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Why don't you love me anyway?
Over the next few months I spent a lot of time with Hurley, Matt, and Brian. Brian likes to joke that I only allow him to hangout also so I’m not the third wheel and in a way he’s right but at the same time he seems to be the only one who can bring a small smile to my face without even trying in these dark times. He also knows when to talk nonstop and when to keep quiet unlike some people. Currently we are heading to Hurls and Matts for a party, a party for what I don’t know but the Avenged boys doesn’t really need have a reason to get drunk and get wild. I hum mindlessly to whatever cd is playing as Brian keeps his eyes on the road. I can feel tension rolling off of him and wonder what is wrong but I don’t want to pry so I leave it be as we pull up to the house. Cars are lined up in the driveway and all along the street; I try to pick out who’s here by the cars but give up as we reach the door. Brian opens the door and I step into the house letting out a scream as Jimmy comes up, grabbing me around the waist, throwing me over his shoulder. I punch on his back telling him to put me down but he just laughs and runs to the back yard. Brian just shakes his head following behind us.
“Jimmy let me down now!” I scream out as he starts to twirl in circles making me dizzy.
“Ok if you insist.” He huffs out dramatically before dropping me on Brian’s lap. I stick my tongue out at Jimmy as Brian whispers into my ear.
“You better put that back into your mouth before I make you use it.” I shudder as his warm breath sweeps across my neck. I wonder what that was about because he has never been this forward with me but I decide to just ignore it, as I go to stand up his wraps his arms around me and holds me on his lap. I turn my head to question him but he has his head turned to our left where Johnny is talking about a song of theirs that he keeps fucking up while trying to record it. After a few hours and many bottles of beer and random alcohol later people start to leave one by one. I turn around to see Brian staring at me with a goofy grin.
“Brian are you drunk?” I ask even though I know the answer. He nods happily before loudly placing a sloppy kiss on my cheek. Rolling my eyes I stand up and turn holding my hand out to him.
“That’s not how its suppose to go. I’m supposed to hold my hand out to you to help you up.” He whines while taking my hand. I pull him up and make sure he’s steady before letting out a huff.
“If we tried it that way we would be on the ground in a heap. I prefer to not wake up sore tomorrow due to your heavy ass falling on top of me.” I reply while letting go of his hand and turning to walk away. I suddenly get spun back around and straight into Brian’s chest. Looking up I see the smug look on his face and something burning in his eyes that I can’t quite figure out. Leaning down he presses a quick kiss to my cheek.
“Baby I can make you sore in the morning but trust me you would like that pain.” He whispers before walking away leaving me glued to my spot as a surge of lust runs through me. I stand there debating with myself if I want him to follow through with his offer. I don’t get to ponder it long before I hear my name being called. Turning around I spot Brian and Matt standing on the deck watching me.
“Ads are you coming or not? You have to drive my drunk ass home.” Brian calls out while waving at me to come on. I head towards them but get stopped by Hurley.
“Hey babe did you have fun?” she asks while giving me a one armed hug. I nod as I hug her back.
“Yeah thanks for inviting me. It was nice to be around everyone.” I say as I hear Brian annoyingly calling out my name.
“Ads! Come on!” He whines out from the porch. Rolling my eyes I say goodbye to Hurley before heading towards Brian.
“Thanks for having us Matt. I had a lot of fun and I know this loser did too.” I say as I give him a hug goodbye.
“You’re more than welcome. Be careful taking Syn home. I’ll see you later.” He chuckles before letting me go. Giving him a smile and one more wave to Hurls I wrap my arm around Brian’s waist while he places his arm around my shoulders as we head to the car. Once we reach the car and I get him in and get myself situated I back out of the driveway, heading towards his house. Brian reaches over and turns the music up, making me grin when I hear what is playing.
"If I cut off your arms and cut off your legs
Would you still love me anyway?
If you're bound and you're gagged, draped and displayed
Would you still love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
If I cut off your arms and cut off your legs
Would you still love me anyway?
If you're bound and you're gagged, draped and displayed
Would you still love me?
Love me anyway!
