"I just want her out! Can't she just get the fuck out?! Please!" I was saying as I was starting to freak out, almost tearing out my hair from my head. My dad was trying to hold me back but I always wanted to get out of his embrace. I couldn't look at her but I could hear her sobbing in front of me. I desesparatly needed her away from me. In panic, I took my phone out of my pocket and ran out in the bathroom. I pressed call as I saw Jimmy's name on my contact list. It felt like forever before he answered.

"Hey?" He said on the other side of the phone.

"Come and take me out of this hell, I can't fucking control myself. I'm going to kill her." I said as I looked down at my hand, my knuckles were white from taking my fist too tight.

"Is is that much?"

"I swear, I almost punched her already. I can't stand her, I can't look at her. I need to be away from her!" I felt cold sweats running down my forehead. On the same moment someone knocked on the door.

"Who are you talking with?" My dad asked. I ignored him.

"Are you coming soon?!"

"oh.. Ok. Yeah, be there in 5." He shut down the phone.

I put my phone back into my pocket and opened the door, my dad was still standing there waiting for an answer. I knew again that he was going to be dissapointed.

"I'm sorry." I said as I wiped the cold sweat out of my forehead and passed in front of him.

"Where are you going?" He asked behind me. I knew that if I wouldn't say it they would call and call and call.

"Jimmy's." I just said as I entered into the living room.

I quickly looked at Suzy who was holding her onto the couch. I couldn't stand looking at them, both dissapointed in me again. All I was good for was for dissapointing everyone. I opened the door and waited for Jimmy to come. Not even a minute later he was there, hopefully he wasn't living far. As soon as I entered in the car, I said to him.

"I need booze and chicks on the moment, just don't ask." I said still looking in front of me. I heard him sigh next to me. Jimmy was my best friend and he really couldn't say no to me. I knew him so well. He drove us to the local bar. I sat in front of the bar tender. John, I knew him pretty well and he knew eevrything from me and Hayley, I used to get drunk and would tell all my life. I just say the truth when I'm drunk, I can't help myself.

"Jimbo and Brian! Is everything okay? You seem a bi.." He said as I cut him.

"I'll tell you that later, now give me that Jack Daniels.." I said looking at the counter and litting one of my cigarette. Jimmy sat beside me without saying a word.

I drank without talking, after a few I started feeling dizzy, feeling finally better into my body. I looked at John who was making a drink to an other old man onto the counter, he used to be there all the time too, probably knowing everything from my life.

"She's back." I said, drinking the last bit from my drink. John sighed and gave me an other Jack.

"This one's on mine.." He knew how hard it was for me. He could just see it.

"She just came back like nothing happened!" I took my face into my hands. "The worst is that she changed so much.. She was the most beautiful girl I've ever seen and now she's.." I stopped myself, looking for my words.

"She's?" Jimmy asked next to me.

"She's fucking more beautiful than ever! I hate myself for loving her. I fucking love her! I've always loved her, I never stopped loving her god damn it!" I said drinking my whole glass of liquor.

Notes

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