Dancing Girl

Katelyn POV

Whenever I have kissed Brian I have always felt butterflies in my stomach. But this time was different. As soon as I felt his erection to me, I panicked as the horrible visions I’m trying to forget start haunting me again. I push Brian away from me and I storm off into the bathroom and lock the door after me. I start crying again, not being able to stop. I fall to the floor, my back to the bathroom door hearing Brian pleading me to open the door for him to enter. But I do no such thing. I keep the door locked and close my eyes. I start counting from 0 so as to try and calm down and forget the terrible memories, well, at least for now.

I know that sooner or later I have to tell Brian what really happened before they came and saved me. But I’m afraid of his reaction. I’m afraid that as soon as I say it out loud, it would be official: that I’m a victim of rape, by several men. Whereas if I do not say anything, I can play along and force a smile on my face with no further questions being asked. But this could only work with the rest of the guys, not Brian. He knows that something bad happened to me.

97, 98, 99, 100. I exhale some breath and open my eyes. I feel calmer, still sitting on the floor, with the tears dry to my face. I get up, rinse well my face and unlock the bathroom door. As soon as I open it, I see Brian getting up from the floor. I thought he had went to bed, since he wasn’t saying anything. We stay quiet, exchanging no words as I feel him pulling me into a hug while I’m still looking at the floor. He motions me to the bedroom as I crawl to my side and sit down, holding tight to the pillow. He comes in front of me, sits down with his feet crossing.

“I’m sorry, I did not know what happened to me at that time…I guess I just….panicked”, I say quietly, not looking into his eyes. I look at our hands, as he tightens his grip.
“You don’t have to be sorry. It’s my fault, I should have kept a bit distant for now. I just….don’t know what to say. I mean, I know that you reacted like that because of something that happened to you while you were with that sick son of a bitch. But since I do not know much of what happened, I can’t really say anything”.
Swallowing my own saliva felt thick, I know that this is the best moment I have to tell him.
“I will tell you everything tonight Brian. But you need to promise me one thing”. I look at his deep brown eyes, making sure that my point is clear.
“Anything”, he agrees.
“Promise me that you won’t look differently at me. Promise me that you keep treating me this way and not with pity. Promise me you won’t do anything crazy because of it”.
I notice that his look is confusing, I guess he’s trying to figure out why I’m being this serious. He then nods, “I promise”.

* Flashback *

I am looking at Rick, still tied up to this goddamn, uncomfortable chair. The ropes which are tied to my hands are really bothering me and I can feel my skin burning and itching underneath. Not long ago he met with Robert to buy some more drugs. I’ve known that for a while he was using, but I didn’t know that he was still doing drugs. He has never taken them in front of me. I felt sick when I saw him snorting the cocaine off the table.

For the past hour I noticed him using his phone at all time: texting, calling…but I don’t know with whom. I don’t know whether he had contacted Brian again.
“Rick, can you please get me off this chair? Tie me to a bed, for all I care, but please untie me from this fucking chair” I tell him.
“I will untie you when I need you to be untied. For now, just shut the fuck up”, he coldly tells me, still texting.
After a couple of minutes I see him smile at the phone. “Perfect!”. He then looks at me, putting his phone away.
“Now, I am going to untie you and I shall warn you, I’m expecting some guests to come over. Behave well! Serve us some drinks and that’s it. No talking, no making eye contact, nothing. Do you understand me?” he says while grabbing my face so tight.
“Yes I do”, I tell him, barely whispering.

Soon after his friends arrives, they were 5 in all. I kept serving them some drinks and did nothing else. I obeyed Rick, even though I wanted to run to the door so bad! But I knew that there would be consequences, so far now I decided to just sit put. While I was looking at them, I notice that they had some hardcore drugs and they were snorting it as well. Damn, I hope this ends good. At that instant, I feel a cold hand on my back that startles me.
“Get your hand off of me, you prick!” I tell him. I didn’t even know his name.
“Hmmmm sassy. I like that in a woman”, he trails his hands over my body, “I like you”.
“I told you to get your hands away from me” I yell at him while kicking him in the balls, making him cry in pain.
“What the fuck is going on in here?” Rick comes yelling in the living room.
“This so-called-friend of yours is hitting on me, I called him off”, I explain, still angry from the encounter.
“What did I tell you? You have to fucking obey! And no talking to the guys!” He slaps me hard on my right cheek which makes me turn and fall to the floor. He then grabs me from my hair and throws me on the bed in the guest room, pinning me to the bed.

