Amy’s POV
How could I let that happen?!
I shouldn’t have let that happen… not after all the confusion and hurt I felt before…
And where did it end? Where did I end?!

I ended up in Brian’s arms anyway, no matter how much I tried to put distance between us before, I ended up with him again… and not only with him, no… We made love… and yes, this wasn’t only fun and fucking, no this felt like purely making love.

And it had felt so good, him holding me, the way he kissed me, there was something different about his kisses but what?!

As if everything else wasn’t enough already, no!

My emotions and feelings had been on a rollercoaster ride the whole day and to throw me totally off he ended the night like this… I was wondering what he was thinking… he didn’t really tell me, not once, in fact we didn’t really talk at all!

I wanted to resist but then… how could I? And why should I?
What if he was right and this would automatically go back to normal when we wouldn’t be seeing us anymore, so why not share these last days together?!

We did have fun together and we were good together, as good as a summer fling could be, right?!
Everything would look different when we went back…
That’s how this summer things worked, everything looked perfect and was the ultimate happiness and when you went back… you knew how the bubble busted… nothing would be like it was during a vacation…

I looked at Brian’s sleeping form, we haven’t talked before and not after the sex…
He had just held me in his arms, sometimes whispered something in my ear about how amazing the night was and how beautiful I was and I had even caught him looking at me from the side a couple of times, saw how he had opened his mouth like he wanted to say something, but then thought better of it… and when we both stayed quiet we drifted off to sleep.

Now, all I needed and wanted was to get out of here. I needed to clear my head and needed my best friend, I had to talk to Sara about everything, had to find a solution and hear her opinion to everything. She always knew how to help me and knew what to do, and even if not, she at least knew how to cheer me up and I really needed that.

I slowly and carefully pushed myself away from Brian, I put a pillow in the position where I had been lying underneath his arm and went to the bathroom. I quickly put some clothes on, washed my face and pulled my hair in a ponytail, when I was good to go I thought for a moment to leave Brian a message, he would be probably wondering where I was…

I sighed grabbed the notebook from the desk and quickly wrote a small message for him.
In the end it wasn’t his fault… we were both in this, and that he had more at stake than I had was pretty clear…

Brian,
I couldn’t sleep anymore… went out to meet with Sara, we planned a girls day.
So, enjoy your time with your friends today…
If you need something, I’ll write my number on the bottom.

Amy

I scribbled my number down, grabbed my phone and went out the door and down to the elevator. When I reached the right floor I walked to Sara and Matt’s door and debated with myself if I should really disturb them or not… but I really needed Sara now!

I knocked but no one opened, sure… either sleeping or otherwise occupied.
Shit, I really needed someone to talk to, okay no not someone, I really needed my best friend right now.

I decided to clear my head outside, maybe that would help me with the whole situation and later on I could find Sara and spend the rest of the day with her.
I was actually really curious on finding out how she and Matt were holding up, since I knew she was pretty pissed off at him, but I still didn’t exactly know why?!

And I mean how could that even happen? Sara and I normally shared everything like… immediately, but during this vacation I didn’t even get the chance to really catch up with her… and that was long overdue!

I heard voices from one of the secret spots, I didn’t plan on going this way, but the closer I came the clearer it became that it was actually Sara’s voice I heard.
I closed my eyes and thanked god for the fact that I found her so quick and could finally confide in my best friend.

When I was damn sure it was her and I wouldn’t be interrupting something I didn’t wanna see, I stepped up towards them and made myself known.

“Sara? I’m sorry to interrupt, but I really need to talk to you….” I let out and heard some rustling some whispers until Sara appeared and behind her Matt.

They both looked at me curiously but I shook my head, “I-I… I didn’t mean to… but was wondering…” I didn’t know why it felt so weird to interrupt them, maybe because they came along with the situation way better than Brian and I did, did they?!

