From All Ends

The day after the phone call with Brian things didn’t feel right, I was packing up my hotel room to get on the road and I just felt ill. Once I got on the bus I called my momma who left the morning before Brian called. I told her what happened and she was guessing I was feeling ill because of the new revelations and the fact I decided loosing Matt would be the best thing if Brian decided he wanted nothing to do with me. “Why would you say that Mom?” “Hun, I saw how you were when you talked or texted with Matt, you love him; you let your guard down far enough to let him in and now..........Now baby you are risking losing him because of it. Look, I know you won’t admit it, but you love him. Yes, it has only been a short while, but when you find your one the amount of time doesn’t matter. ““I don’t know what to do though. I can’t very well go back on my word to Brian, and no, I am not admitting anything so stop thinking like that.” ”Call Matt; tell him what’s going on, tell him if Brian decides the worst you have to come up with a plan.” “I can’t, he broke his phone and hasn’t gotten a new one.” “Braelynn stop being stubborn. I have to go to work. I love you, you’ll figure it out. Call me later baby.” “Love you too mom.” I was on my laptop thinking about what my mom said, wanting to call Matt and talk to him and wanting to know what Brain was thinking about, I still felt nervous and ill. Soon I got a skype call, the name didn’t populate but I assumed it was one of my brothers so I clicked accept only to see Matt’s stressed, worried, and pissed off face come up. “Hey Matt, how are you?” I asked, “Seriously? You are seriously asking how I am doing after you pretty much just broke up with me?!” He quietly yelled, “Matt, I’m sorry, I wasn’t thinking. But honestly, if you were in his shoes and decided that a sister you never knew you had was dating your best friend and you didn’t want anything to do with her that you would be okay seeing her a lot?” He sighed and rubbed his hands up and down his face a few times, “I guess you have a point. Braelynn, I know we haven’t been together long and I shouldn’t do this without being face to face but I love you. You have no idea how much it hurt last night hearing you say you’d leave me because of him. I understand your reasoning but I wish you would have talked to me about it first.” “Matt, honestly I didn’t even realize it until this morning that I love you, I feel sick knowing what I said but what am I to do about it now?” “I’ll talk to Brian, I’ll let him know, we can make it work.” I saw Brian walk up behind Matt with a confused look on his face, I took a sharp inhale not knowing what all he’s heard, Matt looked behind him then turned around and hit a button on his computer. I can only assume he hit mute since I could see them talking but not hear a word. Brian was hard to read, but when Matt turned back and faced the computer looking defeated. “He’s mad, but it’s not directed at you. He wants answered but he doesn’t know who to get them from and who he wants to speak to. I guess he tried to talk to his mom this morning but she quickly shut him down at the mention of his twin.” “Can we just give him a few days? Let him figure it out? Maybe you also go get a new phone in the meantime?” “Ya, babe,” he chuckled, “I’ll go get a new phone. Where are you headed?” I looked down at the calendar on couch, “Colorado. You?” “Where in Colorado?” “Denver, concert is May 6th, why?” “What’s the name of the venue?” “Matt, what are you getting at? Why don’t you just google it?” There was a couple of minutes of silence so I took the opportunity to get up and get a drink. I could hear Matt yelling asking where I went, I returned to the computer and held up the bottle of water I got and he just nodded his head. “Where are you staying?” At this point with all of his questions I opened up the bands web page and saw that they were performing at Red Rocks in Morrison Colorado the same night. “Why didn’t you just say you were also going to be in Colorado?” “That’s no fun, where are you staying?” “The Oxford, you?” “Like I have any idea, I just hope we are close. When do you get in?” “Day after next at the latest, leave on 8th I think; you?” “I think we get in late today. I can’t wait to see you again.” We said our goodbyes and hung up. I had a chorus stuck in my head that I started to work on, wanting to get the lyrics done to put the beat with it that I had going as well. I knew the next few days were going to be long and hectic with seeing the guys again after the new revelations which they just discovered and not knowing how everyone would react if altogether at the same time. Matt never mentioned if the others knew and if they did what they thought and what they felt. I guess time would tell. Slowly it seemed like the song was writing itself so I grabbed my guitar to see if the tune running rampant went with it. My driver Eric called my name awhile later so I set my stuff aside and went to sit next to him as he drove. “What is going on baby girl? I hear that song and the stress in your voice; your momma said the tides changing ready to roll in.” “It’s not like you don’t know.” “I know but what has changed? Matt? Brian?” “Long story short, my bio family knows who I am, at least my twin, his band mate is my boyfriend which happened before he found out.” “How did your brother take it?” “Very mixed, not sure where we are standing with each other. I guess they are in Colorado these couple days too; don’t know where they are staying but I just don’t know what to do and what to expect.” “Only a month now until you’re home with the family relaxing. Get your stuff put together, we will soon be pulling up to the hotel.” “Thanks Eric.” I walked back to get my stuff and by the time I was done Eric had pulled the bus up outside the venue as we would take a cab to the hotel. When I walked across the lobby after checking in I could see a large black bus pull up outside the doors.

Notes

We will figure out how Brian feels about everything next update and what will happen with Brae and Matt