*Carry On*

**Kaylyn's POV**

I'm dead asleep while waiting for Tempe to return with a pregnancy test for me to take, when suddenly, the master bedroom door flies open and I'm blinded by the light...alright, stay with me, and don't start singing Manfred Mann right now.

I blink my eyes as they desperately try to focus on the small box tossed on the bed next to me. "When the hell where you planning on mentioning that you might be pregnant?!" Brian's voice roars from the doorway and I suddenly realize what I'm clutching in my hands, it's the pregnancy test I sent Tempe for. Oh for fucks sake, this is not how I wanted to tell Brian!!

Tears swell in my eyes because I feared that this would be his reaction. He doesn't want kids, or at least, he doesn't want them with me. I pick up the test and chuck it back at him, "If that's how you're going to talk to, or should I say, talk AT me, then just leave me alone Brian.." I huff and curl up into a ball underneath the blanket as another wave on nausea hits me. Ugh, he still didn't shower.

The blanket is forcefully pulled off of me, "Come on, you're taking the test now" he demands and I kick him away with my foot.

I sit up and glare at him, as he clutches his ribs in pain, "Don't you dare think that you can command me to do as you wish. You may be stronger and more powerful, but I have never once let that stop me from beating the ever-loving FUCK out of someone!" I rage. "Just go away Brian...it's obvious that you aren't even slightly happy at the possibility of being a father, so don't worry...I'll take care of it." I sigh sadly and he scoffs at me.

"Are you really going to abort the baby if I don't think I'm ready to be a father?" he questions sternly, and before I realize what I'm doing, I tackle him to the ground and continue to land blow after blow on his chest until Jimmy lifts me off of him.

"I would never let another baby of mine die!!!! You have no idea what that feels like, so don't ever say that shit to me again! I meant that I would raise it alone!" I scream as the tears fall freely down my cheeks. How could he think that I would do that after I told him how much regret I had for losing the last baby? Suddenly I remember something that turns my sorrow into rage, "Wait a minute Brian...you told me that you had talked about wanting to have kids with Aubrey before, so please tell me, is it just me that you are scared of keeping around?!?" I sob and his jaw drops in shock.

"Kay-" he starts but the bile rising in my throat causes me to run into the bathroom and slam the door behind me. I empty my stomach, which is mostly just acidly liquid at this point, and grab my toothbrush off the counter and begin to brush my teeth. The door swings open and Brian is standing there, with a apologetic look while clutching a test in his hand. "Kaylyn please... I need to know" he says softly and I roll my eyes at him and slam my toothbrush back on the counter.

I turn to face him again and square my shoulder, "You need to know right now.. Why? Because flights back to New York are cheaper while we are still near a major airport?! Don't worry, if you want me gone, I'll pay-" I ramble out before his lips press down on mine. My traitorous body instantly responds and kisses him back, as he lifts me slightly and places me down on the sink.

He breaks the kiss and leans his forehead against mine, while softly caressing my cheek with his thumb. "I'm sorry" he whispers, "I freaked out...I was just upset that you told Tempest that you might be pregnant before me" he sighs and I pull back and shake my head at him.

"I didn't tell Tempe, she is the one who told me that she thought I might be and ran to get the tests to be sure. I-I'm sorry that I didn't tell you right after I considered the possibility, but I was scared because we never really talked about having kids. Sure, I knew that at one point in your life you wanted them, and you knew that at one point in mine, that I did too. However, we never talked about how we would feel if we had one together..." I say truthfully and nervously fiddle with the box on the counter next to me.

Brian releases a ragged breath and stares into my deep brown eyes, "I'm ready if you are" he states and a small smile tugs at my lips. I slide down off the counter and open the box, before nodding to Brian.

"I'm ready..."
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So do you think baby Haner is on the way, or is it just a false alarm?


If Kaylyn is pregnant, how will it effect the tour?

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