There Is No Me Without You

I felt like I had the worst hangover ever, as I sat up in my bed I looked around for a moment before it all came rushing back to me. I spun my head to my window which was lying wide open "Fuck!" I moaned Brian will never talk to me again, he didn't have to see that last night. I had to get up and go apologise to him for it, but first I had to check on my mum and make sure she hasn't hit the bottle again. I swung my legs out of bed and stretched, "Ah sleeping beauty has woken up, just FYI you need to go to a doctor about that snoring!" Brain laughed cheerfully as he walked out of my bathroom scratching at his bed hair, I jumped up and ran at him flinging my arms around him "I am so sorry you had to see that last night Brian, I didn't want you to see me or my mum like this for that matter! It just means alot that you were there!" I apologised as quick as I could, I was scared that he would leave at any moment he didn't need my problems burdened on him when he had his own problems. He pulled me out at arm's length and looked at me like I had two heads "you don't need to apologise for anything, last night was nothing. I was merely being your friend, I couldn't just leave you like that! Did you leave me yesterday when I needed someone to talk to? No you didn't, you took me to the side and spoke to me about my problems and helped me. I will always be there for you. You are my friend now if something is wrong you can tell me or any of the guys and gals, they consider you a friend now too. Don't ever apologise again because you need help." He was looking me straight in the eye as he pulled me in for another hug, I smiled and wrapped my arms around his torso, "I do not snore!" I laughed into his chest, I could feel his body vibrate from laughing too as we both pulled away. "You so do! You are so loud, pity help the next guy that shares a bed with you! Look I gotta go, I have a few Michelle problems to fix. You ok about what went down the other day? I know it got a little heated between you two!" He asked as he picked his hoodie up off the floor puling it over his head, "yeah I'm fine, just not happy with the way she spoke to me. End of the day though shes your girlfriend I don't have to talk to her if she doesn't talk to me. I don't want to make it awkward, if she asks me to back off I will." I said sitting on the edge of my bed, Brian's head snapped towards me with a raised eyebrow "no you won't, you will hang out with us whether she likes it or not." he replied I shook my head and looked up at him "I mean I will back away from you." I said slowly, making sure he understood me. He looked at me like I had just shot his granny, "yeah, uh yeah of course. I mean she has no reason to believe I would leave her in the first place right?" I laughed and shook my head "we have had this conversation Brian, but if you dont want to be in any more trouble with her I'd leave now. After all how would it look if she walked into your room and she saw you over here? Now go!" I stood up and walked to the window and pointed out of it, he smiled and walked towards me "you're a great friend, for the short amount of time I have known you it feels like you have been here my whole life. Keep that shit up, doesn't happen often! I'll see you later, need to shower before Chelle gets here. No peeking Love!" he grinned and hugged me before taking the step from my bedroom window to his. "In your dreams sweetie!" I laughed losing the window. I turned round and suddenly felt all happiness fade, I now had to deal with my mum and her depressive mood swings. I walked out of my room and tip toed to her bedroom to check on her, I pushed her bedroom door open a little and peeked my head around it to see her snuggled up in bed sound asleep, I smiled sadly at her. It wasn't her fault she just hasn't came to terms with everything that has happened, she just needed her rest, she had barely slept since moving here two day ago she was probably badly jetlagged. I snuck downstairs and into the kitchen pouring myself some fresh coffee and heading to the living room to grab my laptop and sitting all comfy on the couch, I had to contact Charley and Jason I felt bad that I haven't spoke to them since I got here. I switched my laptop on and waited for it to load before connecting to Facebook, I had 5 messages and 20 notifications, and 3 friend requests. The notifications were that important just games requests and birthday updates. I clicked on my messages and seen I had 2 messages from Charley asking if I was still alive, 1 from Jason asking the same thing, 1 from a Valarie Dibenedetto and 1 from a Zacky Baker. I replied to both Charley and Jason in group chat saying that I was fine I was just exploring making friends and unpacking. I filled them in on my mums current situation, then clicked on Valarie's message 'Hey hunni, how are you? I hope you dont mind me adding you on facebook? xxx' I smiled it was Val the girl I met yesterday I clicked on the reply button 'Hey Val, yeah I'm good thanks, you? No I dont mind at all :) xxx' and clicked send, I then clicked on Zacky Baker and realised it was the boy I met yesterday too 'Hiii! Added you so thought I'd drop you a line too...xx' I smiled well that was nice that they added me, I would have to see if I could find the rest on Facebook, I clicked on the friends request button and accepted Val and Zacky's request and seen that Brian had added me to so I also accepted him too, I searched for the rest of them and added them as a friend too. It was nice that I had met all these new people, it made everything better knowing I'd start a new school with people rather than be on my own, I sat my laptop to the side to make myself a sandwich and also make my mum something to eat when she woke up. I heard the little facebook notification ding on my laptop as I scooped up my sandwich and walked through to see what the notification was. I clicked on the little message symbol and it was Zacky 'Hey! what you doing today?' he messaged me asking, I shook my head and shrugged like he was able to see me I typed back that I wasn't doing anything, I waited two minutes for a reply 'fancy a walk on the beach? Everyone else is busy and it would be nice to get to know you a little better.xx' I smiled there would be no harm in spending some time with him, I had to get to know him too I replied telling him I could get him outside mine in 15 minutes all I had to do was get ready as I still had yesterdays clothes on. I switched my laptop off and ran up stairs and got ready leaving a note for my mum so she would know where I was when she got up.