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Go!”
I smirk over at Brian as he starts to play air guitar while singing out the next part.
“Cutting with the knife
Blood is spilling everywhere
She will be my wife
Secondary spine, incisions must be accurate
I know just what to do
My hands are trembling
I can't spare to slip up with this knife
Her beauty so illogical
The beast come gliding in
Hideous chameleon stripped down to her skin
Dance to the burning flame
Pleasure exhumes the pain
The night bursts into flames
Dance Helena dance”
I finish the last part of the song with him as I pull into his driveway.
“If I cut off your arms and I cut off your legs
would you still love me anyway?
There's a spot on the floor where your limbs used to be
And I close the door on my fantasies
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Helena!”
Laughing I turn the car off just as Brian reaches over and grabs my hand. Looking over at him he gives me a sloppy smile. Giving his hand a squeeze I let go, getting out of the car. He gets out of the car as I walk around to his side and doing the same as at Matts I slip my arm around his waist with his on my shoulders as I help him walk to the door. While helping him lean against the wall I quickly unlock his door and open it while turning the light on and toss his keys on the table. Walking back to the door I help Brian into the house while kicking the door shut behind us I lead him upstairs into his room. Once I get him in there he falls face first on the bed. Rolling my eyes I take his shoes off before grabbing a blanket from the chair and cover him up. He gives me a small smile before closing his eyes. I walk into his joining bathroom and find his Tylenol before placing it on his night stand. I then head to the kitchen and grab a bottle of water before taking it back to the bedroom and setting it down next to the medicine. Brian is already asleep as I place a soft kiss on his cheek. I turn to leave and just as I go to close his door I hear him softly call my name. I walk over to his side of the bed and look at him as he slowly opens his eyes.
“Will you stay with me tonight? Please?” He asks while patting the space next to him. I smile and nod my head before answering.
“Yeah let me just go lock the door and turn the lights off. I’ll be back in a minute.” He nods his head and gives me a small smile before I turn to walk out the room. After locking the door and turning the lights off I walk into his dark bedroom with only a little bit of moonlight shining in right on him. I notice he took his pants and shirt off and the way the moonlight hits his chest makes my heart skip a beat. I quickly shake those thoughts out of my head and strip down to my underwear before grabbing one of his shirts and pulling on. I quietly slip into bed as he softly lets out a few snores. I giggle quietly before closing my eyes. Just before I let sleep completely over take me I fell Brian place a kiss on my shoulder while pulling me to him, wrapping his arm around me. I fall asleep with a smile on my face for the first time in years.
“Jimmy let me down now!” I scream out as he starts to twirl in circles making me dizzy.
“Ok if you insist.” He huffs out dramatically before dropping me on Brian’s lap. I stick my tongue out at Jimmy as Brian whispers into my ear.
“You better put that back into your mouth before I make you use it.” I shudder as his warm breath sweeps across my neck. I wonder what that was about because he has never been this forward with me but I decide to just ignore it, as I go to stand up his wraps his arms around me and holds me on his lap. I turn my head to question him but he has his head turned to our left where Johnny is talking about a song of theirs that he keeps fucking up while trying to record it. After a few hours and many bottles of beer and random alcohol later people start to leave one by one. I turn around to see Brian staring at me with a goofy grin.
“Brian are you drunk?” I ask even though I know the answer. He nods happily before loudly placing a sloppy kiss on my cheek. Rolling my eyes I stand up and turn holding my hand out to him.
“That’s not how its suppose to go. I’m supposed to hold my hand out to you to help you up.” He whines while taking my hand. I pull him up and make sure he’s steady before letting out a huff.
“If we tried it that way we would be on the ground in a heap. I prefer to not wake up sore tomorrow due to your heavy ass falling on top of me.” I reply while letting go of his hand and turning to walk away. I suddenly get spun back around and straight into Brian’s chest. Looking up I see the smug look on his face and something burning in his eyes that I can’t quite figure out. Leaning down he presses a quick kiss to my cheek.
