Maya’s POV

I woke up when the tour bus suddenly roared to life. Oh, hell was it morning yet already?
I tried to turn around to bury my face back into the pillow but a heavy arm was draped over my body and I couldn’t even turn my body.

I tried to lift the arm off me but when I tried to lift it, it just came crushing down again and pulling me into a very naked body. I shivered at the feeling of heat on my naked back.
“Matt” I sighed, knowing it was him, but he didn’t give a sound so I wiggled some more and finally turned around, looking into his still sleeping face.

God, he was the most gorgeous man that I have ever seen and he was mine, at least that’s what he claimed… I had to smile he had claimed me very well yesterday, not only in that alley after our fight, no… even more when we were back in the bus.

But that had been different, he hadn’t fucked me like we used to do, he had made love to me. He had kissed every inch on my body, he had told me what he liked best about my body, how he couldn’t get enough of me, and more of those sweet things, that again tears had been rolling down my cheeks.

He had looked at me as if his heart was breaking but when I could finally tell him that it was happy tears now, he had that handsome dimpled smile on his face, that he wouldn’t shake off all night.
He had told me he loved me over and over and I think he liked that I didn’t turn away and didn’t freak out by hearing him tell me exactly that now.

I didn’t even know why we had been fighting yesterday, why everything had been escalating so badly when we came back. I didn’t want to fight with Matt, even though our makeup sex, had been amazing and probably always would be, still I felt weird. Like he wanted to control me and I wasn’t used to anyone controlling me, but he had explained that it hadn’t anything to do with control but everything with him being worried and if my brain wouldn’t have been full of dope and alcohol I might have reacted differently.

I let my fingers softly run over his cheek and his muscles moved, but his eyes were still closed and I waited if his breathing would change, but it didn’t.
While he had told me over and over again that I was all he wanted and that wouldn’t change, that his feelings were only growing, I couldn’t reply. I wanted to I even opened my mouth but nothing came out, not even the slightest… why?

Why couldn’t I tell him those words, those words he craved… I knew he did. He thought I didn’t see it but I could still see this small spark of disappointed whenever he said I love you and waited for any kind of reply, that didn’t come… at least not yet.

I sighed loudly and I moved my fingers from his cheek down to his shoulder, caressing his skin and placing a small kiss on his collarbone.
“Matt?” I asked quietly and nothing came in reply, still only breathing.

“I wish I could tell you the same amazing words that you tell me. Don’t think that I don’t care about you, because I do… more then I have ever cared for anyone else. I don’t want to be apart from you and I understand that you were worried, I just… felt cornered, I am not used to someone wanting to know where I am… I’m not used to someone even caring where I am…” I chuckled but it was without humor, I didn’t even know why I was whispering these words to Matt, to the sleeping Matt, but somehow I knew I had to get them out and even though I knew he couldn’t hear me, I had to say them.
I also knew, if Matt was awake, I would have never gotten them out, I would have shut down, so this was the only way that I could try to tell him about the way I felt… but without him hearing in the end.

“I really liked that feeling of you being worried for me, that you had stayed up all night because I wasn’t with you, gave me this warm feeling, right here.” I took Matt’s hand softly and placed it above my chest.

This was all, even more that I had dared to do or say, I was grateful he didn’t hear it, I would have probably freaked out if he had suddenly opened his eyes.
Maybe I should talk to someone else about this… maybe Brian and Avery could help me, maybe Brian could understand me better than anyone else in this case, as weird as it sounded?

Or Jimmy, maybe Jimmy would understand me better, maybe he knew how Matt would react to any of this or how I could tell him what I felt without freaking out again?
Maybe he could figure out a plan for me, he was the knife master and one of my best friends, he would surely understand my problem, wouldn’t he?

But right now, I couldn’t and wouldn’t solve any of that, right now I just curled myself more into Matt’s body and the warmness of him and the rocking of the bus was slowly pulling me back in a heavy sleep but not before I felt Matt’s arm tightening around me and I smiled when I fell back asleep.

Jess’ POV

I was more than confused about the things that had happened yesterday night and well maybe even morning.
I had been sitting outside with Jimmy until some roadie came walking out of the bus stretching and told us we would be leaving in an hour.

He had looked at us with a knowing look and I was a little uncertain if they all were already guessing something, something that hadn’t happened but if they would ask me could happen soon, because damn Jimmy made me feel giddy all over.

