I don't belong here.

Brian's P.O.V

Last night...was one giant wtf moment. I woke up about 4 am and haven't been able to fall asleep again, ive been laying here for ages, every now and again glancing over to Nikki lying next to me, lying next to me carrying my child. That's weird to think about let alone say out loud. I was scared, this isn't how i saw my life going like. I'm synster gates, the lady's man, now i was to be Synster Gates, father of one, in about 9 moths. I was a dick but i wouldn't turn her away, i'd have to take responsibility and take care of my family. How was the boys going to take this? I'd thought the first avenged baby was going to be Matt's, and lately it looked like that was more likely to be in the future now that he is with Nora. I doubt anyone saw this coming, i know i didn't, i always used a condom, with every girl, including Nikki, and she said she was on the pill. But nothing is 100% and the condom could of split and we wouldn't have been none the wiser. Shit, i can just picture the disappointed looks on all their faces, on Nora's face. I think im most nervous about telling her, she could deny it all she wants, we had something, and that's something is gone defiantly now due to the pregnancy, and to top it off they all disliked Nikki, Nora especially. Nikki to be fair has had it coming, especially with the beach, and she hasn't ever said a nice thing about Nora, or any of them. Huh i do wonder why i stayed with her...cant runaway now though.

I got out of bed and saw the clock, it was 8.30 am, i had a studio session with the lads at 10. I gently got out of bed, avoiding waking Nikki up , and headed down stairs. Time went by quickly and soon it was 9.30. I was showered and dressed and ready to play with my schecter in the studio.... My car was still at Nora's, i headed over to hers to pick it up and Matt. Maybe i could tell her and Matt now then invite everyone out to dinner and tell everyone else then, if i tell Nora now, she might not overreact because Matt will be beside her. I reached her front door and could see her on the sofa through her window. I knocked the door and she quickly made her way to the door, i wasn't spying but was curiously watching her through the window, she looked cute today. She opened the door with the smile.

"Hey Bri".,..

" Hey little red, just came to pick up my car before i head off to the studio, could take Matt whilst im here to" She smiled and wrapped her arms round my neck and ushered me indoors. She seemed in a good mood, might have something to do with her and Matt last night. "So what's up then me darling, why the sudden rush out of here last night, sorry about not seeing you out, Matt was...umm. you know how blokes are" She winked making me chuckle "Its ok, don't blame him really" i looked her up and down, she was in little shorts and a plain white t-shirt, she noticed me and blushed "Bri you were saying" i snapped out of my fantasy again.

"Uh right yeah had to go see Nikki, something..uh..happened" I could see her face screw up when i mentioned Nikki, telling her about the baby could be bad. She walked over to the sofa and sat on the arm as i stood towering over her in size, she was just a little red headed pixie, it was adorable. I felt her hand grip on to my wrist "Need to talk Hun? Matt wont be down for at least 15 minutes" Her eyes showed she meant it, i sat on the sofa and she followed sitting next to me, she nodded her head , that was my cue to drop the bombshell.

"Please don't hate me, that's the last thing i want to do, i don't want to lose you anymore than i already have" I held on to her hand, squeezing it slightly, her face looked confused. I started to fig-it and back track in my mind, maybe this wasn't the best time.

"Brian, just say what you need to say, i think i have an idea anyway" she what...uh..huh? Now im confused... i decided to grow a pair and come out with it. "I'm sorry little red"......i held my head in shame, why was i so so scared to tell her, i didn't want her to think any less of me, i don't know what i would do if she was disappointed in me. "Earth to Brian...hello? why are you sorry, you've done nothing wrong darling".

"Nikki...um...sh-" I was interrupted by the sound of Matt running down the stairs, we pulled away from each other, relaxing ourselves, so Matt wouldn't think something was up.

"Hey Brian, what you doing here?" like it wasn't obvious, but anyway moving forward "Just came to pick up the car and give u a lift to studio" "Ahh Brill, well im ready if you want to head out?" "Yeah i'll wait in the car" i headed towards the door but Nora pulled me my arm back "You ok? we didn't get to talk" I smiled, juts looking at her made me feel happier "Yeah im good, hey...umm...do you two wanna come for dinner tonight?...was going to invite everyone". I looked at Matt and he nodded, he was acting friendly but i could tell he was watching every move i made, i don't blame him, i'd do the same, i looked at Nora and smiled, hoping she'd say yes too.