“Baby I can make you sore in the morning but trust me you would like that pain.” He whispers before walking away leaving me glued to my spot as a surge of lust runs through me. I stand there debating with myself if I want him to follow through with his offer. I don’t get to ponder it long before I hear my name being called. Turning around I spot Brian and Matt standing on the deck watching me.
“Ads are you coming or not? You have to drive my drunk ass home.” Brian calls out while waving at me to come on. I head towards them but get stopped by Hurley.
“Hey babe did you have fun?” she asks while giving me a one armed hug. I nod as I hug her back.
“Yeah thanks for inviting me. It was nice to be around everyone.” I say as I hear Brian annoyingly calling out my name.
“Ads! Come on!” He whines out from the porch. Rolling my eyes I say goodbye to Hurley before heading towards Brian.
“Thanks for having us Matt. I had a lot of fun and I know this loser did too.” I say as I give him a hug goodbye.
“You’re more than welcome. Be careful taking Syn home. I’ll see you later.” He chuckles before letting me go. Giving him a smile and one more wave to Hurls I wrap my arm around Brian’s waist while he places his arm around my shoulders as we head to the car. Once we reach the car and I get him in and get myself situated I back out of the driveway, heading towards his house. Brian reaches over and turns the music up, making me grin when I hear what is playing.
"If I cut off your arms and cut off your legs
Would you still love me anyway?
If you're bound and you're gagged, draped and displayed
Would you still love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
If I cut off your arms and cut off your legs
Would you still love me anyway?
If you're bound and you're gagged, draped and displayed
Would you still love me?
Love me anyway!
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Go!”
I smirk over at Brian as he starts to play air guitar while singing out the next part.
“Cutting with the knife
Blood is spilling everywhere
She will be my wife
Secondary spine, incisions must be accurate
I know just what to do
My hands are trembling
I can't spare to slip up with this knife
Her beauty so illogical
The beast come gliding in
Hideous chameleon stripped down to her skin
Dance to the burning flame
Pleasure exhumes the pain
The night bursts into flames
Dance Helena dance”
I finish the last part of the song with him as I pull into his driveway.
“If I cut off your arms and I cut off your legs
would you still love me anyway?
There's a spot on the floor where your limbs used to be
And I close the door on my fantasies
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Why don't you love me anyway?
Helena!”
Laughing I turn the car off just as Brian reaches over and grabs my hand. Looking over at him he gives me a sloppy smile. Giving his hand a squeeze I let go, getting out of the car. He gets out of the car as I walk around to his side and doing the same as at Matts I slip my arm around his waist with his on my shoulders as I help him walk to the door. While helping him lean against the wall I quickly unlock his door and open it while turning the light on and toss his keys on the table. Walking back to the door I help Brian into the house while kicking the door shut behind us I lead him upstairs into his room. Once I get him in there he falls face first on the bed. Rolling my eyes I take his shoes off before grabbing a blanket from the chair and cover him up. He gives me a small smile before closing his eyes. I walk into his joining bathroom and find his Tylenol before placing it on his night stand. I then head to the kitchen and grab a bottle of water before taking it back to the bedroom and setting it down next to the medicine. Brian is already asleep as I place a soft kiss on his cheek. I turn to leave and just as I go to close his door I hear him softly call my name. I walk over to his side of the bed and look at him as he slowly opens his eyes.
“Will you stay with me tonight? Please?” He asks while patting the space next to him. I smile and nod my head before answering.
“Yeah let me just go lock the door and turn the lights off. I’ll be back in a minute.” He nods his head and gives me a small smile before I turn to walk out the room. After locking the door and turning the lights off I walk into his dark bedroom with only a little bit of moonlight shining in right on him. I notice he took his pants and shirt off and the way the moonlight hits his chest makes my heart skip a beat. I quickly shake those thoughts out of my head and strip down to my underwear before grabbing one of his shirts and pulling on. I quietly slip into bed as he softly lets out a few snores. I giggle quietly before closing my eyes. Just before I let sleep completely over take me I fell Brian place a kiss on my shoulder while pulling me to him, wrapping his arm around me. I fall asleep with a smile on my face for the first time in years.
10/29/13