Jo’s POV

I had fallen asleep with my sister on the small makeshift bed. I had been crying and weirdly so was Emery. I didn’t ask her because honestly I was afraid she would be asking me the question and what would I tell her then?!

That I fell madly in love with the big boss man, that I was about to give my heart to him when all he did was crashing it beneath his feet without a second thought?!
She would tell me how stupid I am and the worst of it all, I knew!

I shouldn’t have developed feelings for Matt, but I did, I had fallen for him quick and hard and there was no way of taking it back. Emery would know the moment I would open my mouth, that’s why we both fell asleep crying just holding on to each other.

Even though I was dying to know who hurt my little sister, and as soon as I had no tears left anymore I would ask her and find it. I would find the guy who hurt her and to make Emery cry that was a big step. She wasn’t as emotional as I was, so this wasn’t something small!

This was huge, and I guess I didn’t have very far to look where to find that someone! And he better be prepared, because when I knew what was up, he would pay! I was just hoping Emery would forget in which state she found me in, she seemed pretty exhausted already when I came in… just as I was.

“It’s time to go to bed, babe,” I heard whisper near my ear but I thought I was still dreaming so I just brushed it away, heat was coming closer and I needed heat, after everything that happened I longed for warmth.

“Mmm…” I moaned when I felt a softer mattress beneath me, this was good. I turned a little and had more space, a smile spread on my face even though I knew my eyes were still closed, now I could really have the rest I needed.

I felt fingers gliding over me, warm and big, that feeling of belonging somewhere spread in my stomach and I wanted to relinquish in it. My eyes started to flutter, wanting to see who caused this feeling “Hey beautiful…” A voice sounded and lips lightly brushed mine. Those plump lips slowly placed a trail of kisses from my face down to my neck and back up again.

“Matt?” My brain began to slowly work, but was still so sleepy I tried to look up and around, confusing making its way to the surface.

“Who else would it be?” Matt’s deep chuckle sounded and another kiss was placed at the top of my head. I cuddled closer a small smile on my lips and when I peaked at him again I saw the same satisfied smile on his face as well, when I asked him what it was about his dimples showed even more when he said “Just you.”

And that’s when I noticed something wasn’t right. I had been fleeing from him, I had seen what he did! I didn’t want to be the second girl of the night for him.
How dare he carry me away from my sister and into his bed after he had been with that bitch before!

How dare he kiss and touch me, after he hurt me!
Did he really think we would continue like that when I now knew that he had someone else!
That he was playing a double game with me?!
I pulled out of his grip and get away from his as fast as I could.

“Don’t come any closer! I don’t want anything to do with you!” I tried to make my voice working tears were beginning to form again and I had to swallow thickly to get myself back under control.

Matt looked at me confused and shocked, he opened and closed his mouth without any words coming out. “What? Why not?” I lifted my eyebrows at him, he was really trying to act like nothing happened? Like he didn’t just rip my heart out of my chest with his moves!

“Don’t play dumb with me, Matt! Just take me back to the room with Emery. Thing are better this way,” I spat, while I crossed my arms over my chest and this time I couldn’t stop my tears from welling in my eyes. “You’ve made your choice, now I’m making mine!”

“What the hell is the problem, Jo?” Matt was playing his part really good, wasn’t he?! Maybe he really didn’t care that he had two women, maybe that was even normal for him, but guess what!
I was a one man woman, and so should the man behave as well.

“If you have to ask then I am obviously making the right decision. God how could I have been so stupid!” I whipped the tears away, I didn’t really want him to see that I shed tears over him, but damn it they just kept on coming. I wanted to get out of here, wanted to go to my sister, and just… just away from him.

“If you don’t know, why don’t you ask your girlfriend,” I made it perfectly clear, my voice dripped venom, I tried to bury the hurt, but I knew it was showing as well, I just wasn’t that good at hiding what I felt.

“What the hell does that mean, Jo? You’re my fucking girlfriend!” Matt’s temper got the better of him now, too. Now, I was his girlfriend again? Well, rich… Now the other was gone, I was good enough.

“Oh, that’s funny, Matthew,” I laughed humorously, and now I really had to spell it out for him, he wanted me to say it, fine! “I saw you freaking kiss her! You kissed her and didn’t push her away!”

And I was greeted with silence, there… wasn’t that saying enough. I caught him and he thought he would get away with it like that?! Nice, really nice! “So you don’t have anything to say to that? That’s awesome, Matt…Glad to know that we’ve both wasted our time here when you actually have a girlfriend!”

