A Little Pain Is Worth The Pleasure

I can't believe this! This is not happening not right now I needed to go to the doctor to confirm those pink lines this is going to change the course of everything I have to tell Matt before anyone else he could possibly have another baby on the way and I'm not sure if he wants another child but he's gonna have to deal with it if I am pregnant I heard voices outside of the bathroom maybe I should get out there and face everyone they're all going to find out eventually and I want to be the first person to tell them but first I have to go to the doctor to get the pregnancy confirmed before I can do anything about it... This is just what I needed.


"Dani are you alright?" Jessica asked on the other side of the door.


"Just give me a second Jess." I replied.


"Okay I'll be right here waiting for you."

I stood up and fixed my hair in the mirror customers were already getting impatient with me and I was just to sick to work the tables today so I had Franklin cover for me she was the new employee Johnny hired a few days ago and by her appearance she knew what she was doing the right thing for me to do was to go home and rest and find out what to do next time I had a lot more to deal with than working at the moment. I know that Matt is going to be upset with me but first we need to find out what to do.


In addition to my new to my family Fred was getting ready for his surgery he was so nervous he's not doing well and it breaks my heart to see him this way he needs he mommy I've been so busy with work that I had no time to spend with him this was just the, beginning of the start of motherhood human wise anyway but Fred was my first priority and I wasn't going to let his last days be spent in pain and suffering.



I described this day as being bittersweet but I'm about to be a mother and I need to get my priorities in order or else everything was a total disaster my mother was gone for two and a half years and my father was an achololic with a low minimum wage job there was no way I was going to let him near my child he's going to have to work extremely hard to gain the title of grandpa apparently Matt would be the last one to know about his baby.


"Hey Jess can you keep a secret?"

"Sure what is it?" Jessica smiled.

"Well.. You're gonna be an aunt." I scratched my neck nervously.


"REALLY?!?!??!" Jessica screamed.


"Yes would you keep your voice down?" I whispered.


Jessica hugged me tightly and she was so excited to start planning my baby shower this was all getting to her head but I knew she was excited to be an aunt but I still have to tell Matt because if I keep this from him he'll be devastated and he won't forgive me I can start digging my grave right now as we speak.



The only thing that was keeping me going was taking care of myself and Fred this whole time Matt and I had sex but it was unprotected and now we have a huge problem now I'm not going for an abortion no that's not on my mind I was going to be a good mother but I need to learn what it's like raising a child I was already a mommy to Fred but we're talking about a real human being and not a dog.

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