I was sat outside waiting on Zacky for 5 minutes tops before he showed up with a big smile on his face "Hey, how are you?" he asked as I stood to greet him with a hug "yeah not to bad, how are you?" I asked as we stepped out of the hug "yeah I'm good, now that I'm here. Shall we?" he asked in a very smooth manner he even held his arm out for me to take which I gladly did "why we shall Mr.Baker" I laughed as I hooped my arm around his arm and began walking to the beach. I walk was pleasant we didn't say much to each other I walked and enjoyed the views whilst Zacky told me about the different streets and where all the rest of the guys lived which was surprisingly close to me and each other. When we finally made it to the beach we walked to the quite end and sat down on the sand, I took my shoes off and dipped my toes in the sand, relaxing myself into the sand letting the heat of the sun wash over me. It was heaven living so close to the beach. "So how are you liking your move here so far?" Zacky asked as he took her shirt off, must admit it wasn't the worst thing in the world he was good on the eyes. "yeah its good, big change but I like it." I smiled picking up some sand and dropping it on my feet, "yeah I bet it was, I hope you don't mind my asking but why didn't you and your mum make such a big move?" I knew it was bound to happy, I knew they would eventually want to know my background and why I moved here. I just didn't think I would have to do it this soon, then again I didn't think I would've made friends this soon either, "We uh moved here to get away from bad memories. My d dad died of cancer a year ago, and it was hard on both me and my mum. So we thought that it would be better to leave." It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it was still tough enough for me to have to catch my breath a little. I saw Zacky dip his head I didn't want him feeling bad about him asking so I placed my hand on his back "you didn't know, its ok. So, you in the band too then?" I asked changing the subject, it made him smile I supposed, he looked at me and nodded "yeah I play rhythm guitar, Brian plays lead, Johnny plays bass, Jimmy's on the drums and Matt's lead singer. Although we all sing, even Val sings." It was amazing to see him talk about his band he had the same look on his face as Brian when I caught him playing guitar and that was Zacky only talking about it. "It sounds great, I can't wait to hear you guys play!" I smiled Zacky laughed and swung his arm around my shoulder. We sat there for a while talking about all sorts of thing from the band to how the universe works. Zacky was just so easy to talk to, I could feel myself grow nearer to him we had so much in common it was unreal, he even asked me out on a dinner date on Friday which I obliged to, there was no arm in going on a little dinner date with a friend maybe it would go a little further. I did like Zacky he was sweet and it didn't feel like it was too soon either, it felt nice to be asked out by a handsome boy. He walked me home when it started to get dark and we agreed that he would meet me and Brian tomorrow to walk to school with us. "So I'll see you tomorrow then" He asked I nodded in agreement "of course you will after all you stay two doors down from Brian. You're practically my neighbour!" he grinned and nodded "I sure am, anyway I'm going to go. Good night Gemma, I had fun today. I'll see you tomorrow" He said and stepped closer for a hug which I welcomed "Good night Zacky, I'll see you tomorrow" He kissed the top of my head and let go of me and started his 5 minute walk down the street to his house. I waited until I couldn't see him anymore and walked in the house with a huge smile on my face, I locked the door and headed up stairs and to my mums room. I peeked into her room and she was sleeping, she was wearing different pajamas and her hair was wet so I could only assume she had showered at least. I walked over and kissed her head and quietly closed her room door. I walked into my room and stripped off into my underwear throwing my clothes into the washing basket, and grabbed my boy shorts and a loose t-shirt and throwing them on. I walked over to my window and opened it looking to see if Brian was there I wanted to tell him the good news about my date with Zacky. But what I saw was not what I wanted to see and if I was honest I didn't like it, It hurt to see and I didn't know why. I saw Michelle on her knees giving Brian by the look on his face the best blowjob he's had. I closed the window and crawled onto