“Wondering…?” Sara looked confused at me and Matt seemed to get the hint “I will look where the guys are, having some breakfast, we see us later, right?” He gave me a small smile and a wink at Sara and I felt stupid, good job Amy…

“What’s going on Ames?” Sara looked concerned and I sighed “Are you still up for the girls day we planned? I need my best friend, you know?” I let out and felt Sara’s arm around my shoulder, pulling me closer to her “Why didn’t you say that right away?! I would have kicked Sanders out the minute you appeared, Amy. You should know that” She gave me a wink and I had to chuckle, imagining her trying to kick the towering Matt out.

“Still I didn’t mean to interrupt your happy… morning…whatever it was you were doing there” I said and did she hear the jealousy in my voice? I hoped not…

“Not everything is as it looks, Ames… So what is the plan? Where do you wanna go?” Sara asked while she and I walked back to the hotel .

Since we both didn’t know and couldn’t come up with an idea what to do, they suggested us at the reception that we could use the Spa area from the hotel.
Since we were special guests as honeymoon residents, we could use the private area alone, the sauna, swimming pool and massages, all inclusive… and why didn’t anyone tell us that before?!

And if that wasn’t the right area to have a women talk then what would it be?! There was even this nice little bar area with healthy and alcoholic drinks.

Sara and I swam for while, we went to the sauna enjoyed the heat, took a cold shower afterwards and now I sat next to Sara in the bathrobe at the bar and drank the second alcoholic cocktail “So will you finally talk about it or just sit here and stare at the drinks? Which doesn’t mean I didn’t enjoy the spa so far and that we still need to try out the massages?!” She joked and I gave her a small smile.
“I just needed a timeout! Everything is so confusing and…” God, how could I sum it up, I had no idea.

“What did he do, Ames?” Sara turned fully towards me setting her drink aside and I did the same.
“He… I… Fuck, this is so complicated… I mean we had so much fun, but since his friends showed up he completely shut off… Like everything we did before was wrong. And we both agreed it was just a summer fling… so why now acting differently?! And then… he said those things… and the picture…” I rambled on and Sara looked completely confused, until she held her hand up and stopped me midsentence.

“Wait a second, wind back. What did he say? What picture? Please clue me in from the beginning… and if I need to kick his ass, I will do that, you know that, right Amy?” Sara said and I smiled, I knew she would, she was always there.

I began with the talk I had with Zack, then I continued with the way Brian acted with me, pushing me away and Sara nodded and said something about she knew that feeling too well.

“So when I thought finally he was right, and we should start to act more normal again, he was getting pissed off at me… He said something about he still wants to spend those last days with me, but that he doesn’t want his friends to think too much into it.” I explained and Sara rolled her eyes “I know that talk…” She sighed and it sounded frustrated as hell.

Then I told her about the picture of me and Brian on the internet and how Brian reacted “He didn’t say that, did he?” Sara’s eyes widened and I frowned “Well… he said something like, I shouldn’t worry, Larry would fix it and that, I should be relieved, cause no one would recognize me anyway” I explained and Sara nearly spit out her drink “I felt hurt, you know… I mean, I am all over the internet now… and he was glad no one could recognize me-”

“AMY!” Sara shook her head vehemently “Don’t talk so bad about yourself! Don’t let someone make you smaller than you really are, damn it! He can be lucky he got to marry you, even accidentally! He will probably never find someone like you again, and after the divorce is done, he will realize what a woman he just lost… I can’t believe he said something like that! Someone should teach him a lesson!” Sara had this angry gleam in her eyes and I knew what that meant!

“No, please… Don’t… I mean, it’s not his fault, is it?! But that’s not what I was trying to get to… I mean now the whole world knows that Brian drunkenly married me… and that he would have never done that… if he wasn’t drunk!” I finished what had dragged me down the entire time, and I was glad that Sara was listening and was trying to push me back up.

