*~*Matt’s POV*~*

I had finished zipping up my last bag in the hotel, putting it up on the edge of the bed with the rest of mine and Val’s bags. I kept letting my mind wander back to what my sister must be going thru right now. When we got to the hotel, she was really quiet making her way directly to the room she shared with Jimmy and Zacky.

This is her whole life she’s leaving behind. She’s never known any other home. At least she has us, her family. She’s going to get the chance to really get to know her other family. I hope that she doesn’t get too home sick. I’ve never had to leave my entire home and move like this. I just hope she likes it with us.

“Baby, I’m going to go check on Lei. I’ll be back.” I called out to Val in the bathroom.

“Alright.”

I took the key card off the dresser and made my way down the hall to their room. I knocked and a few moments later Zacky opened the door for me.

“Hey guys, how’s packing up going?” I said partly excited to go home.

Kamalei had her back to me as she sat on the floor, suitcase in front of her, and I saw her shaking. I made a step towards her before Jimmy got up from the bed, putting a hand on my chest and pushing me back out into the hall with him letting the door close.

“She’s not doing so good Matt.” He said seriously.

“What? What’s wrong? Let me see her.” I replied getting annoyed that he was coming between my sister and I.

“I don’t think it’s a good idea. She’s really, really sad about leaving right now. She hasn’t said a single word since we left Mama’s house and she’s been just crying ever since we got into the room. She just keeps folding and re-folding her clothes.”

“Well why aren’t you guys doing anything about it? Give her a fucking hug or something. Shit Jim.” I said getting more angry.

“We tried and she pushed us away. I think she just needs to get it out… alone.” He said.

I nodded, “Alright, well can I at least try and talk to her?”

“Yeah, go for it but I’m just warning you she’s really upset and you probably won’t get a reaction you want from her.” He said as he moved aside and opened the door.

She hadn’t moved from her spot on the floor and Zacky was sitting back on the bed, beer in his hands, watching her cry, obviously disturbed by her depressed mood.

I made my way over to her, sitting across from her on the floor, “Lei… do you want some help?”

She glanced up at me, eyes red and puffy, sniffling before she gently shook her head no. She went back to what she was doing, folding and re-folding her clothes. I wasn’t going to give up so easily.

“Lei, baby girl… Is there something I can get you?” I asked, getting the same response as the first time.

I ran my hands thru my hair, getting frustrated that I couldn’t break her from this little cycle. I sat there and watched her for another few minutes, desperately thinking what I could do. She finished the suitcase and got up, tears still flowing down her face and staining her shirt, before grabbing another suitcase and setting it on the floor and unzipping it, taking out the clothes and placing them beside her. She started the process again, folding and re-folding everything. She was about halfway thru folding everything for the third time when Zacky stood up from the bed, slamming his empty bottle onto the bedside table.

“ENOUGH!” He yelled at her.

She squeaked out in shock, staring at him wide eyed and surprised.

“Enough of this Lei! You can’t keep doing this!” he screamed at her as he walked towards her.

She was so frightened by him she jumped up and ran into the bathroom, locking it behind her as I heard her sobbing harder.

“What the fuck Zack!?” I yelled at him, standing up.

“Did you really have to fucking yell at her like that Zack!?” Jimmy shouted angrily at him.

“I can’t fucking sit here and watch her do this shit! It’s driving me fucking crazy watching her cry and fold and re-fold all the damn clothes. This is the fucking fourth time she’s done that bag alone! She won’t even fucking talk to us or anything!” he said pointing to the bag on the floor that she had run from.

He walked over to the mini fridge and grabbed another beer out, popping the cap and taking a big swig. I walked over to him, the anger getting the better of me and grabbed him by the collar of his shirt, slamming him up against the wall near the bathroom.

