Hostage

Alicia’s POV

Zacky and my time together was good, but he seemed a little distant these last days.
Especially in the morning, he always needed some time to act normal around me and I didn’t know why.
When I asked him the first morning about it, he just shrugged it off and said he wasn’t a morning person, I shouldn’t take it personally, but I have known him differently.
Maybe this had something to do with Matt and the talk we had.
Zack never asked about any details from the talk between us, I wasn’t too sure what I would or could tell him anyway.
I didn’t really remember how the evening on Tuesday ended, I remembered talking to Matt on the couch, even crying and hugging him, after that I must have fallen asleep, when I woke up, I lay next to Zack in his bed.

The normal routine for us two was that we woke up, he got up together with me, even if I told him that he didn’t have to, we had breakfast together and after that I went to work. When he had the time we would see us again for lunch but that was not every day.

I told Matt I would do the test, he had totally caught me off guard with his question about the pregnancy. Of course I remembered us making love, but I had suppressed the detail that we had unprotected sex.
Which normally would let me freak out, but the way Matt had asked about it, as if he really cared… and not cared like – hopefully she is not, he wanted to know if I was okay.
But I couldn’t be pregnant, I mean… it was just one time and my last period wasn’t that long ago… was it?!
I pulled my calendar out and checked the weeks and thought back… with a frown…
But that could have a logical reason, I was abducted, totally stressed, then they made all these test with me… my body must be completely confused, that’s why…

They would have seen something at the test if I had been pregnant, right?
Then why am I standing in a drugstore and looking at the pregnancy test with disdain?
I was sure… why would I be afraid to make the test?
And how in hell could I explain this to Zacky, he would freak out… first he would think that he could be the one… and then I had to tell him, no it’s not because of you, but your best friend.
Oh my…

“Can I help you, Miss?” A voice made me jump and I looked around.
“Oh hello. Yes, I need a… pregnancy… test.” I stuttered a little at the last two words.
“Oh we have different kinds, a really early pregnancy test, one with showing you which week you are probably in and-”
“Just an early pregnancy test.” I interrupted the sales woman and she lifted her eyebrow at me.
“Alright, here.” She took one and went with me to the counter.
I felt like all eyes off the people in this store were directed at me, as if everyone knew what I was doing and would shake their head at my thoughtlessly decision to sleep with Matt without any protection.

I took the small bag and went out of the store, trying not to look somebody in the eyes.
When I sat in my car I sighed loudly and put the bag on the passenger seat.
My phone rang and I flinched at the loud ringing noise.
“Alicia? You are late, are you coming over tonight?” Zack asked and I tried to calm down from my shock.
“Yes, I had to work late. I’m on my way, right now.” I told him.
“Good, I went shopping, thought we could cook together?” Zack asked and I smiled.
“Yes, I would like that, will be there in 20 minutes.”
“Perfect.”

Matt’s POV

“Matt, nice to have you around again.” Johnny held a beer out to me.
“I know… Thanks, man.” I took the bottle and took a big gulp.
“What’s wrong Matt?” Johnny sat beside me outside on his terrace.
“What? Why would you think something is wrong?” But I already knew that Johnny knew me better than that.
“Don’t try to fuck with me.” Johnny stared ahead. “I know you half of my life, tell me what’s on your mind.”
“It’s complicated.”
“I’m the expert in complicated. Try me.” He turned towards me and I really needed someone to talk to and since Brian, who already knew about the situation, was not available and Zack was involved in all my problems, I had to confess my problems to someone who doesn’t know any about it.
I buried my hands on my hair and sighed loudly, I didn’t receive any messages from Alicia since our talk.
Tomorrow we would see us again at out clubbing with all the friends, I had hoped she would send me a message or maybe call me before that, but nothing.
She told me she would do the test and I was a little nervous about the possibility that she was pregnant even if she seemed sure that she was not.

I remembered her crying in my arms telling me she missed me, telling me I wasn’t there when she needed me…
After that I had held her in my arms, sitting on my lap until she had fallen asleep like that.
I held her until I thought it was about time to sit her down beside me, I didn’t want Zack to find her in my arms, even if nothing happened.
He would just assume things that didn’t happen, even if I wished that it was different.

“Matt?” Johnny elbowed me in the side.
“Sorry, I just… Man I don’t really know how to start…” I shook my head, what would he think if I told him that I am in love with the girl that is with Zack now?
“I like Alicia.” I finally admitted.
“I like her, too. So what?” Johnny grinned and he knew I meant it differently.
“I might love her, Johnny. Fuck, everything is so weird between us. I’m idiot if I had just told her all this when we were free, we could be together by now… but I didn’t and I did her wrong, now she is happy with Zack and I can’t I just fucking can’t get between that, even if I can’t stand looking at them…”I didn’t know how long I talked but I guess I told Johnny everything, every small situation and every emotion I felt when I was around her, around them.
Johnny didn’t interrupt me once, he nodded from time to time and shook his head, when I didn’t know what else to say I looked at him and waited for him to lecture me and tell me to back off.
“Shit, Matt. You need to talk to Zack and I mean really talk. Tell him how you feel about Alicia. Tell him that you never meant to get between them but your feelings for her are stronger, now you might stand a chance that he is not too involved with his feelings.”Johnny stood up and pulled on my shoulder.
“Wait.. what?” I looked at him confused.
“Go and talk to him, damn it. Matt, if you really feel like that, you have to tell him, the sooner the better and talk to Alicia. How could you be so dumb, bro? I thought you were the clever one?” Johnny nearly shoved me to the living room but I stopped in my tracks.
“Are you not mad or surprised or anything?” I frowned.
“What? No… well… it sucks for Zack, because I think he really likes her, but the sooner he knows what’s going on between you two the easier it will be for him. Maybe he was just mistaken his feelings… maybe… hell what do I know, but Matt you and Alicia have an important history together.”
“I don’t know, Johnny. I don’t wanna ruin it for Zack. He looks so happy with her and I know that feeling, she…” I trailed off.
“Alright, think about everything, you will see her tomorrow with Zack at the party. If you can really stand seeing them together and you think you can handle it, fine… then shut up and swallow it. But if you feel jealous if you wanna be the one with her there, fucking man up and talk to him and her about it.”
“What if she doesn’t want me? She said she is happy with Zack.” I tried to explain and find a way out of this.
“Maybe she was happy but maybe she is even happier with you, you will not find out if you sit here and drink beer with me… Now get out and think it through and talk to him… or I will fucking do it!”

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