“And you are sure he meant it like that… I mean… maybe this was a misunderstanding…” Sara tried and I had to smile, but it was only a sad image of a real smile “I don’t know, he said he wanted to spend the last days with me… so-”

“You should take that chance and talk to him, clear up some of the things, bring it up… and then see how he reacts. Amy, tell him, he hurt you… He should know, and if that doesn’t work, leave him for me… I will fucking know what to do…” Sara grinned evilly and I shook my head “Stop the evil plans
and rather tell me about you and Matt… Why had you been so mad at him at first and then I find you here the next morning all cuddled up to him?! Tell me the secret…” I asked and Sara rolled her eyes

“Secret, my ass… Let me tell you something-”

Matt’s POV
I walked back from the little hammock towards the hotel, I had enjoyed the morning… I mean after I found the bed empty and freaked a little out about Sara being gone…

But I found her pretty quick and we could even talk out what had bothered us, I tried to make her see why I had acted differently and now that I talked about it, I realized how she must have seen the whole situation. That she thought she wasn’t worth being introduced to my friends, which was absolutely not the case…

It was just more behind everything, with my divorce and with my friends being always involved in my life well, they normally knew everything, knew what was going on, and now they came here and were looking at decisions Brian and I made from the outside, must be hard too, right?!

When I went to the breakfast buffet I grabbed me a cup and poured me some black coffee. We haven’t really slept much so I needed this little extra caffeine to finally wake me up and keep me up for the day.

As it seemed Sara and Amy planned a day without us so that would mean, I could find the guys and we could spend it like the old days, just us guys, maybe that would soothe the guys a little and their temper to interpret too much into it…

“Have you seen Amy? She just left me this stupid note!” Brian came running to my table and I lifted my eyebrows, so another woman had left while her partner was sleeping, interesting, the girls apparently weren’t as different as we thought.

“Yeah, Amy went off with Sara… Seemed like they needed some time for themselves… Why?” I asked and Brian let himself plop down on the chair opposite of me.
“Fuck… I don’t know… The night… I mean, I thought we could use this morning to talk, but… she was already gone when I woke up and… Shit!” His fist landed on the table, making my coffee spill over and everyone look at us.

“You okay, man?” Zack’s voice sounded from behind Brian and I lifted my head, there our three other friends were standing looking at us with curious looks now.
“Yeah yeah” Brian didn’t even look up.

“Looks like it” Sarcasm was dripping from Zack voice when he pulled out the chair next to Brian.
“Where are the ladies at?” Johnny asked looking around and I narrowed my eyes, what was his intention behind that question?

“They are having a girls day” Brian let out and his head moved up, his eyes meeting mine like he wanted me to give more information, but that’s all that I had too.

I shrugged and Zack seemed to think for a moment “Well then it’s just us… so what you guys say, some beach day? Getting some more tan, some beach volleyball, drinks and hot chicks?” He asked and even though the hot chick I knew and wanted wouldn’t probably be at the beach I nodded my head.

“Sure why not? Avenged day on the beach, just like old times” I said and met Brian’s eyes again, he had circles underneath his eyes and he looked worse to wear, so what had happened between him and Amy?
Could I risk asking him when we were spending the day with the others, or should I wait for a chance to talk to him alone?

I could also really need someone’s opinion on Sara and me, I mean… I told her I knew what I did wrong but still it would feel weird to change everything again about my behavior, why was this situation getting so fucked up suddenly?!
When everything I wanted was fun and a good time with an amazing woman?!

Before I knew it, the five of us lay in the sun at the beach, we had cold drinks with us and our sunglasses on. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the silence for a moment, but of course with my friends this silence wasn’t lasting really long.

“Since this is the first time that we are really alone, since we got here… Will one of you guys tell us finally how everything went down… I mean we know the outlines now, but you gotta be kidding if you mean we don’t see what’s going on here” Johnny said and I lifted myself up on my elbows to look at him and the rest of my friends.

Zack, Arin and Johnny had the same look on their faces, this smug, ‘Don’t even try to deny or lie to us because we know better-look’.

“What do you mean?” Brian said absently and let sand run through his fingers, he didn’t seem on the top of his game.
“Your wife?! We got that you married her in a drunken night… but what got you to marry her? There gotta be something, right?” Zack asked and Brian’s head snapped up.