“Then don’t fucking sit here! Let her fucking do whatever the fuck she wants. She’s leaving her whole life behind to come and live with US! We almost killed her ex-fucking boyfriend yesterday and you expect her to be fucking skipping over rainbows and singing fucking Disney songs?! She’s having a hard time, the only family she’s ever known she has to leave behind in only a few hours! You don’t fucking like it? Too fucking bad Zack! Don’t fucking yell at my fucking sister again or I’ll fucking beat your fucking face in! GOT IT?!” I screamed at him.

The door to the bathroom opened up a little and Lei stuck her head out, looking at me holding Zacky up against the wall.

She kept crying, placing her hand on my arm holding Zacky to the wall, “Matthew let him go. Please let him go… I’ll talk or whatever you guys want… just please don’t hurt him.”

“I’m fucking done. I mean it though Zack. You fucking yell at her like that again and I will fucking lose it for real. Not even she will save you.” I said releasing him and stepping back.

Kamalei went over to Zacky and straightened out his balled up shirt, looking at his face and neck to see if I had actually hurt him. He turned his face away from her, ashamed of yelling at her.

“I’m sorry Lei… I shouldn’t have yelled at you. I just got frustrated. I don’t like seeing you cry. I’m sorry. I’m gonna go for a little bit.” He told her, still not looking directly at her.

“Zacky it’s okay… Matt’s right, I’m sad to leave everything I’ve ever known behind but…” she said to him as he pulled away from her and grabbed his phone and cigarettes off the bed. “Zacky, wait, please don’t go.”

“I need to. You do what you need to do. It’s not good for me to be here right now.” He told her as he kissed her cheek on his way out the door.

“Zacky! Wait!” she called out as the door slammed behind him.

She slid down the wall behind her, this time letting out a scream as she began hysterically crying with her hands covering her face. Watching the whole thing, Jimmy ran out the door following Zacky. I got down on the floor and pulled my sister into my lap, gently rocking her back and forth.

“It’s alright Lei… It’s all going to be alright. Don’t cry baby girl…” I said as I stroked her hair soothingly.

*~*Zacky’s POV*~*

I just can’t take it anymore. I just can’t listen to her cry anymore. I can’t watch her pack and re-pack everything a million times. I can’t see her sad and depressed like that. I’ve seen her sad, but nothing like that. I had to go, even if Kamalei didn’t want me to. It was the right thing to do, before I lost it again and yelled at her again. She doesn’t need that from me. I just love her too much to see her so depressed that I can’t help her…

I heard a loud scream as the door slammed behind me and I instantly knew it was Kamalei.

Fuck, I always seem to fuck shit up. Now she’s probably crying more. Fuck. I better go find out what Brian is doing…

I knocked on his door and he immediately opened it, stepping aside and letting me in.

“What’s going on man? I heard some yelling and shit.”

“Where’s Kelly?” I said quietly looking around the room.

“She went to the bank to settle some stuff before we leave tonight. You didn’t answer me though… Is everything okay?” He asked me.

“No. I fucked up.” I said sitting on the edge of the bed, running my hands thru my hair.

“What happened?”

“Lei has been silent since we left Mama’s house and when we got to the room all she has been doing is crying and packing and re-packing her stuff. She wouldn’t even talk to me, Brian. TO ME! She always talks to me!” I said putting my face in my hands.

“Okay… well I mean she is sad, all these island girls have ever had is here. It’s only expected for them to be upset. I don’t see where all the yelling comes in…” Brian said sitting next to me, putting a hand on my shoulder.

“Well, I couldn’t take it anymore. It was making me fucking crazy and I lost it. I fucking yelled at her. I yelled at her so bad that I scared her. She actually ran from me and locked herself in the bathroom. Then Matt grabbed me and yelled at me too… She stopped him from actually hurting me but I couldn’t even look at her Brian. I fucked up. I fucked up so bad. I had to just leave.” I said taking a swig of my beer I had brought.

“Man…That’s not-” he started before there was a knock on the door, the both of us looking up at the door scared it was Matt.

“Open up. It’s me, Jimmy.”

“Thank God.” Brian said opening the door.

“You need to go back. She’s losing it in there.” Jimmy said to me.

