There Is No Me Without You

**Gemma's POV**

I woke up to the sound of water running, which was odd since it was only me in my room so my bathroom should be void of any living thing. I slowly sat up and feeling a little scared as to who has intruded into my home. I started to panic when I heard moaning, what if it was my mum? I looked at my calendar that hung beside my bed realising that it was Saturday and my mum was out food shopping I started to freak out that little bit more. I quickly jumped out of my bed and picked up my converse shoe and started to walk to the bathroom slowly. The moaning that wasn't moaning but actually humming was familiar like I had heard the song before I just couldn't place it. What kinda weirdo freak breaks into someone's house comes straight up the stairs and starts humming there way through my bathroom? I slowly approached the bathroom door and opened it slightly I still couldn't see who it was as I was afraid that the door would squeak and I would get caught and my plan was ruined, to be honest I actually never even had a plan I was gonna wing it. I was a Scot after all! There was no point in beating about the bush I should just barge in and start swinging! I reach out to grab the door when the door suddenly swung open I screamed, closed my eyes and started swinging my arms, making sure to hit them with the converse shoe I had gripped firmly in my hand! "ouch! Fuck what are you doing?" I heard Brain laugh "trying to beat me to death with a shoe!?" I stopped abruptly and and snapped my eyes open seeing Brian standing in front of me topless and bottomless. "What the fuck is your problem Brian? You scared me half to death! What are you even doing here have you not got your own bathroom?" I questioned as I threw my shoe to the side and walked over to my chair grabbing my house coat. I was pissed that he thought it would be cool to just come into my room to use my bathroom. I had seen or spoke to Brian in the last 4 days, ever since he broke up with Michelle he had been avoiding me and now he thinks it's ok to just come into my bedroom when he wants? That shit don't fly with me! "If I thought you would get this pissy about it I would have stayed in my own room last night! I thought you liked sharing a bed with me?" Brian replied rather narcky like I was in the wrong for freaking out. I raised my eyebrows "You slept here last night?" I asked him, Brian nodded and smiled like it was ok, I shook my head "That's not ok Brian! You can't just come through my window at night and sleep in my bed with me in it! One its intruding and two its inappropriate as I am in a relationship with your best friend! I will admit that the first few times you stayed over was fine, I needed a friend and you were there for me and vice versa but now that can't happen and I thought you of all people would realise that as you just split with your girlfriend for cheating on you! What would've happened if Zacky was hear or walked in this morning when you were here?" I was so angry more so to the fact that he he as been no where to be seen that past 4 days and he was sneaking behind his friends back. I watched as he took in every word I said and with each moment he's frown got bigger and bigger I felt bad but I had to stand my ground I didn't want anything to get in the way of me and Zacky, and I certainly didn't want anything happening between him and Zacky. "I didn't know that it would upset you this much, I was drunk and I needed you. You told me you would be there for me I thought and last night I really did need you. I am sorry I snuck in I shouldn't have done that, but I don't regret it, I feel better than I did last night. You and Zacky on the other hand I don't want to get in the way of that but at the end of the day what he doesn't know won't hurt him." He shrugged walking around me and sprawling himself over my bed, my anger was through the roof he clearly wasn't getting this. "So that's what I am to you a go to person rather than a friend? You were drunk and needed someone to cuddle because you were having a bad day!? So you thought it would be ok to go to the girl that you have been ignoring for 4 days? I'm only convenient when you need me! I don't fucking think so Brian! As for Zacky not knowing what won't hurt him thats bullshit! You don't give a shit about anyone one except yourself! Get the fuck out of my house!" I was screaming at him now, and it hurt to screaming at my best friend but he had overstepped the mark. I he tried to contact him in every which way and he ignored me I wasn't going to be walked over and used whenever he felt like it! Brain stood up looking shocked, I watched as he dressed himself and slowly walked over to me I looked away from him I couldn't even look at him. "I didn't mean to upset you." he whispered as he stroked my cheek with his thumb then made his way to the window, "we will talk later ok?" he asked more as a question than a statement "Just fuckng go Brian!" I snapped. I watched as he left through the window, I made sure he was completely out before walking over to the window I saw him staring at me with his brown eyes glinting and welling over I