Brian´s POV
Why the hell were they pushing so hard? They said they were my friends, but I just couldn’t understand why they would force me to say something about what Amy and I were, I didn’t even know myself.

I fell down in the sand, a little ahead of where the rest of the guys were and put my head in my hands. I didn’t know what to think anymore. I hadn’t seen Amy since last night, we haven’t talked since we…. Did I dare say it? … Made love….

Leave it up to me to make an even bigger mess out of all of this. Shit, so many weird things going on inside of me last night, and then again this morning when she wasn’t there. I was second guessing the whole night, why did she cry? What was going on with her? Did I need to ask her when I would see her again? Holy fuck, I’ve been in a lot of messes in my life, but not one was confusing me as much as this one.

“Hey man, can I join you?” I shrugged, not even looking up at him. Arin’s lanky body sat down next to me and I saw him staring at the sea from the corner of my eye.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“I wouldn’t even know what to say” I replied curtly.

For a moment there was only silence and then he began to speak again, his voice soft, calm, but without doubt.
“In the chance of you kicking my ass in a few minutes, I will tell you anyway. I don’t know Amy that well, but it seems like she is very nice. She kinda suits you, and I mean in a different way than all the others before… And maybe that is why you think she is too different. But you know what… different isn’t always wrong or a bad thing. Maybe different can be fresh and exciting…” he chuckled like he made a great joke but it only earned him an annoyed look from me so he quickly proceeded.

“And by the way, you trying to bullshit your best friends sucks” Arin continued and I opened my mouth to reply, what was that?!
“Come on, don’t look like that. You know what I am talking about… You trying to sell us that you don’t know anything about the night… I mean THE NIGHT?! I saw your face Brian, we all saw you… You think you can try and hide everything underneath that mask, but not from us and not anymore…” He caught me off guard with this, and the worst was, he was right. I didn’t know why I didn’t tell the full truth to my friends.

“Brian, we can see what she does to you, what this vacation is doing to you. You are on edge and you don’t know how to handle it, right?! It’s a lot, we get that, but we are your friends and if you need help or just want to talk, we are there… You gotta confide in us from time to time, maybe we have some pretty good input to give you. How about you start and find out what had drawn you to her, try and find out why did she get under your skin, this fast?”

I opened my mouth again, wanting to reply, but nothing came out, what had drawn me to her in the first place?
I don’t know, she just got my attention… but what kept me there was all of her, the way she was honest and acting completely different than the other women I got to know before, was it that? Would that linger or would that vanish as well?
I couldn’t think this through or answer Arin, cause we were interrupted from a female voice.

“Come on, Kid, let’s give the old married couple some time to talk” I quickly turned my head towards the voice, making out it was Sara speaking and my heart made a small leap, when the thought that Amy was with her sprang to life.
I saw both women standing behind us, Sara smiling and waiting for Arin and Amy looked to the ground, seeming unsure and not like the woman she normally was. Did I do that to her? Was I the reason she wasn’t herself now? When exactly that had drawn me to her, was I ruining things?!

Arin and Sara left and left me alone with my wife, god that word was still hard to grab, but the more happened the more used I got to it. I patted the spot beside me and Amy slowly took the place next to me.

Somehow I couldn’t bear not touching her for another second, it was so confusing and I felt like I needed a soothing touch so I took her hand in mine “I missed you”.
The three little words came out of my mouth before I could even think of holding them back. Amy widened her eyes at me and quickly put her head on my shoulder, avoiding my eyes.

“Brian, I…” Amy started and I looked at her, everything was so easy before, how could it be so weird now?! I pushed a strand of hair out of her face. For a moment she closed her eyes and took in a deep breath.

“What is this, Brian?” she let out, her small hands motioning from her to me, her head no longer resting on my shoulder, leaving a cold place behind. When I didn’t know what to say and what she exactly meant I waited for her to continue and clue me in some more, afraid I would be giving away too much too soon.

