Nothing Lasts FoREVer

Jimmy’s P.O.V.

I run up the stairs towards the bedroom, she had closed the door behind her. I knocked two times and peaked inside.

“I’m okay, Jimmy! Go practice with the guys…”, she tried to control her voice but I knew she was crying even though she had her backs to me.

I let myself in and sneaked onto the bed next to her, I made her turn around so I could look at her. “I’m sorry, baby! I didn’t mean to upset you now that you were already calmed.”, I pulled her in close by the waist. Even though I was worrying sick about her, my thoughts travelled far once I inhaled her sweet perfume. I had to try my hardest to keep little Jimmy quiet, but she wasn’t helping. Her soft kisses on my chest and neck were starting to get the best of me.

“I know… I know you’re just trying to help, I know It.”, I caressed her cheek; most of her tears were already dry on her skin. She kept drawing a path of kisses up my chest till she found my lips. I was trying to think fast before I lost it again, she always gets the best of me once she starts teasing me.

‘She was crying seconds ago when I first hold her… Why is she so calm all the sudden?’, I tried to reason with myself and was when it hit me.

“Cat? Are you trying to ‘sex your way out’ of this?”, I asked, but already knew the answer.

“What’s that supposed to mean? Sex my way out?? Sex my way out of what exactly?”

“You’re trying to avoid deal with the situation, aren’t you? And you’re trying to use me on that!”, I would love to let her have her way, but she really needed to deal with all the guilt she was feeling towards her father’s suicide.

“Please, baby! I need this… I need to get my mind out of this for a couple of hours!”, she was caressing my chest and her hand was on its way down to my crotch. Her touch sent shivers through all my body, a soft moan escaped through my lips when she reached the down area. Little Jimmy was pretty much awake… I had to get all my strength together to stop her. I put one of my hands over hers.

“No, baby! Not like this…”, I lost myself in those piercing golden eyes. She seemed confused and most of all, hurt…

“Why? Don’t you want me anymore?”, her eyes were shining from the tears she was trying to hold back.

“Cat, baby… How could you ever consider that? One touch and I’m yours… I love you too damn much! I just want you to be okay… and you won’t get nowhere by avoiding dealing with what you’re feeling.”

“I know you’re just trying to help me deal with this, or even talk about it. But it will take me sometime to figure it out, and I need to do it by my own. You’ll be the first one to know what’s on my mind as soon as I’m ready to talk about it! But don’t… don’t you ever reject me again! I need you…”, a single tear rolled down her face, escaping against Cat’s will.

Cat’s P.O.V.

I run up the stairs to my room, I shut the door behind me. I just wanted to be left alone and cry until I had no more tears left, but I knew that Jimmy would walk right through that door in a few minutes.
Two knocks… I turned my back to the door so Jimmy couldn’t see me crying once he got in.

“I’m okay, Jimmy! Go practice with the guys…”, I tried to steady my voice, but I’m sure he noticed I was crying.

Jimmy sneaked into the bed right next to me, and turned me in his arms so we were facing each other. “I’m sorry, baby! I didn’t mean to upset you now that you were already calmed.”, he laced his arms around my waist and pulled me in closer. Jimmy leaned his head on top of mine, I felt him breathe in my scent and little Jimmy twitched to life. I took it as a hint and tried to take it to the next level, placing soft kisses against his bare chest and neck. That would certainly take my mind out of these tormenting thoughts, at least for awhile.

“I know… I know you’re just trying to help, I know It.”, Jimmy reached my face, fondling my cheeks with the sweet touch of his soft skin. His touch was electrifying to me, even though it was a simple touch with no second intentions, just a simple caress to make me feel loved; that simple action sent shivers through all my body. I kept kissing him, eager to reach his perfect lips. Once I crushed my lips on his I didn’t have enough time to feel his tongue against mine, ‘cause he broke the kiss.

“Cat? Are you trying to ‘sex your way out’ of this?”, he asked with a serious expression on his face. To me that was like someone had just thrown a bucket of cold water over me.

“What’s that supposed to mean? Sex my way out?? Sex my way out of what exactly?”, I tried to hide my disappointment, my outrage.

“You’re trying to avoid deal with the situation, aren’t you? And you’re trying to use me on that!”, he implied. That alone made me feel so much worse, like I was trying to abuse him. Jimmy was my boyfriend, right? Why should I feel guilty for want to have sex with him?

“Please, baby! I need this… I need to get my mind out of this for a couple of hours!”, I tried to ignore what crossed through my mind and begun to caress his chest, his toned stomach, until I reached his crotch. I smiled to myself when I felt little Jimmy pretty much awake. Jimmy let out a soft moan just before one of his hands stopped mine.

“No, baby! Not like this…”, his deep blue eyes locked in mine.

“Why? Don’t you want me anymore?”, I was trying to fight back the tears forming in my eyes.

“Cat, baby… How could you ever consider that? One touch and I’m yours… I love you too damn much! I just want you to be okay… and you won’t get nowhere by avoiding dealing with what you’re feeling.”, he reassured me gently.

