Brian’s POV

What about me? What kinda darn question was that? What about me? Jesus Christ, I could see this girl was head over heels for me, but could I really say the same for myself? Sure, I liked her company, I liked to take care of her, feel needed, but that was about it. I couldn’t just come out and say ‘oh hey, by the way, I love you’, knowing that wasn’t true. I swore to myself I won’t love anyone and by saying that I would just lead her on, since I knew I wasn’t capable of changing. Whatever the hell it was that kept me here, with her and not having Synyster Gates dictate his rules and yell at me to slam my dick in some long legged creature, was really something, but I knew better not to lie to the girl. Man, she already besides me had been to hell and back, she had just too much on her plate for me to play her like that.

The loud and annoying ringtone cut the silence in two. I was literally saved by the bell. I sighed, pushing away from her, „Sorry, I have to take that,” I said with an apologetic look on my face as I pulled myself out of the pool and walked over to the patio table, large doses of water running down my body.

However once I stopped to look at the screen of my phone and see who was calling me, I tensed visibly. I held the phone in my hand, trying to figure if I should take that fucking call. But then again, I lied to MJ that I really had to answer, so I’ll just consider Dice my savior.

I murmured another silent ‘sorry’ to MJ as I walked back in the house, sliding the glass door shut behind me, before answering and pushing the phone up to my ear.

„This better be good, Dice,” I hissed in the phone, checking if MJ is still outside and doesn’t have any need of walking back inside. Dice had really hurt her and I wasn’t sure if she needed to know that it was the fiery redhead who was calling me right now. And to think about it, why was she calling? And where the hell was she?

„You think I’d be calling you just because? Don’t flatter yourself,” Yeah, still the same old bitch. I leaned against the counter, clenching my teeth. „There’s something I need you to do for me.”

„And why should I do anything for you?” I spat.

„’Cause you love MJ.” I thought my jaw was really gonna fall out of it’s hinges. What the fuck did that bitch just say?

„I-I—„

„Shut up,” she huffed, „First things first, I’m sure you’ve put your nose where it didn’t belong and read the letter I left behind. Did she explain what I meant by that?”

„Should she?” I frowned.

„I take that as ‘no’.” She sighed heavily. „Look, remember her asshole of an ex?”

„It’s kinda hard to forget. Why?” I replied unsurely, checking upon MJ through the kitchen window.

„Well, I’m trying to get him go to prison. MJ’s against it.” I could imagine her pinching the bridge of her nose. What? Why the fuck should she be against it? I believe he actually tried to kill her at one point. „Here’s what you have to do... The trial’s in three weeks and each of you Avenged boy scouts are gonna give testify against the dick, do you copy?”

I nodded being completely embazzeled, before I realized she couldn’t see me and rushed out a stressed, „Y-yes.”

„Good.” She took a breath, „good... And please, do me a favor, and drag her to the court house. By the way how’s she holding up? I know I pulled a major bitch move—„

„She’s fine,” I reassured, „Reads that letter every day, but she’s fine.”

„She’s such an idiot,” I could hear her smirk in the conversation and shake her head, „Okay, I have to go, take care of her, okay?”

„About that—„

„What the hell did you do now?” She sounded genuinelly angry. I wasn’t sure one could change the mood so quickly, but look at her go.

„Dice, you have to come back,” I sighed, closing my eyes as I tilted my head back, „I-I... I’m pretty sure she’s in love with me...”

„And you figured that just now? Man, you’re blind... either stupid. I haven’t figured which just yet.” Was she laughing? Okay, I’m about done with this fucking conversation. „Look, just stop going against the flow and give in. And for christ sake, don’t. Fuck. Up. ‘Cause God knows I did.” And with that she simply hung up on me, leaving me blinking over the screen of my phone.

„Who was that?” Before I could realize I had just talked to Dice and she told me that I loved MJ, the blondie was running her fingers along my face. How long was she standing there?

I tried my best to seem careless and just shrug, doing one of those make-believe smiles Synyster Gates so freely gave the fans, but I didn’t think she bought it. Somehow she could see right through me and that frightened me the most. „No one you have to worry about.” I lied, knowing Dice was exactly the one she was worried about. Hell, the Red had shocked even me and I’m kinda hard to shock to be frank. I’ve seen it all. By now at least I think I have.

„Okay,” She smiled warmly, leaning against me, her hands around my waist as she pressed her cheek against my chest.

I don’t want to hurt you, baby doll... But I get the feeling I will...

Jimmy’s POV

My eyes were glued to my phone as I tried and tried and.. a deep breath... tried and tried a little bit more to get a hold of the knife mistress, but to no goddamn avail. Why would she do something like that to me? Didn’t she love me anymore? I mean, come the fuck on... I needed to show her my knife collection, why did she go away? Why? She and MJ... they both should just make up... or make out. I know I’d like that, hell, everyone would like that.

„Jimmy stop,” Zacky flunked down beside me, popping a Heineken open. „If the bitch’s not pick up for MJ, she won’t pick up for you.”

„When did you become such a bitter bastard?” I looked at him with a glare. I didn’t give a single hell about Dicey not picking up for MJ, they did have a serious fight after all, but why wasn’t she picking up for me?

„What makes me bitter?” he frowned, taking a mouthful. „Oh sorry if I hurt your feelings by calling her a ‘bitch’, ‘cause that’s what she fucking is.”

„Take your words back!” I shrieked, jumping to my feet.

