Life According To Amber Lynn Haner

*Amber's POV*

"Whats the matter, Amber? You've gone so quiet..you're worrying me.." Danny said quietly, and I sighed. I hated worrying anybody, but lately, it's all I seem to do.

"I want to tell you..but I can't..not here, anyways.." I muttered, and stared at the ivory Nandos table.

"It's ok, I get it. You can tell me someplace else, if you want to. I mean, I'm not trying to bother you, but if you tell me what's up, maybe I'll know how to deal with it, yknow."

"Yeah, I get it..whenever you want to go, I can go. I might tell you then.."

"Whenever you feel ready to tell me, I'll be listening." I felt really bad for not telling him now, so I made a mental note to finally come clean to him whenever we left. He deserved to know.

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We took a walk back towards the bus stop to go home, and sat outside the old Lancaster Casino. The stone steps were cold, but it was better than walking, I suppose. I wrapped my cardigan around myself further (totally underestimated how cold it was) and then Danny gave me his Foo Fighters hoodie to wear, because he said he wasn't all that cold (he's such a gentleman, I swear).

"Youre going to see me differently after I tell you.." I spoke in almost a whisper, and Danny hugged me and put my head on his shoulder.

"I promise I won't." He replied, and I took a deep breath.

"For quite some time now, I've had depression. As in like majorly. It causes me to become so distant from everybody, and I often feel like I can't tell anybody. On top of that, I'm suicidal and I've cut my arms, thighs, anywhere I can. I don't talk about it much, as I don't want people to see me as a son story. But yeah, that's why I haven't been myself lately. I'm in the middle of another relapse.." I expected him to just get up and leave me here, but instead, he hugged me tighter, and kissed my forehead (Dad's the only other person who I'll ever let do that).

"And why would I see you differently? In realityx you're the same girl that you were five minutes ago, and what you've told me has changed nothing. I still love you, and I still love you in a way that I'd like us to be more than friends. I know you've mentioned about what happened with your ex, but that doesn't matter. Just know that I still love you the same."

"You love me?"

"Yes, I love you. You're the prettiest girl I've ever seen, and the nicest too. I just can't count the ways that I love you, and I want you to know that, alright?"

"I love you too.."

"This might seem too forward, but should we give us a chance? I mean, only if you want to like, its your decision."

"I'd like that, I'd like it a lot.."

"So, are we officially a couple?"

"Duh! You're really slow, man." I laughed slightly, and sighed.
I just prayed to god that this relationship wouldn't turn out like the last.

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The bus ride home was quiet, but not awkwardly. It was a nice kind of quiet, and one that we didn't mind. We were both wrapped up in our own thoughts, and fighting to stay awake. Sure, it was only seven o'clock, but we'd been out for quite a while, and we were exhausted.

Dad was meeting us at the bus stop, as I wouldn't walk home in the dark, and he refused to even LET me walk home in the dark without him.thats one of the few things that were on the same level for.

He was there, of course, right on time and leaning against a wall, smoking a cigarette. When he saw us, he came over and I half-smiled, completely and utterly fit for my bed and sow popcorn.

"You guys look tired, d'you have fun?" Dad asked, and I nodded.

"Yeah, it was fun. We just walked around, but it was still fun, I guess." I yawned, and tried to be as vague as possible about me and Danny being a couple, as its just a bit too semi on to let it slip.

"Thats good, babes. So Danny, which way's your house?"

"It's actually just there, you were leaning against my garden wall."

"Pretty close to the bus stop, that's pretty handy. Well, we'd better get on home then, I'd say Amber's just about stating awake."

"Dad, you're aware I can hear you, right? I not deaf yet. Night Danny, I'll call you in the morning."

"Night, you guys, and sure Amber, I'll talk to you in the morning." We waved Danny off just as Mrs. Brooks was getting something from her car, and she waved to us typo. Dad and I then proceeded the five minute walk home, thought it felt like fifty, because I was freezing and tired!

Notes

Well, guess who's now single -.- My best friend (we've sorted shit out so it's all good) now literally wants to kill my ex (I told her to "stab him fifty fucking times" (we laughed for centuries at that pun).

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