Matt’s POV

I sat back into the cab that Brian had waiting for us. He looked at me from the side but didn’t say a word.
My mind was racing and I had no idea if what I was doing was right.

“Yo, Matt…” Brian tapped my shoulder and I looked at him. “I didn’t mean to-” He started but I waved him off. “It’s okay… You are right. I don’t know what’s happening with me. I-I have no idea why this woman is driving me nuts.” I admitted and he chuckled.

“I haven’t seen you acting this way ever, which probably is a sign that there really is something going on, but I just want you to think this really through.” Brian sighed “I mean, that I never gave a fuck about the story of a willing female is one thing, but for you…that’s something big, man.” He looked at me with sympathy.

“I don’t want to see you miserable and her blaming you when she left him and it didn’t work out… I mean, you really should make up your mind, if you decide to really do it.” He handed money to the cabby and got out, he held the door open for me to follow, when I realized where we were it was too late, the cab gone and I groaned.

“You brought us back?” I stared at Dan’s house and Brian nodded, a smirk on his face. “Didn’t you hear what she said? She is supposed to pick him up, you want a scene at this party, or what?!” I demand and Brian shook his head.

“No, listen… Maybe this will help you” He lead me along the way up to the entrance, we open the door, which wasn’t locked and got back to the party, it’s loud and crowded, so it probably wasn’t like anyone noticed we were gone anyway.

“She is picking me up now… Sorry, I gotta leave” Jake’s voice travelled over the loud music to me. And I cringed, his girl is picking him up, the woman I want, the woman I had talked to only a couple of minutes before.

Could I really do it? When I was alone with Ella, I knew I wanted her, spend time with her, be close… but was it really worth breaking up what they had?
Would she blame me later? Would he give up easily?
Would she want me at all… at the moment it didn’t really look like that, was it all just in my head?

“Let her come in… Don’t be a dick, Jake” Dan’s voice sounded behind me and I saw how they stood near the entrance where Brian and I just had come in from.

“Where the fuck have you been? Gates told me to get drinks and when I come back, both of you are gone? What the hell?!” Johnny’s voice sounded but I didn’t have time for his bullshit now.

When the doorbell rang, my heart stopped for a second, I looked towards the door, but Jake and Dan were gone. No one cared to open and I knew it was a dumb idea, but I still walked towards the entrance, when the door rang again, I finally opened up.

“Hey Dan-” Ella stood there, her eyes wide open when she looked at me, her mouth forming a big ‘Oh’

“What are you doing here?” She asked and I shrugged “My friend invited me…” She must know now that I knew who Jake was, it was obvious.
I took a step back and let her in, she looked more than shocked and her mouth opened and closed a few times, without any sound coming out.

“He is here” She finally said and I nodded. I took another step back and motioned her inside. When she started to walk away from me, I didn’t follow her, I saw Brian in the corner of my eye watching the entire scene and I really wanted to strangle him.

“Babe” Jake’s happy voice sounded, he must have a couple of drinks a slight slur was in his voice and I didn’t know if I really wanted to see it or not, but that was what Brian was getting to, right? He wanted me to see, to see them together, to know if I was really up for breaking up two people who… loved each other…

I turned around when I heard Ella’s voice, I saw Jake kiss her and hug her to his side. I closed my eyes briefly. I had no right to fell jealous, but I did, and I never dealt well with it.

“You had a good night?“ She asked and I walked a couple of steps away from the scene, not wanting to be seen. I didn’t want to cause trouble here at Dan’s party.

“Now it’s even better, how about you and Liz?!” Jake asked while he waved goodbye to a couple of people, his arm slung around Ella’s waist, having her flush again him, and I really wanted to be that person, to hold her to me, to be able to show my affection, but I knew better.

“She had to leave, some emergency with her brother, but I don’t really know much yet.” She answered, and I felt Brian’s presence next to me. “What you think?” He asked and I shook my head “Not thinking much at the moment… I try to tamper down the feelings I have inside me.” I answered honestly and Brian nodded.

“Thanks for the evening, man. We should hang out at the gym again soon.” Jake hugged Dan and I knew if Dan would get wind of what was going on, he would be pretty disappointed in me betraying one of his friends.. well more or less.

When they made their way to the door, Jake pulled Ella close, he captured her face in his hands and kissed her, I looked away, not able to see it, on one hand wanting to get between it, and make him notice that I was the one who had kissed her before, who had spent time with her when he was away, but on the other hand it just felt too intimate to watch or interrupted, I should really think about my next moves, or if there should be any at all.

