So far away

*Three days later*

I woke up earlier than usual and decided to get some coffee. I looked at Matt next to me and smiled a little sliding his hand off my waist. I stood up and stretched before pulling my hair up and putting on some sweatpants and a hoodie. I looked like shit to be honest but who cares? I pulled on my vans and grabbed my car keys.

I stepped outside to see that the sun was just about to rise. Its not like me to be up so early but I can barely sleep anymore. I walked around to the drivers side and stepped in. I wiped the dust off the dash and started it up. It roared to life on a full tank off gas. I looked in the back to see a blanket with blood stains. Proof that we did after all kill the girls. I felt a twinge in my chest and shrugged it off moving the blanket to the floor so no one could see it.

I drove a few blocks to the nearest Starbucks. I hate Starbucks but I could care less right now. I just needed something to occupy me until Matt woke up. I parked to see a car that looked somewhat like my fathers. A black civic with a scratch on the bumper. Just like his. A chill ran down my spine as I forced myself to get out. I'm a grown woman. I cant fear him forever.

I walked slowly to the door and stepped up to the counter to order. My hands shook as I pulled to cash out of my wallet. I stood aside waiting for my order when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I whipped around to see his bright blue eyes and shimmering white smirk. "Ivy, it is you." The smile didn't shake me at all. I knew how this worked.

"In the flesh." My voice shook but I tried not to let his presence get to me. He has no power here.

"So, when did you get out of the loony bin? I've been wondering about you." He stated still with his taunting perfect teeth.

"A month ago. Please, don't waste your precious time on me anymore." I smirked grabbing my coffee and trying to walk away from him but he pulled me back before I could go.

"Watch it. Just because you think youre so big and grown doesn't mean I wont punish you right here and now. Now sit." He commanded in my ear making sure no one heard before I sat in a chair next to him. "Jas told me you were in Huntington now. Why?" He composed himself before pulling that fake smile back on and glowing blue eyes.

"I needed a change." I shrugged looking at my fingers. I hated looking into his eyes. He was the reason that half the time I couldn't see out of my own. I remember standing in front of the mirror with a face coated in bruises. My father never wanted kids and he never failed to tell me either.

"Are you going to college now?" He looked at my sweatpants. I didn't bother to look down. I was terrified of him. He knew it.

"Yes." I replied simply with my voice cracking. My body was shaking horribly now.

"Well, I would love to catch up but I have a flight to catch." He said pulling his laptop case over his shoulder. "Its been a pleasure Ivy." He smirked before swiftly walking away. I made sure he left before looking up to the local news.

"These murders are nothing unknown. Police are saying this case is similar to the one last week with Lee Raymond. Five bodies were found yesterday in a creek with lacerations. Police are still trying to identify the five bodies. No evidence was found at this time." The news lady said. My eyes flickered around to see who was watching but no one seemed interested.

I stood up leaving. Once in my car I couldn't stop shaking. Not because of the murders but because of him. The way he can just pull out an alter ego. My mind went back to that night.

*flashback*

"Ivy! Dinners ready." He yelled up the stairs. I didn't want to come down. I don't want to sit across from him like everything is okay. I forced myself to walk down the stairs and into the kitchen. There he sat, at the table, waiting for me to serve him. I got a plate down and put the food on it just the way he liked. I sat the plate in front of him. Big mistake.

"How many times do I have to tell you to ask before you set it down?!" He raved.

"I-I'm s-" I stuttered before he waved me off. Thank god. I made my pate and stood beside my chair waiting for permission. He nodded and I sat down. I should be used to this but if it isn't one thing, its another. "Could I please have a water, sir?" I asked. He nodded again giving me permission. I stood up and got a glass from the cabinet and filled it with water before sitting back down. I waited for him to eat before I did. I have to.

"Once I'm done I want you to do dishes before you eat and then go to bed." He spoke eating slowly. I don't mind since I'm not hungry.

It's not always like this but since Jasper is at Hannah's tonight, he has the chance and he will gladly take it. I cant complain, Jasper has his own life. Not that Jasper knows anything but I'm sure he has an idea.

I watched as he cut into his steak. So precise. 'He will be the death of me' I think. He's told me before. I cant tell you how many times I've prayed that god would just take me in my sleep. Its a sick game.

He finishes eating and leaves his plate for me to clean up. I stand up once he's out of the room. I pick up his plate and do the dishes and pick up the place matts. Only then I sit back down and try not to cry as I eat my now cold food.

I eat quickly trying to eat every bite. If not, that's another punishment. Another day of labored walking and trying not to get blood everywhere. I get to the last bite and try not to puke as I chew. I don't know how I'm not chubby by now. I stand up and take my plate to the sink. As I'm washing I can feel his hand wrap around my waist. I sigh inwardly. I continue washing like he isn't even there.

"Are you ignoring me?" He whips me around to face him. I stare into his blue eyes. "How dare you? I give you everything and you still ignore me." He yells. I blink not answering him. He pushes me into the counter and I hit my waist. I yelp in pain as he comes toward me. He backhands me knocking me to the ground. I'm not allowed to fight back. I'm simply a piece of trash on the floor.

He starts to kick me repeatedly but I don't make a sound. He turns to get a knife but I hold the fork in my hand forgetting it was even there. He turns back to me. His eyes are now black as he crouches next to my face. He raises the knife ready to strike. "Please god." I whisper.

"I am your god." He smirks. I kick him so he falls back hitting his head against the counter.

"NO. YOU. ARENT!" I yell kicking him like he did me. He bends to my beating. He goes to pull me down when I reach down and plant the knife in the back of his hand. He screams in pain as red crimson pours out. I bend next to him close to his face, "That might be an artery." I whisper with a smirk before getting up and going to my room. I barricade the door and lay on my bed. I can hear him break through. He comes in holding something over his head and slamming it down on my. My vision goes completely blank.

*Present time*

I shake myself into reality and head back to the house. Once I'm there I walk in to see Matt watching tv. He looks up at me with a smile and turns it off. I hand him a coffee and sit next to him. I look up at him with a fake smile. This is the one thing I wont tell him. My absolute secret.

Notes

Sorry it took me forever! This is more about Ivy since you guys don't really have insight on her past yet.