He had played a game with me called or well he called it word reply or something?! He had just thrown words at me, random words and I had to reply with the first thing that came to my mind.
He had stared at me word after word and I had been blushing all over not knowing why he would be doing that.

“You really read my mind? How do you do it? Plug yourself into my brain? Did you built some kind of connection with me? Did the kiss intensify it?” He asked and I had to chuckle.
“Well, if I would tell you that… then you would built an defense mechanism and I would be left struggling” I told him and he nodded.
“Fair enough” He said “We should get inside now, before Berry comes back” He got up and held his hand out for me to take, as if it was the most normal thing in the world I placed my hand there and he guided me to the Avenged bus.

I stopped and he let go of my hand turning around with a frown. “Why are you stopping, come on let’s go. It will be fun… I don’t usually like bus rides, but with you and Maya this will be awesome.” Jimmy said and I shook my head, I couldn’t ride in that bus with him.
I mean I was just a merch girl and I was riding in the roadie bus where I belonged to, and no matter what Jimmy would say now, I just couldn’t go with him.
“What’s the matter now, Queen?” Jimmy smiled and I shook my head “I can’t. All my things are in the other bus and my… my bunk… I mean I am assigned to that bus. I can’t just walk into the other bus with you…” I stuttered finally and took a step back.

Jimmy frowned “Of course you can… but you are right, you think that they would all steal your attention, right? They would all want a piece of you… Clever, so beautiful and clever, what an explosive combination.” Jimmy chuckled again and took my hand back in his and turned us around, heading up to the roadie bus now, giving me a small whiplash from his thought changes.

“Wait, what are you doing now?” I asked Jimmy who pulled me up the stairs.
“You were right, we cannot ride in that bus… not yet. We will drive here, we can get on JB’s nerves. I haven’t spend much time with him lately anyway, so that’s a win win situation and when we make the first breakfast stop we gonna fucking throw Shads and Maya out of the back room and then we have an excuse to all go back to the other bus and no one has to be suspicious. That is a perfect plan, damn you have the best ideas” He leaned down and kissed my forehead and I nodded, but had no idea what he was talking about right now.

About 3 or 4 hours later we sat in the roadie bus and were making a good distance towards the new destination. I sat next to Jimmy and Jason on the bench, while Jason’s brother Matt was searching through the cupboards.
“Fucking hell, I knew I still had some chocolate bars here… Where are they? Who of you assholes took them?” He turned around and Jimmy shook his head “Got my own supply, maybe you should ask your brother?”
“Fuck off, I didn’t eat any of it. Maybe you should ask Gates, he is fucking stealing everything from everyone if he needs it.” Jason said and looked annoyed.
I had to smile, this connection between so many people or rather this connection between all these friends was so much fun to watch, all the interaction with everyone made me long to be a part of it.

“So, Jess. Tell us a little more about yourself… I bet Zack knows everything by now” Jason said and I smiled at him, while Jimmy leaned in even closer.
“Why would Zack know?” Jimmy frowned and added “I agree with Jason, by the way, tell us more about you” He winked and I felt my cheeks heat up a little.

“Zack was so nice to be my company at the party yesterday. But I think Matt assigned him to do that, that wouldn’t have been necessary, but it was nice to know at least one person on the party, since Brian and Matt were running on and off searching for the other only persons I knew” I winked at Jimmy, who began to laugh and might even blush a little.

“Wait, what? What happened yesterday? And where have you been anyway? And now that we talk about it I haven’t seen Maya and Avery on the party, either” Jason combined and I nodded while Jimmy whistled looking into the air.

“Well, I had a secret mission, but I ain’t gonna tell you shit about it, since I know you are one of them. Keep that in mind Quee- I mean, Jess. Keep that in mind, don’t trust this guy.. or any of these guys, they are all not what they seem to be.” Jimmy narrowed his eyes and Jason shoved him away, “Don’t believe him, he is weird, most of the time. Thinks my brother and I are spies or something, have no idea where he got that from…” Jason shrugged and Jimmy made weird signs with his hands and I had to chuckle, he definitely had to teach me his sign language cause right now I didn’t understand anything.