"Umm yeah sure, wont be able to do an all nighter though like usual, first day at work tomorrow, but yeah lets do it" she leaned and whispered in my ear "We can talk again if you need to" i smiled and she kissed my cheek before i went out the door. Her lips were soft and beautiful, i missed her, before i got in the car i left the front door open, in the doorway was Matt saying goodbye to Nora, they were kissing goodbye, it was sensual and delicate and a kiss that you knew meant something was just done for the sake of it. It stared to aggravate me and my me feel jealous and hurt and stupid, i turned away and turned up the radio, planet rock, oh yes! I honked the horn to grab his attention "Dude, you can have a quickie later before we go out, hurry you know how Zacky gets when were late!!" He put up his middle finger up at me, completely flipping me off, he gave Nora one last kiss and then ran over to the car "Dude don't you mean when you're late?!" "Yeah yeah whatever" he laughed then got in the car. We exited the driveway and saw Nora wave at us as we drove off down the road.



Matt's P.O.V

Watching the way Nora and Brian were together, granted they didn't do anything, but their chemistry that they shared was something you couldn't deny. I know she loved me, and vice versa, but ill always feel threatened by Brian, he may be with Nikki, but i could tell the look of affection and he always had it when he was around Nora. I sometimes worry she''ll realize she made a mistake with me and fall for Brian and leave me, i don't know what id do if that happened, to be fair thinking about it was hard, it fucking caned. That's why when we were leaving , i couldn't keep my hands off of Nora, i wanted to put on a show, to show Brian she was mine, he was my mate, my brother even, but if i could get him out of the way, she'd be more likely to stay with me.

We pulled up outside the studio, zacky leaning against the entrance smoking, we were 20 minutes late, i could only imagine the reaction from the lads, that's what happens when you turn up with Brian, also what happens when your scared to leave your girlfriend alone due to her psychotic ex being in the area , and trying to prove that she care for me more than someone else. "You are late" Zacky said after taking a drag of his Marlboro "Nothing new then!" Brian chuckled as he walked past Zacky inside, i went to follow him but Zacky grabbed my shoulder "Hey Matt can i talk to you ?" " Yeah sure whats up?" i leaned against the wall, zacky handed me a fag and lit it up, i took a drag, god it tasted great, hadn't smoked for a while, properly that is, Nora didn't have a problem but we were always together so i was more occupied with other activities, if you get what i mean. "Do you mind if i take Nora out for lunch one day, since you two got together i haven't seen much of her, like we got close like siblings for a far bit, like she was always round mine or i round hers, i miss her company, not in any other way i swear, i just miss my friend" i felt bad that he had felt he needed to ask, i wasn't worried about zacky , he was interested in Alex, and i knew how close he and Nora were, to be honest i feel bad that ive got in the way "Yeah, dude you didn't need to ask, you were close, huh...i kinda feel bad...yeah go for it, to be fair she needs a bit of fun" he looked at me weird "Is everything ok?" i thought about Adam, so not really, i wanted to tell zacky, to tell all the lads but i promised Nora i wouldn't, she didn't want me getting involved let alone the boys, i promise was i promise as much as it sickened me, i felt helpless, i hated feeling like i could not do anything to protect her "Yeah we're all good, uh i mean she's just felt a bit down lately that's all, she'll enjoy time with you, im sure " he smiled and put out his fag, so did i, then we headed to the studio.
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It had been a couple of hours in the studio now and i was getting bored and tired, i missed Nora, i hadn't stopped worrying about her since the minute we started, she was home alone, its not even like Alex was there today, Alex had gone back home for the weekend to sought stuff out before permanently moving out here, so at the moment Nora was alone. "Hey guys i forgot to mention, me and Nikki are going out for dinner tonight, was wondering if you wanted to join us, Matt and Nora are coming, so how about it?"

The room went silent. I felt bad for him, he seemed like he really wanted this, it wasn't Brian, it was Nikki, that's why they were cold. "Umm yeah, come on guys, it will be fun" Johnny spoke up, he always saw the bright side in these situations "Okay we're in " Zacky spoke up, i felt kinda happy for Brian, im glad they all agreed "Alright that's it, Brian i guess its the usual place, lets say we will all meet at 7? outside, everyone dress nice and everyone be nice, i mean it" I thought as i felt like the head of our family, i felt it was my place to say this, they all nodded in agreement. We finished our session and all headed home, i texted Nora on the way home to make sure she was still on for tonight. Tonight...ahh well it could be interesting, and there was apart of me that had a feeling this was for a reason, did he need to tell us something, god i hope he hasn't' proposed!

Notes

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