“I mean that night, the touching, the words… I just don’t get it.” Her words were angry, her eyes narrowed and I could only stare at her, had no idea how to answer that. “You made it perfectly clear that everything between us was a mistake, a drunken mistake, something that need to be fixed quickly and quietly. You made it so fucking clear that it was a good thing no one recognized me on the picture and that it was better that no one knows. Well, it’s not my fault that your friends came over and know everything, I can’t fucking help your friends found out!”

I swallowed thickly… It took me a moment to really register what she just said. I didn’t say or do any of the things she accused me of. I didn’t understand a thing of what came out of that beautiful mouth of hers, but before I could object she was already continuing. What was going on with people always talking before I even get the chance to reply?!

“And you know what? Even though the sex was absolutely amazing, I’m not some kind of cheap ass trash whore you can just have sex with at night when you are bored in your room. I..” She was taking a breath to throw out even more, her voice so angry, her hands in fists, already white from the pressure she put on them. I haven’t seen Amy this upset before and the worst of all I seemed to be the cause of it and had no idea about it, was this what made her cry last night?
That would mean, I did hurt her, and she stored this all up… when in reality nothing she just said made any sense to me… I had to put a break on that, I wouldn’t let her blame me for things I never did!

“What are you talking about? We both agreed we’d better not have done it, but that was not because of you, or me, but just because marrying a stranger is a bad idea. Especially if you are drunk and you can’t remember anything about it the next day. And I can’t even comprehend what you mean with the picture thing? I never said it anything like that!” I tried to clear up as many things as possible, knowing I probably wouldn’t get a chance to talk so soon again.

“You said it would be good, that I was barely recognizable, that no one would know who I am! That no one would even know about your drunken mistake! That you would never have to admit, that you would never be with me if you hadn’t been drunk!”

Irritation boiled up inside of me. She was putting words in my mouth, I didn’t say that, did I? At least that was not at all what I meant! I meant this in a good way, for her… not bad because of me! God, women, they only heard what they wanted and what would soothe their purpose, but not with me!

“I never said it like that! I don’t know what you think you heard, but that wasn’t it!” Amy shrunk back a little, just enough for me to notice. I lowered my voice, surprised by my own outburst, but I somehow felt the need to make it absolutely clear that I wasn’t the cause of her pain, at least not really, and not in this case!

“Amy, you should know by now, that I don’t mind being seen with you. How could I? Having A beautiful woman on my arm?!” I tried the charm but earned a cold stare, fine… “What I meant with the picture is, that it’s better for you to not be seen with me. You will be dragged into a world you don’t know. It’s complicated in there… I only meant it in a good way, for you. I don’t give anything about someone’s opinion, you know. And if it would be just about me I wouldn’t mind at all being open about all this, but there comes more to it being in the public life of media and internet… and the only thing I meant by that was shielding you, but not because I am ashamed, never that”

Amy looked at me in disbelieve and I took a hold of her hands, I tried to open her fists and she gave in finally, seemed not to realize how her nails had already dug into her skin.

“I-I” Amy started and then looked down, when her eyes met mine again they didn’t have that much fire in them anymore “I’m sorry… I just heard the words and something snapped… maybe I got that wrong” She let out quietly and I gave her a small smile, happy that we got that out of the way, but she was still distant to me so I knew there was more to it, so I waited.

“I was wondering… When you get home, will you just go back to your ‘normal’ life? Forget about the time here? I mean, when everything is settled and done, will you just go back to your old ways?” Amy asked and she looked out on the ocean, I couldn’t see all of her face, didn’t know what she thought about it, but curious now… would she just forget about us… about me?!

I thought about my answer for a moment, afraid again I would give away too much, too much I still wasn’t sure of myself, so I settled for the only answer I had so far… the middle way.