Ella’s POV

I tried to ignore the fact that Matt was at the same party that Jake had attended. I had no idea how it had come to this, but Dan must be friends with both of them, it made sense, since on Matt’s party Dan had showed up too.

Seeing them both here at the same party, was making me feel weak in the knees and not in a good way. I was thinking every moment Matt would tell Jake that it was him, or Jake realizing that Matt was the man who kissed me.

After him showing up at our home, I was even more confused than before. I had no idea where he had our address from, and that he had the nerves to show up their unannounced.

But then… he was at the party, he knew Jake wasn’t home, so that’s why he took a heart and showed up there.

I knew I had to tell Jake about the fact that Matt had showed up at our home, I needed to tell him the truth. I owed him the truth, and with all the things Matt said, I had no idea what was right and wrong anymore.

I wanted to be with Jake, he was the love of my life, I spend so much time with him, we knew each other, we love each other, but then why was Matt pushing himself at me. And why couldn’t I tell him just no?!

Jake was a little drunk and I wasn’t too sure if now was the best time to tell him about Matt’s surprise visit, but if I kept it for myself too long, it would probably only get worse.
I inhaled deeply and parked the car at the side of the street next to our apartment.

“You okay?” Jake’s deep voice sounded in the dark of the car, and I swallowed thickly.
“Yeah… let’s go upstairs, okay?” I said and climbed out of the car, as soon as I closed the door, Jake was before me. He pushed me against the car, his hands braced apart next to my hips, he leaned in and I felt his hot breath on my cheek, he smelled like whiskey and beer and I tried to avoid his eyes.

“Look at me, babe” Jake demanded, his right hand on my chin making me look up to him. He leaned forward and his lips pressed on mine, I gave in to his invasion and even though the taste of alcohol is evident, he still tastes as good as ever.

When I slowly pulled away, a smirk was on Jake’s face and before I knew it he has me in his arms and carrying me up to the door. With one hand he opened the door and with his foot he kicked it closed.

“Jake please, set me down” I complained but he didn’t even listen to me. “Jake, I can walk.. please!” I struggled in his grip but he was way stronger than me, so it was to no avail.
“Ssshhh, you gonna wake the neighbor’s” Jake, put his finger in front of my lips, then traces my lips with it and biting his own in the process.

When we were in our apartment he slowly set me down, and then his lips were on mine again, I try to form a real thought and come up with a sentence, something that I had to tell him, but when his hands run down from my shoulders over my breasts, kneading and playing, then further down to my hips pulling me into his hard body, everything else is almost forgotten.

“I missed you” Jake said in between kisses, his lips run form my mouth down my jawline, to my throat and I was like in trance, he felt so good, I didn’t want it to end, but I had to, but god… why did I have to…

“Wait, Jake… please..” I stuttered, but he didn’t, he lets his hands run underneath my shirt and onto my bare stomach. “Don’t say no, I missed you… bad…” His hands run around to my back and up to open my bra.

Before I could even say anything the clip was open and his hands moved back to my front and began kneading my breasts. I suppressed the moan that wanted to escape my mouth and take a step back, it’s taking all of my willpower but I managed to.

“Please, Jake. Wait… I need to talk to you.” Jake sighed loudly and held his hands up in surrender.

He let himself fall down on the couch and pulls me along with him. I breathed deeply in and out and tried to come up with the best way of telling him about what happened earlier, when I secretly knew, there is no best way, he will probably freak out and I will probably have to pack my bags and leave in the middle of the night, and I couldn’t even really blame him.

“What do you wanna say, babe?” Jake asked and though the lust is still evident in his eyes, I saw there patience and love along with it.

“I told you Liz had to go early, because of something happening to her brother, right?” I asked and Jake nodded “Do you know more, are they alright?”

I shake my head “It’s not about them… When Liz left… the doorbell rang again, and please let me finish off before you interrupt, okay?!”
Jake eyed me vaguely and I could feel the tension now in him, he is balling his hands to fists, probably already knowing what I am about to say.

Jake’s POV

“It’s not about them… When Liz left… the doorbell rang again, and please let me finish off before you interrupt, okay?!” When these words left Ella’s mouth, I knew something was up, and I knew it was something bad.