“Guys!! Come over here, quick” he yells at the other guys.
“Rick let go of me!” I shout at him. He slaps me hard again.
“You don’t learn do you?! I said no talking you bitch”.
At that instant the guys were in the room, looking at us. Rick is still holding my hands to the bed, adjusting himself between my legs.
“So, guys, just to tell you that this right here is your reward. You can claim your price whenever you want and how you want. Trust me, it will be worthwhile!” he tells them. I can listen to them laughing amongst themselves.
“What?” I ask him. “What do you mean?”
I feel someone pulling my hands more, so they are straight on the bed. Another guy comes in front of me, licking his lips while he takes off my pants and tears my panties away. Rick unzips his pants and brings out a condom from the drawer and pull it over his length.

Oh this is not happening, this is just a nightmare!

He slams hard into me, making me realise that everything is real. I shout in pain, as another guy covers my mouth with a cloth so as to not make much noise. Rick starts pounding in me hard until he goes over the edge and is satisfied. Once he pulls away from me, he zips his pants again, pointed to a guy I cannot picture and tells him,
“Your turn! Make her scream, will ya?” as he goes to a table and snort some more drugs.
I try getting away from him, by kicking my feet in the air but it’s no use. He grabs my feet hard, and at the same time he slams into me.

One after the other, they all took turns. I couldn’t bear the pain and was quietly crying all along. By the end I couldn’t move, I couldn’t scream or do anything else. They left me on the bed, half naked until they all left the room and locked the door after them. I cannot believe what just happened to me, thanks to the man I thought he loves me with all his heart. Right now I’m feeling numb and cold, but I can barely move from the pain. So I just close my eyes, with a tear strolling down my face, hoping Brian will come and save me from this hell.


Brian POV

Right now I’m in complete shock. I always thought that Rick was a sick bastard, but this was far worse. What he made Katelyn go through, is unbearable to hear. I look at Katelyn while she is telling me what happened, I notice that she keeps playing with her fingers as well as not looking into my eyes. By the end, I notice that she was angry, nervous and seemed lost. I couldn’t find any words to soothe her, I had to let everything sink in first. This was too much. I felt so sorry for her.

Then I remember what I had promised her just minutes ago. I cannot change my perspective of her and have to look at her the same way. But now that I have heard everything, it’s hard to keep that promise. I can’t take away the picture of different guys raping this beautiful woman I might have small feelings for. I felt sick to my stomach. Right now, I’m totally regretting the moment I let Matt stop Nina from killing Rick. I wish I’d do it myself.

I see a tear strolling down Katelyn’s face. I give her a light kiss on the tear and pull her in a hug. She lets go of herself, she doesn’t pull away, and she sinks completely down on my body. This was too much for her to handle and go through.
“It’s going to be ok I promise you!” I assure her. “He’s not here!”
“I know Brian. All I want to do is get rid of these memories!”
“By time. Unfortunately it takes time to do so.”
She then pulls away from me. “I’m afraid that whenever I close my eyes, even when I head to bed or try to be intimate with a guy, I’ll picture that day. I’m afraid that that scene is gonna be stuck in my head for the rest of my life”.
I hold her body next to mine, “It will take time I guess. Try not to think about it, when you go to sleep think about something else, something nice”.

I kiss her on the temple while holding her close, still thinking on what she has just told me now. What if I’m not right?

Notes

Katelyn confides in Brian on what happened to her..poor her. :(

It's quite a dark chapter I know. The next chapter is going to be a month forward, so not this dark dw :) Hope you still like it, you awesome readers <3