“It will never be like before… I mean I will never forget the time we spend together. During our trip I even forgot all my life back home. I could completely relax and enjoy this little paradise, with you. You did that to me” I turned to her fully and touched her cheek now, needing more contact, showing that this indeed was the truth, but I couldn’t give myself or her hope… because we both knew this would be ending, this way or the other.

“But you know how it goes, when you get back into your daily routine, when we both get back… We all been there after a holiday, you get sucked into your life again. Pushing all the good times of the holiday into the back of your mind… the normal life having you back in its claws and especially mine has a busy schedule, you know”

Amy nodded curtly and I let my hand fall from her cheek, maybe she didn’t know what extend my music career was having on my life, maybe she couldn’t grab that? But how should she, she never had anything to do with it before?! Maybe I could tell her more about it, clue her in, so she would understand how my so called ‘normal life’ was like.
Maybe she would even be interested in it, or want to know more about it…

“Do you… “ I hesitated on how to phrase it right, I needed a chance to spend more time with her, enjoying the last few days we still had while I wanted to get back to Mr. & Mrs. Haner like we were a couple of days ago.

“Maybe we could eat together, just the two of us?” When the words were out Amy averted her eyes from mine and didn’t answer. Should I take the silence as a yes?

“I don’t think that’s a good idea” she said quietly and I was already opening my mouth to ask her why the hell not, things like this were never a question before, she would just… But her voice already sounded “Your friends want your attention too, we should spend the night together as group”

Fuck my friends, I didn’t like this one bit. I told her I wanted to spend the end of this holiday with her, but so far she hadn’t given me any chance. I thought we just cleared everything up? So why was she still putting this distance between us… Our time was running out and I wanted to keep a hold on it for as long as possible.

“Fine. We will spend this night with my friends, but then tomorrow we will spend the day together. I heard there are some more honeymoon activities available for us and I planned a nice day for us”

I didn’t…. But that wasn´t something she needed to know.

I would have enough time to beg at the reception for some ‘honeymoon activity’. Tomorrow would be our day and I wouldn’t allow anyone else on it, tomorrow I would set this straight and hopefully put a start on these last few days of this holiday.

“Okay, tomorrow” She got up and brushed the sand of the back of her dress, putting all the attention on that fine ass of hers “I’m going to find the others, see what the plans are, you coming?”

I got up and walked next to her to where my friends were all laughing and joking around. To show Amy I was serious and I didn’t care if my friends saw us together, I put my arm around her, pulling her to me.

Sara´s POV
“Something? You call that something?!” Amy let out, baffled. I had just told her everything that happened yesterday and the conversation Matt and I had this morning. She looked at me with wide eyes, apparently she was thinking Matt and I handled the friends coming over thing pretty well, but she go surprised on that, huh?

I didn’t know what to do with that “Matt and I” what were we even? I needed to keep in mind that we were nothing more than a summer fling, but I got already too attached to him, and way too used to having him near.

“Sara? Is there more you need to tell me about you and Matt?” Amy was staring at me, patiently waiting for an answer, but her face told me to cut the crap, because she would call me out on it.
“I’m waiting”
“I.. No.. There is nothing more to tell… I’m just a little confused, that’s all. It will all be okay when I get home again. Marc hurt me and Matt was there to pick up the pieces, he has been nothing but sweet and attentive and now I’m confusing everything going on inside of me with real feelings when it’s probably just the idea of having someone really care for you, that’s all”
Amy lifted her brow at me, indicating that she didn’t really believe my words.
“Do you like him?”
“Of course I like him, I wouldn’t sleep with him if I didn’t. But he is nothing more than a summer fling, Ames. He isn’t.” I felt a sting to my stomach and I knew what that meant. I just wasn’t ready to admit to any of it. And with a bit of persistence, I wouldn’t have to.