“Jo—”

I made my way over to the door, I knew I couldn’t get out without him letting me, but I hoped he wouldn’t make this even worse. Why was he trying so hard, when I didn’t mean anything to him? When all I was to him was a distraction until the next girl came?!

“I never did anything with April! Hell, I ended our relationship three months ago. She showed up her looking for fucking money. She is fucking crazy and tried to kiss me but apparently you missed the part where I pushed her away! I didn’t want that! I’m sorry you saw that but I promise that there is nothing between us. She means nothing to me! “

“Sorry? Freaking sorry, Matt?!” He was really trying to make this up with a sorry. Pretending nothing happened?! “That’s really rich. You’re just sorry that I caught onto your game. Well guess what Matt, I’m not going to be your second hand gal!” I picked up my bag and turned back to the door, I was done here. I wouldn’t put myself through more hurt.

“What the hell are you talking about?” He frowned like he really had no idea so I would make it even clearer to him. Didn’t he even notice how hard it was for me to say all this, recall how he acted with that other woman?! When I wanted to be the only one held in those strong arms, be kissed by his lips?!

“I saw the way you held onto her! The way you whispered in her ear! It didn’t look like nothing, Matt!” I said and tried to keep my voice from breaking, I was furious and hurt and had no idea how to get out of here.

“Will you just let me talk for a minute!” He finally let go of me and ran his hands over his head. “You’ve got it all wrong!”

“Okay, I’m listening, please, tell me how you didn’t just fuck that girl right after our date!” I said and waited for another sorry or a way of him to lie to me. “Jo, I already told you that I pushed her away and threw her out. I told her to never come here again. I did all of that for you…for us!” He came closer again and I closed my eyes, tears running down my cheeks.

“That’s a fucking great lie, Matt.” I said a smirk on my lips, I couldn’t believe he really tried that lame excuse with me.

“That’s not a fucking lie!” He raged, he looked frustrated with me and I didn’t give a fuck. “Come on, Jo...” He sighed, but what did he really want from me?! That I believed him and be there for his needs whenever he wanted?! “What do I have to do to get you to believe me? You are the only girl I want…now and forever…” His words were making my heart beat a little faster, what if he said the truth? I shook my head, I saw him… but what if…

“You hurt me, Matt...” I let the anger fall away a little, more tears running down my face now “You have no idea how much...”

I didn’t know when but I found myself in his arms, his strong arms circled around me, his heartbeat steady and fast underneath my ear, his warmth seeping into my skin. “I know, I never meant to though...” He whispered into my hair and just didn’t know what to say, I wanted to forget but… could I, would that be right?! What if he wasn’t honest with me!? I was easily hidden here, what if there were other girls out there I just didn’t know about, wasn’t it easy for him to go to a meeting seeing someone else, when I was here hidden from everyone… “Please, please forgive me...let me make it up to you…”

“I don’t know if I can...” I looked up while he whisked tears away from my cheek with his thumb “It will just be easier if we keep our distance…” I moved back to the door, waiting for him to open up so I could leave.

“Jo, please...” He sounded so desperate all the rage gone, just desperation “I can make this up to you, show that I’m being honest. I-I’ll take you on a real date away from the compound. It will be just you and me…please, Jo, I’m begging you here just... just please don’t do this…”

I stopped with my hand on the door, my head hung low. "Why should I believe that?" What if I agreed now, and he would never go through? Would he always say that, to make it up and then break me all over again?! I wasn’t a weak person but he made me look weak, made me feel weak, why was he doing this to me?!

“Because-because…I’ve fallen in love with you, Jo!”

I stopped again, all my movements stopped even my breathing, my brain wouldn’t work anymore. Did I just hear him correctly?
I stared at the door blindly, and then I felt hands on my arms turning me around to meet Matt’s longing expression.

“I love you, I wanted to tell you I just… didn’t know how.” He said and it looked like a weight lifted of his shouldesr but then his eyebrows creased together and his eyes stared at me “Don’t you… I mean…” He swallowed “…want to say something?”

I pulled away “Don’t do that!” I tried to make more distance between us “Don’t you do that. Don’t say something like that to make me stay when you don’t fucking mean it!” I felt anger built inside me. I never had someone tell me he loved me, beside my family, but I didn’t want to hear it the first time from someone who wasn’t honest with me.

“What?!” Matt looked shocked and then moved up to me, our bodies touching “You think I would say this when I don’t mean it?! God, Jo! You make me lose my freaking mind! Insane you make me insane!” He began to pace and then faced me again “I never fucking said those words to a woman! YOU! You are the woman I fall in love with and you don’t want to hear them?! I would lay the fucking world to your feet and you stomp on it because of a misunderstanding?!” He continued and then he grabbed me and kissed me.