my bed, I was confused, I didn't like Brian like that. I don't know if it was because he was there for me, he was the first person I met here, he was the one that got me all the friends I have just now. But I didn't like him that way I knew I didn't. I sat there for God knows how long debating with myself whether I liked him or not and I came to the conclusion that the only reason I felt the way I did towards him was because of the moment we had last night. I jumped when I heard my window being tapped, I stood up and walked towards it wondering if I even answer him. But curiosity got the better of me and I pulled my blinds up and opened my window. "Hey Lovely, how was our day? Did you miss me?" he asked and I rolled my eyes and sat down on the window ledge, "I actually had a great day, I met up with Zacky went to the beach talked about life, he asked me on a date I said yes so yeah all in all a great day. How did your ass kissing go? Looks like I went went well from where I was standing" I smiled smugly letting him know I saw him, he sat for a minute looking at me narrowing his eyes a few times. "You're going on a date with Zacky? When? How? When?" he sounded like he ad missed the biggest plot in his favourite movie, I shrugged "We're going out on Friday, and he asked me today at the beach. Why?" I asked not really getting why it would concern him. "No, nothing, just uh Zacky's not one to ask someone out so fast after meeting them. I mean he didn't even say anything to me about it" I cocked my head to the side "I didn't know he needed your permission? Last time I checked I was a free agent and could go on dates when I wanted, no one had to ask you!" I snapped, it was the last thing I wanted to do and to snap a Brain made me feel worse but I didn't like what he was saying! He shook his head "no I didn't mean it that way, I just meant it in a I don't want to see you hurt kinda way, so he should've said something first" He reached out to to grab my hand but I pulled it away "I don't need looking after Brian, your a friend and that is it I don't need you to protect me, you don't even know me! So just don't" I yelled and stood up "Gemma I didn't-" I didn't let him finish as I dragged the blinds down so I couldn't see him and slid down the wall and cried. It was then I realised that I wasn't crying because of Brian, everything was finally hitting me and it was hitting me hard. "Gemma, I'm not going to go away until you let me in." Brian spoke softly I cried a little harder knowing that he was still sitting there after me talking to him the way I did. "Please" he sounded like he need it more than I did. I reached up and grabbed the pull cord and pulled the blinds up, "can I come in?" he asked softly, I nodded. I heard him shift from his window ledge and step into my room taking a seat next me "talk to me" he whispered, I shook my head I couldn't speak I didn't want to speak I just wanted to sit. "ok, I'll talk I didn't mean to offend you, it was the last thing I wanted to do. I just feel attached to you, like I need to be here for you when no one else will. I understand that this is a big move for you and your mum, but I want you know that I am going to make it easier for you. So don't hate me, it care about you enough to be here so take advantage of it. Please" I looked at him and he was staring back me, he reached up and wiped the tears away from my cheeks "I don't want to see you cry anymore. your face is too pretty for it" he smiled causing me to smile too "c'mon let's get you to bed" I nodded as he stood up and pulled me with him, he pulled my covers down and helped me into the bed then pulled them over me. He turned to leave but I grabbed his hand "Don't leave, let me take advantage." my voice was rough due to not talking for a while, Brian walked round and took his shoes off and climbed into bed with me. I felt him snake his arm around my waist as he pulled me closer. "Good night Princess" I heard him whisper as he snuggled his head into my shoulder, I smiled "good night Prince" I whispered back. It was now at that moment when Brian held me close I realised just how much love and care he had in him, we only knew each other 3 days now and already I was attached to him, I didn't get this attached to Jason and we done all the things I would be doing with Brian, somehow this felt deeper there was more meaning. I was falling for the boy next door.

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The next Chapter will be in Brians POV

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