The back door opened and Maya and Matt stepped out, they were glowing and Matt pulled Maya on his lap as soon as he took a seat next to Jimmy.
“So, you guys made up?” Jimmy asked grinning and Matt nodded “Not thanks to you, asshole”
“I knew you could manage that on your own…” Jimmy smiled and Matt rolled his eyes.
“Yeah right, just keep in mind to at least leave us a note or tell us you head out, so we don’t have to worry, alright?” Matt asked and Jimmy nodded “Yes, sir. Will keep that in mind.” He saluted and Matt chuckled “So you are having your first real bus adventure with the Avenged roadies, how is it going so far?” Matt had turned to me and Maya also smiled and added “It can’t be better, right? I mean I know how gentleman like the Berry brothers can be.” Maya winked at me and Matt Berry blew her a hand kiss which Matt caught in the air and threw on the ground with a laugh.

“Yes, everyone had been really nice, but I can’t wait for our next arrival. It so exciting to see so many new towns and venues… I haven’t been on the road much, I never had the money to travel.” I said and Maya nodded “Yeah, maybe one time we get the chance to take you out in the city, so you won’t only see the festival area?” Maya looked at Matt who nodded.
“We gotta discuss with Larry the schedule and then we will see what we can do.” He said and kissed Maya’s temple.

How could I think these two weren’t a couple, look at them, they were so cute together. I found myself smiling the entire time while Maya was talking about what we could all be doing together and I really couldn’t wait for all of that, until I felt a hand on my thigh and my eyes snapped up meeting Jimmy’s and another though crossed my mind, I couldn’t wait to be alone with him again, maybe even tonight?!

Brian’s POV

We made our first stop so finally Avery and I had to get out of our back room. We had this amazing night together and I even got to talk to her about her adventures from the night before.
She was still a little embarrassed on how she could have been so high and drunk while Jimmy and Maya didn’t have much of an affect.

She told me that she didn’t like the thought of not having her phone and not being able to tell me where she was but that it just had been about fun and nothing too bad had happened or she would have backed out anyway.

But I gotta admit I was officially doubting that right now, she was getting more and more loose especially when she was hanging out with Jimmy and Maya, and I don’t mean that in a bad way, but I would rather be with her when that happened and be a part of it.

We got us some breakfast and went out for a smoke when Jimmy, Jess, Maya and Matt came over to our bus. They decided to ride with us now, which meant I couldn’t keep that back room to Avery and me all the time, because I knew that someone would come barging in at every second annoying us.

But at least I could now use the time with all of us around to talk about what we would do tomorrow.
We had to figure out a strategy when Larry would be coming over.
I knew that Avery would get more and more nervous with each passing hour and each hour coming closer to the final talk with her dad.

“Guys! Guys, can you shut up for a second?! I have something I wanna discuss with you” I announced and pulled Avery back into my side.
I kissed the top of her head and sighed “As you all know, we asked Larry to come over tomorrow so we could have another talk with him. He doesn’t know… yet… that Avery is here with us. But we want to come clean. I want to finally talk to him and explain the situation, I know Matt wants the same and talk to him about his relationship, too.” I said looking at Matt who nodded and I saw his arm tightening around Maya.

“Do you or any of you guys want to join our talk? I was thinking about having a band meeting first, but… I honestly don’t know if that makes any sense, if Larry really plans to lay down his job as our manager when he can’t accept Avery and my relationship.” I said and I felt Avery stiffen, shit I really didn’t want to make her uncomfortable, but honestly I just had to say all this and hear what my brothers thought, so we would be prepared.

“You can count on me being there, you both can. I can tell Larry about your relationship and how good you are together.” Zack said nodding at me and Jimmy and Johnny joined in.
“Of course we gonna be there, but I can’t believe that Larry would really end it like that, do you think?” Johnny asked and Maya opened her mouth but Avery was faster.

“I know my father, he is a hothead, but if a decision is made, it’s done. So… you all gotta believe me I don’t wanna leave you and I will stay with you, but my father… he is still.. my dad and he won’t accept this so easily. Not if you tell him, not if Matt tells him… it’s just… I’m his only daughter and he warned me of all this, he won’t listen to you.” Avery turned to me tears glistening in her eyes and I smiled at her.

“Don’t be sad, love. We will make him listen, I promise. We won’t let you go again, none of you” I told her and pulled her fully into my embrace, even if I wanted to, I couldn’t let her go, she was all I ever wanted, she couldn’t go, that was final.

“We still have one more night and the rest of today to figure out a plan to make him listen, and even if he doesn’t, you belong to us now, Avery. We won’t let our family down, believe us.” Matt said and I felt Avery shift in my arms, she gave Matt a small smile and he nodded at her, my arms tightening around her, I wouldn’t let her go.

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