From All Ends

I determined that I was going to try to avoid all of Avenged if my life depended on it, I was tired of drama and tension, I just wanted time to go back to what it was before; me my crew and the never ending road. Eric knocked on my door before opening it up and stepping inside. He assured me that no one would be able to get my room number without knowing a passcode and even then he would be contacted to okay or deny the release of information since Matt knew where I was staying. I had an interview in an hour and then after that some of us were going to go hiking and relax a bit. Matt apparently got a new phone, as soon I stepped out of the hotel I was getting phone calls and text messages all of which went unanswered. Soon we pulled up to the radio station and I finally looked at my phone and one long message from Matt –I don’t know if you are ignoring me, you broke your phone, or if you forgot to charge it. I’m at the Oxford, I know you are too since you said you would be and I saw you walk out from my window. Text me, I want to see you but right now I feel like we have fallen apart. Let me know if I did something wrong. I love you---Matt. I just sighed, didn’t know what to say back; didn’t know how I felt, there was so much going on and all I wanted to do was finish this tour and get to my parents’ house so I could be in peace. At the same time, I wanted to be back in California and finally settle into the house I bought before tour. I looked at Eric as we walked into the building and he just gave me a sympathetic smile and squeezed my shoulder as if he knew how I was feeling. I shut my phone off and started talking to the people who would do the interview a bit before we went on air. After the interview we decided to go to the reservoir and hang out on the beach instead of going hiking. The vehicles that we rented had finally arrived at the hotel by the time we got back. I was nervous to head it since I didn’t know where the guys-in particular Matt was. I sucked it up and headed in with Eric, he said everyone was going to meet us back in the lobby in thirty minutes. As I stepped off the elevator and headed to my room I heard a door open, it wasn’t until I had my key in the door that I heard the sound of my name from a voice I didn’t want to hear. “Braelynn,” I heard closer, knowing he was heading my way, “Braelynn, what’s going on,” I had the door open and was stepping inside in hopes to get the door shut before he could make his way in, I unfortunately was unsuccessful, “What are you doing?” He pushed the door open, I turned around, my back facing him as I dug out my phone to text Eric and let him know I would be late getting down. “Brae, talk to me, what did I do?” “Matt, I’m sorry, I’m frustrated, stressed, confused, tired of feeling tension, and drama. I wanted it to all die down, I needed a mental break.” “A mental break from me? Is it because I told you that I loved you? I haven’t seen you in weeks.” “Not from you Matt, from life.” “Babe, talk to me, tell me what’s going on.” “I have to get ready, we are heading to the beach.” “No, I’m not letting you walk away, I feel like we are breaking up.” I let out a frustrated sigh, “Matt, trust me when I say that’s not happening. Everything else is just too much right now. I love you, I do.” “Then what can I do to help.” A knock sounded at my door before it opened revealing Eric, “Are you ready to go? The guys want to pick up some food on the way.” Matt turned and faced me after seeing Eric, I could tell that he was getting jealous. “I’ll be down in a sec Eric. What are we picking up?” “Boys are thinking subs or pizza. Who is this?” “Eric this is Matt, Matt-Eric my driver and bodyguard. Tell ‘em my vote is pizza. Mind taking down my bag? I’ll be down in five.” “Already told them your vote, you always go for pizza. We are taking off in six, with or without you. Nice meeting you Matt.” Matt just grunted as Eric walked out the door. “Brian wants to talk to you. We was all looking for something to do today, didn’t want to go walk around stores. Mind if we join?” “Cherry Creek reservoir, about 30 minutes from here. Text me if ya’ll coming and I’ll let you know where we set up at.” With that I walked towards Matt and wrapped my arms around him; realizing just how much I missed him. I pulled back a little and leaned up on my tiptoes to give him a kiss. Just as I went to pull away Matt placed his large hands on my hips and pulled me into him, he deepened the kiss just as my phone went off; I pulled away and grabbed my phone seeing that Eric was telling me to get my ass outside. I gave Matt a quick kiss, grabbed a sweater and ran out the door hollering to tell him to text me.
