.

“I should probably head home and get some work done on my book.”

“No problem. You sure you don’t want me to make you some breakfast?”

“I’m not too hungry now. I got sick this morning so I should probably wait to eat for a while longer.”

“I understand how you feel.” He ran a hand through my messy blonde locks.

“I’ll call you later and we can figure out when we can hang out again.”

He smiled and pulled me in for another hug, “That sounds great.”

We then shared another kiss and he walked me outside to where my car was parked. “Thanks for such an amazing welcome home.” I smiled and I could not help but sneak in another kiss.

“My pleasure darling.” He winked and grinned.

I could get used to this but I knew I had to take one day at a time. I then hopped in my car and glanced at Matt one more time before I drove out of the driveway and the short distance back home.

Once I was home I took a shower and got dressed into comfortable clothes since I was not sure if Matt would be free later. His recording was much more important and I understood that since I have spent my life being involved with musicians.

I sat at my desk and looked at my calendar for the important dates and that’s when I realized how late my next period was. I was almost a month late and I could not believe I did not realize this earlier. I then felt sick to my stomach and quickly ran to the bathroom and dry heaved into the toilet and sat down after I was done. This was not the first day I had been sick in the mornings but I just thought I might have to do with the nerves of moving home and all I went through with Benji. So much was running through my head and what would a pregnancy mean for my life right now? I just reconnected with Matt and then I would have to talk to Benji.

I stood up and decided to get a test and see what my fate will be but I would just have to deal with the results in the best way I could.

I kept my comfy clothes on and decided to put a hat and sunglasses so I would not get recognized as easily. I drove to the store and picked up a few pregnancy tests and headed back home just as quick. I then grabbed a water and downed and headed to the bathroom and took all the tests out.

After I took the tests I sat anxiously on the toilet seat and waited for results and walked over the counter and picked up the first one. I took a deep breath and there was no way to avoid this so I looked at the test. “Fuck!” It said pregnant along with the other ones.

I felt tears come to my eyes and I walked back to my room and sat on the bed. This could not have happened at the worst time. I wanted to start over and now a baby was in the picture and it was not Matt’s. But I was not going to let this stop me from happiness and I would have to talk to Matt about this later.

I picked up my phone and decided to make an appointment with my doctor just to make sure I was a hundred percent pregnant before I would have to talk Benji and of course Matt. I got an appointment for tomorrow and then I could figure how things would go.

The last few days have been a roller coaster ride for me, on one side I had an amazing welcome back home. But on the side, I am not in the worst predicament that could happen at the time being. My doctor confirmed that I was indeed pregnant and I am pretty I went completely pale when he told me the news. I decided I would now have to talk to Benji about the situation and then tell Matt as well.

I sat comfortably on my living room couch as I dialed Benji’s number and waited for him to pick up.

“Hey Saige, how are you?”

“I’m good but I did not call for small talk Benj. I want to get to the point so with that being said I have some news to share with you?”

“I see okay what do you need to tell me?” I paused for a moment and felt tears come to my eyes.

“Benji I’m pregnant…” I trailed off and wiped at my eyes and I waited for his response and there was a silence for a few minutes.

“Wow well, I was not expecting that. I take it the baby is mine?”

“Of course, it is Benji. I am almost six weeks along so you’re only one who could be the father.”

“Listen I’m busy with planning the next GC tour. How about you meet me in LA in the next week or so and we can talk about this okay?”

“Yeah sure. Talk to you later.”

“Bye Saige.”

I hung up the phone and cried for a good half an hour. I was not expecting the reaction I got from Benji who did not seem happy about it. But at the same time, I knew how busy he had been with Good Charlotte lately.

I then decided I really needed to see Matt and so I went to my room and changed. I put a bit of makeup on to hide how much I had been crying. I then drove to his house and hoped he would be around. I walked to the door and knocked and I felt so nervous because I had no idea how this would change things between us.

He opened the door and looked surprised to see me. “Hey, Saige.”

“I’m sorry for showing up unannounced but I really need to talk.” He looked concerned and let me and shut the door behind us.

He ushered me to the living room and we sat down on the couch and I felt like I would start crying at any moment.

"Is everything ok?"

“Matt, I found out some news the other day.” I trailed off and I felt so nervous to tell him I am pregnant.

“I take it is not good news?” He reached over and took one of my hands in his and that simple action made me feel a bit more relaxed.

“I’m pregnant with Benji’s baby.” I looked down as the tears started to fall down my cheeks and then Matt took me in his arms.

"I was not expecting that but I am happy that you finally get the chance to be a mom.” I looked up at him and he did not look angry so I took that as a good sign.

“I did not realize my period was so late and I took 10 pregnancy tests and they all came back positive. So, I went to the doctor just to make sure it was true. Of course, it was and it took me almost a week to call Benji and tell you as well. I am still in disbelief that I finally get the chance to have a child.”

“How did Benji take the news?”

“Well he was also surprised but he wants me to come to LA next week so we can ‘talk.’ I am not looking forward to that since the last time I saw him we had sex but it was nothing special and I’m nervous as hell.” I wanted to be honest as I could with Matt because things between us were so good and the last thing I wanted was to mess things up.

“I can imagine and listen Saige I’m going to be here for you every step of the way. How about I come to LA with you. I don’t want you to go by yourself and I’ll be your support system ok?”

A smile came to my lips for the first time in almost a week and I felt happy that Matt did not take my news bad. “I appreciate it, Matty.” I leaned into his arms.

“I don’t want you to think your pregnancy will change anything between us. I promise I am not going anywhere you mean too much to me and I want to make us work.” Seeing Matt smile and showing his support made my stomach do flip flops.

“Thank you. We will go on this adventure together.” I then leaned up and pressed our lips together and knew this new chapter in my life would be a challenge but it I think it will bring Matt and me closer together.

We spent the rest of the day hanging out and it felt amazing to be in Matt's company. He then had to get back to recording and I had to get back to writing. I just hoped our trip to LA would go well.

Notes

Thanks for all of you for reading my story. This chapter is pretty long but I had alot to write about this time around. Not all chapters will be this long. Any feedback, comments, or rating is appreciated :)