We both stared into our empty glasses, lost in our own thoughts. We had been here for a while and the afternoon was slowly coming to an end.
“Do you want to eat together or do you want to find the guys and eat with all of us?” I turned to Amy, to see her get up right away.
“Let’s find the guys, maybe it will be nice”

After we changed back into our summer dresses, we past the reception, wanting to head over to our rooms.
“Mrs. Haner?” Amy turned around to the woman behind the desk. “Yes?” She was completely used to the name now, huh?
“Your husband and Mr. Sanders told me to give you a message. Tell you that they would be at the beach if you want to find them”
I chuckled, those softies, making sure we would know where they are.

We made our way over to the beach. I could see three of the tattooed men in the distance, but there were two, sitting only a few feet away from us. It were Brian and Arin and the first was looking like crap.
“I better go talk to him” Amy said silently as we made our way over to the two sitting in the sand.
“Will you be okay?” she nodded and I gave her an one armed hug and a kiss on her temple.

“Come on, Kid, let’s give the old married couple some time to talk” Arin got up from out of the sand and stood in front of me
“You want a ride?” he smirked, turning his back to me, I smiled at the thought, I hadn’t taken a piggy back ride in forever! “Yes, please!” I let out a cry in excitement and jumped on Arin’s back.

As Arin took me away, I looked over my shoulder and saw Amy sitting down in the sand next to Brian, putting her head on his shoulder. I hoped she would say something to him, they really needed to talk. I was afraid it would break her if she wouldn’t, she wasn’t admitting to anything, but I knew my best friend… she was falling for Brian, but maybe she didn’t even realize herself.

“Did you have a hangover this morning?” Arin turned his face over his shoulder with an amused look on it.
“Nope, don’t do hangovers, blackouts… yes, hangovers… no”
“Damn, you got lucky” he sighed in envy “Ah well, I won’t feel guilty for doing this then”

Before I knew it, Arin had ran into the water and threw us both in. The wet fabric of my dress was pulling me down, but when I finally came up again I met the smirking eyes of Arin.
“You don’t think you will get away with this, do you?” I stood and looked up to the towering young one. He folded his arms over his chest and chuckled “Really? What do you think you will do about it?”
I glared at him, trying to look mad, but not able to hide my smile “Oh believe me, once you least expect it, I will get back at you… bam!” I looked over at the beach and saw Matt sitting up, looking at us carefully. “Let’s say hello to those other assholes” I softly punched Arin´s shoulder as we walked out of the water, laughing.

“Yo, bestie!” Johnny was waiting for us, giving me a quick hug. “Hello little man, how’s the head?” Johnny grabbed for his head, as if he was checking “Still there” he chuckled and plopped down in the sand again.
“You weren’t the one that got married right? Still single? Wanna marry me?” Zack let his look wander over my body, my wet dress clinging to it. I noticed a small groan coming from Matt’s side and gave him a reassuring look, it was his almost his turn.
“I’m sorry green eyes, I like my men a little taller” I blew him a kiss and turned to Matt again. I took the last step that was separating me from him, and straddled him, sitting down on his lap.

Immediately his arms were around my waist and our faces were only inches apart. Our eyes locked instantly and I was looking for some kind of permission to kiss the shit out of him, but I also knew he had to have a real good argument to stop me. He didn’t leave the decision up to me, and just kissed me. Not as passionate as I would have wanted, but I knew he felt his friends’ eyes on him and to be honest, it got me a little shy too after my first bluff.

I wanted to move off of Matt but he held me in place and I could definitely feel why. “Fuck Sara, you got me all wet” Matt joked, earning some chuckles from the other 3 men. I heard Zack make the obvious joke, but got distracted when I felt Matt’s breath on the side of my face and his deep voice only for me to hear “Are you taking my task from me, little Sara?” I felt a deep blush come over me and buried my face in his neck.

For a moment I enjoyed being this close to him and I was bummed we missed yesterday. Our time was limited and now we even missed a day, that was just stupid.