„Why? That’s the truth,” He stated simply.

„Oh I’m gonna—„

„You what?” His green eyes narrowed on me. „That’s right. You nothing.”

Exc-exc—pardon me? „Matt?!” I yelled, my eyes still on Zack, „Vengeance’s calling Dice a bitch!”

„Sorry to break it to you, Jimbo,” He started, resting his hand on my shoulder once he came in the room, „but she kinda is.”

What? I... WHAT?! Wasn’t he oh so madly, deeply, ecstaticly in love with my knife mistress? Why would she call her in that bad, bad name? My Dicey was the most kindest, sweetest person I knew... Okay, that made even me giggle, but really... She wasn’t a bitch, she just had mastered the art of being a magnificent wizard asshole, but that was just a facade. Come on a heartless person wouldn’t offer her help in the pet shelter, and she did! Okay, fine, that happened only once and later she stated she hates charity and is not doing that ever again, but that was something, right?

„She is not!” Yes, I was a stubborn cookie and even when I knew i might not be right, I stood and fight for what I believed would be right in a parallel universe.

„Whatever you say Jimmy... Come on Vengeance, I need your ballistic fingers a bit,” Matt said, leaving me gaping at them as they went over to the recording room. Oh I’m gonna show them... I’m gonna prove Dicey McDice is a nice person. Somewhere deep down in her heart she had to be, right? One does not born into this world already being evil...

„Hey Jimmy,” MJ greeted me with a smile as she walked in the lounge under Brian’s arm. I saluted her in return, making her giggle. She looked genuinely happy, they both did, and even tho I couldn’t quite forget how destroyed MJ had been that dreadful night, I couldn’t bare but feel a bit angry with them both, ‘cause I could bet money on the fact that Dice wasn’t happy. Truth be told, she never had been happy. You honestly thought that anger came from nowhere? Once when we both were upside down hammered, she said something about being envious towards MJ. I didn’t question her about it, the only thing I can say – Dice wasn’t a happy person.

„So what did you want to show MJ?” Brian asked, offering a bottle of beer to his love object.

„Oh I have this crazy idea,” I relaxed instantly and the anger disappeared, when figuring MJ could make my baby idea be born! Oh that’s right... I remembered her art and that’s what I needed right now. That’s what we all needed! A bit of humor in our lives and my goofiness didn’t seem to cut it anymore. „I want to make a cartoon!”

„You what?” Brian nearly choked on his beer.

„No, not like a cartoon... more than an animated movie,” I said thoughtfully, rubbing my chin as I considered all the options. „Yes, that’s it... 8 minutes of pure awesomeness!”

„What the hell are you talking about, Jimmy?” Brian frowned.

„The video for a song,” I stated like I’d do to a retarded child. Slowly and very carefully. Jeez, sometimes that Haner could be the most clueless chipmunk you’d ever see! „For A Little Piece Of Heaven...”

„Wait, hold up... We don’t even know where it’s going yet, not speaking about if it’s gonna cut for the actual album,”

„Oh I know exactly where it’s going,” I leaned back in the couch with a manic grin on my face, „And MJ here will gonna help my idea be born!”

„What do you mean, Jimmy?” MJ leaned further in Brian’s side with a small frown on her face. „I don’t... uhmm... really understand what you want for me to do...”

„I’m obviously not asking you to make me a Bloody Mary,” Though it would be nice if she did. With that cute little umbrella and a small pickle at the side of the glass, it’d be so cute! Kawaii! „You’re gonna wing your magic wand and create a little cartoon!” I said, my arms being all over the place from how excited I was for this. „A little animated massacre... It will be so sweet!”

„Have you smashed your head a bit too much today, Jim?” Brian laughed.

„No, just once, thanks for asking,” And it still hurt from when I ran into the mic stand. I should destroy each one of them, those little devil’s creations... Hurts me a lot more than they should! „So, MJ, will you do it?”

„I don’t kno—„

„Come on...” I whined, dropping on my knees in front of her and throwing myself around her leg, „Please,please,please,please,please... PLEEEEEEEAAAAASEEEEE!”

„Jimmy, come on, get up...” He uttered.

„MJ, PLEEEEEAAASEEEE!” I yelled on the top of my lunges, my throat starting to ache at one point resulting in a cough and me not being able to make another yell. Well, what now?

I fell backwards on my back, watching her pleadingly with a stretched out lip and my best puppy eyes. Well, if this doesn’t do the trick, then I don’t know what will!

„What the fuck’s going on here?” Matt barged in, stopping in his track only to see me laying on the floor.

„Is he having a seizure?” Johnny piped his head around the corner.

„No, he’s just having a Jimmy moment,” Brian sighed, rubbing his temple. Ooo, someone’s having a heady-achey... Goody. Serves you right.

„Jimmy come on get the fuck up, I need you at the drums, man,” Matt took my hand and tried jerking me upright. Good luck with that. „Jimmy, stop. Fucking. Around!”

„FUCK YOU!” Oh look, my voice’s back.

„Jim—„

„FUCK YOOOOUUU!” I put my hands behind my head as I kept screaming. This actually was more fun than I thought so and I couldn’t really stop anymore, „fuck you!”

By now everyone was either rubbing their temple, or pinching the bridge of their noses or simply leaving the room. What a good job you did Jimmy. I think I deserve a chocolate cake for that.

„Fuck you!”

„Okay, okay, okay!” MJ stepped forward, her hands up in surrender. „I agree, just stop yelling!”

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