“I can’t Jim. I can’t see her like that.” I told him.

“You know she needs you Zee. Now more than ever.” Jimmy replied, pleading with his crystal blue eyes.

I shook my head as I took another drink, finishing off my beer, before getting up and raiding Brian’s fridge for another one.

*~*Kamalei’s POV*~*

“Matt! Why would he leave me behind!?” I cried into my brother’s chest.

“He’s upset baby girl… he doesn’t like you to be sad… Trust me, he’s not going to leave you behind anywhere.” he shushed me as he rocked me in his arms on the floor.

“I need him Matt. He always understands me and I don’t know why he’s being like this to me!” I said between my sobs.

“I don’t know why either Lei… I’m sorry. You have me here now though… I’m not as squishy as him or your best friend but I’m still your big brother…” he said with a small smile trying to cheer me up.

“It’s not the same.” I mumbled and I felt bad for saying that to Matt but it was the truth.

“Ouch. That hurt.” He chuckled.

“Sorry…” I muttered still buried and crying in his shirt, “He scared me Matt… he’s never yelled at me like that. Why is he being like that Matt? I just want him to come back…”

“I know… Jimmy will bring him.” Matt tried to reassure me as I kept sobbing.

“Matt, I just want to be alone until he comes back.” I looked up at him, pleading.

“I don’t think you should be alone Lei.”

“Please brother. Please. I just want to be alone.” I begged him.

He nodded and pulled me off of his lap, kissing my forehead before making his way to the door, “Come get me if you need anything.”

As he opened the door, Jimmy stood there with a somber expression.

“Jimmy, where’s Zacky? Did you find him?”

“Yeah I found him. He just needs some time. He’s just really upset right now...” Jimmy said peering around Matt’s figure.

“Ok.” Was all I could muster before heading into the bathroom again, locking the door behind me.

“Lei? What are you-“ Jimmy asked before Matt stopped him.

“Just let her go. She wants to be alone.” He told him as I stood on the other side of the locked door.

The pain in my heart from leaving my home was now growing into something much worse. I couldn’t hold it in anymore and screamed out again as I picked up the glass from the counter throwing it across the large bathroom, watching it shatter into a million pieces against the wall. I slid down the wall, not holding back any of my sobs this time as I cried loudly with all of my heart.

“Lei? You alright? Did you get hurt?” Jimmy asked.

“Just go away! Everyone just leave me the fuck alone!” I yelled between my crying.

I heard the door close but it brought me no satisfaction. I curled up with my knees to my chest and balled my eyes out, now for more than one reason.

I’m leaving my mom, my job, my house, my family behind… Now I’ve made the one person who can make things right upset with me. What the fuck is wrong with me?! I just want him to come hold me. I want him to make it all better like he always does… He’s not going to come back. Now Jimmy hates me too. I hate this. I hate all of this. I can’t be here. I wish they had let Micah kill me. Then none of this would be a problem…

I couldn’t stop crying but I got up from my uncomfortable spot on the floor and opened the door after what had to be another half an hour, making my way over towards the bed. I stopped at one of Zacky’s bags sitting on the nearby chair. I opened up his bag and found one of his Misfits shirts and zipped up the bag. I crawled on the bed, not bothering with getting under the covers and curled up and cried into his shirt. It smelled just like him and I figured this was the only solution at present, to make me feel like he was here with me.

The balcony window had the curtains pulled back and I let large tears fall as I laid there looking out at the view, hugging Zacky’s shirt to my chest. I cried and cried for what seemed like hours. No one, not even Kelly, came in to bother me or try to cheer me up and I was thankful. I didn’t want to talk. I had nothing to say.

Notes

Sooooo..... I bet you didn't see that one coming? Hope you enjoyed that little twister... What do you think is going to happen next? Leave me some comments on your thoughts :) I'm always curious to see what people think. Mahalo for reading and commenting! <3 it! Sorry I haven't been able to update as often as I would like to but life calls for my attention more than not... Much love and Aloha from me to you tho <3 <3 <3