had no idea what he was crying about, it was me that was angry at him I should be the one crying! I didn't want to lose him but he had to learn that I wasn't a doormat for him to walk all over when he felt like it. "Don't treat me like a mug Brian." That's all I had to say to him as I reached for the blinds pulling them down so I didn't have to watch him. I heard him let out what he had been holding in, and realised that he did need someone, but he had ignored me when I attempted to help him. I wasn't someone he could just use when he needed me. I heard him throw things and smash things up, it upset me to think that I was the one that caused it. I shook my head he had to learn. I still wanted to be his friend but he needed to know that I was with his best friend, his best friend who I was falling deeply in love with and I didn't want that to screw up all because Brian thinks its ok to sneak into my room when Zacky leaves, especially when I'm sleeping! That looks bad on me too. I couldn't imagine what would have happened if Zacky showed up at 9 this morning when he said he would, thank God I told him to come over later. It would have been disastrous. I was that deep in thought and listening to Brian have a fit next door that I hadn't realised that Zacky had come in the front door it wasn't until my mum shouted he was here, more to the point I didn't even hear my mum come in! "Hey babe!" Zacky greeted as he walked in and kissed my cheek I smiled, was I glad to see him! "Hey babe, how are you?" I asked as I patted the spot on the bed next to me, he took as seat looking over at the window hearing Brian mid tantrum. He pointed his finger to the window "Yeah im alright, is he alright though?" I shook my head as Zacky sat down cross legged in front of me "No, he's not." was all I could say, I had to tell Zacky about Brian, about everything. "I woke up this morning and found him in my bathroom." This was the beginning of hell as we know. If I knew what this would cause I would have kept my mouth shut. Zacky's eyebrows raised "Oh really? What was he doing in your room in the first place?" I could see Zacky's demeanour change instantly, "well that's the thing I don't know. I just woke up and he was there, I asked him what he was doing in my bathroom and he told me he had slept in my bed last night. Now before you go crazy cause I can see that you as on the edge, this was also my fault not just his. When I first moved here Brian and I shared a bed quite a few times, not sexually just friendly when i say shared or slept together I mean just that. I had a breakdown with my mum and Brian was there, Brian had a break down when he split with Michelle I was there. That's all it was but I told him today that I was in a relationship with you and I didn't want him sneaking into my room anymore." I know I sounded like a bitch saying this to Zacky making it sound like Brian was at fault with it all but I had to make sure that I put some of it on me I was waiting to hear him explode at me he sure looked like he take down Goliath with his stare alone. He stood up abruptly and charged for my window pulling my blinds up and jumping over to Brians room. This wasn't going to be good! I rushed over to the window and watched as Zacky and Brian started each other down, I quietly climbed into Brians room, you could cut the tension with a knife. "You think it's ok to sneak into my girlfriends room at night and sleep with her?" Zacky asked in a low tone his fists were tightly closed and his breathing was heavy, Brian was in a similar stance "Just say what you have to say Zacky, I haven't got time for this right now!" Brian spoke through his teeth, now I was brought up in Scotland I was used to seeing street fight and arguments, people were getting shot and murdered in my street every day but this was scary even for me. "Oh I think you have time Brian, afterall you haven't got the time to even speak to Gemma or myself but you have the time to sneak into her bedroom every night? WHat happened to loyalty Brian? I'm supposed to be your best friend!" Zacky shouted taking a step forward Brian smiled "I am your best friend Zack, but you have no idea what I will do to you if take another step forward! But I will tell you why I snuck into her room last night and why I have been avoiding the two of you and it's because I love her!" I felt electricity go through me and not in a good way, I looked at Zaky and he looked like he had been shot, "You fucker! How could you do this to me?" Zacky asked with ice to his voice, Brian looked at the ground and shook his head. "I can't control it Zacky! You love who you love. Yes I loved Michelle but the minute I saw Gemma that all changed, I thought I had a chance before she met you and that all went down the drain. You won you have the girl the perfect girl. I have nothing and no one, but when I had no one I had her. We would talk every day and night and she would tell me about her life and her feelings and I would do the same. You know me Zacky, I have problems with telling you and the guys how I feel but with Gemma that's all different. I feel like I can be me again when I am with her, sure I