Uggghhhh fucking alarm clock! I yelled in my head so I slammed my hand on the snooze then ripped it out of the wall and threw it across the room all while keeping my eyes closed ‘thanks’ Matt whispered as he tightened his arm around me ‘mhm’ I hummed then started to doze back off but my phone started going off making me fake cry and reach for it ‘what’ I asked rudely not even bothering to look at who it was ‘E, it’s Jeff’ ‘what do you want’ ‘I just wanted to see how your night went’ ‘you woke me up’ ‘oh, I'm sorry’ ‘uh huh’ ‘I forgot the time difference’ ‘yeah whatever, I'm going back to sleep’ I said then hung up and placed my phone back on the night stand ‘who’s that?’ ‘Abusive boyfriend but I really don’t give a fuck because I'm tired, now I'm going back to bed so shush’ I said then cuddled into the blanket more, I felt his arm tighten and that’s all I remember.

‘Echo, Echooo’ I heard being whispered ‘hmm?’ ‘You have to get up now, it’s almost 10’ ‘ok’ I whispered but kept my eyes closed ‘How’d you sleep?’ ‘Good, you?’ ‘Good also’ ‘that’s good’ I said softly then stretched a little as I noticed I was on my tummy, I opened my eyes and turned my head to look at Matt, he smiled and I smiled back ‘hi’ ‘hi’ ‘I have to get going by one so do you wanna get an early lunch?’ he asked and I nodded then turned onto my back and stretched again and I noticed he was still in when he slept in so I reached over, grabbed my phone then laid my head on his chest so we were both looking up at the camera and I snapped a few pictures of us

‘Don’t let my wife see those’ ‘don’t worry, I don’t wanna get beat up’ I said and we laughed a little. I sat up, set my phone back down then got outta bed and cracked basically every bone in my body ‘god’ ‘yeah I know, it’s my punishment for having a bad back’ I said as I looked back at him, he nodded a little then stood up and stretched also. We both got ready then dressed and packed to make sure we had everything. We made our way to my car then we went somewhere to eat, took a few more pictures, exchanged numbers and I dropped him at the airport after hugging him a few times. When I left him I started my long drive back to the east coast.

Finally I was home, at 11pm so the first thing I did was laundry, shower and eat something. After all that I went to bed because I drove home non-stop. I haven’t eaten anything or slept, when I stopped for gas I got lots of energy drinks so I could keep going. But I'm home now and I'm crashing. When I woke up the next day it was getting dark out so I checked my phone and saw that I had kinda slept through yesterday and I also had some texts from people and all my social media was blowing up so I quickly replied to Matt telling him what happened, I read my media and sent out an “I slept all day” status then I got up, used the bathroom and went into the kitchen for coffee and yes I live by myself in an apartment.

Anyway, I made my coffee, had a smoke then went and sat down to watch tv for a bit then I decided I better turn my dryer back on so my clothes wouldn’t wrinkle and I went to go eat something. Once I was done eating and the clothes were put away I got ready, I just put on black mascara all around my eyes then I straightened my hair. I decided I had better film today because I hadn’t done a video my whole trip, I vloged a bit and uploaded those but I didn’t make an actual video so I'm going to do a what I did on my trip video and a Q&A because I had a lot of questions pilling up. I wrote down the most asked/important/need to stop rumors questions then I went into the spare room which was like my closet/makeup/filming room and got everything set up like I turned on my lights, then got my phone, laptop, camera, a drink and some food because I knew I’d be filming all day, I went to the bathroom then I sat back in my beautiful chair and turned on the camera.

‘Hey guys, sorry I didn’t post any regular videos while I was on my trip but I hope you enjoyed the vlogs. I'm going to do two videos for you today but there gonna be separate so whatever one is put up first I’ll be wearing the same thing in the other one, with that being said I’ll put one up today which is theeee….28th and the other one tomorrow the 29th. In this video I'm going to tell you all about my trip. First of all I drove there which you guys saw in the vlog, now I left here a little too late so the day I arrived was the day I had to be on the show so I drove over to the place, walked into where they film and I was taken into the back to go over what I was going to be doing and blah blah blah.

I changed into a dress and heels like an hour and a half before the show then I asked someone where to get coffee and they told me I couldn’t leave so they went and got it for me isn’t that so sweet? Well, I got my coffee then did my hair and makeup because I wasn’t wearing any on the ride over. I had just finished doing that when they went to commercial before calling me out. Now if you watched the show then you’ll know I was on there with M. Shadows of Avenged Sevenfold, well I didn’t get to meet him before the show, I think he was in a different room or something but anyways, if you watched the show you know what happened, if you didn’t I will link it somewhere right here’ I said/explained then motioned to the bottom of the screen.