“I know you’re just trying to help me deal with this, or even talk about it. But it will take me sometime to figure it out, and I need to do it by my own. You’ll be the first one to know what’s on my mind as soon as I’m ready to talk about it! But don’t… don’t you ever reject me again! I need you…”, one of the tears forming in my eyes managed to find its way down my cheek, Jimmy’s lips captured it before it reached my lips.

“I could never reject you, silly! I love you, I desperately need you! I’ll be here whenever you feel ready to talk; I won’t push it any further… I’m sorry, babe! I really didn’t mean to hurt you.”, he kissed the top of my head.

“You’ll be the first if not the only to know what’s on my mind once I figure this out! You’re my better half, Jimmy… I love you! Wherever life leads us just promise me something…”, I snaked my arms around his upper half and rested my chin in his chest so I could look him in the eyes.

“Anything, love! I’ll promise you anything, everything… just name it!”, he leaned a bit and pressed a kiss on my temple.

“Doesn’t matter if we don’t end up together as a couple, it doesn’t matter if somewhere along the way you find someone else and stop loving me, just promise me… promise me you’ll never leave me, no matter what! I don’t really mind if you’re with someone else meanwhile I’m still in love with you as long as I know you’re happy and still my friend!”, I knew for certain that I would not be able to love someone else but him. He was the love of my life, I knew that much… What the future would bring us was unknown, but my love for him was one of the things I was sure of. It was an odd feeling, though… How can you tell for sure that you’ll love someone for the rest of your life? But I could tell and I’m sure I wasn’t mistaken, I just knew!

“I’ll never be with someone else but you! My love for you is endless and timeless, there’s no way in hell I’ll ever be with someone else while you’re still alive. You’re all I ever needed, so yes… I promise you I’ll never leave you; I promise you I’ll never stop loving you, I promise you’ll be my one and only for the rest of my life! I love you; you have my heart until the day I die and afterwards too!”, his gaze never left mine while he declared his love for me. I leaned I little forward to kiss him. “I love you”, we whispered at the same time, with our lips still together.

“Come…”, I laced my fingers in his and dragged him out the bed behind me.

“Where to?”, he asked surprised.

“Practice! I’ve kept you away from your kit for too long now!”

“But I thought you wanted to use me to forget things! I kind of liked that…”, he poked his bottom lip out, making me laugh.

“That’s exactly what I’m about to do! You and the guys will play so I can forget or at least take my mind off things for a bit!”, I kept dragging him down the stairs.

“But I thought that you would be using me sexually!”, he sounded disappointed.

“Oh, but I will! Later tonight, you’ll be my sex toy!”, I let out a loud giggle.

“Promise?”, he looked at me with puppy eyes.

“No need to promise… If I decide not to use you, you’ll end up using me, so it’ll happen no matter what!”, I smiled widely at him.

“I love the way you think!”, he smiled back while I switched the computer on again.

“Hey guys! Is everything okay?”, Brian spoke as the connection was on.

“Hey, B! Everything is just fine… I just brought Jimmy back so you guys could practice for few hours.”, I greeted.

“You guys left so abruptly that we got a little worried! Are you sure everything’s okay, Cat?”, Matt still sounded worried.

“Yeah… Nothing time won’t heal…”

“If you ever need anything we’ll always be here, Cat! I mean it!”, Zacky said seriously.

“I know… Thanks guys! It works both ways, you know?”

“We do, Cat!”, Johnny said.

“Hey, Cat? Do you mind leave the guys practicing and join us girls for a girl talk?”, Val shouted from the other side of the line.

“Hey, Val! I didn’t know you’re there, baby! Just let me get to my room so I can go online with you… Is Chelle there too?”

“Yeah, she is… Hurry up then!”, Val said impatiently.

“Okay, okay! I’m coming!”, I shouted running up the stairs.

A few minutes later I was online in my room, door closed so Jimmy and the guys couldn’t hear our talk.

“Hey! What’s with all the rush?”, I asked.

“Well, we didn’t have a girl talk since we left… Val and I were wondering how’s Jimmy?”, Chelle said between chuckles.

“Jimmy is fine! But something tells me that’s not what you’re asking at all…”

“I mean… How is Jimmy as a boyfriend?”, she rephrased.

“He’s the best there is!”, I said proudly.

“Have you guys done it?”, Val broke her silence.

“OMG! Are you girls asking me about my sex life?”, I let out a loud giggle.

“So there is one! You’ve done it already!”, Michelle accused.

“Yeah… We’ve done it… Actually I don’t think we waited more than three days to do it!”, I laughed.

“Is he well packed?”, Val asked shamelessly.

“Really? Are you really asking me about his size?”, I couldn’t stop laughing. They were curious about my boyfriend size, unbelievable…

“Yeah… It’s normal to talk about our sex life… I’ll tell you all about mine! Matt is quite huge… Chelle says that B is also well packed! We’re actually curious to know if all the guys in the band are similar in that area!”, Val informed me naturally.

“Lets just say that his size matches his height… If you girls say any of this I’ll kill you both with my bare hands!”, I threaten between giggles.

“Now we just need Zacky and Johnny to find a girlfriend so we can know if they’re all well packed down there! I bet Johnny as the smaller package…”, Michelle let out thoughtfully.

Notes

Hey there!
Hope you like this one *-*
What is next in this girl talk???
Now we know three of the guys are well packed... x'D
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