So far away

I walked through a door to find a bright light. I sat on a bed and looked up as feathers started to fall. I giggled holding my hands out to catch them. I tore a pillow in half releasing more feathers to fall. Laughter echoed through the room. "Ivy, help me." I turned around to see Matt covered in blood. I looked down feeling something wet on my legs to find a pool of blood flooding the room. In his hands he held Jasper's head. I became scared. "NOO YOU CANT DO THAT!" I yelled waking myself up. I sat up in the bed breathing heavily. I tried to calm down and make myself believe it wasn't real but no matter what I told myself, I couldn't believe it.

"Ivy, are you okay?" Matt asked bursting in the door. I had come upstairs to take a nap since we had stayed up all night.

"Just a nightmare. I'm fine." I muttered pulling my bag next to me and taking out my medicine. When I was 9, my doctor had prescribed me medicine to help me sleep because I would get physically sick worrying about problems like going back to school. It was horrible but it knocked me out cold.

"Whats that?" Matt asked sitting next to me as I popped the pills in my mouth and swallowed.

"Medicine to help me sleep." I replied laying down and looking him over. Matt was hot to say in the least. Everything about him. I wouldn't know where to begin.

"Ivy, is there somethings you haven't told me about yourself?" He asked laying next to me and looking in my eyes.

"Like what?" I asked playing with the fraying blanket.

"Like why you have to take medicine and your past. I cant shake the feeling that theres things I don't know about you." He sighed sitting against the headboard.

"I told you the medicine is to help me sleep. I've been taking it for a while. At first it was because I would stay up all night worrying about school and I guess I became dependent on it." I sighed flipping over on my stomach to look at him.

"What about school made you worried?" He looked at me now concerned.

"I was an absolute freak. I hung out with the stoners and listened to weird music. I guess that made me a target." I shrugged never breaking eye contact.

"Youre not a freak. Youre absolutely gorgeous and if they could see you now, they would probably die." He chuckled.

"I wish. I don't know, I kind of miss Jasper too. That probably has something to do with it." I shrugged.

"Well why don't we go see him and you can get the rest of your things to bring back?" He suggested. I sat up sitting on my legs and smiled. "Go get ready. We can leave now." He smirked. I clapped getting off the bed and getting ready.

An hour later we were in my car on the way. Being that I was driving, Matt looked nervous as hell. The fact that I yelled at other drivers and went 10 over the speed limit is totally irrelevant. Every once in a while I accidentally slammed on the breaks and threw my arm over Matts chest like I was his mother and he was my precious child.

Once we got into the country where Jasper's girlfriends house was, it got curvy. I knew this road too well though. I kept my speed at 60. "Holy hell who taught you how to drive?" He sighed grabbing the 'oh shit' handle.

"My cousin, Jasper. I learned how to drive in a Mustang and I don't know I just like going fast. It makes me feel like a speed racer." I smirked looking over to see a smile evident on his lips.

We pulled into the drive and I turned the car off stepping out to hear the usually music that was thumping throughout the house. I unlocked the door and opened it quietly. "Jasper!" I screamed over the loud music. "Hannah!" I yelled again.

"We're out here bae!" Hannah yelled back. I skipped down the hallway out to the patio to find Hannah, Jasper, Nathan, and Sarah. They all smiled looking up at me. "Where the hell have you been? I missed my bae!" Hannah yelled hugging me. I looked at Matt and offered him a seat. He sat next to me.

"Huntington. I really wanted to get out of this town so I left. And I knew you would try to talk me out of it so I didn't ask you." I laughed looking at Jasper. They all looked at Matt. "Oh this is Matt by the way." I knew they wouldn't ask so I didn't elaborate.

"Are you back to stay or are you leaving again?" Sarah asked. The thing about Sarah was, that I hated her with a passion. She had been dating Nathan for a while. One night we all got super wasted and Nathan cheated on her with my best friend and blamed me. The sight of her makes me want to gouge my eyes out.

"No. I'm leaving. I came to get my stuff. So I'm just gonna do that now." I stood up and walked downstairs to my 'room'. Matt trailed behind not saying a word. Jasper had texted me the night of the killing and told me he was moving our things here and selling his apartment. I didn't ask questions because I actually like Hannah and staying with them would be awesome.

I sat on the floor and looked for the boxes with my name on it. Three boxes. All of my possessions fit into three boxes. Three boxes proving my existence. I shook my head standing up and carrying two to the car while Matt grabbed the other one.

I went back to the patio to say goodbye but stopped dead in my tracks when I heard my name.

"Shes such a fuckin freak. I don't know why you would want her here." Sarah stated.

"Shes my family and shes had a hard time these last few weeks." Jasper defended.

"She's still a freak. I wouldn't want her anywhere near me for more than 5 minutes." Sarah laughed. Matt rushed around me out the door.

"She's not a fucking freak. You're a self centered bitch. You may think youre pretty and shit but youre not. I've known her for a few months now and I know shes beautiful. More beautiful than you'll ever be. And to be honest, we're leaving because your high pitch squeaky ass voice is giving me a migraine." He yelled. Tears were pouring out now. I grabbed him and pulled him out to the car before I lost it. "Why don't you just beat her ass?" Matt asked once I told him Sarah and I's history.

"Because that would be the last straw. Jasper is all I have." I sobbed. He wrapped me in his arms. I cleared my tears and switched places with him so he could drive us home. I crouched up in a little ball and looked out the window the whole way.

Once we were home, Matt carried me inside and upstairs. I laid on the bed and curled up into a ball wishing I could disappear in that moment. Matt laid next to me and pulled me into him. Just his presence made me feel better. On top of what he said to Sarah. That definitely earned him some brownie points. I smiled falling asleep.

Notes

This wasn't really planned but I think its okay. Comment please I need your thoughts!