Look What You've Done

Since it was a pretty warm day, the beach was pretty crowded. Three teenage girls stopped in front of us, all of them grinning. They were pretty hot looking.

"Can we get a picture with you?" The blonde girl of the group said.

"We love so much avenged, we're really the biggest fans!" The brunette added. The other girl next to nodded.

I hesitated before taking a picture with them, I just knew I looked like a fucking mess, but I just couldn't say no, otherwise I would be on the first page of the journal. Synyster Gates refuses to take pictures with fans. He also admitted he hates his fans. I nodded, the 3th girl handed the phone to Hayley. She didn't say a word, just smiled. The girls clung themselves to me, I didn't hate that at all. I smiled, obviously fake. In 3 seconds they were all gone. Laughing out loud, happy from their picture. Hayley came back next to me. She was quiet, she cleared her throat and said.

"Well.. I wasn't expecting this..." She stared at her feet.

I forgot she wasn't there when A7X became really famous.This was just a part of my everyday life. Fans, I had all kinds, kids, elders, psychos wanting to get their dildos signed. All kind really..

"You'll need to get used to it.." I said, looking down at my feet too. She came closer to my side as I felt her eyes on me.

"What does that mean?" She asked quietly.

I haven't thought about it at all, I mean, for me it was just obvious. I didn't need to explain it. I needed her trough the detox.. It was hard for me to say it but I managed to get it out.

"I mean... Since you're about to move here, I guess.. You'll be around us more often."

The ego side inside of me didn't want to admit the real reason why, I said that instead. She sighed and looked at me, smiling. I stared at her gorgeous face.

"That's nice to hear." She just admitted.

She sat down on the sand and patted the spot next to her. I sat down too. I tried to cover my shaking hands from the missing drugs inside my veins. She obviously noticed it. She placed an arm around my shoulder and grabbed me closer to make me feel more comfortable. I remembered on this moment, all the times we used to sit on that beach, or just even when we finished school and we met at the nearest beach from the establishment. I remembered that time, while my life wasn't falling apart yet, cause she was still there. Her ringing phone broke the silence. She excused herself and answered. Even though it wasn't loud, I recognized the voice on the otherside of the phone. My jaw clenched from jealousness.

"Hi.. Sorry, but not now Paul. I'm with someone.." She answered as she sighed. "Yeah and don't forget about tomorrow, I still need you to help me move out... Ok, good thanks, see you tomorrow." She shut the phone and rolled her eyes up in the air.

"Sorry, he wanted to see me to talk about work, this guy is such a workaholic.." She laughed. "He can be quite annoying sometimes!"

I calmed myself as I heard her souting laugh. I cleared my throat and looked at her.

"Are you going to stay long in California?"

"Good chances that I'll stay here all my life, I've never felt better somewhere else than here..." She sighed. "We'll see as time goes by."

A silenced installed itself between us. She took my hand and stood up.

"Let's get into the water! It's freaking hot in here."

I stood up and laughed.

"Since when do you say freaking?! The good old fucking isn't good enough?!

"It always depends with who..." She said as she removed her dress, exposing her almost naked body to me.

Imagining her fucking someone else than me made me cringe. I just couldn't. How could I share this beautiful woman with someone else? I sometimes started to forget that she wasn't mine anymore, I couldn't control that.

"Brian?" She waved a hand in front of me.

"Hmm.. Sorry, I was thinking about something."

"OK. Aren't you going to remove your clothes, I can't wait to jump into the water!" She shouted.

I didn't want to remove my shirt, I didn't want her to see how skinny I was.

"I'll just keep them on." I cleared my throat and rubbed my hair, she saw how uncomfortable I was. She just nodded, took my hand again and dragged me to the water.

The water was not too cold, not to warm, just perfect. Hayley stopped herself as soon as she felt the water on the feet.

"That's fucking cold!"

Typical Hayley! I thought on that moment, she was still the same, she didn't change at all.

"Come on!" I yelled.

She slowly made her way into the water, holding her breath inside. We stayed in the water until our lips turned blue. As soon as I was out of the water, Hayley looked at me from head to toe, trying to not look concerned but I knew she was. I knew how unhealty my body looked. I tried to cover my body even though I was still wearing clothes.

"I've lost everything since you were gone..." I managed to say.

She smiled and said.

Notes

3 MONTHS!? God damn it, I didn't realize how long was the last time I posted. My boyfriend visited me from Belgium this winter so I was quite busy :3 I hope you enjoy xxx