“Look, the married couple has decided to join us” I heard Zack say and I turned my head to where Brian and Amy were coming from, he had his arm around her and they were both carefully smiling, but I still saw the uncertainty in my best friends’ eyes, even though she did her best to hide it.

My initial reaction was to get up to her and take her away, make sure she was okay, but a small shake of her head told me not to. I don’t know what was going on, but there was no way I was letting this asshole hurt my best friend. No way in this whole fucking world.

I got off of Matt and sat down next to him, patting the sand next to me for Amy to sit down. I was happy she complied.
“Amy? You talked to him?” I whispered as the guys were talking to each other.
“Yeah, we did, but…. Just leave it, okay?” she whispered back, a pleading look in her eyes.
“No, I won’t leave it, you feel bad, I once promised you I would never let you feel bad, I’m not breaking that promise now”
“He is not hurting me, he is confusing me, I don’t think he can really help it”

“Amy? Sara? You both in?” Matt got us out of the whispered conversation.
“What?!” We both snapped at the guys, apparently they had asked us something, but we didn’t get any of it.
“Dinner? With all of us fine gentlemen?” Johnny repeated as if we were deaf and stupid. “Fine gentlemen?” I asked smartly, earning laughs from all of them.
“Give us a break, we will even dress up, give you girls a good night? Five men on two girls? I bet we can give you the night of your lives” Zack added with a smug look on his face.

“You didn’t listen to me green eyes? Tall? Muscled? Wearing aviators?”
“I got muscles!” He balled up his arm, getting a big laugh from his friends “And the aviators are not a problem either!” He snagged the sunglasses off of Matt’s face, putting them on his own.
“Oh please, Vengeance, don’t make a fool of yourself” Matt said dryly, took his aviators back and got up, holding his hand out to me to get me up.

“Alright, Alright, we will make an appearance. Right Ames?”Amy nodded, smiling
“Sure, can’t leave those men hanging”
“Ahhh mennnnn Amy! You are killing me, girl!” Zack sat down on his knees, bending forward in agony, his fist in his mouth.
“Z, Matt warned you just 2 seconds ago to not make a fool of yourself… something wrong with your short term memory?” Brian wrapped his arm around Amy’s shoulder, pulling her towards him possessively

“So everyone gets dressed and we will meet each other back at the restaurant at 7?” Matt said as we made our way back to the hotel together.
“Yes. 7. Don’t be late you lovey dovies, or I will burst into your rooms, I promise you that” Johnny joked, he held his fist out for me to bump “See ya later, bestie!”

“What did I do last night that Johnny is calling me his bestie?” I asked Matt as soon as we entered our room.
“You spend half the night drinking with him, he calls all his drinking buddies besties” he replied with a chuckle. He closed me in, pushing me to the door and I saw the look in his eyes change.
“You meant that? The tall guy thing?” I wrapped my arms around his neck and closed in on him.
“Hell yes, you are definitely my type”

And then he kissed me… Finally… Demanding entrance, his tongue deep in my mouth, clawing, grabbing, not an inch between us.
“Shit, I’ve been wanting to do this all day” He breathed as we broke apart.
“I have to admit, that was a pretty good kiss” I giggled.
“You know, I can do even better…” I lifted my brow at him, questioning his cockiness, but Matt just continued “I must be one of the few men that can even do two things at the same time, you want me to show you?” He was trying to get me out of my dress, but I stopped him.

“Later, handsome, I have to get ready. This..” I motioned down my body “… takes time you know?” Matt let himself fall down on the bed and let out a bestial growl “Sara! You can’t be serious!”

“I am! We are not all natural beauties like you”

Notes

On the day that we finally get to know who the new drummer of our beloved band is, it seemed right to give the old one some wise words in our story...

How will Brian and Amy continue? Will they go back to how they were before? And how about Matt and Sara?
You'll have to wait and see in the next chapter... if we will be so kind to give you answers then ;)

Have a great day :)