In that kiss was everything, I felt his hunger, his hurt, his lust, his frustration… and his love.
When he pulled away his eyes were closed and he punched in the code for the door “If you want to leave now, leave… but you will take my heart with you” He looked like he was in pain, even though I couldn’t see his hazel eyes, I saw the expression on his face, what if it was the truth?! Should I throw it all away what really might have been a misunderstanding?
Or give it another shot, my heart was lost to this man anyway… more pain or the happy end?

I threw the door into its hinges and when the loud bang sounded Matt’s eyes snapped open pain so clearly visible but then his head snapped to me and he looked surprised.

“You didn’t go?!” He sounded even more surprised. “Show me that you mean it… I want that date… I want to be with you, but I won’t accept anything like what happened today again!” On the tip of my tongue were the three words that I wanted to tell him before, but I kept them inside, maybe… maybe if he really made true his words about the date I would let him know, right now he only had the benefit of the doubt.

“Yes! I will make plans, believe me” He pulled me into his arms again, his lips crashing onto mine and I couldn’t help but give in to the kiss, when still in the back of my mind some of the doubt about his honesty was wanting to pull me away, but I would give him a chance to proof if he meant what he said.

Brian’s POV

I slowly opened my eyes, my head was spinning a little so I quickly closed them again. I wasn’t in my room, that much I could say.
But where was I? How did I get here and whose warm and petit little body was pressed to mine?!

A small smirk came over my face when the only logical explanation was that Emery was spooned up before me.
Who else would I have fallen asleep with? But why did my mouth taste like stale alcohol and ashtray?

I tried to get a hold of my thoughts and then opened my eyes again. I slowly scanned the room and some sunlight was beginning to make it’s way through the curtains.
I looked beside me and found the old mattress from the ‘prison room’ beneath me, with a way too cold blanket for my taste and a pillow I also didn’t possess.
Why was I here? And why was Emery here?! I tried harder to recall what happened last night, but only bits and pieces came back to me.

Me leaving for work, Emery acting pissed off… for whatever reason… her… wait, she wanted to stay with Jimmy?! Where the hell was that fucker? Did he dispose her here after he was finished with her?! Anger began to boil inside of me at the mere thought and my grip on Em’s hip made her turn, but her eyes were still closed.

Damn, look at her… The light sun shine caressing her beautiful face, those full lips looking so inviting, immediately I felt calmer, immediately I felt need and hunger… for her, only her.
I wanted her, have been without a taste for her for so long!

That’s when a thought hit me, I had been on patrol with Zack… we went to that bar, he wanted me to proof something… fucker! I got drunk, and then… I stumbled into my room feeling the need after seeing the empty bed to go find Em.
And apparently I found her, did I talk to her last night? We slept together so we must be okay again?!
Maybe my drunken-self had fixed whatever problem she had before?!

My eyes lingered for a moment longer on her face, those lips, her blonde hair falling to one side of her face, so I carefully brushed it away with my fingers. When my hands touched her nose twitched and I had to suppress a chuckle.

Even if I couldn’t admit it openly, she was darn cute and I haven’t had as much fun with any of the other women I had been with than I had with her. She was something else, and she did give me some troubles, but the making up was pretty much worth every effort.

I laid back down on the bed and pulled her firmer against me, I put my hand on her hip and pressed myself to her, in hopes of waking her up or making her aware of the hunger she was setting free inside of me.

My erection was poking her in the ass and I knew she must be as starved for me as I was for her, but what… what of Jimmy sated that hunger already? What if her interest turned away from me? What if he could satisfy her better than I could?!

I shook my head, where were these thoughts coming from?! Am I insane?! She screamed my name, she begged me for more, no one could give her more than I could and I would proof that right away.

I pressed even more to her, letting my hips move against her mimicking what I planned to do to her soon until a light moan escaped those perfect lips. I pushed myself up on one arm and brushed her hair away from her throat. I trailed kisses along her jawline and down to her neck, she whimpered and pushed more into me and I had to keep from grinning, I knew what she wanted and what she needed.

“Time to wake up” I whispered and heard how raspy and rough my voice still was, damn that always happened when I had drunk too much.
I placed more kisses along her throat and softly nibbled on her skin, her arms reached back and buried in my hair pushing me firmer against her and didn’t I like it a little rough, hell to the yeah!

“Wake up, princess…” I growled in her ear and that’s when her eyes snapped open and she roughly pushed me away from her. She grabbed the blanket and held it up so she was shielded from me. I frowned what the hell was that about.

