I don't belong here.

Brian's P.O.V

Sex Hair? Bullshit...i may not have known Nora for years, but her hair isn't like that after sex, to be fair i should know, and sex hair could easily be faked. I still think of her, still fantasize, come on how couldn't you, she is stunning, perfect mixture, and a feisty little personality to match. I know what your thinking she;s with my mate, but still im a bloke and im only human. Yes i'm with Nikki much to everyone's dismay, but i still care for Nora, sometimes i wish i had tried harder with her, you know i miss her at times.

We had been at Nora's for a while now, the usual thing, we come together get drunk then pass out or someone has a fight, waiting for something like that to happen to be fair, ive not drank so much, calming down just in case. We are all sat in the living room at the moment, Nora and Matt being all cuddly and shit on the sofa, he is smashed and his hand looks very eager placed on the inside of her thigh, and the fact that they're sat directly in front of me kinda pisses me off, arrgh its annoying. Then next to me i have Alex who has Zacky sat on the floor in front of her sat between her legs whilst she plays with his hair, and then johnny on floor cuddling jimmy because both of them are pissed, think i might be the most sober, that's weird, and im starting to feel lonely, im starting to miss Nikki. She annoyed me and we would fight like cat and dog 24/7 but the sex was great, but not just that i loved going to bed knowing there was someone next to me, knowing there was someone there when i came home, like a family. I was getting bored being alone so i decided to phone Nikki, i step outside and lit up a Marlboro and dialed her number.

"Hello?"

"Babe its me Brian, you ok?"

"Yeah.. im ok, why you phoning me, is everything ok?" She sounded upset, as if she had been crying, it worried me,she was a bitch at times but at the moment she was the closest thing i had to love.

"yeah...its..its just i missed you and just wanted to say sorry" I heard her start crying again, did i say something wrong? whats happened? To be fair i haven't spoken to her about stuff like that since the night she found me with Nora in the club, she was pissed and i would be if we had switched places, i chased after her to her car, she slammed the door and refused me to open it, she had tears in her eyes, and that moment i saw a completely different side to Nikki, a side that showed she was human, not the heartless good in bed bitch we saw on the beach. She looked at me , shook her head and drove off, when i got home she was asleep in bed, i striped and laid next to her and wrapped myself round her, she made me feel safe. After that we got on better, never spoke about that night but we were different , good different though, the sex was better too. Must of had sex at least 4 or 5 times a day, something about made me want her all the time, couldn't keep my hands off of her, we were in a good place. And to hear on the phone like she'd been crying tugged at my heart.

"You don't need to apologize, but i...i..." she stuttered then stopped , i could hear her breathing at the end of the phone heavily, as if something was on her mind "babe, whatever it is just spit it out".

"I need to see you, somethings has changed"...

"Okay ill drive home"

"See you there, Brian im sorry" and the line went dead, what did she mean by she was sorry we had been great, nothing had happened, or had she done something, had she cheated on me?! The thought of that sent fire through my veins. I flicked my fag end away and headed inside to say goodbye, i got inside and there were less people than when i went outside, Nora and Matt and disappeared upstairs and if you went silent you could hear them upstairs, zacky and Alex had fallen asleep on the sofa and Johnny and jimmy were playing Xbox.

"Jim im heading home, something's up with Nikki, will see you at the studio tomorrow"

"OK Bri, hope everything's ok, ill tell Nora that you'be gone, see ya" he patted me on the back and everyone shouted good bye's as i headed out the door. As i shut the door behind me i realized id have to get a taxi and leave my car here and pick it up in the morning before going to the studio as ive been drinking. Appeared outside my home, passed the driver his fee, saw Nikki's car in the driveway, so she was here, since we had gotten together she spent most days and nights here, which to be honest i liked it, she had her own key so would come over whenever. I opened the door and saw her sat on the stairs with her head in her hands, i dropped my keys on the table and quickly moved towards her. I crouched in front of her, removing her hands from her face and put them round my neck, i picked her up by putting her legs round my waist and carried her upstairs. I swung the door pen and placed her on the bed and sat next to her. Still she was silent except for the few sniffles she would make to sought out the tears running down her face. I held her chin in my hand and turned her face towards mine, her eyes connected with mine.

"Whats up sweetie" she removed her chin from my hand and walked over to the corner of the room to where her bag was, she pulled out a box an handed it to me. "Open it" i opened the box to reveal a pregnancy test, a positive pregnancy test. Fuck! i was left stunned and speechless, she stood there looking ready to breakdown, i could tell she was scared of my reaction, normally id shout and pace the room but some how i was calm to a certain extent, not what i wanted but we could sought this out, if my path was to be a dad, i would be one, be there for her and our kid, try my best to do the best by them. I stood up and pulled her close, hugging her tight, hugging not too tight though, she was carrying my child, whoa that's weird to say, weird to think to be fair, to think that she had a mini Haner inside of her right now. I kissed the top of her head "Everything will be fine, we'll be fine" I knelt down and lifted her top up and kissed her stomach and then held my hand on her tummy "Hello little one, nice to meet you, im your dad i guess".

Notes

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