Hostage

Alicia’s POV

It was silent in Zack’s car when we drove home. I didn’t really want to talk but I knew that he needed some explaining from my side and I needed him to know.
Somehow Zack made me feel safe to tell him… well not everything right now but what was necessary for him to understand.

He parked the car in my driveway but not got out just turned towards me with a serious face.
I let the day review in my mind, having felt good and free since a long time, even with still the weight on my shoulders with not knowing what will happen when the results of my doctor were there.
I liked Zack around me and I liked talking to him, he made me laugh and he made me feel good, he could distract me.
But when I was around Matt it felt good as well, on a completely different level…
Matt knew things from me, we had shared moments that I wouldn’t want to share with anyone else.
He was there when I needed him the most, we were a team, we were intimate… in a situation I could never imagine.
I sighed, but Val treated him like they were a couple again and Matt didn’t really deny that there could not be anything again… she already slept at his home, they were in a long relationship before… maybe it was only a matter of time until they got back together…
Val wanted that, so much was clear… she called him babe, she interrupted our talks, she was around him whenever she could… yes I noticed all that, even if I had tried to not look at Matt and notice him, because I knew this would end up nowhere, I couldn’t help myself.

“You wanna go inside?” Zack asked finally rousing me from my thoughts.
He touched my hand lightly and I didn’t pull away, being surprised as well.
“Yes, let’s go. Sorry, I was lost in thoughts.” I shook my head to clear my thoughts.
I opened the car door and when I climbed out, Zack was already there helping me and I smiled, still all gentleman, huh?!

He held his arm out for me to take and I was thinking how I could ask him the best to not leave me alone this night, could I ask that of him?
Would he think differently about me now? After he heard what nearly happened?
Would he even want to stay?
We stood before my door and I fumbled with the keys.
“Alicia?” I lifted my head and looked into these gorgeous green eyes staring at me.
“Yeah, I know this was… like.. I don’t know our first real date, if we might call it so… and it didn’t really go the way any of us could have planned and I am very sorry for that…” Zack looked past me towards the window as if not wanting to look me in the eye saying the next words and I cringed inwardly, preparing myself for being rejected after he heard… what he heard at the party.

But he surprised me when he put his hand to my cheek, making me look into his eyes, but this way it would only hurt more…
“I know this is not appropriate for the first date, but Alicia I am not going to leave you alone tonight, so don’t fumble around with the keys, to get rid of me… just open the door and let us get inside.”
I frowned at him, not expecting to say anything like that.
“You don’t want to leave?”
“No, I won’t leave. Come on, now give me the keys.” He held his hand out and I dropped the keys into his hands.
He opened the door and let me walk in, I switched the lights on and walked straight into the kitchen, getting a bottle of water and two glasses.
Zack was waiting for me in the living room, eyes the blanket there and the mp3 player he gave me.
“You tried that?” I motioned to the mp3 player.
“Yes, it was an amazing idea.”
“What works best?” He looked really interested.
I smiled “Your talking… all the records from you guys talking in the studio, that’s what makes me not feel alone. It was really an amazing idea.”
“Good, that’s good.” He patted the spot next to him on the couch and I sat down.

I knew what was now to come, I had to talk to him tell him… what if he changed his mind after this?
“Alicia, if you don’t want to talk to me about what happened, I can totally understand that. But you must realize that you need to go to the police tomorrow.”
I shook my head but he stopped me with a move of his hand. “Yes, you will. Alicia when they get these guys, that will bring them to jail even longer… you don’t want them running around freely do you?!”
That sentence made me shiver and flinch, which made Zacky sigh and move closer to me, laying his arm around my shoulder pulling me close.
“I don’t want to scare you Alicia. I am sorry, if I did.”
“No, you are right. I will think about it, okay?” Zack nodded at me seeming to be satisfied for now.

“It was near the end of the abduction… he made some comments and moves towards me before. One of them… the leader I guess, we know now that his name was Carl. One day he tricked me, he told me he had contact with Caroline, that she was there… wanting to talk to me. I believed him…” Tears were streaming down my cheeks and Zack pulled me onto his lap now.
“Matt told me that it was a trap, but I wanted to believe him, wanted to see Caroline so bad… I was stupid, should have listened to Matt. I went with Carl to the other room… he chained Matt to the bed. When he came back to the room he stalked towards me, he was… on top of me, undressing me, touching me…” I sobbed even louder, having the scenes before my eyes again, feeling his hands on me, making me sick…
“Sssshhh… I am here, not him. I am here, nothing will happen.”Zack rubbed my back, his voice directly at my ear, this deep voice bringing me back from the nightmare.
“He touched me and called over to Matt, I had to tell him what he was doing, where he was touching me.” More tears, Zack’s shoulder was completely drenched now but he didn’t seem to care.
“I begged, I screamed, I cried… but Matt didn’t have a chance to get free, I heard him, he tried… and then thank god, Sean was there… he ran into the room shoved Carl off me, getting away from him, bringing me back to Matt, so he could defend me.” I sobbed again and looked at Zack, waiting for a reaction, but he just kept on rubbing my back, from my neck down and back up.
“I felt so sooo dumb, it was all my fault, I should have never believed him… never-” Zack’s finger was in front of my lips, silencing me.
“Ssshhh, no not your fault. Matt must have told you that already, it is not your fault for what that asshole wanted to do to you. You thought your friend was here, you thought you had a chance at freedom, everyone would have taken that… don’t ever think you did wrong.”
Zack pulled his finger away and I licked my lips in reflex, Zack’s eyes travelled down to my lips and then back up to my eyes.

I leaned a little forward, my body moving without me really noticing but Zack slightly shook his head as if trying to break free from some trance.
“Come on, let’s get you ready for bed, this dress surely is not the right outfit for that, would be a shame to get it all wrinkled, huh?”
“Oh really?” I smiled at him trying to loosen up the situation.
“Yeah, maybe you can wear it again on our second date.”
“You want to go on a second date with me?” I asked him a little astonished.
“Of course, I already told you that we both wanted another end to our date, or?”
“Yes, you are right.”I nodded and got slowly off Zack’s lap.
“Okay, then get ready for bed, I will be waiting here.” Zack said and when I went to the door I saw him pull his phone out, responsible as he was, he would be texting Caroline that he would stay here and keep an eye on me.
I smiled a little and went to the bathroom to change. I looked in the mirror and nearly had the urge to cry again…oh god I looked horrible, all the mascara was smudged underneath my eyes, my hair was a mess and when I tried to comb it, it realized it was a lost cause for this evening…
I just tried to limit the damage a little and cleaned my face and pulled my hair into a ponytail.
I changed into an old shirt and my sleeping pants and went back to the living room.

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