‘So I'm not going to talk about the show because you’ll just have to watch it but I will say, when I run back stage and Matt follows me he’s so sweet and he convinces me to come back out and we were only out for another like 20 minutes or so then the show ended and Matt walked me to my car because it was dark and you guys know I don’t like the dark so I was very grateful for that. He asked where I was staying and I said I didn’t know because I had literally just gotten there and I didn’t make any hotel reservations beforehand so he offered that I could stay with him because he didn’t have to leave until the next day in the afternoon so I accepted then we went and had a late dinner and went back to his hotel and no nothing happened, he’s very happily married with babies and I respect Val and she could probably beat me up anyway soooo yeah hi Val! Please don’t beat me!’ I laughed as I waved to the camera a bit.

‘Now, we went to bed, slept, woke up, went back to bed after I ripped the alarm clock out of the wall then woke up again and nothing really happened after that since we both had to leave to get back home, well, he’s back on tour but you know what I mean. Anyway, we packed and went for an early lunch then I drove him to the airport where we exchanged numbers, hugged and then I watched him get on the plane to make sure he was ok because you guys know I'm a worrier so I got back in my car and drove non-stop all the way home. Obviously I stopped for gas and picked up lots of energy drinks and when I got home I crashed because I was so tired and didn’t realize I slept through yesterday so sorry about that but I was just so exhausted and now I'm here telling you guys about it and that’s all that happened. Nothing to exciting but I did get to take a few pictures with him’ I said as I looked through my phone and found a picture of us in the car on the way to the airport.

‘Here I hope you can see this’ I said as I held my phone up to the camera ‘now he stole my phone because I was driving so I couldn’t take the picture but other than all that my trip was pretty chill’ I said as I placed my phone back in my lap. ‘I think that’s all I have to say so, here’s the video link, go check out the show and I’ll be back tomorrow with another video in the same outfit’ I giggled then said bye and waved and shut the camera off. I then loaded it to my laptop, edited it and waited for it to upload while I ate my snack, went potty, had a smoke then came back and turned the camera back on for the Q&A video.

‘Hey guys, yes I'm wearing the same thing as the last video because it’s the same day, also I'm sorry if it looks a little darker then the last video because I've been filming and editing all day so that’s why this might be a tad darker but this video is going to be an Q&A and I know you guys have been waiting a long time for this and I'm sorry about the wait but I picked all the most asked or important or rumors that I need to clear up and I wrote them down in my handy dandy notebook’ I said as I held up my hello kitty notebook ‘and if you know that reference then you're doing better than Captain America in the Avengers’ I said with a little laugh as I opened my book then crossed my legs and set the book on my knee

‘Ok guys, I don’t know how long this will be but I’ll try and keep it under an hour and if I have to make a separate video for one question then I will, if you want to see a video for one of the questions then comment about it below and I’ll try and do that. Now, first question, how old are you and when’s your birthday? I am 21 if you're new here and my birthdays in January. How long have you been on YouTube? Four years. How tall are you? Five foot even. Why do you only do cover songs and not your own? Because none of my music is finished and I don’t like putting out unfinished music. Do you ever do non-music related videos? Um, yes? I try to upload at least two or three times a week, their mostly music. Excluding the vlogs, I have maybe five videos that aren't music related which includes this one and the one I just filmed so before that I only had three.

If you guys want to see a non-music video then leave comments, but music is the most important thing in my life right now other than YouTube so, the majority will still be music but I’ll try and film something different maybe once or twice a month because as I said I try to upload two to three times a week so that’s like 10-15 videos a month so no and yes. Have you always been well off? No, absolutely not, I was completely and utterly dirt poor and if you’ve been watching me the past four years then you know that and you know that YouTube and music saved my life and now that I'm signed I'm so thankful it’s not even funny and I have a video on all that from a month ago I think, like the day I got signed or something. Have you ever been bullied? Yes, that will be a separate video, I've already decided that when I was writing down the questions. Do you have any animals? No, I live in my apartment alone unless you wanna count the birds I feed. I know you do mostly metal/punk/rock covers but what is your favorite type of music? Honestly, I can listen to just about everything. Yes I lean more towards the harder/darker genre but I have all different things on my iPod, like....’I trailed off as I opened my iTunes on my laptop

‘Ok the genres I have on here are alternative, metal, pop, punk, rap, rap and hip hop, rock, soundtrack and unknown. Some of the unknowns are 80’s and 90’s music, dubstep, instrumental, um I have some Peggy Lee songs like Hey Big Spender, fuckin Will Smith’s Switch I love that song and if you're as old as I am then I know you remember that song but that’s it really, mostly metal, punk and alternative. Do you like superheroes? Yes, that is another video also but I have some strong rants/ opinions on that. Who is your favorite band right now? Avenged Sevenfold. What did you buy with your first YouTube check? Oh goodness, lets see I've been a partner for a year and a half and I think with my first check I actually gave it to my parents and they were able to pay off something’s with that but with my next few checks I saved them,

