So far away

The next few days slowly went by. I stayed upstairs most days just staring out the windows and listening to music. Matt would bring me food and eat upstairs with me while watching a movie. A crush slowly developed. We didn't say much to each other. It wasn't just what Sarah had said. It was the fact that no one besides Matt had stood up for me. Matt, someone I just met.

I turned on my side staring out the window for the billionth time today. Some kids were playing across the street. Brother and sister I assume. They threw the ball back and forth laughing. I smiled wishing I was younger again. Wishing I could take back time. Some days I really missed my mom. The way she would pack my lunch in the morning and smiled kissing me on the cheek as I walked out the door. The way she always made me laugh no matter how down I was feeling. Or how I would lay on her lap and she would play my hair and read me a story. A tear slid down my cheek but I brushed it away as Matt came in holding a pizza box in his hand.

"I don't know how you don't go insane in here all day." He smirked sitting next to me as I sat up. I pulled my hair up and pushed the pillows against the head board sitting back. He opened the box and turned on the tv reaching for a slice. I took a small piece and watched as he turned a football game on. My eyes started to burn again thinking about my father and how he would make me watch the game with him. That was before he turned into a monster.

"Its easy just watching the world go by." I shrugged taking a bite. He looked over at me with a smile but it faded soon. He reached over and brushed fresh tears away. I turned away from him back to the small children. They tossed the ball again as their mother came outside and told them to come in. I smiled a little.

"Are you okay?" Matt mumbled. I stared at the tv. No. No, I'm not okay. I was supposed to dive into life and instead, I'm drowning.

"Yeah I'm okay." I sighed. He looked over at me and really looked at me. In a way that most people would be uncomfortable with but not me. I faked a smile before taking another bite and making him look away.

"Matt!" I heard a voice that sounded like Zack's downstairs.

"Up here!" He called back. I heard someone running up the stairs and watched as he burst in the door with a huge smile. He looked over at me for a second and his smile got bigger.

"What? Stop looking at me like that." I said looking away. He sat on the bed next to me and looked over at Matt.

"Did you need something Zachary? Or do you just like watching people?" Matt asked.

"I think I just came up with the most brilliant plan ever known to man." Zacky said getting our attention.

"You found out how to close the youtube app and it still play music?" I asked.

"No, better." He sighed getting frustrated.

"Spill it or leave." Matt chuckled.

"So we invite a bunch of strippers over here and then we kill them. After fucking them of course." He smirked. I sat dumbfounded.

"That's your brilliant idea?" Matt mumbled going back to the game.

"Yes. And its happening in an hour. Ivy your going to have to help with this one. Brian said so. So get your asses up and prepare for a night of your life!" He yelled running back down the stairs. I looked over at Matt and stood up taking my clothes off and walking to the closet. I pulled out a black dress and pulled it on. I left my hair how it was and did my makeup. I could hear Matt shuffling around in the room as I did so. I could hear the guys arriving downstairs making me even more nervous.

I walked downstairs getting the guys' attention as I grabbed a beer from the kitchen. "Why do I feel like everyone is staring at me?" I stated as I turned around with a smirk.

"Because we are." Arin smirked. I shook my head and sat next to Brian at the table. I didn't pay attention to the conversation they were having because I was lost in thought. Before I knew it, the doorbell rang and everyone looked at me. I rolled my eyes standing up to answer it. I opened the door to find 5 girls standing there with confused looks on their faces.

"Do we have the right house?" One asked. I looked back at Zacky to see him nod. I nodded standing aside so they could come in. They walked in cautiously looking around as if they could sense what was coming. I rolled my eyes and walked upstairs to find Matt standing in front of the mirror.

"Is something wrong?" I asked him leaning on the door frame. He looked over at me and back at the mirror.

"I should be asking you the same thing." He mumbled turning to face me.

"I'm fine. Now please, stop worrying and enjoy yourself." I smirked. He hugged me tight.

"If you ever need anything, I'm here." He whispered before kissing my head and leaving me alone. Did that really happen? My phone rang. I looked down to see Brian had texted me with a plan. I sat on the bathroom counter and played with my phone for a while before I heard footsteps followed by a giggle. Someone sat on the bed. I could hear kissing and rolled my eyes. I hate that fucking sound. I zoned out waiting for the right time. I got Matt's knife out of the drawer under me and waited. She started to moan. That's my cue. I quietly walked in and picked a pillow up and put it over her face. She started to struggle. Throwing her arms around. I sat on the pillow and shook my head at Zacky. He smirked lighting a cigarette and pulling his pants on.

"You okay?" He asked.

"Yes I'm fine. Why does everyone keep asking?" I sighed.

"you've just been distant lately." He laughed as the girl kept fighting. I lit a cigarette and pulled the knife out of my shirt stabbing where her heart was. She stopped fighting and I lifted the pillow to see her eyes wide open. I cut her throat just to be sure. "Overkill." He laughed. I shook my head and finished the cigarette before moving to the guest room. One down four to go.

Arin was next with another girl. She was a gusher. Then Brian, Johnny, and lastly Matt. I sat next to the door waiting for her to walk in before I pounced on her. I heard a giggle followed by Matts voice before the door opened and in she walked. I jumped on her and held her down seeing the fear in her eyes. I closed my eyes as I cut her neck getting even more blood on me. She struggled to say something before looking at me and going still. I stood up and stretched. My back hurt and I had a bruise on my side.

I pulled my shirt up to display it. It was turning dark already.

"What the hell is that from?" Matt asked inspecting it.

"Johnnys girl put up a fight and kicked me." I sighed. He ran his finger over it before bending down and kissing it. I blushed looking away. He stood up and smiled walking out of the room. Once again, leaving me in silence.

Notes

I have a busy week ahead of me so if I don't update everyday, that's why. Trust me, I would rather update than get fillings and get scolded for smoking by my dentist.