shouldn't be sneaking into her room without her consent and especially when shes dating my best friend. I couldn't bare seeing you kiss her, hold her, love her. It's all the things I want in my life. But you're right I have been out of line and I shouldn't be doing what I am doing with a girl that is in a relationship with my best friend. I don't want to lose you or her. But I can't seem to focus when you two are around." Brian looked torn and Zacky looked pissed me I was numb, Brian had admitted that he loved me I didn't know how to take that, sure I had feelings for him too but that was before I met Zacky. I just wish he had told me sooner. "I don't hate you for telling the truth Brian, I really don't but this shit is hurtful. You got close to her when you were in a relationship and then dumped her when you split even though all Gemma wanted was to make you feel better now you're telling me that you are in love with my girlfriend? How am I supposed to come back from this! Every time we are all together I will have to keep watching you get more and more hurt because I am happy? I can't do that to you or Gemma! So what am I going to do Brian? This is the happiest I have been in a long time and you know that, so why do you wanna fuck that up for me? You ain't the only one that is in love with her Brian. But I will lose her to you if she ever finds out how you feel. I don't match up to you in any way, you have had the privilege of having girls fall at your feet. It's a miracle to me that she even agreed to be with me! It's Bros before Hoes Bri and I will always have your back but get in the way of me and Gemma I will never forgive you." I couldn't just stand there in the shadows any longer I had to leave this was getting too overwhelming I couldn't watch this anymore, I snuck back over to my room and sat on the floor next to the window, I love Zacky I'm just getting to know him and loving every minute of it, but I couldn't help but think of how Brian has treated me since I got here. He had been the true meaning of gentleman. But Zacky was just the same, he would make me laugh when I wanted to cry he listened to me and advised me on everything I had doubt on. I couldn't just throw him away but I couldn't throw Brian away either. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. "I won't be stand in your way Zacky, I know you love her and I know she loves you! She wouldn't have screamed at me and kicked me out if she didn't care about you! I will back off. I love you to much to see what we have crumble." I heard Brian say it was quiet for a good minute before Zacky spoke up "Let's put this shit past us. Just keep your hands of my girl. And don't be afraid to ask for help Brian, You need it and we're all here to give it. I'll see you at practice." I don't know how he could do it, I would have killed someone if they admitted they loved someone I was in love with. But that was something else I liked about Zacky, he was gave second chances. I just hope it would pay off in the long run. Zacky had made his way back over to my room and sat next to me. "You heard everything didn't you?" He asked as he putted his arm around my shoulder and pulled me too him I nodded "Yeah, but nothing will change with me and you, or me and him." I had to make it clear that I wasn't going to play them off with each other. "I am yours Zacky, I am 110% all about us but Brian is my friend too and if he needs me I wll be there, I mean where can I exactly hide he lives right there! But I will never ignore him when he needs me and if he does need that cuddle and pulled back together I will give him it, but he will be told no more sneaking around if he wants to sleep here he will sleep on the floor, I don't want any of this coming between us or you and Brian. I love Brian too, but nothing will stop me from giving you my all." I said and looked up at Zacky who was smiling surprisingly. "Thats why I love you, you have the biggest heart and able to give everyone a little slice. I promise I won't let this get between us, and I am ok with letting you and Bri be friends. As long as we are all truthful that's all that matters. So c'mon let's stop with the mushy stuff, let's curl up in bed and watch a movie your choice. I'll go grab the popcorn." Zacky jumped and pulled me with him pulling me into him " I love you Gems" I smiled up at him "I love you too Zacky" I whispered and kissed his lips softly. I watched as he walked away, I was happy that everything was out in the open made everything a lot easier to deal with. I was staying true to my word because everything I said was true I will never leave Zacky but I won't stop loving Brian either. I walked over to the window and looked over at Brian sitting on his bed with a mess all around him "I love you too Brian!" I said loud enough for him to hear, he snapped his head up looking at me with a sad smile. I then closed the curtains and made my way to the bed. I sat down and exhaled the breath I didn't know I had been holding. What a day it has been! I will be glad to just sleep it all away and wake up tomorrow wiping the slate clean.

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