“I told you we couldn’t remember… We were drunk off our asses… Fuck… I don’t remember, okay?! She was nice, she was hot… we had fun, seemed the best idea while being drunk…” Brian snapped back and Zack lifted his eyebrow, while I wondered why he said that, I mean I knew that he did knew more, so why wasn’t he telling that?!

“Dude, we don’t judge you… We are your friends, alright?” Zack said and Arin and he exchanged a look.
“We thought, maybe you saw something in her… that you didn’t want to let go… that’s why you made this trip?” Arin asked softly and I saw Brian narrow his eyes.

“How often do I have to tell you that we all agreed that this trip was just for fun, it was already paid and we agreed to take it!? We planned to have fun… We had have fun… Until you guys showed up here and try to talk more into it… See that’s exactly what I mean, you guys are putting more into it then there actually is! FUCK!” Brian got up and kicked sand away, he stormed off and I saw Johnny, Zack and Arin look after him and then turn to me with a lot of question marks on their heads, because normally that was my position, being the leader, having answers, but right now… I had no idea what was up with Brian…

“I will-” I started but Arin shook his head “Let me, I’ll check on him” Before I could say anything he was already up on his feet and ran into the direction Brian had left to, which left me alone with Zack and Johnny, still staring at me waiting for more answers.

“You wanna put us through more bullshit, or are you trying it with the truth for a change?” Zack asked and I sighed, “It’s complicated, man. You guys just have to fucking realize that during the first week that we spend here with the girls alone, we forgot about everything. We just enjoyed the time we had and haven’t even thought about going back and all the shit that would crash down on us, you know? We had pushed all the problems and thoughts away… and I think Brian begins to realize that soon, this trip is over and everything will crash down… on him… on her…” I tried to explain what was probably not only going through Brian’s head but partly also through mine.

But I didn’t have the marriage certificate hanging over my head anymore, and he had a fresh one there the ink just barely dried, one that we still had to explain to Larry, and also had to wait what the fandom would give us, the quiet divorce was probably not in the picture anymore…

But Sara and I, well we had only these couple of last days left… a few more nights until everything was done, until it was over and we wouldn’t be seeing us again. She would go back to her life, I would be going back to mine… No contact anymore, just memories… So, why in hell did I feel a little jealous that Brian would be able to keep contact with Amy after the trip, even if it was just for the divorce…

“And you and Sara?” Johnny asked and I shook my head lightly trying to push my head out of the gutter.
“What about us?” I frowned and saw Johnny and Zack chuckle “Dude, you like her” Johnny said and wiggled his eyebrows.

“And?” I asked frowning, where was he getting to?!
“You said this is all about fun? But you also said you enjoyed your time here… will you be seeing her again? After this? Is Brian planning to see Amy again? You guys must have talked, right?” Zack asked and rested his head against his arms, staring up into the sky.

“I-I… no actually… We didn’t… not much… not about this, we were all on the same page when we said this is a summer fun, then we go all back to normal. That’s still the plan…” I shrugged even though the plan sounded pretty stupid right now.

“And you think that will work?” Johnny asked the question I asked myself over and over again.
“Well, yeah… why not? It’s not like we are in love or anything… we are in lust, but that’s it” I said and those words left a bitter taste in my mouth but I had no idea why.

Was Sara talking the same way to Amy right now?! God, I hoped not…

When for now no more questions from my friends emerged I laid back down on my towel and was left alone with my thoughts again…

At least I could clarify a few things with my friends and they knew I liked Sara on some level, so I didn’t have to take myself completely back when I was with her.

It had felt really weird not to be able to touch her and kiss her like I did before and I really wanted to enjoy the last days and nights with her to the fullest, preferably without my over observing best friends around…

Maybe I could even find something nice for us to do, something just for Sara and me, something to kick off the last days of our vacation, something to let us remember those last days, something to remember when soon we wouldn’t be seeing us again…

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