I Wish I Could be the One

ZACKYS POV***

How could this be fucking happening right now. My precious little sister is having me tell my best friend she lost her virginity to my best friend. She's the only person I truly love and care about in this world. Seeing as parents weren't always there. And now this shit. This has gotta be the most fucked up shit Kat has put me through. And God fucking damn it why do my friends have to be into her. It makes it so much harder protecting her. I love these guys like my own brothers but shit this is so damn complex. I shouldn't have to worry about my friends hurting my sister or my sister hurting them. I just wanna play music with my Bros with my sis at our side. When did it all get so messed up?

"So you what does she want you to tell me dude?" Brian said lighting a cigarette snapping me back to reality.
"Dude you can't smoke in the hallway" I said sounding like a whiney girl.
"Ok Zacky" he laughed brushing it off "seriously though what's he deal why was your sister crying. I have a right to know"
"I don't know that you do man.. I think honestly it's better you just leave my sister alone. I'm not saying because I don't trust you, and I'm not saying I'm not still mad about what happened the other day, did you even apologize to her?!" I said starting to raise my voice
"I uhhh look Zacky you know that was never what we meant to do we wouldn't do that" he said
"I know man I know, but can you blame me? That's my little sister! And you should apologize. I know Johnny has." I said to him
"Pshh don't talk to me about that short little weasel. Trying to steal my girl" he said
"First of all Brian please don't ever refer to my sister as "my girl" you sound stupid, and second I don't think it's Johnny you have to worry about anymore..."I said cooly
"Wait what do you mean?" Brian said curiously
"Well yea man that's the thing. Fuck this is really fucking awkward..." I said rustling through my hair. Did I really have to do this, fuck Kat why can't you tell him yourself. This is over my head I don't want to think about my little sisters virginity that shit just isn't right.
"Well?!" Brian said as he was growing impatient with my wandering thoughts and constantly zoning out.
"Im just going to kinda of say it because this is fucking gross for me to even think about and I just want to beat the shit out of him, which i will soon but-"
"ZACKY WHAT THE HELL GET TO THE DAMN POINT" Brian yelling cutting off my rambling
"Dude she slept with Matt, you two are done. Like done. Over." I told him
I had never seen Brian look the way he did now. He looked like someone hypnotized him he didn't even react.
"Did you hear me?" I said
He just stood there staring at me.
"Bro" I said again
"Yea Z I heard you" he said quietly
"Look I really don't know what the whole deal is with you and Johnny and her but I think you guys should just back off. I mean-"
"Does Johnny know?!" Brian interjected
"Look all I know is that I was told to tell you she didn't tell me anything about Johnny" I said trying to avoid it
"Johnny loves her though." He said calmly
"Don't you too?" I said curious
Brian slid down against the wall sitting on the ground and extending his legs out. He ran his fingers through his hands
"I...look Z I know what's going on looks all fucked up. But the truth is I do care about your sister. She's awesome you know? But...I miss Mina" Brian said
"Wait so you don't even like my sister and you got into a fight with Johnny over her?! Brian what the fuck!!!" I nearly shouted
"Dude I know I feel like shit about it. I would never want to hurt her, and our hookup was fun, but I guess I was just nice having someone who actually cares about me around, I mean Mina and I had a thing but...she didn't care for me the way K does...it was comforting....I never wanted to fight with Johnny, he's my one of my brothers you all are..."
"I get you trying to get away from your feelings with Mina but you can't fucking use people to do Bri especially my sister"
"I know I know Z, I do like your sister, but I know Johnny has been in love with her since he laid eyes on her. I can't pull a robbery on him like that. I love that little fucker to much to screw him like that" he said
"So screwing my sister doesn't matter? And you did screw Johnny he can't fucking think straight" I said firmly
"I didn't actually screw your sister Z. Don't think I haven't noticed her crush on me since forever. It's pretty obvious me and Jimmy have even talked about it before. I entertained the idea because I thought it could actually work, but I realized with Johnny and Mina how fucked I was being"
"You still sound like a douche Brian" I said
"Dude I fucking know alright! But I can't change anything"
I light kicked his leg in annoyance
"Ow" Brian said
"You could start by apologizing to her. I mean Mina was her best friend I think she knows how you felt and how she felt, so how do you think she's going to feel knowing you were just missing Mina when you hooked up with her. That's fucked man" I tried reasoning with him
"I know. I hate this. Kat is actually a good girl Mina is just a girl. Kat deserves better then me. She deserves More." Brian said


BRIANS POV***

Kat deserved better than me. She deserves Johnny he has so much love for her in a way that I don't. Part of me does love Kat, there's no doubt she'd be a great wife one day. Mina I'm not so sure, she's just a fling...she was so care free and funny and down..but she just picked up and left. She didn't even tell me she was going to...Kat literally had to tell me. And I'll never forget the look in her sad scared eyes before she told me. Kat knew how I felt about Mina, and the way I understood it Kat always pushed Mina towards me because deep down Mina liked me back. But in the end she left, and she didn't even say bye to Kat. Kat was such a good friend to her, and really too good a friend that none of us deserved but Mina leaving had her in a funk for weeks I could see how hurt Kat was. I never want to see her like that agian. It tore me up. But why? maybe I do love Kat, but I can't do that to Johnny and I just miss Mina fuck why can't I make up my mind. I shouldn't miss Mina after what she did to not even me, but Kat...but I do miss her.
What the hell why am I even thinking about wives I'm too young for that shit.
"Kat doesn't deserve the shit we went through as kids Bri, but don't think you're not a good guy...I mean yea you kinda fuck up sometimes like now, but who doesn't?" Zacky said snapping me back to reality.
"I'm sorry all this has gone down Z, I love you guys. " I said
"I love you too Brian you're my brother, and I know Kat cares for you too. We are all family...and after all we've been through I know this will work itself out...it's just going to take a little to get through it" Zacky said trying to reassure me
"I honestly didn't even know Matt was into her, but I guess who wouldn't be" I said
"Yea well I didn't really see it either, which reminds me I have to talk to that shit" Zacky said annoyed
"I think I'm going to go write..." I said getting up to leave
"Shit man wait tell me about that record deal you scored" Zacky said interested but skeptical
"Well I sent them a bunch of stuff we already wrote so honestly we just have to name the album! and well rerecord everything since our stuff is kinda shit. Unless we want to make major changes.They have all the demos and shit of the list we had been working on. Zack this is like the real deal!" I said getting excited again letting Mina and Kat slip out of my thoughts.

It's amazing how much we had actually got done in a short amount of time. Some of the songs we had before Matt but we made them better with him. The truth is Matt was fucking awesome when it came to the band he was becoming another brother...but I dont know how I felt about him when it came to Kat.

Notes

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