I didn’t spend anything at all and I bought a new car, brand new only like a few months old and that’s something I've always dreamed of doing and that I never ever thought I could do so I bought a brand new dodge charger and its black on black if you haven’t noticed in my car vlogs and then after that I bought a new laptop because I was desperate and then I moved out and into my apartment. Are you going to move to the west coast now that you're signed? I haven’t decided, I love living here but a change would be nice. Do you have any tattoos or piercings; do you want more tattoos or piercings? Yes, I have one tattoo on my foot, I only have my ears pierced, yes I defiantly want more tattoos but I haven’t decided about the piercings’ I said then I tilted the camera down so they could see, I moved it back in place then continued

‘Where did you get your chair from? Uhhh, amazon? I got it a long time ago. Do you have a boyfriend? Yes, his names Jeff and I don’t know how he’s gonna react if I do decide to move to the west coast. Since you live alone, do you do everything by yourself? Yes I do, I'm a very personal person, I like to keep to myself and work on my music or write or watch a movie, go through Pinterest, go take bad photographs, I like being alone most of the time. Have you ever committed an act of violence against yourself? Yes, I will do another video on that if you want. What do you watch on tv? Hmmm, I'm mostly a Netflix girl just because they have full seasons and I can watch all different shows without having to worry about if I missed it or something but when I do watch tv then it’s probably cartoons like nick, nick at nite because I'm a 12 year old at heart.

Will you give us an apartment tour? Why not. Room tour? If you're good. Makeup tour? I have like ten makeup items soooo yes I suppose? What kind of movies do you like? I’m a little picky about that because I love movies but there’s an exception to like every genre for me like I don’t like romance movies at all but, I love titanic, it’s one of my favorite movies but in the same sense it’s about a ship sinking ya know so I'm picky about it that’s why I hate going to go see a movie other than the fact that the prices are ridiculous but I do kinda hoard movies so that could be a video. Alright, last question thank god because it’s almost 9 pm because I slept so late today but anyway, the last question is, now that you’ve met M. Shadows would you like to meet the rest of the band and their friends? Absolutely, you have no idea how amazing it feels to meet someone that basically saved your life with just their music and their not assholes. I would love to meet the rest of the band and the wives or girlfriends and their friends. I would also love to meet Good Charlotte, My Chemical Romance, The Used and Disturbed.

If you're watching this I love you and thank you and I had a little fan girl moment when I met M. Shadows so I hope I don’t freak when and if I ever get to meet the rest of the band or the bands I just named. But anyways guys, it’s 9 pm, I'm tired and I still have to edit this and eat then go to bed so I’ll see you on my next video. Bye’ I said and waved like I always do then I shut the camera off and ran to the potty because I really had to pee. Then I had a smoke, ate while I edited and texted Matt a few times then as I was watching tv and editing in my living room there was a knock on my door so I got up and answered it to see my boyfriend Jeff

‘hey’ I said and he smiled a little ‘can I come in?’ ‘Yeah’ I said then walked away and back into my living room; I sat on the couch and put my laptop back in my lap ‘what are you doing?’ ‘Editing’ ‘oh ok, how come you hung up on me a few mornings ago and didn’t answer me yesterday?’ ‘A few mornings ago I was asleep and you woke me up, I told you that and I didn’t realize that I slept through yesterday and half of today’ I said as I kept my eyes on the computer to finish up. When I did I saved my work, closed my laptop and set it on the coffee table then stood up ‘oh, where are you going?’ ‘To get a drink’ I said as I walked away, I grabbed a water out of the fridge then walked back into the living room and sat back on the couch ‘I missed you while you were gone’ ‘I was only gone like three days’ ‘I know but I still missed you’ ‘ok’ I nodded, ‘you didn’t miss me?’ he asked and I sighed a little and looked over at him

‘I did miss you but it’s not like I was depressed. I was so busy while I was out there I didn’t really have time to miss anyone’ ‘but you had time to hang up on me’ ‘you woke me up’ I said calmly as I looked over at him, ‘sorry’ he said and I nodded then went back to the tv. I felt him move closer to me and set his hand on my knee then he started kissing my neck ‘not tonight’ ‘oh come on’ ‘no now stop’ I said and pushed on his chest to try and get him away. He sighed but he moved, he didn’t stay there long before he grabbed my hair and pulled me off the couch and into my room making me scream the whole way. He smashed my head into the wall then picked me up and punched me, threw me on the bed and started raping me just like he’s done before. It happened every time I didn’t wanna have sex with him, he’d just take it then fall asleep in my bed like nothing ever happened. And that’s just what he did this time.