I tried not to freak out, before I even knew what happened, but it was a though work. I looked at her and she wasn’t looking into my eyes, she looked down on her hands and that was another sign.

“Ella, tell me what happened” I demanded and I knew my voice sounded harsh, but I couldn’t make it sound any other way, even if I wanted.

“The doorbell rang and when I opened- he stood there… Matt” She said and I felt something inside me break, or it felt like it at least, and the next emotion was anger. How dare she invited him to our apartment, how dare he show up here, when I wasn’t around?!

“You invited him into our apartment?” I stood up not able to sit still anymore. “Jake, no-” She started but I interrupt her, doing exactly that what she asked me not to do, but how was I supposed to listen by when she was telling me something like this?!

“You told him when I am not here, so you meet him behind my back? Ella, what the hell!? I thought… How dare you do something like that? I thought you loved me!? How long is this going on without me knowing?!” I yelled at her and saw her cringe, but I didn’t care, I had to know the truth!

“Jake, I didn’t invite him. And he was never here before… I didn’t even know where he got our address from.” She said and I stared at her, stopping my pacing for a second, she looked guilty but still her words sounded true.

“How long is this going on, Ella?!” I repeated and she closed her eyes, “It was the only time he was here, he wanted to know why I didn’t return his call’s or messages. I told you the truth earlier, Jake. He wasn’t here before and I haven’t seen him since you were back, since the kiss.” Ella said and got up as well “I didn’t lie to you!”

“If you told him you had a boyfriend, why the hell would he show up here, and why would you let him in?! Didn’t you tell him he should fucking leave?! Ella, what is going on?” I couldn’t form a coherent sentence, why would she allow something like that to happen?!

“I told him, yes. But he wanted to talk to me… and the way all this happened, I don’t know, I felt like I owed him that… I don’t know, god Jake… I have no idea what is going on either…” Ella said frustrated but I didn’t know what was so hard?

“Do you love me?” I asked her and Ella’s head snapped up, her eyes meeting mine for the first time “Yes, of course… I do…” She stepped towards me but I hold her on a distance, she looked at me hurt but so was I.

“Do you think I would tell you all this, if I wanted this to happen behind you back, Jake? It happened, yes… and I didn’t mean to, okay? Jake, please…” Ella looked at me with shock and her feelings seemed to be out of control, just like mine.

A strange calm overcame me when I said the next words, words I haven’t spoken before, because after our last talk, it seemed to be clear to me that he took advantage of her, but what if… what if there was more to it, more that I didn’t know, didn’t ask of?!

“Did you enjoy the kiss, Ella?” I asked and Ella’s eyes fill with tears, there was my answer. Right in front of me, and I was too dumb and stubborn to ask it.
“I cannot lie to you” She whispered, her voice cracking and I nodded at her, I knew that.

She was confusing me this much, why would she tell me all this, if she had feelings for the guy, I would have never found out, or not in a long run, if she kept this secret, if she really wanted to leave me, then why telling me that he was here?!

My heart was hurting, the intense pounding making the pain even more noticeable, I wanted to throw something, to hurt someone, to break something, I wanted to get the pain from my heart away, but I didn’t know how.

“Jake, I-” Ella took a step towards me but I put my hands up and she stopped, her cheeks showing clear signs of running tears but I had to protect my heart now. Even though I didn’t know if it wasn’t too late for that already…

“I don’t want to talk anymore, Ella” I said finally and she sobbed, it was breaking my heart, I love her, I do, seeing her so torn apart was making all this even worse for me.

“I will leave” She said and took a small step forward, this time I didn’t stop her. It was in the middle of the night, I didn’t want to have her around me for now, but also knew I couldn’t let her leave into the night like this.

I followed her into the bedroom, I still see the rumpled bed sheets from this morning, where we had climbed out of here, where I still thought everything would go back to normal, where my world was still okay.

“I will leave… I can’t let you get out in the night. I need to think and calm down, we will talk again tomorrow.” I said and Ella shook her head “No, it’s-”

“I said, I’m gonna leave. Don’t start another fight with me now, Ella! I will not drive, I am not an idiot.” I bite the inside of my cheek from saying more, things I might regret in the morning and when I am sobered up, for now it’s better for me to go, and that’s what I do. I grab a set of fresh clothes, put it into a bag, my wallet and phone and leave, for the first time in 6 years, I have no idea how this is going to go on.

Notes

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