She made me realized it, since she was back. I behaved differently, like if the missing part of my life was just back to help me fight in life. All that hate was now far behind. Since then I started to think more about myself, on the present instead of the past. It had only been a day since I haven't sniffed any cocaine. I felt sick, my body wasn't taking this good at all. But since I told them I really wanted to take my life back in hand and quit all the hard drugs, my head felt so much better. Unfortunatly, my body was already trying to take it over my head..

As we were sitting down on the couch, watching some tv. Well I was trying to. I had to control that awful feeling of being sober.

"Guys, I have a class to give, hope you don't mind if I leave you both alone. I mean, you are old enough to know what to do." My dad said as he stood up from the couch. He made sure to look at me while he said his last sentence. I just nodded. Harley was still sitting next to me when my dad quit the house. The tv was still on, I looked at it bu from the corner of my eyes, I could see that she was about to say something.

"How do you feel now?" She asked as she placed herself to face me. Without looking at her, I just answered.

"Like a fucking mess, but I guess that's just normal." I sighed, still keeping my eyes on the tv.

"Well, it's indeed normal, the first two weeks are the worst, you will feel anxious, depressed and mostly aggress..."

I couldn't let her finish, all this theorical shit she've learnt in school were making me even worst, I felt like I just her patient.

"Can we please talk about something else than that?! I feel like a fucking part of a therapy!" I said a bit too agressive, it was hard to control myself but she seemed to understand.

"What do you think about having some fresh air&" She smiled at me, like if nothing happened, like if I've always been nice to her. She was gorgeous. Really. Without thinking, I just answered.

"Yeah, why not?" I surprised myself again, if my dad would have asked me this I would have definetaly answered no.

"Where do you want to go?"

I shrugged. "I don't know, you can choose."
She sighed and took a moment to think.

"It's been such a while that I've been around but I don't know.. The beach? The one we used to go? It's such a beautiful day today, why not enjoying it outside?!"

The used to made my heart pinch. Remind me how bad I was all these years without her around me. All that hate.. Her happiness was driving me crazy. She had it so easy in life, I was jealous, however she still made me feel so much better than when she was not around me. I just nodded as she stood up from the couch and clapped her hands.

"Nice! I haven't swim since a while!" She left the living room and I guess,went to her room.

Swim? I didn't expect that. I didn't have any swimming suit in this house except the ones I used towear when I was 12. Before I could even stand up she was standing in front of me. She was weraing a very beautiful summer dress, it was translucid enough to see her bikini under it.

"Are you ready?" She asked.

"I.. I don't have any swimming suit."

"So what? Any pair of underpants will make the deal."

I just shrugged and stood up. I didn't really know what to answer to that, she was right. I followed her outside. I instantly put on my sunglasses cause the sun was pretty bright and since I was in detox, my headache was throbbing like crazy. We walked in silence for a good 5 minutes before we reached the nearest beach. We knew the way by heart, even after all these years...

Notes

A small one, but I really wanted to update causeit's been already two weeks! Hope you like it. Keep commenting I love it :D xx