Hostage

Zack’s POV

A scream roused me in the middle of the night, I turned to my side and found Alicia’s body next to me, and then it was quiet again.
I turned around and pulled the blanket higher and went back to sleep… something felt like a déjà vu, I just didn’t know why and what this was about.
I shook my head and sleep overtook me again…

I woke up when the sun was shining through my window. I opened my eyes and didn’t feel tired anymore.
I looked beside me but the bed was empty, I frowned a little.
Alicia had been lying next to me this night, so I got out of bed and walked towards the kitchen.
There stood a cup on the counter with a note in her handwriting.

Thank you for the fantastic evening!
I had to leave to be in time at Caroline’s for the breakfast.
The coffee is in the can, wish u a good day…
Alicia

I grabbed the can poured me some coffee and sat down on the couch, I could use the time when Alicia was at her breakfast.
I called Matt to see if he got time now, then it wouldn’t be drinking a beer it would be drinking a coffee together, I could live with that.

“You are early!” Matt voice sounded a little gruff.
“Just woke up. You got time now? If you want I could come over?”
“Hm.. No, I will get dressed and be there in 30.” Matt seemed to get up and yawned loudly.
“Good. Bye.”
I walked to the bathroom, took a quick shower and got dressed.

When I walked back to the kitchen I remembered something from the night that I couldn’t recall when I woke up.
I heard Alicia screaming, I couldn’t understand the words that she sat, but she asked for help and when I touched her she sighed and went back to sleep.
And now that I remembered it, I could also recall the other 3 nights I had spent with her, were all the same.
She was screaming, talking and then it was gone again…
She was still having these nightmares, does she realize that? Does she know that she was talking in her sleep?
Is she reliving the abduction every time? Should I talk to her about it?
Maybe the next night, I should try to stay awake so I could really listen to what she was saying, maybe then I could help her?!

Alicia’s POV

“So what did you want to talk about?” I looked over at Caroline, she was sipping on her coffee.
I knew she was dying to ask me something and I knew my best friend was way too curious for her own good.
“What? Can’t I just… alright fine. This thing with you and Zack, is that official? Are you two a couple?” She asked her eyes twinkling joyful.
“What did it look like to you?” I asked back with a smile.
“Yesterday, it looked like that…” She looked serious now.
“Yesterday? What does that mean?” I asked her with a frown.
“I mean… Alicia can I ask you something?” Caroline looked really serious now and I guess now was the part starting that I wouldn’t like.
“Sure, what is it.”
“What really happened between you and Matt? I asked you this on the BBQ before and you wanted to tell me later, now is later…” Caroline said and I looked down, how did she know?
“What makes you think that something happened between me and Matt?”
She shook her head at me and I knew what that meant – Quit the bullshit.
“Fine, but I still want to know what makes you say that.”
“Alright, if this makes it easier for you, I watched you and him on the BBQ, before he blabbed out what he shouldn’t have, which by the way wasn’t his fault. Anyway, I saw you looking at him with an angry glare and I saw him looking at you with… a quizzical look. I don’t really know what I should think of that. I had a feeling you two needed to talk and sort something through but you both seemed to think, distance was the better option and then, Zack was distracting you and Val or what her name was is hanging on Matt… now tell me what happened AND have you been to the police again?” Caroline finished her speech and was a little too close to the point for my liking.

I sighed and looked at her “No, I haven’t been to the police, BUT I called and added this to my statement. I need to go there in the next couple of days to look over the papers and sign them, alright?”
Caroline nodded and motioned with her hand for me to go on and I rolled my eyes, should I really tell her what happened between Matt and me?
She was my best friend, but I didn’t like to think about Matt, he was just way too confusing for me.
Sending out all these different signals, how should someone know what he really wanted from that?
“Alright, Matt and I have been close during that time, physical and emotional. Is that enough.”
“That’s not enough.” Caroline shook her head.
“We talked a lot, we cuddled, we shared our nightmares, he soothed me, he held me, he defended me, he was there when I needed him, we kissed, we touched and we made love. Enough now?” My voice broke in the end.
“Alicia… I’m sorry. I didn’t…” Caroline looked shocked, and I didn’t know why a single tear was rolling down my cheek now.
“And after we were out of there, he didn’t care. Alright? He moved on and I moved on and I don’t know why it should be any other way, and now he shows up again, acting like he cares, but he does not!” I nearly yelled at her for no apparent reason.
“Are you sure about that, A?!” Caroline asked quietly.
“Why? No… I don’t wanna know…” I told her as quietly.
When she didn’t say anything I continued. “I am happy, okay?”
“Okay.” Caroline nodded.
“Could you be even happier if you were with Matt?” Caroline asked and my head snapped up to her.
My mouth opened and closed again then I shook my head at her.
“No, I don’t think so. He made his decision and I made mine. He had to sort through his feelings, and he wasn’t complete honest with me… He told me he didn’t have a girlfriend but he had.”
“What makes you say that?” Caroline frowned.
“Haven’t you seen him and Val? She was his long term girlfriend, they were on a break but they were starting it again, or would she call him babe just for fun, acting like they were together again?! Her sleeping at his house?”
“Hmm.. but what if she made more from it then there really was?” Caroline asked.
“Are you defending him? On which side are you?” I asked her a little surprised.
“On the side that makes you happier, hun. I just want you not to run into something and get hurt… either way. If you are telling me you are happy with Zack, I will shut the fuck up and never mention it again, but maybe you should just have a final talk with Matt, because I can see that you are struggling with your emotions. I know you better than anybody else, and you can’t deny that. I see that he hurt you and that you need to come to terms with that. Why not talk to him, maybe there was a reason for that? Maybe that will soothe your aching heart and then you can be with Zack, and be really happy and maybe the friendship with Matt will grow again.” Caroline said and I knew she was right, even if I could hear that she emphases the word friendship a little different than the rest of the sentence.
I guess she really knew me better then I knew myself.
I should give Matt at least the chance to explain, maybe I should take his offer to go to dinner, we could talk and I could tell him that I wanted to be his friend.
Yes, that’s it. His friends, nothing more and nothing less, right?!

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