Dice’s POV

It was an early evening and both me and MJ and the Avenged boys were gathered outside on Matt’s patio. Matt told he wanted to get this Brian hating Zacky shit over and vice versa, so obviously, he thought a good idea would be to drink, get smashed and punch each other square in the face. To my own misfortune that hadn’t happened yet, ‘cause there wasn’t anything heavier than a simple budweiser at this fucking event. This was ridiculous! Six beers deep and not even a buzz.

„Can’t we really get something stiffer than this piss water?” I questioned after I had shotgunned the beer, holding out the empty bottle so Matt could switch it with a new one on his way to the lounge chairs.

„Try making smoke bombs,” Jimmy replied on Matt’s behalf, making circles of smoke. „That’s how I’m planning on getting smashed.”

„Planning?” I looked over my shoulder at Jimmy who was sitting by the patio table along with Johnny and Brian. „Let me know how that goes, ‘cause this is my seventh beer,” I pointed to the bottle Matt had just put in my hand, „and it feels like I’m on my way to soberville.”

„Okay... One long drag... one bottle of beer,” Jimmy mused behind me, where he had braced with a six pack.

I turned to look at MJ, who seemed very content lounging there with her first and half finished beer in hand. „Are you serious? You’re not drinking?” How can one not drink when Brian’s shooting daggers at Zack? All the tension in the air was making me fucking hungry. And thirsty. And horny.

„What’s the point? Matt put a lock on the mini bar, I’m not gonna get wasted on beer,” She opened her eyes and made a disgusted face.

„Good point,” But I wanted to get smashed so this was the only option I had left.

„Fuck! This isn’t working!” Jimmy screamed and I could imagine him on the verge of tears. „It’s weekend and I’m not getting fucked up...” Was that a sob?

„Shads, come on, man, just unlock the bar,” Syn said. And I wasn’t over exagerating when I said the bar’s locked up. He really put a fucking lock on it. „You don’t remember how’s Rev when he’s without his weekend fix?”

„Yea, dude, you can’t invite us to a party with no booze,” Johnny added, discontent strong in his voice.

„Who said this’s gonna be a party?” He questioned and I heard that fucking smug smirk in his voice. Nothing but some stupid beer... All that it did was made me run to the bathroom a hundred times too many. Why couldn’t I be a guy? Just pull it out and do your thing. Nothing but problems.

„Better tell us girls what was your life before you met us,” Matt continued, changing the subject.

„That... actually sounds like it should be fun,” Zacky piped up and I didn’t know if I wanted to punch him or I was indiferent towards that love triangle with him, Gates and MJ. Ehh... not my problems. I’ll just stay out of it.

„Did you know that Dice once tried to get in a biker gang?” MJ said almost too enthusiasticly. Oh god, please, not with this again. I swore she told the tale to every guy I as much as hooked up with. I don’t know why she did this, either to scare them off or show the true colors of me. Really was a mistery to me, because each time when she told the story, she sounded like a proud momma, even if there was nothing to be proud of.

„MJ, please not with th—„

„Oh yea?” Matt cocked an eyebrow, looking as amused as ever. MJ sat up and turned so she could see all of the guys – with her side against the pool.

„Yup,” MJ popped the ‘p’, „You should’ve seen the view. Big guys, all over six feet and there’s Dice acting all bikerly like, trying to get in the wolf pack.”

„Did she really need to act? If I wouldn’t know better I’d say she’s a product of a biker gang bang gone extremely wrong,” Brian smirked. Was that an attempt to insult me? Sounded more of a compliment.

„I fucking love you too, Gates,” I saluted raising my beer bottle in the air, closing my eyes and trying to pray for the buzz to come.

„Weren’t you afraid of... you know...” What, short-shit, getting raped by bikers? I looked back with a slight frown. Fuck, that was my dream at the time. Big guys and litle ol’ me with a burning core? A goddamn fantasy.

A smug smirk pulled at my lips as I rested my hands on my nape, getting back to inspecting the insides of my eyelids.. „That’s what I was going for, Christ.”

„You’re not serious,” I could tell Matt was frowning. I peeped one of my eyes open to tell that was really true. Why wouldn’t I be serious? That was the only pub back in our little home town and it happened to be filled with bikers at all hours of the day. Those shiny Harley’s parked outside, those buff men parked inside. I could lick my lips only on the memory.

„I am.” I nodded, being dead serious. „I was so tired of that alpha-male shit going on that I just wanted to either fuck those testosterones or be a part of them. I was young... had great dreams back then.” I said dreamily.

„And your dreams were to be a biker and get fucked by several? Am I getting this right?” Matt frowned.

„Yup.” I replied with a wide smile on my face.

„So did you go steady with either of them?” Zack asked. This was actually the first time this evening I heard him talking. Maybe I should hook him up with Rachel’s friend? What’s her face... Max? A dude’s name, but have you seen her bust? She was all maxed out on her hills. Got it? I just... ah, nevermind. I still have to answer his question.

„I beg your pardon?” Now it was my time to frown.

„Did you date one is what Zack’s asking,” Syn explained. Oh this is looking very promising, I could almost clap and rub my hands together, knowing they’ll be best buds again.