We were at the beach about an hour when I heard my name get called, when I looked up I saw Avenged and their crew walking up to me. They set their stuff down and all started talking. Brian looked uncomfortable and Matt just gave him a nudge and came and sat next to me. The other guys took off into the water leaving Matt and Brian alone with me. Brian cleared his throat, “Braelynn,” I look up at him letting him know I was listening, “I’m sorry if everything is confused right now. I think the last time we talk the way I came off wasn’t the best. I know he,” Brian pointed at Matt, “didn’t think I came across nicely and then with everything the last couple days. It’s been a lot, my dad, or I guess our dad came out which didn’t help. When I saw Matt talking with you on Skype I just kind of....... I’m not mad at you; I’m mad at the situation. Matt wasn’t lying when he said I was mad and that it wasn’t directed at you.” I looked at him and knew he was being honest, I turned my gaze towards Matt, “Would you mind giving us a bit alone?” Matt looked up shocked but nodded his head, gave me a quick kiss, and walked towards the water where everyone else was. “Brian, I’m honestly not here to rip your life apart; I was still trying to decide if I wanted answers or not, then Matt finally had enough of my diversion towards you and I told him what was up and that I just wanted answers. We called your dad and he was a bit of a jerk, I didn’t think things would be like this.” “I know; you just need to understand that my whole world just turned upside down. The last almost 25 years of my life have held some sort of lie and secret. I always felt like something was missing and now that I know I wasn’t being paranoid. I’m not sure how to feel right now.” I took a minute to think about what he just told me, knowing how he is feeling. “Brian, I get it, I do. I’ve been there, but we both found out different ways and of course different ages. Like I told you if you don’t want to accept this and you want to go back to how life was before you knew,” I let out a deep breath, “I’ll understand, I’ll make sure to what I can to be out of your life.” Brian looked at me as if processing and deciding right then and there what he wanted. “I don’t want you out of my life, not just because I know Matt will kill me because he’s in love with you but because I finally feel like I found a missing piece. I want to know you; I want to you to be my sister like you’re supposed to be. Why are you crying?” He asked. “I’m just overwhelmed; I didn’t think this is how it would go.” “Please don’t cry. How did you find out though? How did you find out you were adopted and find out the story?” I took a deep breath, not really wanting to discuss, not really wanting sympathy but for some reason I knew it was only right to tell him. “I was 12, a couple of months before turning 13 I started bruising way too easily and getting exhausted with little effort so my parents finally took me into the doctor and a whole long work up later I was diagnosed with AML.” Brian interrupted without giving me time to tell him what it was, “What? You were sick? What’s AML?” “If you would have waited; please don’t tell Matt. He doesn’t know and I don’t know if I want the sympathy from him.” He nodded his head in understanding so I continued. “AML is Acute Myeloid Leukemia; a cancer of the blood and bone marrow. The doctors wanted to test my parents and my brothers to potentially do a stem cell transplant but since I was adopted they knew they wouldn’t be a match like they wanted. After a couple cycles of chemo my parents told me and of course I was pissed; went as far as not allowing them in my room while I was in the hospital. When they couldn’t get a hold of your dad I came to terms with it. Larry is my uncle he knew the story he knew who my biological parents were. He knew who were you when he took you guys on but didn’t say anything besides he located them and then found out why contact was never made per the agreement. Don’t get mad at Larry please.” Brian looked sympathetic, something I was hoping to avoid, he leant forward and gave me a hug, after pulling away he apologized for not being there. “You can’t apologize when you had no idea I existed. I’m okay now Brian; I continue to get clean bills of health and we all get nervous when I bruise easy or I start to get a cold. I am fine, I overcame it. If you feel guilty, you’re here now and that’s what matters.” “Just wish I could have been with you while you were sick, wish I would have known.” At the point we just started talking like two friends, getting to know each other; becoming family. We joined everyone else in the water after a while, Matt came up and just looked at me, I smiled and nodded my head to let him know that everything was okay. After sometime messing around in the water we found out there was a shooting range, so we loaded up and headed over for some stress relief before leaving and going to Del Frisco’s for dinner. Back at the hotel I gave Brian a hug and thanked him and walked away with Matt a few steps behind. I could only imagine that he wanted to know what happened. Once the door to my roomed opened, I looked at him and gave him a long kiss, when we pulled away he asked what happened and all I told him was that we were two siblings lost long ago who just started getting to know each other. After that we laid down and became tangled beneath the sheets for the first time together.

Notes

Finally we see how Brian was feeling.
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