I Wish I Could be the One

BRIANS POV***
“Dude I’m telling you. I picked her up off the floor, its like she barely even knew who I was and then I said something and she went all exorcist again…I’m…you know like worried or whatever” I say calmly but the truth is that I’m freaked. What was wrong with Kat? I had brought her to Jimmy’s room and he had already called Z to come but Kat was just may as well not have been there with us.

“Brian shes right in front of us. She can hear you talking about her” Jimmy said

“JIMMY! IM TELLING YOU SHE ISN’T LISTENING TO US” I yell at Jimmy

WHY WHY didn’t he get it? He didn’t see her the way I did. She was I cant even describe it and he doesn’t understand it. As soon as we got to his room she just stopped fighting stop doing everything. It was like she was physically there but not really there and it creeped me the fuck out. I didn’t like it. The only thing she didn’t stop was crying, she was constantly crying streams of tears and she kept holding her left side her hand cuffed on her shoulder below her neck. She stared at ahead at us but past us and blankly. She had been like this for two hours. I skipped class and Jimmy did too. But Zack was still in his fuck why didn’t he just skip??

“Kitty Kat can still hear you she’s listening Brian I know she is. Nobody can just tune people out like that especially people like you or me, more me but you know. She can still hear you” Jimmy said

“Jimmy I’m Telling you anything I say will not phase her. Watch” I slowly move in front of her and meet her gaze “Kat I’m in love with you, I own a pet monkey, I listen to Duran Duran, I went to space and I’m punching through jello”
Jimmy and I watched her intently waiting for sometype of reaction. Confusion, laughter anything. But nothing.

“See what did I tell you she wasn’t even phased something is seriously wrong and I don’t know what and its really fucking weird Jimmy how are you so calm about?”

“Brian” Jimmy said

“Dude what?” I reply

“Wheres Michelle?” He said cooly

Michelle? Was he seriously asking about Michelle?
“Did you hear anything I said Jimmy?” I say a bit angry and confused

“Yes I did but where’s Michelle? You’ve been pretty attached at the hip lately so I’m just wondering where she is” he says again with a sly smile

“Dude what the fuck do you not see this girl in front of us?!” I say pointing at Kat on the bed my face growing hot, what was he playing at? “Who cares where Michelle is?! Something is wrong with Kat we need to fucking help her”
A smug look came across his face that I knew meant “I knew it” I didn’t know exactly why he had it now or what he knew but whatever it was I knew it was probably right and I fucking hated that, I don’t need that right now. Something was wrong with Kat and I wanted to know what

“Are you sure she wont respond to anything?” Jimmy said changing the subject before I had a chance to interrogate him about his stupid look.
I step closer to Jimmy and lower my voice
“There was only one thing and when I said it she went exorcist on crack it was freaked me out.” I whispered
“Why are you whispering I thought you said nothing we say would phase her” Jimmy said
“Dude I just said exorcist on crack I don’t want to see that shit again”
“Alright fair enough, what was it”
I motion for Jimmy to bend down a bit so I can whisper it to him
“Johnny” I say as quietly as possible
Jimmy looked at me with wide eyes and looked at Kat long and hard his mind undoubtedly flying with a million thoughts. It’s about fucking time he got serious about this

“I thought it was going to be about her dealing or something”
“Dealing?” I say confused
Jimmy laughs at me with a grin on his face and his hand on his chest
“Please, Don’t tell me you didnt know” he says
“Know what?” I say
“Oh my god really Brian really?” He says thru more laughter
“Why the hell are you laughing at me” I say beginning to get frustrated
“Who do you think my special friend was that I always got us weed from was?”
“What?”
“You dingus Kat has been our dealer since she practically got here I thought you knew” Jimmy said chuckling
“What the fuck?! Does Zacky know??” I demand angry at my blindness
“I thought that was why we never talked about it, am I the only one who knows about this?” Jimmy said amused
“Well I sure as hell didn’t fucking know” I say
“Didn’t know what?” Zacky said walking through the door with various bags of chips in a plastic bag in his hand. Which only meant one thing, of course that bitch is high as fuck right now. Well this thing with Kat was going to be the worst buzz kill.

“Nothing” we both say too much in unison causing Zack to cock a brow. Luckily Z just laughs it off thank god for well I guess Kat’s weed. Where the hell did she get this shit from? And How did I not know she had been our dealer since like last year.
I didn’t like the idea of her dealing especially with all the dickheads at this school probably trying to fuck with her. Seriously debating asking Zack if he knew but it’s probably not the best time right now. Fuck this day .