So that’s what you called it nowadays? I winced, „Of course not. What do you take me for? I’m not crazy after all.” I received very doubtful looks, I think these guys were constantly questioning my sanity since they got to know me. Truth be told – even I questioned if I’m not insane from time to time. But to spice it up a bit and have fun over my daily glass of whiskey let’s-pretend-it’s-whiskey -- „MJ did.”

She just spit her drink, choking on it. Oh, revenge’s sweet, ain’t it darlin’?

„You did what?” Brian’s eyes went wide. I couldn’t hold the laughter in no more, this was just too much fun. She shot me a glare. What? She started to play this game in the first place, why did I get to be the fucking bad guy in the end?

„But to her defense, the dude was very handsome,” I licked my lips, remembering the package of a guy named Duke. Up until this day I don’t know if it was his real name, that is if his parents hated him that much, or was it simply the way those big boys called him on the road. It seemed MJ had caught up on what I said since a blush crept up her cheeks. I looked at Matt from my drink and saw him too serious for the matter, Come on, it’s the past. There’s no need to get mad, they were the ones to ask about what we did before we got to where we were now!

„How many of them did you fuck?” Matt let out through bitten teeth, once he stopped by Jimmy’s.

„You’re seriously asking me that?” My eyebrows raised. In front of all of his friends? Not that I had anything against speaking the truth. Avenged boys knew me for me and they knew I didn’t like to sugarcoat anything. Nevertheless – Matt said nothing. „You want a list or something?” I laughed humorlessly.

„Sure.” He shrugged, still angry.

„Oh because it’s so not a recipe for a disaster,” He took the lyrics book from the patio table, which I had no idea what it was doing there, came over and dropped it in my lap, along with a pen.

„Start writing.” He said.

With a sigh I took the pen and clicked it, „So you want the mere mortals too or just the bikers?”

For a moment he looked confused, but regained rather fast. „All of them... You’ll need more paper there, babe?” He pointed to the note book.

I shrugged, paging through it, before my eyes raised up to meet his, „Yup.”

Brian’s POV

I really didn’t want to fight with Zack, he was my best friend after all so when Matt had informed us about this party – I was hooked. Yeah, little did we all know he meant a party with no alcohol and before the Twilight had hit. This wasn’t a party. I don’t know what the hell this was, but I guess karma started biting Matt in the ass for this and for bringing Dice’s past up.

„Are you fucking serious? Jason Berry?” He was reading over her shoulder and Dice just shrugged. I couldn’t deny, I was a little shocked hearing Dice had slept with one of our roadies, but with Dice? She could come up and admit she ‘d fucked a pilot while he’s flying a plane and I wouldn’t be too surprised.

„You asked for it, big boy. No secrets.”

„Who the fuck is Ripper?” Ripper? That sounded very much fucking dangerous. But knowing Dice- perfectly fine. She lived for the danger, savored every bit of it.

„Was it Duke’s brother?” MJ asked innocently, meaning no harm when she leaned over and looked what the red had wrote down. „Duke’s too on your list? I didn’t even know that...”

„Well I had to test the merchandise before passing it on to you,” I heard a smirk in Dice’s voice and this was my time to get mad. Sure, I knew I wasn’t MJ’s first one, but I didn’t fucking need to know who or what or when she had fucked before me. „Say what you want about biker’s – they know how to stand up for their women.”

„I thought you didn’t date them,” I said a little confused.

„I didn’t,” she agreed, her greens locking on me. „But your girl did and you know how she loves getting in trouble,” she rolled her eyes. That was true. Somehow I felt very puny in comparison with a fucking biker. Sure if the need arose and I had to protect either MJ or Dice or stick up for my friends, I would try and manage a punch, but I know I’d be dead in the end. That’s why I didn’t mess with those leather vests. I didn’t have a death wish just yet. Even Matt felt a bit intimidated when he came eye to eye with a biker and we all knew Shads is a big guy.

„Please, just tell me neither of you are still partying it up with those guys,” I said basically pleading. There would be no chance of living through a fight if some of their exes suddenly stepped back in their lives. I could take on Malcolm – piece of cake, a biker? Na-ah, nope. They are ruthless. And huge.

Suddenly Dice’s smile turned into a deep frown as she looked all of us over. „Are you serious?”

„What?” Zack asked.

„You really don’t know?” She continued.

„Don’t know what?” Matt asked, still looking very much pissed.

„The bouncer of Johnny’s, Bob... He’s from Hell’s Angels.” Silence fell over the patio. The kind hearted guy, the dude who takes shit from Dice is from Hell’s Angels? „Don’t tell me you honestly didn’t know that...”

„Bob’s really nice,” MJ agreed, „Did you know he has a kid?”

„I sorta don’t believe he’s from Hell’s Angels,” Zacky said, clear doubt in his face.

„Yea, if he’s what you say he is, why is he taking shit from you?” Johnny spoke to Dice.

„We already explained you that,” This was time for my girl to frown, „Dice—„

„Yea, yea, she tried to get in the gang—„ Johnny was waving her off, but instead of doing that, Dice fucking cut him off.

„I fucking got in, dipshit!” She announced with a yell, before continuing in a calmer manner, „Did some things I’m not proud of, but I was in... After they saw I could kick some serious ass.”

That left us all agape, but what really made my blood boil was not the fact that she was probably the only chick who wasn’t considered a cheep slamming material, but an equal, was what she said after, „And MJ was my super side-kick buddy. Man, those were fun times.”

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