“Don’t play shy now… you want it, I want it” I smirked and she looked confused around not even giving a damn about me sitting there with a major boner waiting for us to continue where we left off.

“What the.. why..” She looked confused around again and then to the other bed “Where is my sister? What did you do? Why are you even here?” She demanded, no moan, no nothing, just demands and anger in her voice and now that she was awake and her blue eyes looked at me, were their lines on her face, like she had been crying?!

Had Jimmy made her cry?! If that fucker had touched her the wrong way I would-
“WHERE IS JO?!” She demanded and wasn’t I getting sick of hearing that goddamn sentence.
“What the fuck do I know! She is not here! What’s the matter?!” I raged right back when all I wanted was to grab her and kiss her… why couldn’t she just once do as I planned.

“WHAT?! She was here, we were sleeping here together, did you take her away from me? And why are you even here?! Have you been sleeping here with me?!” She looked shocked and was that hurt and disgust on her face. Her eyes scanned me and apparently she wasn’t too pleased with the way I looked.

“She wasn’t here when I came in” I said matter of fact, I didn’t know too much about the last night, but I knew I wouldn’t have laid myself to her if her sister was still in here, OR only if she and her sister insisted of me being in one bed with them, then maybe, scratch the maybe, then of course!

“Of course she was!!” Emery insisted and I closed my eyes in frustration, really nothing was easy with my furious princess, wasn’t it?!
“Yes, I have been sleeping here, or why do you think I am lying in this bed with you?! And we were just about to start something-” A smirk came over my face but Emery walked backwards, until she was as far away from me as she possibly could in this room.

“NO! I wouldn’t! I thought I was dreaming, and… not about you!” She spat and my head snapped to her, she was dreaming? About who?! She was moaning for someone else?! I saw the satisfied grin when I looked back up to her.

“Oh don’t lie to me, princess. I know I am the only one to make you moan like that” Might be a bluff, but I bet she wouldn’t call me on it. I pushed the blanket away and climbed of the bed. Emery was still holding the sheet up to her chest.
What was going on with her that she was so furious, that she was pulling away when all I wanted was to make us feel good.

“It’s the truth” She said her voice a little more shaky with every step I took towards her.
“Ah ah” I shook my head and closing the distance between us. I grabbed the sheet and yanked it with one swift move away from her.

She was wearing her shirt and some shorts, not even her sleeping attire, what had happened here last night during my absence?!
“Don’t come any closer!” Em held her hands out and I stepped forward, I wasn’t good at taking orders, she should know that by now.
“I said-” She tried to push me away, but was nothing to my strength, and I was a man on a mission.

“Why don’t you give in, Em? We both now it’s for the best… I do like some playing around and acting like you are untouchable, but we had enough of this, we know we are good in bed, why should we deny what we both want?!” My voice was low and my hand caressed her cheek.

I don’t know if she noticed or not, but I felt how she pressed her cheek more to my hand, then her eyes snapped open and she began to shake her head. “I will scream if you don’t go away!” She said and then her eyes moved over my face and to my collar, she looked closer, her hand touching my shirt and then she quickly pulled away, disgust written all over her face which made me really confused.

She stormed away from me, and was nearly at the door when I caught up with her, she had lifted her arm to bang on the door but I kept a firm grip on her, pulling her away, my other hand before her mouth.
“What the fuck is wrong with you?!” I hissed into her ear until she bite into my hand “FUCK!”
I pulled away and she shot daggers at me.

“I want to get out of here, away from you!” She looked hurt and angry at the same time now, but I didn’t know why. What had I done that she was acting this way, because she thought I took away her sister? Or because Jimmy did something?!

“You won’t get away from me, princess. Cause I am all you’ve got” I was getting pissed off at the way she was acting around me but she just narrowed her eyes “Fine, if you won’t help me, I bet someone else will” She said and turned away from me, but I saw her opening her mouth as if she was about to scream and I had to do something quickly.

I grabbed her and kissed her, I closed her mouth with mine, my hands buried in her hair to pull her even closer. She gasped in surprise and I pushed my tongue into her mouth, if she would just finally give in to me.

She put her hands on my chest and pushed, but I kept a firmer hold on her, pressing our bodies flushed together until she finally melted into my embrace and I could ravish her just the way I wanted, until-

“Hey Em… I wanted to apologize and brought you some-” Before Jimmy was in the room completely I pushed Emery away from me, so she landed on the bed, while I stood opposite of her.
“-what are you doing here?” Jimmy’s eyes landed first on me than over at Emery and he lifted his eyebrows.