Zack slowly looked away from us and turned to Kat barely noticing her presence because of how quiet she was being. Immediately Zack charged the distance between them and got on his knees in front of her grabbing her arms and examining her.
“What happened???!?” he demanded
“Nothing well I don’t know really” I said
“What the fuck do you do mean you don’t really know, you either know or you don’t” Zack said with his angry face growing red
“I found her having like a meltdown or whatever in the hallway and then I brought her here” I said
“Has her hand been like that?” he asked pointing our the one over her left shoulder looking worried
“since he found her” Jimmy said
“fuck” Zack let out rubbing his palms over his face
“what what does that mean?!” I asked a little too excited making Jimmy get that sly grin on his face again god that guy just has such of weird way of figuring shit out especially before I do. Even when it is about me.
“when…when we were little and our parents would fight when they actually were around it’d get pretty bad…” he paused and looked down at his sister with sad eyes that I had never really seen before… “she used to get really weird and always clutch her left side like that and say that bothered her or it hurt”
Zack sat down on the bed next to her and looked at Kat “it wasn’t until later that we went to a doctor and he told us she had an anxiety panic issue. I guess sometimes you get chest pain or discomfort or some shit. She used to just zone out completely, it really fucked her up ya know? She’d get all crazy and shit but it was always because something was bothering her and stuff” Zack looked like he wanted to tear up. He never really talked too much about their childhood and shit and this is probably why. I felt like shit. I couldn’t do anything to help her. And looking at Zack look so helpless unable to do anything for Kat was really getting to me, and Jimmy I could see it in his eyes too.
“so when is my princess going to snap out of it?” Jimmy said quietly
Zack put his arm around Kat and kept his eyes on her while he answered “I don’t really know, it kind of depends. Ususally shes fine after a while but she just gets really down you know? She hasn’t had an ‘episode’ as my mom used to call them… in a while. What happened. It had to be something pretty big.” He said getting more stern with his last words
“I…” I started wanting to tell him about Johnny but I didn’t want him to go after him. Not before we really know what was going on. What if Kat didn’t want to say anything? But what did that little shit do to her. Fuck this is a mess.

JIMMY’S POV***

Ah ha I see my suspicions of the situation are correct. My princess is messed up beyond repair right now. But I know she’ll be okay, she just needs a new pair of batteries and some good old company from me. Okay back to business you old fart. I see that my thoughts about Brian are correct. He is just too blind to see what he’s doing and how he is acting but I’m not and sooner or later everyone else is going to see it too. I mean don’t get me wrong Kat is beyond fucking important to me she’s our princess. But I see the way he’s been looking at her all-day and freaking out. Its just weird, especially since I thought he was so into Michelle. She’s cool and all but honestly he hasn’t shut the fuck up about her since like ever I’ve just been tuning most of it out…. but that’s because I have other shit on my mind. I have so many ideas for the band. But not know. I can see just standing here that Brian still has feelings for Kat. That whole shit last time leaving it up for Johnny and Matt was shit. I knew it all along such fucking bullshit. And now hahaha this was going to be interesting as fuck is he more into Kat or Michelle? He has to back off because shes with the little gnome….but- fuck he caught me smiling again he knows I’m thinking about something. Okay make a mental note to talk to Brian. He needs to face his feelings for Kat because if he does like her more than Michelle even if Kat is with shortshit, he shouldn’t lead Michelle on. Okay Jim back to Kat I need to figure out what I have to do to get Kat back on her feet oh I totally fucking got it.
Im leaving right fucking now.
Just like that I’m out the fucking door. Got get this shit for my princess and then talk to Brian and Michelle, Jimmy is about to work his magic for his friends yet again. HA!!!!!

ZACKY’S POV ***

This is fucking shit. My baby sister is having fucking this shit happen to her again. She doesn’t need this. She doesn’t deserve this. I want to know what fucking happened and I want to know now. This is bullshit. Kat gets so much shit too much fucking drama. Its annoying I love my sister. But sometimes sometimes I wish she wasn’t so cool with my friends. I know they love her as a friend but lately that friend line has gotten so hazy its shit. My sister just doesn’t deserve it. And I want to know what happened here to figure it out what got my sister to act this way. I feel so helpless. Like a shitty brother because I cant protect my sister. She deserves better than this, better than me. All I want to do is make her stop crying make her snap out of it but I cant. But. Johnny can. She loves him I know she does. Shes always telling me how he just understands her. I don’t like it at all I’d rather she not date anyone especially my friends. But I do know she loves him. Ugh. Maybe I should just get him over here and have him talk to her. No. she should sleep this off whatever it is.
“Where did Jimmy go?” I ask realizing he no longer is in the room.
“Where does he ever go?” Brian said
“True.” I couldn’t deny.
“Look I think Kat should stay with you tonight Brian. She shouldn’t be alone. You said you found her like this right?”
“Me? No ya dude whatever you want. Ill do whatever you want me too. Anything”
“Umm okay…” I say that was weird. A bit enthusiastic…whatever ill shake that off I have bigger things to worry about.
“Has anyone talked to Johnny toady” I ask
Brian got wide eyed like I murdered someone in front of her. Kat wrapped her arms around me resting her hear on my shoulder hugging me tightly.
“Its okay your big bro is going to fix this. What do you want anything you want ill do it” I say patting her head gently. Brian fixated on Kat.
“I….” she choked
“What is it?” Brian asked “What do you need”
“Yeah sis come on tell what want”

Kat pulled away from me and stared at me straight. Her eyes almost looked swollen so red and puffy from all her crying, mascara and eyeliner or whatever all over her face. Fuck I hated seeing her this way, she s the only fucking thing in this fucked up world I care about. And here I am the shittiest brother fucking alive.

Notes

These last two chapters I've thought of as a two part chapter so sorry if they are bit slow. But as always, thanks for sticking by guys!! Please let me know what you guys think of whats going on! Brian was done with Kat right? and now Kat wants Matt? MMMMM.....
As Always,
Much Love~~