Now or never
About time
Hey everyone! I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Halen, yes my parents names me after THE Van Halen! I think it suites me I've never been a fan of the usual everyday names, but hey I guess I just got lucky. Lets see where should I start..... To say the least I feel like I'm
going crazy!!!! The pat few years I've been stuck in a rut to say the least. I've been at the same job for 7 years and lets just say by the end of the day I want to put my head through a wall! I live in Virginia beach with my friend Sasha, her fiancé Todd and their 2 year old son Alex. I've been kissed by the roommates god ever since I've left home. I keep to myself
a lot and that definitely helps avoid drama I just can't say the same for Sasha and Todd. They are constantly at each others throats about something and lucky for me I not only get to hear the argument first hand but then I get to hear the recap from each of them when the other one is gone. But what can I say I'm a nice person and I sit there every time and listen and mentally kick myself for doing it. And the saying nice guys finish last is so true!!!! I just feel like I'm stuck. In a nutshell I HAVE NO LIFE! I get up go to work, come home go to bed just to do the same exact thing the next day. The cherry on top is I haven't had a boyfriend or even kissed a guy in 3 years. Maybe for some that's not a big deal but when your 28 and all your friends are married, you stick out like a sore thumb. I've never been one of those "look at me I'm so cute!" Girls but whatever self esteem I did have has definitely dwindled down to nothing. To be honest if people didn't have to look at me that would be great! But ironically enough I have 2 full tattoo sleeves so that right there is going to draw people's eyes. But anyway onto the more important stuff besides me blabbing about how unhappy I am. It took me a long time but I finally decided that if I want change only I can make it happen. No one else is going to do it for me. For years I've wanted to learn how to play the guitar. I LOVE music and since I can't carry a tune in a bucket I needed some other way to express myself. So I hopped online and found a really good deal on a Schecter guitar. That being said I chose that brand because zacky vengeance and synyster gates use them and I freaking love Avenged Sevenfold!!!!! I've sadly never had the chance to meet them or go to one of their shows but those boys are my world! And as cliche as it sounds their music has gotten me through so much and I feel like their all I have left. Pathetic I know, but hey it's the truth. From the day my guitar arrives I promised myself that I would keep at it till I actually knew what I was was doing. Suprisingly even to myself I've kept at it and have gotten really good. It's like I was meant to play. Another promise I made to myself was that I was going to move to Huntington Beach,CA.
going crazy!!!! The pat few years I've been stuck in a rut to say the least. I've been at the same job for 7 years and lets just say by the end of the day I want to put my head through a wall! I live in Virginia beach with my friend Sasha, her fiancé Todd and their 2 year old son Alex. I've been kissed by the roommates god ever since I've left home. I keep to myself
a lot and that definitely helps avoid drama I just can't say the same for Sasha and Todd. They are constantly at each others throats about something and lucky for me I not only get to hear the argument first hand but then I get to hear the recap from each of them when the other one is gone. But what can I say I'm a nice person and I sit there every time and listen and mentally kick myself for doing it. And the saying nice guys finish last is so true!!!! I just feel like I'm stuck. In a nutshell I HAVE NO LIFE! I get up go to work, come home go to bed just to do the same exact thing the next day. The cherry on top is I haven't had a boyfriend or even kissed a guy in 3 years. Maybe for some that's not a big deal but when your 28 and all your friends are married, you stick out like a sore thumb. I've never been one of those "look at me I'm so cute!" Girls but whatever self esteem I did have has definitely dwindled down to nothing. To be honest if people didn't have to look at me that would be great! But ironically enough I have 2 full tattoo sleeves so that right there is going to draw people's eyes. But anyway onto the more important stuff besides me blabbing about how unhappy I am. It took me a long time but I finally decided that if I want change only I can make it happen. No one else is going to do it for me. For years I've wanted to learn how to play the guitar. I LOVE music and since I can't carry a tune in a bucket I needed some other way to express myself. So I hopped online and found a really good deal on a Schecter guitar. That being said I chose that brand because zacky vengeance and synyster gates use them and I freaking love Avenged Sevenfold!!!!! I've sadly never had the chance to meet them or go to one of their shows but those boys are my world! And as cliche as it sounds their music has gotten me through so much and I feel like their all I have left. Pathetic I know, but hey it's the truth. From the day my guitar arrives I promised myself that I would keep at it till I actually knew what I was was doing. Suprisingly even to myself I've kept at it and have gotten really good. It's like I was meant to play. Another promise I made to myself was that I was going to move to Huntington Beach,CA.
Hm that's a pity because I'd love to read a sequel...^^ but that's up to you :D
10/27/13