He didn't put his arm around me, no one looked at me, they were all laughing and having fun. Everything around me turns dark, they don't see me slipping away. I scream but there's no answer, im not even existent. Maybe i want to go with them. Suddenly i'm in a dark room as a man pushes me on the floor and brushes my skin. He pulls my clothes off with no restraint and captures these moments of my fear and vulnerability. He pushes himself far into me, there's no point moving. He's done this over and over again. I could still feel him on my skin, in me.

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"Hey." He mumbles as he comes out into the small living room. I only nod, still a little shaken. He wraps his arm around me, but it just feels awkward, and i know he feels it too.
"Do you still love me?" He pulled me tighter, trying to release the tension.
"Of course i do, that's not even a question."
"You look at me differently. Not with love, but with worry and fear."
"I'm just scared okay. I know you want to get over it but we can't. We could never compare to how you felt but it felt like Hell. No one wanted to even be around anymore, but we did it for you. I'm scared nothing's going to be the same, i'm scared you're going to leave."
"Then don't be. I just want things to be normal again, so don't be scared anymore. I'm back."
"I know, and i'll try to act normal, but it's just going to take some time. Of course we're all going to be overprotective during the tour but you got to understand not all of us can recover like you do, or at least try to."
"Can we just stop talking about it?" I was getting pretty irritated, i though we put this to rest.
"Olivia, i love you, we all love you, and we all care for you. Please just try to cope with us for now." I pushed his arm off of me and walked across from him. "Olivia? Please don't be mad, i just- i don't know what to do right now."
"Shut up."
"Olivia."
"You don't have to do anything. Just keep being you, live on. The past is dead, the present is current, and the future is happening." He looked up at me, i felt like i was in power now, and it's definitely flowing through me. I got closer to him and pushed him backwards. One knee between his legs, the other making it's way next to his thigh. I kiss his lips gently then trail down to his neck.
"Olivia...." He said silently. I sucked on his neck hard, leaving a little mark. Then i kissed him aggressively as his tongue fought with mine. I moved my other leg so that he was between me. I pushed myself up and down slowly, grinding on his thigh and occasionally swirling.
"I don't think i can." He pulled away from the kiss and whispered in my ear.
"But you were fine to earlier today? "
"Thrill of the rush."
"Well here it is." I slid down between his thighs and slipped his pants down to his ankles. He held his head back, with his hands on his eyes, i could tell he was confused but his dick wasn't. I held his knees for support and put it in my mouth. First i went slow, just bobbing back and forth but then i swirled my tongue around it and licked the tip. I got faster and deeper. His moans were low and heavy from trying not to wake anyone up.
"Olivia stop....i...i can't do this..." He came for me and i swallowed. When i got back up i pushed my pants down and got on top of him. I pushed him back with one hand and licked the other then made a slow trail down to my vagina and started getting myself wet. I rubbed in circles, pulled out, sucked on my fingers, then pushed back in.
"Uh...uhh...mm." I moaned softly. His eyes were still closed. I positioned myself over his dick then sat down slowly on it. I moved up and down, then i would grind on him. It didn't even take a minute.
"Oh now you've done it." He said in ear. Within a second i was underneath him and he was holding my legs up to my chest, opening me up more for him. Finally.
"I want you to make me feel something. Make me never forget the way you feel in me."
"If you're still alive by then." He kept pushing deeper and deeper in me, it was hard but i've felt rougher. I want him to hurt me.
"Is that all you got? My finger can do better than this." I pushed him off then sat up to open my legs real wide, i slid in a couple fingers and planned on getting my whole fist in there. I kept pushing in deeper and deeper. Letting moans of pain out. He pushed my hand of the way and replaced with his own. He didn't go easy either. He kept impaling me with his fingers, searching for something that was too far away. I squirmed around, i couldn't keep still, i need his dick.
"What? Can't handle it?" He smiled then pulled out before i could cum. He trailed my fluids from his hand up to my mouth. "Suck on it." Doing what i was told, i opened wide for him to shove it down my throat, where i sucked everything off. He put his shorts back on and threw mine at me. I looked at him confused but put them on. Maybe he heard someone? Or he was just trying to shut me up. He grabbed me and carried me off the bus we were on and into the other bus i rented. Why didn't i think of that? He opened the door and threw me on the couch.
"Now we can go as hard as we want." He pulled his shirt off over his head and i helped get his pants down. My clothes came off quickly afterwards. He motion me to come closer so i got up and crawled over. He picked me up and shoved me back on the counter. His fingers playing with me for a bit and then his tongue came in. He licked around and traveled inside. Sucking me up, i couldn't get enough of him, i kept pushing my pelvis closer and closer hoping to get deeper. He pushed my legs farther apart and finished up. He stood back up and fucked me right on the counter. We both came simultaneously. My legs were shaking and i felt so weak but it felt so right. I wrapped my legs and arms around him, burying myself in his chest.

Notes

i took a hiatus and i was feeling the sexy chapter