Once he finished and was asleep I got up and showered and pulled on my robe then went out and had a smoke, I went back into the living room and just stayed up on the internet and watched tv all night. Around 3 I got a text and I looked to see that it was Matt ‘hey you awake?’ ‘Always’ ‘awww I'm sorry’ ‘it’s cool, what's up?’ ‘Oh nothing I just couldn’t sleep, I was to hyped up after the show’ ‘ahh I see, well what are you doing?’ ‘Talking to you and watching your vids’ ‘lol really?’ ‘Mhm, I even started from the very beginning’ ‘oh dear’ ‘lol you really are amazing at music’ ‘thanks dear’ ‘you're welcome’ he texted back, I smiled then got up and went outside and decided to call him while I had a smoke ‘hello?’ ‘Hey’ ‘oh hey’ ‘I'm not disturbing you am I?’ ‘No no, I'm actually taking a food break’ ‘ah ok’ ‘what are you doing?’ ‘Having a smoke while my boyfriend’s asleep in my room’ ‘and you're not sleeping with him?’ ‘Uh no’ ‘why’s that?’

‘I can't tell you and I don’t wanna talk about it’ ‘ok, that’s fine, tell me when you're ready’ he said and I nodded even though he couldn’t see it ‘E?’ I heard and I looked up to see Jeff standing in the door way fully dressed ‘Yeah?’ ‘Who are you talking to?’ ‘Jake from state farm’ I said smartly and I heard Matt laugh a little on the other end considering it was 3 am just like the commercial ‘don’t fucking get smart with me now who the fuck are you talking to!’ he yelled as he walked closer to me ‘no one’ ‘give me the fucking phone’ ‘no’ ‘what?’ ‘I said no, are you deaf?’ I asked and he smacked me making my phone slip out of my hand and onto the bench ‘DON’T FUCKING TALK TO ME LIKE THAT’ he screamed then smacked me again, he started beating me and I was yelling and screaming at him but he didn’t stop till I was bloody and bruised. Once he did stop he left me outside and he left to go home and I only knew that because I heard his car start and peel out of the parking lot

‘E? ECHO!?’ I heard Matt yelling through the phone as I forgot he was still on the other line. I lifted myself up and grabbed the phone putting it up to my ear ‘some people just don’t appreciate a joke’ I said and he sighed when he heard my voice ‘are you ok?’ ‘I'm alive’ I said as I stood up slowly and walked back into the house locking that door and the front door behind me. I went to my room and into my bathroom and put the phone on speaker then set it on the little hanging shelf I had ‘my face doesn’t look to good though’ ‘fuck man, how long has he been doing that?’ ‘Since we got together’ I said as I grabbed a wash cloth and ran it under the water then started cleaning up my lip and nose ‘why have you stayed with him?’ ‘Why do you think?’ ‘You love him?’ ‘Fuck no, I'm just not ready to die just yet’ I said then hissed a little when I touched my lip ‘what happened?’ ‘Just my lip I'm fine’ ‘you're not fine’ ‘well no I'm not fine but I’ll live’ ‘for now’ he said and I just looked at my phone a little sadly

‘I'm gonna go wash my face, change and lay down can I text you?’ ‘Yeah’ he said softly then we said bye and hung up. I sighed then took a picture of my face, I took my robe off and saw that I had a big bruise on my ribs so I took a picture of that to then I washed my face, I dried it, put lotion on then grabbed my phone and walked back into my room, I texted Matt the pictures then walked over to my closet and pulled on a shirt to sleep in. As I was brushing my hair in the bathroom my phone started ringing so I ran to grab it off the bed to see it was Matt. I answered and put it on speaker ‘yes?’ ‘You need to fucking leave him’

‘How am I supposed to do that?’ I asked as I finished up, turned the light out and walked into my room to sit on the bed and put on lotion the rest of me ‘come move out to California’ he said and I looked at the phone like he was crazy ‘but-‘ ‘no but’s, I’ll even help you look, well I’ll send you listings and things because I'm not getting off tour until August’ he said as I finished up ‘I don’t know’ ‘come on, haven’t you been through enough’ he said and I bit my lip a little ‘alright, I’ll start looking when I wake up but it’s like 4 am so I'm gonna try to sleep some’ ‘alright, just, please text me when you wake up so I know you're ok’ ‘I will, thanks Matt’ ‘you're welcome, sweet dreams’ ‘you to’ I smiled, he laughed a little and we said bye again then we hung up. I shut off all the lights, plugged in my phone then crawled under the covers and went straight to sleep.

Notes

Echo's Outfit - http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=134855596