Emery looked confused, her lips swollen from my demanding kiss and she breathed heavily just like I did. My hair must be standing up in a spiky way from the way Emery had pulled on it and I was sure, Jimmy must know what just happened here.
Beside the fact that I shouldn’t be in here anyway.

“I wanted to check on her… I thought she was with you” I said and let my angry gaze move over to him.
“I-I… I mean we had a little… and then-” Jimmy stuttered and then moved into the room sitting down beside Emery. He placed the tablet with different kind breakfast foods and drinks beside her and I already smelled the delicious pancakes.

“I need to go to the bathroom” Emery said and stood up, not even glancing my way, she just walked out of the room and both Jimmy and I followed her.
She vanished into the bathroom and as soon as the door closed behind her I pushed Jimmy against the wall holding him there.

“What happened last night and what did you do to her?” I demanded and I couldn’t keep the anger out of my voice.
He lifted his eyebrows, I saw guilt in those baby blue eyes but also some knowledge and I was afraid to find out what this knowledge was about.
“I think it’s none of your business what happened last night… or what we did, right? Or is there a certain reason you want to know?” Jimmy said and I narrowed my eyes, damn this clever son of a bitch.

“Don’t play around, Rev! The truth!” I was avoiding his question and he seemed to like to play with me.
“I’m not playing around, are you?” He grinned evilly and I pushed him even firmer against the wall.
“I’m warning you”

“Why would you want to know? Easy question, if you can answer that, I will answer as well” He said and kicked against my leg so I had to let him go, damn him for having those long limbs.
“Fuck you!” I rubbed my leg and he straightened his clothes.

I checked the bathroom door again and heard the shower running, so we still had some time left before Emery would come out.
“I checked on Emery, she seemed upset when I came in, she is having this mood lately, so I wanna know what caused it and since you came in apologizing I guess it has something to do with you! So tell me now what the fuck is going on?” I raged and Jimmy looked at me for a moment.

“Is that the same outfit you wore yesterday night?” He held his head to the side and I closed my eyes in frustration “What does that have to do with anything?” I spat and Jimmy just grinned.
“Because-” He started and then stopped again.

“Rev, I swear I’m gonna hurt you real bad if you don’t-” I said and he held his hand up to stop me.
“I wanted to apologize for some of my behavior last night, or better said of the way it went… not that it would be any of your concern… but I guess the why she is not too pleased to see you is the fact that you a) reek like a brewery… I mean man, you could have at least taken some gum or brushed your teeth” Jimmy waved his hand before my face and I was this close of punching him.

“And b) because you smell like female perfume and the lipstick on your collar makes us pretty aware of the face that you must have had fun tonight… so before you come to any conclusions, you better pay more attention to yourself, and by that I mean… since she doesn’t mean anything to you, you don’t need to know what we did last night either right...” With that Jimmy turned and walked away “Will you tell her, that I will come by later, so she and I can… talk” He said quickly before he disappeared.

I had what on my what?! Fun last night? I didn’t do anything fun… I was on patrol with Zack, drinking… and went home to Em… so what the hell was he talking about?!
I lifted my collar and tried to look at it and really saw some lipstick on the site, well… however that landed there I had no idea, but I knew that I was not in any condition before I arrived home to do any dirty deeds with a woman…

Wasn’t that where Emery had looked at as well?! When she lifted her arm… did that mean she was thinking I had spent the evening with another woman and she was… jealous?
Or was Jimmy trying to fool me…
Fuck, my brain wasn’t working right… all the alcohol and this woman, she was robbing me my normal sense of thinking!

“Fucking Shads… damn that-” Zack walked past me muttering under his breath.
“You okay?” I asked when I saw the foul mood he was in.
“Women making everyone crazy in this goddamn fucked up house! Take care of your own!” Zack muttered while walking past me. What the hell was that about?!

“ZACK! YO ZACK!?” I wanted to ask him what his fucking problem was but he just lifted his middle finger and rounded the corner.
What did he mean women making everyone crazy, did he still think that I and Emery… no that must have been a mistake… He was probably pissed because of yesterday?!
But I better check on him later, not that he would fucking spill something to someone who shouldn’t know… someone whose name began with an S- and ended with -hadows.

I banged on the door to the bathroom loudly, she had been in there long enough now, and she better tell me now what her fucking problem is or I’m gonna barge in there and solve the problem my way, and that would end with both of us moaning in pleasure because I knew we both wanted it and I strangely couldn’t think about anything else… what the hell was wrong with me?!

Notes

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