See I'm one of those people who says their going to do something and then chickens out at the last minute. But there's no holding me back this time! I picked a date to leave for CA, put in my 2 weeks at my job and even already have a job lined up. I had went online and applied at a few places and actually got a call back from a small music store in huntington. It's like everything was finally falling into place. The only thing is I didn't have a place to stay but ill have my car and sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. It's now 6am and I'm wide awake. Having a 2 year old throwing a fit right outside your door doesn't exactly lull you to sleep. But I hardly slept anyways my minds been going a mile a minute and my nerves are shot. I hopped out of bed grabbed a towel and headed to the shower. The majority of the time was just me letting the water run down my body while I just stared at the wall. Every thought of what could possibly go wrong assaulting my mind scaring the living crap out of me. But I knew I couldn't talk myself out if it this time no matter what. After I got dressed I headed over to my beat friend belle's house. My friends and family decided to throw me a farewell BBQ. I stayed way after everyone else had left and sat our on the swings with belle and just talked. Belle and I have been best friends for forever but even she has moves on and has gotten married and just had a baby girl names Sophia. I couldn't help but cry uncontrollably when I left. I'm going to miss everybody so much and once I leave they will be thousands of miles away. As soon as I got home I finished packing up my car and settled into bed. Little did I know that getting any sleep tonight was a big fat joke! I was planning in leaving at 6 in the morning but I figured I might as well get on the road. So at 2 am I hoped in my car and didn't look back. I just prayed to god that I wasn't making the biggest mistake if my life.....

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Please excuse any grammical errors I'm writing this on my phone and won't let me check it :)